The Memoirs of Cleopatra Part 17

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He thought for a moment. "I will marry you according to Egyptian rites," he finally said. "You will be my wife--everyplace but Rome. Because--"

"Yes, I know. Roman law does not recognize foreign marriages."

But laws are made by men; and the only things built by men that so far have proved immutable are the pyramids.

The heat began to lessen; I could feel it release its grip on us. The colors outside began to change; the stark white was replaced by a honeyed tinge on the limestone, and this gradually faded to a rich golden amber, so sweet a color that it made gold seem gaudy by comparison. Behind the monuments the sky had turned a tender shade of violet-blue, with long fingers of purple clouds stretched out to welcome the setting sun home. The sun would go down behind the pyramids, lighting them from behind for a while.

The smell of heated stone beginning to cool came to me on the evening breeze that had sprung up. Soon darkness would fall; we must make our way back to the boat.

"Come," I said, rising.

"No. I want to stay," said Caesar. "We would not sail at night anyway. The moon is nearly full. Why hurry away?"

Because . . . because the desert changes at night, I thought.

"You are not afraid?" he asked in a low voice.

"No," I had to say. And I was not afraid so much as uneasy. I did not wish to lie so close to the monuments of the dead, to a city of the dead. Traditionally, this side of the Nile was deserted by the living after the sun had gone beneath the earth each night.

They had enlarged the pavilion for us, made it into a proper tent. Now we could lie down and stretch out; now there were cus.h.i.+ons and refreshments at hand. But after the servants had arranged all these things, Caesar ordered them to leave. We were to be completely alone.

"Something we have never been," he said. "One gets used to being always in the company of others, but it colors everything."

Caesar all to myself! Caesar alone! How many other people would have paid exorbitant sums to change places with me? They would have had pet.i.tions for him, supplications, bribes . . . possibly even poison or a dagger. He must have trusted me completely.

The only thing I wished from him was to let the hours stretch out unbroken between us for a little while.

Darkness falls swiftly on the desert. There is little twilight. One moment the pyramids and Sphinx were rounded, whole, emitting a sort of light of their own, as if they had stored it up during the long day; the next they faded out against the sky.

"But there is a moon rising," Caesar said. "Soon there will be light enough."

A gigantic, swollen moon was struggling on the horizon. Its face was still pale and dreamy-colored. It would throw off the clouds clinging to it, then shrink, yet grow brighter at the same time.

The sands were blue-white and the moon so bright we could see every line in our hands, could see the fibers in the ropes anchoring the tent. The pyramids were sharp-peaked, casting vast shadows on the sands behind them. The eye sockets of the Sphinx were empty black pools.

It had grown surprisingly chilly; we pulled our mantles around us. I could hear, not so far away, a pack of hyenas yowling.

I had thought we would talk, speak at last of all that was within us. Instead, silence reigned. It must have been past midnight before Caesar finally said, "Now I have seen six of the seven wonders of the world."

How many places he had been! And I had gone nowhere, had seen nothing outside Egypt. "Tell me of them," I said.

"There is no need for me to describe the Lighthouse of Alexandria," he said. "But for the others, quickly: the Colossus of Rhodes has fallen, but you can still see the bronze pieces; the great Temple of Artemis in Ephesus is so vast you can get lost in it; and I can never think of Zeus as looking any different from the statue at Olympia. But the one wonder I have never seen is the one I am determined to conquer for myself: the Hanging Gardens of Babylon."

"Are they even real?" I asked. "Has anyone seen them for hundreds of years?"

"Alexander has."

"Always Alexander."

"He died there in Babylon. Perhaps his last sight was of them, outside his window. In any case, I intend to conquer Parthia, and when I take Babylon, my reward will be to visit the sacred place where Alexander died, and to see the Hanging Gardens."

"Can you trust me enough to reveal your intentions? Have you a plan for this conquest, or is it still unformed?"

"Come." He pulled me up from the cus.h.i.+on. "Let us walk outside." He carefully arranged the warm mantle around my shoulders.

I had to squint, so bright was the light. Everything under the moonlight looked different, sharp and cold and hard against the inky sky.

"I have been cut off from the outside world since first I landed in Egypt," he said. "In truth, I should be even now on my way back to Rome. I linger here because"--he shook his head--"I seem to be under some sort of spell." When I laughed, he said, "If you knew me better, you would know how out of character it is for me to dally like this. Work calls. Duty calls. But here I am--on the desert at night with the Queen of Egypt, far from Rome, and going farther and farther toward Africa every day. I shall have to answer for it to my enemies, who will doubtless make the most of it."

