Jimmy the Hand Part 23

Bram halted as he came to the crest of the hills and looked down on Land's End. The city was familiar enough: he'd made several visits. He tried to see it as Lorrie would.

The first thing she'll need is money, he thought.

He grinned, despite his anxiety, and the ache in his legs. He hadn't wasted any time on the journey, and he was more than ready for sleep, not to mention ale and food. She wouldn't get far on the few coppers he'd hidden under the mattress of his bed. While Bram's life savings, he had a short life so far, and by city standards it wasn't much. He suppressed an idle thought: he'd had daydreams about her lying in his bed, right enough, but not in quite that fas.h.i.+on.

He s.h.i.+fted the bow, quiver and rucksack into a slightly less uncomfortable position and strode through the usual throngs to be found on a road so close to the city gate. If he remembered rightly, there were a couple of horse dealers not too far outside the north gate.

'Help you, lad?' the horse-trader said, looking up.

He was standing with a cob's forefoot brought up between his legs, examining the hoof. The st.u.r.dy little horse s.h.i.+fted a little when it thought he was distracted, and began to turn its headprobably thinking of taking a nip at the man's rump. The trader elbowed the flank beside him, and Bram reached out with the stave of his yew bow, rapping it slightly on the nose.

It gave a huge sigh and subsided, and the trader let the hoof down with a dull clomp. 'Thrush,' he said over his shoulder to the cob's owner. 'You should know better than thinking a dip in tar will hide an unsound hoof from me, Ullet Omson. I'll not have him, not even if you treat the thrush and bring him back; not at any price. He's vicious.' The disappointed seller led his animal off and the man turned to Bram. 'And how can I help you?'

'I'm looking for a girl,' Bram said, and then blushed under his ruddy tan as the horse-dealer roared with laughter, looking him up and down.

'Well, I'd say you won't have much trouble, even if your purse is flat,' the man wheezed after a minute, 'for you're a fair-looking lad. But that's not my stock-in-trade. Fillies and mares, but only the hoofed sort. M'name's Kerson, by the way.'

Bram gave his own and shook his hand, and to no surprise found it as strong as his own, or a little more.

'She'll have sold a gelding,' he said. 'Not more than three days since. A farm horse, saddle-broke but more used for plough work, and well past mark of mouth.'

He went on to describe Horace, whose markings he knew like his own: the two families had swapped working stock back and forth all his life.

'Wait a minute!' the trader said. 'Why, yes, I bought the beastbut from a young lad, not a girl. Could he have stolen it?' He frowned.

Well, of course she's pa.s.sing for a boy, idiot! he thought. he thought. She can't be going about countryside and town in your old breeches as a girl in boy's clothing, now can she? She can't be going about countryside and town in your old breeches as a girl in boy's clothing, now can she? 'No, I know that lad,' Bram said. 'No, I know that lad,' Bram said.

The trader shrugged. 'He seemed a nice enough young sprig; pretty as a girl, though, and a few years younger than yourself. Friend of his came out to enquire about the horse just today.'

Friend? Bram thought, cursing himself. Bram thought, cursing himself.

'Overheard the lad who bought the horse talking to a gent who purchased another. Seems the boy is foster-brother to Yardley Heywood's granddaughter and they're staying with her aunt. Anyway, the two of them rode out together about midday, heading north. The lad mentioned that his friend had sold the animal to me...' The trader received a puzzled look from Bram but continued, 'He said the girl who owned the beast originally was also staying with the Heywood girl.' Fixing Bram with a narrow gaze, he asked, 'Are you sure that horse wasn't stolen?'

'Hmm, pretty sure,' answered Bram.

He wondered at who that lad might be and why he'd buy Horace to go riding north, but decided to focus instead on where Lorrie might be. 'Where would I find this young lady, Yardley Heywood's granddaughter?'

The trader gave directions. Bram hurried on into Land's End, his head whirling. He'd expected to find Lorrie lost, or hiding in some cheap inn. And she'd made a friend? A wealthy one, too, from the sound of it. And what of Rip?

Elaine stirred. She was still uncertain of the state in which she dreamed, for she knew she must be dreaming. There had been pain in the dreams at first, but after many awakenings Elaine was able to distance herself from the pain. Never easily; it demanded attention and refused to be tamed, but for a time she could go beyond it and feel it as a distant thing. She endured these times, straining to hear if anyone was nearby. Sometimes she'd make out the croak of a night-bird, or perhaps a distant shout. But otherwise she seemed to be alone.

