Ash: The Lost History Part 39

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"a.s.shole!" Thomas Rochester said.

G.o.dfrey Maximillian pulled at Ash's arm. "Let's leave."

She resisted the priest's force without effort, without looking at him. Studying the closed expression of Sancho Lebrija, and Lamb's malice, she murmured, "No. I am going to talk to del Guiz. I've got things to say to this man!"

"Child, no."

She removed her arm from G.o.dfrey's grip, casually, and indicated an area of the antechamber a few paces away. "Step into my office, husband. Thomas, Euen, you know what to do."



She crossed the flagstones, and waited in an area where red and blue light from the stained-gla.s.s windows dappled the floor, under hanging battle standards from old Burgundian wars against France. It took her far enough away to put her out of earshot of the Visigoth delegation, and of Duke Charles's guard.

And it's public enough that any harm he tries to do me will be instantly seen - but, sadly, that works both ways.

She busied herself removing her gloves, rested the palm of her left hand on the pommel of her sword, and waited.

He left Lebrija and approached, alone, boots clicking on the worn, chequered tiles. The echo hissed back from the walls. The early evening heat might have accounted for the sweat on his face.

"So," Ash prodded. "What do you want to say to me?"

"Me?" Fernando del Guiz gazed down at her. "I don't think this was my idea at all!"

"Stop wasting my time."

All her authority was in her tone, although she was quite unconscious of it. She was only aware that he blinked, startled; glanced back over his shoulder at Lebrija; and finally spoke: "This is awkward ..."

"'Awkward'!"

Unexpectedly, Fernando reached out and put his hand on her arm. Ash looked down at his blunt, square-cut nails; the texture of his skin; the faint blond hairs at his wrist.

"Let's talk this over somewhere else. Alone." Fernando's hand came up, brus.h.i.+ng her cheek.

"And do what?" Ash reached up and put her hand over his. Meaning to move it away, she found herself holding his hand, wrapping his strong fingers around hers. The warmth of it was so welcome, she did not immediately let go. "What, Fernando?"

He lowered his voice, uncomfortably watching her priest and her men-at-arms. "We'll just talk. I won't do anything you don't want me to do."

"Yes, I think I've heard that one before."

Looking into his face, she thought she could see the young man still there -the young n.o.ble, riding to hawk and to hounds, golden and glorious among his wide affinity of friends, never needing to work out whether he could afford this wine or that horse, not ever needing to choose between shoeing his horse and shoes for his own feet. A little road-worn, now, but still the golden boy.

Her fingers still clasped his. The warmth of them made her hands shake. She opened her hand and drew it away, feeling cold. Absently, she put her hand to her face, breathing in the particular scent of him.

"Oh, come on." Ash's lips pressed together, in extreme scepticism. A quiver went through her belly. She was genuinely unsure whether it was l.u.s.t, or plain nausea. "Fernando - I don't believe this. Are you trying to seduce me?"

"Yes."

"Why?"

"Because it's easier."

Ash opened her mouth, found she had no words, and stood for a count of ten staring at his face. Outrage hit. "Are you - what do you mean, 'because it's easier'? Easier than what?"

"Refusing the Faris and her officers." All the humour faded from his expression; perhaps it had been no more than momentary. "Even when they say a good f.u.c.k might get you into their hands again, so why don't I go give it to you?"

"'A good f.u.c.k-!'" Ash bellowed.

Across the floor, Agnus Dei put a restraining hand on Sancho Lebrija's arm, both men scowling; this shouted row obviously reaching them, obviously not what either of them expected to hear. Ash glimpsed G.o.dfrey take a few steps forward, staring at her, his face drained and pale.

"Seduce me?" she repeated. "Fernando . . . That's ridiculous!"

"Okay. So it is. So what do you suggest I do, with half a dozen sword-happy maniacs watching every word I say to you?" He stood half a head taller than she did, looking down at her, a young man in foreign armour. "At the moment, thanks to you, I'm the Faris's pimp. The least you can do is not laugh at me."

"Wh-" Ash ran out of breath and the impetus to speak. Something in his appalling honesty touched her, despite herself. "The Faris's pimp?"

"I don't want to be here!" Fernando shouted. "All I want is to go back to Guizburg, stay there, stay in the castle, and not come out until this f.u.c.king lunatic war is over. But they married me to you, didn't they? And you turn out to be some relative of the Faris. So who do they think knows all about the mercenary commander Ash? Me. Who do they think is an influence on you? Me." He drew a gasping breath. "I don't care about politics. I don't want to be in the Faris's affinity. I don't want to be at the Visigoth court. I don't want to be here. But because they think I'm a source of information on you, here I am! And all I want is to f.u.c.king go back to Bavaria!"