"Then you should make the most of it as well," I said. "I hope the monuments are worth it."

I waited for him to say, It is more than the monuments is more than the monuments, but he only gave a sort of grunt.

I felt him hesitate, then stumble. He pitched forward, and fell stiffly to his knees, before sprawling out, and making a choking sound. It happened so quickly that I had no chance to say a word or react. He lay on the ground, and his limbs thrashed and stiffened as if he were in the most excruciating pain. But he was silent, except for that one first cry.

I fell to my knees beside him, frantic. What had happened? Had someone been lurking behind a rock, and thrown a dagger? Had a serpent struck, darting out from a rock underfoot? Had he been poisoned by a secret enemy who had had access to his food earlier in the day?

With all my strength, I pushed his shoulders and turned him over. He was limp, like a--a dead body. His face was covered with sand where he had fallen facedown. My heart was racing so fast I could hardly think; I was confused; only when I put my hand on his chest could I feel that he was still breathing.

"O G.o.ds!" I cried. "Save him, save him, what have you done to him?" I moaned like one of the hyenas. He could not die, he could not, he could not leave me. It was impossible for Caesar to die so easily, so suddenly.

He groaned, and stirred. I felt his flaccid limbs begin to fill with life again. His breathing was rough and strained. I brushed the sand from his lips and nose. It was all I could think of to do--a useless little gesture. I kept brus.h.i.+ng it off, getting it off his forehead, blowing it out of his ears.

Finally his lips parted and he murmured, "So now you know."

"Know what?"

"That I have--that I am afflicted with--the falling sickness." He struggled to sit up, but his arms would not quite obey him. "It has struck me . . . just in this last year. I never know when ... it will come. I see a flash of light, there are sounds--and then weakness and falling."

"Do you--see anything in the flashes of light?"

"Do the G.o.ds speak to me, you mean? No. Or if they do, they allow me so little time to hear them before I lose consciousness that when I wake up . . . I know no more than before." He was unable to speak anymore; he had exhausted his little store of strength. He fell immediately into a profound sleep. There was nothing I could do but stay with him out on the bleak, silvery desert while the moon stared down at the fallen general. I took off off my cloak and covered him; then, cold myself, I crawled under it and lay s.h.i.+vering beside him. my cloak and covered him; then, cold myself, I crawled under it and lay s.h.i.+vering beside him.

It was still dark, although the moon was now behind the pyramids, making them huge black triangles, when Caesar stirred and was taken with a violent fit of s.h.i.+vering. He shook himself awake, and frightened me. What was happening? Was this a second, fiercer attack? I flung myself on him, trying to stop the shaking.

"I am freezing," he muttered. "Where am I?" He looked up at the night sky, pierced all over with stars. He rolled over, feeling for the stones that had been cutting into his back.

He remembered nothing! I marveled at it. Yet he seemed himself again.

"You were taken . . . ill," I said. "It was necessary to rest here. Come, can you walk? The tent will have a pallet--more comfortable than this unyielding ground."

Slowly he sat up, then pulled himself to his feet. His legs were quivering. He put one in front of the other and began walking stiffly to the tent.

Once inside, he crawled onto the pallet and once again was immediately asleep. I heard him breathing softly, and each breath seemed like a miracle.

I could see the hard shadows grow longer and longer outside and then fade away as the sky lightened. I had not slept at all.

The sun was up. At any moment, servants would be coming to get us. I dared not wake him until he was ready, yet I did not wish anyone else to see him like this and know what had happened. Stay away! I begged them in my mind. I knew the captain would want to get under sail early.

My thoughts must have had power of their own, for Caesar awoke. He flinched a little at the bright light coming in the tent, and s.h.i.+elded his eyes. He groaned like a man who has had too much to drink--but no more than that.

"I feel dreadful," he said simply. "I am sorry you had to witness this."

"Who better than I?" I said. "But I was frightened--I did not expect it, and I did not know what to do."

"There is nothing to do," he said, and his voice sounded half disgusted and half resigned. "Someday I will hit my head on a stone or a metal statue, and that will be the end of it. Desert sand is more forgiving than marble or bronze. This time I was lucky."

"Has this ever happened during a--a battle?" It was a terrible affliction for a soldier.

"No. Not yet." He shook his head. "I must hide the evidence before someone comes. Is there water here?"