It puzzled her. She was the Baron's lady and she had just given birth. Where was everyone? Why didn't someone help her? How long had she been like this? And most horrible, was this how she was going to be for the rest of her life?

She knew her body lay unmoving, or at least she suspected that much. So she a.s.sumed she had become trapped in some sort of elaborate dream, but one which had a connection to the waking world.

The pain had been her first conquest, and then had come the terrible thing that had tormented her. Time was difficult to measure: she was certain many hours, even days, had pa.s.sed since she had given birth to her child. Perhaps she was struggling with an illness contacted in childbirth, or a fever that had come after delivery.

Whatever the cause, she had struggled, surfacing to something that resembled consciousness then lapsing into periods of vagueness in which memories floated. Sometimes she experienced images so strong she wondered if they were real, perhaps the sort of prophetic visions some witches or holy women were reputed to have; or perhaps echoes of a distant past, or someone else's memory. Then came the blackness again. Two things were constant, the blackness and the pain.

Between the periods of blackness, Elaine called for help in her mind, raging and shouting and wis.h.i.+ng evil things to happen to her husband who had abandoned her like this. Once she felt something touch her body. The cold touch, the sense of something slimy gliding across her skin, beneath her gown: a violating intimacy, uninvited and repulsive. Yet she could do nothing about it. Was that horrible touch real, or a memory? The fear and outrage that accompanied the sensation was real, for she remembered crying out in silent revulsion, Leave me alone! Leave me alone! And the touch had gone away. Had it returned, or had the next merely been the memory of the first touch? She couldn't tell. And the touch had gone away. Had it returned, or had the next merely been the memory of the first touch? She couldn't tell.

Over time, her mind grew stronger and the fear and revulsion turned to anger and calculation. Occasionally she remembered a conflict, a moment of defiance when she had rejected something that had oppressed her, but she couldn't recall the details. Vile things had been tormenting her and she had somehow attacked them; she conjured up images in her mind of the vile things having bodies and with hands formed by her mind she reached out and gripped them. They tried to flee but she tore at their substance, rending and tearing until they were but shreds and strands that seemed to evaporate into nothingness, leaving behind a lingering cry of pain and fear.

She had sought for something beyond the pain and the cold intruder, as she thought of the evil, slimy touch. Then she had found them, things lurking in the corners of the estate.

She sensed their presence, shocked, fearful, indignant that anything could harm them; they were hiding from her. Soon she would sleep again for she was very tired. But she wanted another, wanted very badly to destroy them all. Yet though they lurked nearby she could find none of them. She must make them come to her. Between periods of darkness, she plotted in her dreams. Lucidity came infrequently, but she realized that if she was dreaming, she could dictate the rules of this dream, and she would have it out with these lurking shadows in her mind.

Elaine pretended to sleep; suppressing all thought, she waited. Eventually one of her enemies came forward to test her and Elaine grabbed it.

She squeezed it and it howled, yanking her this way and that as it tried to flee. Finally it came to some sort of barrier and began to drag itself through. Elaine held on, trying to drag it back so that she could get a better grip on it. But this one was stronger than the first had been and persisted in its struggles. Finally it dragged her right up to the barrier, leaving very little of itself in her imaginary hands.

It was like being pressed against something hot and hard, yet she could feel herself slipping through and gripped the thing in her hands tighter. If she lost her grip she didn't know where she might find herself, but she didn't want to be in worse case than she already was so she held on for dear life.

Suddenly she could see! Elaine was so startled that she released the thing she'd been clinging to. It was daylight, but there were candles all around her bed. Then she felt herself rising, light as dandelion fluff and with no more control; she struggled to stop her ascent and succeeded only in turning over so that she could see below her.

Elaine found herself staring at her own body lying on the bed. Am I dead? Am I dead? she wondered. She had heard tales of people floating over their bodies, seeing mourners or visions of their homes before being taken to Lims-Kragma's Hall of the Dead. Such tales were told by those whom the healing priests had recalled the instant before their transition from life to death. she wondered. She had heard tales of people floating over their bodies, seeing mourners or visions of their homes before being taken to Lims-Kragma's Hall of the Dead. Such tales were told by those whom the healing priests had recalled the instant before their transition from life to death.