He finished, panting; little white dots of spittle at the corners of his mouth. Ash realised he had spoken in German, that both Lebrija and Lamb were looking puzzled now at the rapid, slurred, foreign speech.

"Jesus Christ," she said. "I'm impressed."

"I'm only here because of you!"

The contempt and fury in his tone made Euen Huw and Thomas Rochester both reach for their sword-hilts, and watch Ash out of the corners of their eyes, to see if she would let him get away with it. She noted G.o.dfrey's hands, almost hidden in his robes, whitening into fists.

"I thought you wanted to be well in with the Faris," she said mildly. "Making a place for yourself in the Visigoth court. I thought that was why you got me knocked on the head at Basle."

Ignoring that, he spluttered, "I don't want a place at court!"

Ash's tone became acid-edged with sarcasm. "Yeah, that's why you're in Guizburg now, not standing in front of me! Like you're not here with Lebrija for political advantage, or reward, or promotion."

Catching his breath, Fernando glared down at her. "I'll tell you exactly why I'm here. The Faris would happily have stuck my head on a spear, as an encouragement to any other minor German n.o.bles. She didn't because I took one look at her, and told her that she had a double."

"You told her."

"I suppose having a b.a.s.t.a.r.d Visigoth wife is mildly better than having a French soldier-b.i.t.c.h."

"You told her?"

"You think I'm some knight out of the chronicles. I'm not. I've had men pointing spears at me, and I know it: I'm just another man with legal t.i.tle to a few acres of land, and a few men wearing eagles on their clothes, and that's it. Nothing remarkable. Nothing valuable. No different from any other man they've butchered in Genoa or Ma.r.s.eilles or wherever."

She looked at him, seeing in his face some echo of that split-second of trauma. "Roberto said you were some d.a.m.ned stupid young knight with ideas of death-or-glory. He was wrong, though, wasn't he? You took one look at glory and decided you'd save your own skin!"

Fernando del Guiz stared. "Sweet Jesu. You're ashamed of me."

It was a distinct glint of humour. His tone was self-mocking.

"You wouldn't say this to your friend Lamb. Or did you? Did you say to him, why didn't you fight off the Visigoths at Genoa, there were two hundred of you and only thirty thousand of them?"

Her mind squirrelled away the figure of thirty thousand men without conscious thought. Her face reddened. She said, "Lamb negotiated a condotta. That's what he does. That's what I do. You just shat yourself and threw yourself on their mercy-"

He put his hand on the shoulder of her brigandine. Her hand clenched, to knock him away. She felt herself shake with the restraint of not doing it.

"You sent me off. Right into them."

"You're trying to blame me for this? Hey. I wanted my command back. I didn't want you ordering my lances into a field they couldn't win." Ash snorted. "Bit ironic, really. I should have let you give them an order. It would have been 'run like f.u.c.k!' "

He flushed, the pale freckled skin going pink from his throat to his brow.

Ash yelled, "And you could have! It wouldn't even have been difficult. Up into the foothills, lose yourself in the mountains. They'd barely got a grip on the coast, they weren't going to go off chasing twelve hors.e.m.e.n!"

Anger is translatable into any language. As he startled back, a green-robed shoulder appeared in front of her, between her and Fernando - Ash grabbed G.o.dfrey Maximillian and pushed him away. For all the priest was twice her bulk, she used balance and momentum to put him straight past her.

"STOP!" she bellowed.

Thomas and Euen Huw instantly appeared one either side of her, hands on hilts. She threw out her hands, palms open, as Lebrija's men began to stride forward.

"Okay! Enough! Back off."

One of the Burgundians - a captain? - thundered, "You are under truce! In G.o.d's name, no weapons here!"

The Visigoths halted, uncertain. A Burgundian knight near the door s.h.i.+fted to a combat stance. Ash jerked a thumb, saw out of peripheral vision Thomas, Euen, and (reluctantly) G.o.dfrey backing off again. She kept her gaze on Fernando.

His voice not quite controlled, Fernando del Guiz said, "Ash . . . when you're cautious, it's caution; when you change sides to the stronger force, it's business. Don't you understand fear?" He hesitated, then: "I thought you understood this - I did what I did because I was- afraid of being killed."

He said it plainly, with quiet emphasis. Ash opened her mouth to say something, and shut it again. She looked at him. Both his hands, holding his upturned helmet now, were white-knuckled.