I brought over the pitcher and poured some into a bowl. "Here, you must let me help you." I washed the dirt off his face, revealing the bruises and scratches underneath. "We must pretend we have had a fight," I said lightly.

"Greetings, O mighty rulers!" a cheerful voice announced itself outside the tent.

He was quiet that day, but the only change in him anyone could have observed was that he sat more than usual, watching the journey from a seat under the shaded pavilion, rather than standing at the rail. Once during the day he turned to me and looked at me so searchingly I knew all the memory had returned to him, and that he was grateful for what I had done to help. I was glad he had remembered. Now he would understand my love for him.

It took us twenty days to sail as far upriver as Thebes. All the way,, people lined the riverbanks, straining to catch a glimpse of these modern Pharaohs who were sailing in state, followed by a great flotilla of boats. The wind lifted our cloaks, and we gave royal acknowledgment to our onlookers with a wave of our hands. Caesar, now fully recovered, took it all in: the adulation, the yearning of the people for a G.o.d. Isis! Isis! they called to me as we floated past. they called to me as we floated past. Amun! Amun! they saluted him, and he allowed them to do so. they saluted him, and he allowed them to do so.

After thirty-five days we reached the first cataract of the Nile, Aswan, the end of our journey. Here it proved impossible to drag the enormous barge overland to avoid the treacherous rocks in the river's channel, and so we had to stop. Caesar had seen Egypt from north to south. But his soldiers were growing restless and uneasy on this journey farther and farther south, along what looked to be a never-ending highway of water, into the heart of Africa. And as it became hotter and hotter, one late afternoon, when the sun's rays were especially burning, Caesar beckoned to an attendant to fan him with the ostrich-feather fan.

"I yield," he said to me with a smile. "I capitulate. Here, in your land, for your climate, I admit that your fans are superior."

Did he remember his wager? Should I remind him? But this should mean more to him than just. A wager.

"Show me the Temple of Philae," he said. "Have a priest ready."

So it was that I first entered the temple that came to mean more to me than any other. Your home, O Isis, on that island sanctuary where the most devoted rites are held, and pilgrims from all over Egypt and Nubia come to wors.h.i.+p you. I had heard it was beautiful, but I was unprepared for its white, ivorylike purity, its perfect proportions of marble and graceful carvings. Across on its sister island lies the shrine of Osiris, and like a faithful wife, every ten days you, in the form of your statue, make the journey across the waters to visit him. What more fitting place for a wedding than at your very feet? Your statue, all overlaid with gold, watched over us as Caesar took my hand and said the words that const.i.tuted marriage under the rites of Isis. He repeated the words after the priest in a whisper, in the Egyptian tongue.

Afterward he said, "I don't have the slightest idea what I just promised."

"You promised to bind yourself to me in marriage, on your honor to Isis."

"Very well," he said with nonchalance. "Caesar always keeps his promises."

I was stabbed with disappointment and hurt; he acted as if he had just purchased a handful of dates in the market, and it was all the same to him whether they should be edible or not. It was just a game to him, or something to satisfy a child. But he had made marriage vows, and there were witnesses to the ceremony.

On our journey back to Alexandria, it was formally announced at Thebes and Memphis: The G.o.d Amun, in his incarnation as Julius Caesar, and the G.o.ddess Isis, his wife, in the incarnation of Queen Cleopatra, were going to bring forth a royal, divine child. It had to be announced, as my pregnancy was now obvious. At Hermonthis, construction began on a birth-house that would commemorate the royal birth and make clear his parentage. Amun's face bore an exact resemblance to Caesar's.

He seemed amused, pleased, even. But now that he was my "husband," I felt farther from him than before. It was as if the ceremony had separated us rather than uniting us, and made us awkward together. I think it was because neither of us really knew what it meant, and we were each afraid to ask the other. I did not want to hear him say, I did it for fun, as part of my forfeit, I did it for fun, as part of my forfeit, and he*did not want to hear me say, and he*did not want to hear me say, Now you must announce this at Rome, and divorce Calpurnia. Now you must announce this at Rome, and divorce Calpurnia. As long as neither of us mentioned it, we could live as before. As long as neither of us mentioned it, we could live as before.

In vain on the return journey I longed for him to tell me he loved me, and considered me in some fas.h.i.+on his wife. He was jolly, entertaining, light-hearted. He was a pa.s.sionate lover, an attentive listener. But he never alluded to the brief ceremony at Philae, and I did not dare do so, as the boat came closer and closer to Alexandria.

Chapter 15.

