Disastrous: Cautious Part 23

"Eva," he said softly, smiling down at me as I climbed into an uncomfortable plastic chair. My sneaker-clad feet didn't reach the floor, and my chin barely cleared the table. Uncle Joe slid into the chair beside me and put his arm around me, pulling my chair close to his.

"Daddy," I whispered, trying so hard not to cry. "I want to hug you. Uncle Joe says I can't. Why can't I?"

My father blinked. Then he blinked again. I didn't know at the time, but my big, strong, rough, and tough father was trying not to cry.

Uncle Joe squeezed my shoulder. "Baby girl," he said gruffly, "tell Daddy 'bout the spellin' bee."

Excitement battled my tears and won. "I won the spelling bee, Daddy! My teacher, Mrs. Fredericks, says even through I'm only in kindergarten, I can spell as good as a third grader!"

My father grinned.

Seeing this grin and not wanting to lose it, I kept going.

"Do you know how old third graders are, Daddy?"

"How old baby?" My father asked, laughing.

"They are eight," I whispered excitedly. "Or sometimes nine!"

"Proud of you baby girl," my father said, his eyes s.h.i.+ning.

I beamed. When you are young, your parents are your entire world. My father was my world. If he was happy, I was happy.

Uncle Joe squeezed my shoulder again. "Eva, honey, why don't you go get somethin' from the snack machines so Daddy and I can have a word."

This was typical. At the club everyone was always "having a word"-words I wasn't allowed to hear. Most times, I didn't really care since all the boys loved me, gave me lots of hugs, let me ride on their shoulders, and bought me presents all the time. To a five-year-old biker brat, an MC full of surrogate big brothers and daddies is the equivalent to a normal child being able to celebrate Christmas every day.

I took my Uncle Joe's money and skipped off to the snack machines. Two people were in line ahead of me, so I did what I always did when I was bored-I started singing. Unlike most children my age who were listening to New Kids on the Block or Debbie Gibson, I was listening to the music played around the club. A particular favorite of mine was "Summertime" by Janis Joplin. So there I was shaking my b.u.t.t and singing "Summertime" way, way out of tune, waiting in line for stale potato chips in the Rikers Island family visiting room, when I heard, "You like Hendrix, too, kid?"

I swiveled around and met with a pair of denim-clad legs with the knees worn clean through. I looked up, and my eyes widened in delight. He was tall and tan. His arms and legs were thickly muscled, and his waist was trim. His forehead was wide, and his jaw was strong and square. His head was shaved, only a fuzz of blond hair showing, and his forearms were heavily tattooed with different depictions of elaborate dragons. I'd never seen a more beautiful man.

There are three different types of men in this world: There are weak men-men who run and hide when life slaps them in the a.s.s. Then there are men-men who have a backbone, yet occasionally, when life slaps them in the a.s.s, will rely on others. And then there are real men-men who don't cry or complain, who don't just have a backbone, they are the backbone. Men who make their own decisions and live with the consequences and who accept responsibility for their actions or words. Men who, when life slaps them in the a.s.s, slap back and move on. Men who live hard and die even harder.

Men like my father and my uncles. Men I loved with all my heart.

Men like Deuce.

"I like Hendrix," I said. "But Janis rules. I listen to 'Rose' almost every single day!"

He grinned down at me and dimples popped out all over the place.

"I like you, kid," he said, still grinning. "You got good taste in tunes, and you've got a pair of Chucks on instead of those stupid f.u.c.kin' high tops everyone's wearin'."

He liked me. This was hands down the best day ever.

"I hate high tops," I said, wrinkling up my nose.

He winked. "Me, too."

I was so throwing out all my high tops when I got home.

When it was my turn in line, I stood on my tiptoes and popped change into the machine. I took my time studying the selections, deciding on a small bag of salted peanuts. Moving out of the way, I watched as the man bought two bags of potato chips, three candy bars, and a big chocolate chip cookie.

"Wow," I said. "You're really hungry."

He laughed. "Not for me." He pointed across the room. "My old man."