He said, "I saw her face - the Faris. And now I'm alive. For telling some Carthaginian b.i.t.c.h she's got a b.a.s.t.a.r.d cousin in the Frankish armies. I was too afraid not to tell her."

"You could have run," Ash insisted. "h.e.l.l, you could at least have tried!"

"No. I couldn't."

The whiteness of his skin made her think, suddenly, he's still in shock, he's in combat-shock without having been in combat, and she said, automatically gently, as she would to one of her own: "Don't feel too bad about it.

His gaze snapped to her face. "I don't."

"What?"

"I don't feel bad about it."

"But-"

"If I did," Fernando said, "I'd have to believe that the people like you are right. I saw it all, in that second. You're crazy. You're all stark, staring mad. You go around killing other people, and getting killed, and you don't see there's anything wrong with it."

"Did you do anything when they killed Otto and Matthias and the rest of your guys? Did you even say anything?"

"No."

She looked him in the eye.

"No," Fernando said. "I didn't say a word."

To another man, she might have said that's war, it's s.h.i.+t but it happens, there wasn't anything you could have said that would have made a difference.

"What's the matter?" she needled. "p.i.s.sing on twelve-year-old girls more your style?"

"Perhaps I wouldn't have done that, if I'd realised how dangerous you are." His expression changed. "You're a bad woman. A butcher, a psychopath."

"Don't be b.l.o.o.d.y ridiculous. I'm a soldier."

"That," he echoed her, "is what soldiers are."

"Maybe so." Ash's voice sounded hard. "That's war."

"Well, I don't want to make war any more." Fernando del Guiz fixed her with a bright, rueful smile. "You want the honest truth? I want no part of this. If I had any choice, I'd go back to Guizburg, pull up the drawbridge, and not come out until this war's over and done with. Leave it to blood-thirsty b.i.t.c.hes like you."

I have been to bed with this man, Ash thought, marvelling at the distance between them. And if he asked me, now- "Is that my cue to walk out?" Ash hooked her hands into her belt. The blue leather was decorated with bra.s.s rivets in the shape of lions' heads; it was not, she thought, something that would ever be worn by a woman. "As seductions go, this is pretty-c.r.a.p."

"Yes. Well." Fernando glanced over his shoulder at Sancho Lebrija, looking painfully embarra.s.sed to be overheard failing to persuade an errant wife. "My track record isn't brilliant, recently."

He looks tired, Ash thought. A pulse of sympathy for him ruined her carefully h.o.a.rded anger.

No. No. I'm fine, hating him. That's what I need to do.

"Your track record's fine. The last thing you did to me was betray me. Why didn't you come to me at Basle?" she demanded. "When they'd locked me up, why didn't you come?"

Fernando del Guiz looked blank. "But why should I have?"

Ash hit him.

The movement was not under her control, all she could choose was not to draw her sword. Not wanting a guard's blade struck through her midriff had something to do with it - but, more than that, the picture flas.h.i.+ng in front of her eyes stopped her: Fernando del Guiz's face spidered red with blood running from a cleft skull.

That mental image brought a jolt of nausea. Not for the killing, that being her business, but the simple thought of harm to this body, a body caressed with her own hands- She hit him in the face with the fist clenched, and her gauntlets off; swore; wrung her hand and tucked her throbbing knuckles under her armpit, and stared at Fernando del Guiz who rocked back on his heels, eyes flown wide with shock. Not with anger, she saw, but with sheer shock that a woman had dared to hit him.

Behind her: s.h.i.+fting feet, the ching of mail, polearm b.u.t.ts going down on the tiles, men about to plunge forward again- Fernando del Guiz did not move.

A small red mark swelled below his lip. He breathed heavily, his face scarlet.

Ash stood watching, flexing her throbbing fingers.

Finally, someone - not one of her own men, one of the Visigoths - laughed coa.r.s.ely.

Fernando del Guiz stood in front of her, still not moving.

She looked at his face. Something almost like pity - if pity can sear and burn, the way that hatred does; if it can bring an absolute inability to bear another person's shame and pain - something went through her like edged steel.

Ash winced, put her fingers to her hair again, feeling again the sun-warmed heat of it and the spiky gut st.i.tches still jutting from her skin, and caught the smell of him on her skin.

"Oh, Christ." Her stomach jolted. Tears pushed under the lids of her eyes, and she blinked, ferociously, threw her head back and said, "Euen! Thomas! G.o.dfrey! We're leaving!"

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