I Was Reincarnated Chapter 23

The deeply Jealous, Foolish me

Rune side

(……nn?)

As I woke up s.h.i.+n-sama who should be beside me wasn't there

(Where did he go?)

Having not yet slept enough, I rubbed my eyes as I got up

The time when s.h.i.+n-sama is up is short

Even though he slept that much, he quickly went off to sleep again

Since he said to sleep in the room I'd been given, but if I did I wouldn't be able to sleep together with him like this

However since s.h.i.+n-sama is gentle, if Rau or I feel lonely, he won't strongly refuse us

Today we even went into the bath together

Moreover, he once again let me dry his hair

Even though with s.h.i.+n-sama's power it should be easy for him to dry his hair

Even though while was.h.i.+ng it it was short, he restored the length especially for me

I'm seriously glad that s.h.i.+n-sama is so gentle to me

Since a lot of new people were bought, I was a bit worried

If someone he was interested in appeared, won't I be cast aside…..

However, receiving such special treatment I felt relieved

I can only rely on s.h.i.+n-sama

If he casts me aside, I honestly won't be able to continue

(Where did he go?)

Even though I waited, s.h.i.+n-sama didn't return

Even though he's the type of person to immediately go sleep when he has free time…..

(Did he go to the garden?)

He said he bought them in order to watch how they lived

However it's the middle of the night, shouldn't everyone be asleep?

(Should I go look?)

When s.h.i.+n-sama isn't there I can't calm down

Although I understand he isn't a person who would leave us behind and disappear, my uneasiness won't disappear

I leave Rau who is sound asleep and go out

(Hm? Not here….)

I peeked my face outside the castle, but s.h.i.+n-sama wasn't there

It seems everyone is fast asleep, I can't hear any voices either

(Where is he? Inside the castle?)

Since he told me not to go into other rooms, the places I can go to are limited

The dining room and my room, I can also go to the courtyard, but no matter where I look he's not there

(Is he in a different room? Or else, is he outside?)

If that's the case, where did he go out to?

For a stroll?

(I wish he'd taken me along)

No, he said that knight put out a proclamation, so could he not bring me?

The knight, was scary

I once again returned back to the room

In the bed is only Rau, it seems s.h.i.+n-sama hasn't returned yet

(I can't sleep)

My eyes stayed open

Since s.h.i.+n-sama embraced me, it seems I became someone who easily succ.u.mbs to loneliness

In addition to that, being embraced like today the next day I have too many lonely thoughts

Although the previous time we were continuously together……

Though s.h.i.+n-sama was just sleeping

(Should I go get some water to drink?)

I once again went downstairs

I opened the dining room door―

And I froze without thinking

s.h.i.+n-sama was together with Dea

Moreover, he was patting his head (TN: Cheater! heh)

I instinctively stepped back and made a sound when I b.u.mped into the door

The two turned this way

I feel like I saw something I shouldn't have, and was suddenly uncomfortable

"Rune, what's wrong?"

s.h.i.+n-sama was like normal

That, for some reason or another, was painful

"…..Since s.h.i.+n-sama wasn't here……"

It seems I was a fool to spend all that time searching

He was wearing a veil and gaudy clothes, it seems he went out

And with Dea

(Did he prefer Dea?…..not me)

I can't say something like 'I don't like it'

Although I am s.h.i.+n-sama's thing, s.h.i.+n-sama is not mine

For me, I don't have the right to criticize s.h.i.+n-sama's actions

…..However, seeing s.h.i.+n-sama together with someone else is unpleasant

"Return to the room, Dea too hurry and go sleep, okay?"

(No, stop it…..)

He put his hand on Dea's head, and I can't look straight at them

s.h.i.+n-sama walked towards me and grabbed my arm, the next moment we teleported to s.h.i.+n-sama's room

"Change to pajamas"

His clothes changed to something simpler and the veil disappeared

"……the middle of the night like this, where did you go?"

With Dea, just the two of you…..

When did you two get that close?

Is it because I'm too childish and you've lost interest in me?

Such things were turning round and round in my head

Since I'm not s.h.i.+n-sama's lover I don't have the qualifications to think such things

s.h.i.+n-sama stared at me

(Does he think I'm annoying?)

I know he dislikes troublesome things

Am I hated?

"Jealous, huh, Rune is cute"

…..he pat my head

Is he not angry?

Is he only treating me as a child?

When I timidly look up at him, I see his smiling face

"Saying such a cute thing, shall I embrace you?"

(Eh!?)

Is he serious?

"…..Rau, is here….."

As one would expect I'm reluctant to do that in the presence of Rau

Although doing it in front of anyone would be unpleasant

"Then, another time"

Holding me in his arms he got into bed and went to sleep

s.h.i.+n-sama always sleeps face up, but today he slept while holding me in his arms

After embracing me he'd sleep while holding me in his arms, but this is the first time he's done so without doing that first

Even though I'm relieved, I want to cry

Since my feelings are one sided

To Rau I said since he's a demon G.o.d he can't marry anyone, but even if s.h.i.+n-sama wasn't a demon G.o.d I don't think he'd love

He'd only have pa.s.sing interest in people he cares about

It's probably for this reason that his previous existence was stabbed

(What sort of intentions did he have embracing me?)

He called me 'cute', but I don't understand what he was saying that about

I am a man, and an adult

There is not even a fragment of cuteness

Is it stupidity that I came to like a person who does not want it, is it just laughable?

Without thinking anything, is it strange for me to yearn for it?

Even though beastmen are called warriors, am I, a timid person who clings to s.h.i.+n-sama, ridiculous?

It steadily becomes difficult to think

I am not a guy needed by s.h.i.+n-sama

That, is sad

Such an I, is jealous, I can only think it laughable

However, I cannot stop the jealousy

―Since I like s.h.i.+n-sama

"Dea's precious thing, we just went to recover it, it seems it was taken when he was captured by humans"

While holding me close he pat my head

It seems like he is coaxing an unreasonable child…..

(It's not because he is interested in Dea?)

Even if that's the case, I can't say anything though

A short time later, I could hear even breathing from s.h.i.+n-sama

It seems he's already asleep

Even though I am wrapped in s.h.i.+n-sama's arms I spent the night sleeplessly

Rune side end

TN: poor Rune, always so conflicted, worrying, but his worries seem rather legitimate….