Then she saw her chest rise, ever so slowly: but she was breathing! She examined herself closely. She didn't look at all well. Am I dying? Am I dying? She panicked and tried to bring herself closer to her body, waving her arms as though swimming, then realized that she had no physical arms. She had no body around her! The shock of that realization caused an instinctive reaching out, as if trying to grip her own physical being with her spiritual hands. Suddenly, she was back inside her body, back with the pain and the long, slow silence. Her tormentors were gone: she could feel that she was alone again. Then, suddenly, like a candle being snuffed out, awareness was gone. She panicked and tried to bring herself closer to her body, waving her arms as though swimming, then realized that she had no physical arms. She had no body around her! The shock of that realization caused an instinctive reaching out, as if trying to grip her own physical being with her spiritual hands. Suddenly, she was back inside her body, back with the pain and the long, slow silence. Her tormentors were gone: she could feel that she was alone again. Then, suddenly, like a candle being snuffed out, awareness was gone.

When awareness returned she understood; the 'dreams' as she had thought of them were her mind leaving her body, while the waking stages had been her mind being trapped within. She must learn to control this ability, to set her mind free, she decided.

How long it took she did not know but with much concentration, Elaine found that she could leave her body behind and float from room to room, going through walls and floors as though they were made of water.

The manse was dirty and nearly deserted. The few people she found were the kind of mercenary sc.u.m that even her father wouldn't have hired, yet many wore the garb of the household guard.

Her enemies still lingered, but they never came near her any more. Sometimes she seethed at the thought of what they had done to her and hunted for them. At other times she was almost grateful to them, for they had shown her the way out of the darkness and the pain. Mostly she wanted to see them, to find out what they were. Then she'd decide what to do about them. Were they supernatural beings? Or ghosts? Or agents of some other power?

Where is my baby? she wondered suddenly. Then was amazed that the thought hadn't occurred to her before. How could she forget her only child? Her little boy. She must find him. she wondered suddenly. Then was amazed that the thought hadn't occurred to her before. How could she forget her only child? Her little boy. She must find him.

But it was too late, she could feel herself being pulled back. Elaine didn't even fight any more, she knew there was nothing she could do to stop it. At least she didn't have to be there all the time. Before she was sucked back into her ailing body, she saw that the candles had burned down quite a bit.

When next she woke she heard the voices of children! A girl's voice echoed in the distance, calling to her. At once Elaine found herself in the corridor and for the first time in a long time sensed the presence of those horrors who had abused her so. She called out, This way! This way! Round the corner of the hallway came a small group of children, two girls and two boys. They looked exhausted as well as frightened. Round the corner of the hallway came a small group of children, two girls and two boys. They looked exhausted as well as frightened.

Hovering over them, Elaine saw her enemies for the first time. They looked like tendrils of black smoke, writhing and twining in and out of a central blackness, and they projected fear and an icy cold.

This way, she called again, pointing toward the door of her chambers. Over and over she shouted to them. At last one of the girls seemed to understand, leading them to her door. They piled into her room and slammed the door shut behind them. she called again, pointing toward the door of her chambers. Over and over she shouted to them. At last one of the girls seemed to understand, leading them to her door. They piled into her room and slammed the door shut behind them.

Elaine swept toward the black cloud furiously, s.n.a.t.c.hing at one of its tendrils. It pulled back, retreating slightly, keeping just close enough to tease. Rather than waste her energy, Elaine went back to her room and hovered protectively over the children, pleased by their presence, delighted by the littlest one; he was perhaps seven or eight years of age, and despite being very frightened, he carried himself well.

She sensed her enemy lurking in the corridor, but it did not attempt to enter. It was only then that she saw the warding on her walls, traceries of light, of command, of this-shall-not-change. Perhaps someone had heard her pleas for aid after all.

As she listened to the children talk she found that they were desperate to escape. It saddened her that they found her as terrifying as the ent.i.ty in the corridor, but she supposed she couldn't blame them. If only I could help the poor little things If only I could help the poor little things. Elaine peered into the corridor; the thing snickered at her and she withdrew.

As she looked around her room she sensed an older warding and sought it out. She went through the wall and rediscovered the hidden pa.s.sageway there. Her husband had shown it to her the day he installed her in these rooms. 'They go all through the manse,' he'd said.

She saw the youngest boy staring at that wall, and something in his eyes told her he was on the verge of understanding. She spoke to the girl who had led the others to her rooms, telling her about the pa.s.sageway, telling her the key was in the sculpture on the wall. Soon she could see that she was listening. She got up and went to the carving, testing all the little projections until she found the right one. Oh, bright child! Oh, bright child! she thought. she thought.

Then she was out of time again, being drawn back to her body. She might never find out how this ended and was frustrated indeed. She wished she could wake up for good.