I spared a quick glance at my father and Uncle Joe. Their heads were bowed over the table still "having a word."

"Can I meet him?" I asked.

His eyebrows popped. "Uh, he's kinda cranky."

I laughed. All the men I knew were kinda cranky.

I slipped my hand in his and looked up, ready to go meet his father. His hand was warm and comfortable, like my bed was after I'd slept in it all night.

He stared down at our joined hands, his expression confused.

"Ready," I told him, tugging on his hand. Shrugging, he led me to a nearby table where an older man with a long, gray beard and a shaved head sat, cuffed the same way my father was. He released my hand to take his seat, and I climbed into the seat next to him.

"Hi," I said cheerfully.

"You got somethin' to tell me?" The old man asked his son.

"She likes Janis," he replied.

The old man studied me. "You like Janis, kid?"

I nodded. "And Steppenwolf and Three Dog Night and The Rolling Stones and Billie Holiday-"

"Billie Holiday?" He interrupted, sounding surprised.

I popped some peanuts in my mouth and nodded. "She rules."

The old man grinned, and his entire face changed. I knew immediately; a long time ago, this cranky old man had been as beautiful as his son.

"I like Billy Holiday," he said gruffly.

"I like you," I said spontaneously because I always said stuff spontaneously. "Do you want some peanuts?"

"Sure, kid," he said, smiling. "I'd love some."

I poured the rest of my peanuts into his hand, and he popped them all into his mouth at the same time.

"Eva!"

I jumped at the sound of my Uncle Joe's voice. He was walking briskly across the room toward me. Once he reached the table, not only did Uncle Joe looked p.i.s.sed off but so did my two new friends.

"You got a death wish?" Uncle Joe whispered to the old man. "Hors.e.m.e.n are in good with the Demons. Let's f.u.c.kin' keep it that way."

"Ah," the old man said, looking back at me. "You must be Preacher's little girl. He's talked 'bout you. Proud as f.u.c.k, he is."

I nodded proudly. "I am Preacher's little girl. And I'm gonna be just like him when I grow up. I'm gonna have a Fatboy, but I want mine to be sparkly, and I want a pink helmet with skulls on it. And instead of being the club President, I'm gonna be the club Queen 'cause I'm gonna marry the biggest, scariest biker in the whole world, and he's gonna let me do whatever I want because he's gonna love me like crazy."

My Uncle Joe burst out laughing, and the old man shook his head, smiling. The beautiful man turned to face me and leaned forward.

"I'm gonna hold you to that," he whispered.

I didn't respond. I couldn't. I was captivated by the intensity I saw in his bright blue-and-white-flecked eyes. They reminded me of a frosted over lake. He had beautiful icy blue eyes that sucked me in to a warm safe place that I wanted to stay inside of forever.

He stuck out his hand, breaking the spell. "Name's Deuce, sweetheart. My old man here is Reaper. It was nice talkin' with ya."

I put my hand in his, and his big fingers closed around mine. "Eva," I whispered. "That's my name, and it was so, so great to meet you, too."

He smiled. And his eyes smiled, too. And I got lost again in his pretty eyes.

Then Uncle Joe picked me up and threw me over his shoulder. "Isn't that f.u.c.kin' expensive as h.e.l.l private school teachin' you 'bout talkin' to strangers?" he said. "Gonna have a talk with those prissy f.u.c.kers. Gonna have a talk with my fist."

"Bye," I yelled, waving frantically, as I was marched away.

Reaper gave me a two-handed handcuffed wave and a big smile.

Deuce got to his feet grinning and gave me a two-finger salute. "Bye, darlin'."

Darlin'.

It was official. I was head over heels in love.

Deuce watched One-Eyed Joe, Silver Demon Lifer, stalk off with Preacher's kid hanging over his shoulder, grinning and waving like a lunatic. He shook his head and smiled. When he could no longer see her, he lost his smile and turned back to his old man.

His old man had lost his smile, too.

"Cute kid," Reaper grumbled. "Shoulda had a girl instead of you two f.u.c.ks."