We halted at Memphis, and anch.o.r.ed the s.h.i.+ps across the waters from the white walls of the city and the groves of sycamores that threw their flat shade on the procession way. As we approached it, and I saw the stepped pyramid of Saqqara rearing its head, I felt oppression overtaking me. We were reentering the world of politics, commerce, wars, and alliances, leaving behind the realm of G.o.ds, temples, and mysteries. The only flicker of worldly matters that had interfered with our idyll had been Caesar's interest in Coptos on our homeward journey. He had wished to know more about the India trade routes that pa.s.sed that way. When he had mentioned India, the covetous look had pa.s.sed over his face again. But the intrusion had been brief.

Now, however, Memphis sat on the border of the wider world for us, a world that would reclaim Caesar--I knew it. And before we had properly set the anchors and aligned the s.h.i.+p, a smaller vessel full of Romans was paddling furiously out to us.

"Caesar!" cried an officer I recognized, Rufio, whom Caesar had left guarding Alexandria. "Caesar!"

Never one to hide in his cabin or dismiss business, Caesar waved to him enthusiastically. I almost hated him for that; it made him seem the slave of someone else's urgencies. (Since then I have been accused of having the "eastern vice" for not respecting time or messengers. I do--but at my convenience, not theirs.) Rufio was soon on board, and Caesar was greeting him like a long-lost brother.

"How black you are burnt, Caesar!" cried Rufio. "Has the sun turned you into a Nubian?" He cast an eye toward the ostrich-fan bearers in obvious disapproval.

Caesar laughed and said, "I have seen much and gone many miles, but I am still Caesar, under this sunburn." Then the dreaded question. "What news?"

Rufio pulled out a sheaf of papers and waved them at Caesar, who pushed them aside. "No, tell me yourself. It is quicker. Alexandria?"

"Alexandria is quiet. No more fight in them. But in Pontus--King Pharnaces has overrun your general Calvinus, taken the Roman province, and slaughtered or castrated ail the Roman merchants and citizens. He a.s.sumes he can get away with this because you are too . . . preoccupied."

"Calvinus! He sent his Thirty-seventh Legion to us here--and left himself unprotected." Caesar's good-natured mien faded. "He must be avenged."

"You have a full platter of wrongs to avenge, then." Now Rufio seemed apologetic at having to heap them all up. "The reports we have received from the west of Alexandria is that the remainders of the forces of Pompey, including his sons, are gathering along the sh.o.r.es of North Africa, trafficking with King Juba of Numidia." " "The only question, then, is which one I must address myself to first."

"Precisely." Only then did Rufio take any notice of me, standing near Caesar. "Greetings to you, most exalted Queen."

"I am always pleased to see you, Rufio, but your news is not as welcome as you are." It was true, I had always liked Rufio. He was a freedman's son, with a broad, toadlike face, but pleasant nonetheless. It is a mystery to me what makes one person more inherently appealing company than another.

"Will the world never be a quiet place?" barked Caesar, as if, momentarily, the constant tasks were too much even for him. He sounded worn out, even after six weeks of rest.

"Not much longer, my dearest," I a.s.sured him. "In only a little while, when you return to Rome--"

"Rome is a mess," said Rufio bluntly.

Caesar started. "Here, come below to our stateroom," he said. "These are not matters we can discuss in pa.s.sing on deck." He turned on his heel and expected us to follow.

He made his way down the ebony-trimmed steps and into the great chamber in the midsection of the s.h.i.+p, where he and I had consulted with the captain, studied maps and ma.n.u.scripts relating to our journey, and held conferences with the accompanying Roman officers every so often. He sat on the edge of a long table of polished cypress wood, one of his legs dangling.

"Now," he said.

I pulled up a gilded chair and indicated that Rufio should do likewise. "There are are chairs," I said pointedly to Caesar. "Or are you already in a war camp?" chairs," I said pointedly to Caesar. "Or are you already in a war camp?"

He grabbed one and jerked it up to the table.

"What of Rome?" he asked in that low voice, full of menace and tension. I had almost forgotten it on the trip.

"It is all in disarray," said Rufio. "There have been no leaders there since you pa.s.sed through it a year and a half ago. Your lieutenant Marc Antony may be a good fighting man, but as a political deputy, he seems in water beyond his depth. There has been fighting in the Forum, Antony's men against Dolabella's mob, with eight hundred killed. There's also a mutiny of your veterans in the Italian countryside. They say they haven't had their promised rewards."

"Anything more?" asked Caesar.

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