When she next awoke, Elaine wondered about the children, especially the girl who seemed to hear her. As she pictured her she suddenly found herself beside her. This had happened before, but she had no control over it. She would think of some person or place and find herself there, but only within the confines of the manse. She'd never yet been able to even enter the rose garden. But she did have access to everywhere and everyone inside the house. Except for Bernarr. When she thought of him she found herself in the presence of a much older man. An uncle or cousin, she'd a.s.sumed, since she knew his father was deceased.

She didn't really mind that he never came here any more; she hadn't loved him and she didn't miss him. But she did want to see her baby and her little one must surely be with the Baron. She sighed and the candle one of the boys was holding flickered.

'Be careful!' the oldest girl almost cried, her voice sounding very loud in the pa.s.sage.

The younger girl, the one who sometimes could hear Elaine, whimpered, but was bravely holding back her tears.

Elaine's heart melted for her. They were all covered with streaks of dust and looked exhausted and the food-sack tied to the older girl's belt looked sadly empty. Poor little things Poor little things, she thought. They needed a refuge, but her rooms her rooms wouldn't do. She frightened them, and the old man who looked like Bernarr slept there. wouldn't do. She frightened them, and the old man who looked like Bernarr slept there.

''S'not my fault! There's draughts,' the boy holding the candle said, his youthful anger at being blamed for something he didn't do overriding caution and the need for quiet.

The others said nothing but watched the stub of the candle anxiously. It was plain they were afraid of being left in the dark.

Elaine remembered a place they could hide that should do very well. Bernarr had brought her there just after she'd arrived. 'It is warded so that when you wish to be private no one will bother you here.' He'd smiled proudly. 'It shall be your own sanctuary.' She'd felt no need at all for such a place, but he'd been so proud of his gift that she'd smiled and leaned up to kiss his cheek, a kiss he'd claimed with his lips.

'Come with me,' she whispered to the girl who seemed to hear her. 'I know a place where you'll be safe.'

Neesa stood up, looking down the dark pa.s.sageway. Her crying stopped and she smiled.

'What is it?' Mandy hissed; her eyes glittered in the candlelight as she tried to look in every direction at once.

'Let's go this way,' Neesa said like someone in a dream. 'It's the right way.' She walked off.

Kay and Mandy looked at one another, but Rip pushed himself to his feet and started after Neesa. 'C'mon,' he said impatiently.

Mandy got up and followed. 'You coming?' she threw over her shoulder at Kay.

Rip was moving carefully so as not to put out the candle, their only source of light. 'Wait!' he said to Neesa and his breath blew it out.

Mandy gasped and Kay cried out in fear.

'Don't make noise!' Rip admonished. 'I'm in front of you. Hold hands! We've got to stay together.'

'It's your fault!' Kay snapped.

'It doesn't matter,' Rip said tiredly, 'it was going out anyway. Be careful! Right, everybody here?'

'Yeah,' Kay muttered, fear reducing his voice to a hoa.r.s.e whisper.

'Then let's go,' Rip said. 'Every time Neesa's had this feeling it's led us somewhere safe.'

'I wouldn't call this safe,' Kay sneered.

'It's safer than the halls,' Rip reminded him, 'or the room we were locked in.'

'We can't get out!' the other boy shouted.

'Shhh!' Mandy said. 'We couldn't get out before either. Unless you've got a better idea put a stopper in it, Kay.'

They were silent then, moving carefully in the pitch-darkness. They slipped down corridors so narrow they had to turn sideways and went up and down stairs both narrow and creaky until at last Neesa brought them to a halt.

'Here,' she said softly.

The others stood still and listened to the sound of her apparently patting the walls. There was a m.u.f.fled click and they all flinched as a narrow crack let in a blinding light. Then Neesa impulsively pushed open the panel and led them through. She squealed with delight at what she found.

Though everything was covered with dust and the air was stale from long disuse, the room was undeniably cosy, and well lit from a high window.

'We won't run out of candles here,' Mandy said, smiling.

Everywhere they looked there were candlestands with branches of candles in them. There was a full scuttle of sea-coal as well. Plumply cus.h.i.+oned chairs and sofas abounded and there was a feeling of peace about the place.

'Now all we need is something to eat,' Kay said. 'And water. Got any feelings about that?'

Rip raised one eyebrow and was immediately pleased with himself for having done so for the first time. So instead of getting annoyed at the other boy's att.i.tude he thought about the question. 'Yes,' he decided. He picked up the empty sack and looked at Kay. 'Want to come?'

For an answer Kay plucked two candles from a stand and lit them from the strikebox. He wasn't about to refuse to do something the younger boy was willing to try.