He stared at his old man. He had a moment of longing watching him smile at that kid and talk to her the way he should have talked to his own kids but never had. He'd been too busy beating on him and his brother.

Good times.

"Preacher's on the move," Reaper growled. "Takin' that f.u.c.kin' deal with the Russians right out from under you. Why the mother f.u.c.k didn't you snap that s.h.i.+t down when you had the chance?"

And there it was. He was VP, and that's all he was to his old man. Someone to pa.s.s the f.u.c.king gavel to when he finally-and it couldn't come fast enough-kicked it.

"Preacher's Road Chief beat me to it. Snagged that s.h.i.+t 'fore I even heard about it."

Reaper's expression went glacial. "You're such a f.u.c.kin' f.u.c.k up. Shoulda made Cas VP. Shoulda had that f.u.c.kin' c.u.n.t of wh.o.r.e get ridda ya."

His mother had been a wh.o.r.e-not a streetwalker but a club wh.o.r.e. She was sixteen when his father knocked her up, his old man nearly thirty. After he was born, his old man kicked her to the curb with nothing but the clothes on her back. All he'd ever had of his mother was a gritty picture of a very young girl sitting on his old man's Harley; Olivia Martin was written on the back. He liked to think that she started a new life somewhere else with someone who was nothing like his old man. Found some peace and a family who loved her.

His younger brother, Cas, was the product of another knocked-up wh.o.r.e. Same story, different day.

For twenty-three years, he'd been putting up with his s.h.i.+t. He had enough. Pus.h.i.+ng out of his chair he stood up, placed his palms on the table, and leaned forward.

"n.o.body-and when I say n.o.body, I mean f.u.c.kin' everybody-gives two f.u.c.ks about what happens to you, you miserable s.h.i.+t. The club respects their Prez, but not one of your boys gives a f.u.c.k whether you live or die. You got life, old man, and I been runnin' s.h.i.+t in your absence. And seein' as I been runnin' s.h.i.+t a f.u.c.k of a lot better than you, I don't have to come here. But I do outta f.u.c.kin' respect, and I just lost the last shred of respect I had left."

"You little s.h.i.+t," Reaper hissed. "You're gonna pay-"

"No. You're gonna pay. Puttin' the cash up for bids the minute I walk outta here."

Fear flashed through his old man's eyes. He'd never seen anything sweeter.

"Remember, you piece-of-s.h.i.+t f.u.c.k, when you're bleedin' out that it was me who f.u.c.kin' ordered it."

He turned away before his old man could say another word and strode through Rikers visiting room breathing hard, his heart pounding in his chest, determined to end that man.

"Deuce!" A little voice squealed. He turned.

Eva was gunning for him. Just before she reached him, she came skidding to a stop, breathing heavy, and thrust her hand out. "Didn't get to share with you," she said breathlessly.

He bent down and closed his hand around a small bag of peanuts.

His throat closed up.

This kid, this little f.u.c.king kid who didn't know him at all, had just given him his first gift with nothing expected in return, no favors, no stipulations, no nothing. He'd been wrong. There was something sweeter than seeing fear in his old man's eyes. Eva was far sweeter. If he ever had a kid, he wanted a kid like this one.

"Thanks, darlin'," he said hoa.r.s.ely.

"Will I ever see you again?" She c.o.c.ked her head to the side, wide-eyed, waiting for his response. He stared into her eyes, her phenomenal eyes that were too big for her face. Big and smoky gray like a thunderstorm. f.u.c.king beautiful.

He smiled. "Hope so, sweetheart."

She gave him a killer cute grin and bounced back to her old man and uncle-who were staring daggers at him-shakin' those pigtails.

After shoving the peanuts in his pocket, he left. First street payphone he saw, he posted the hit. It took all of an hour, and he had a buyer. Three days later, his old man bled out in the showers.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR.

Emmy Montes was born in Puerto Rico but was raised in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. She currently resides in Philadelphia with her husband, Alex, and their English bulldog. She has a Bachelor of Science degree in Legal Studies. She works full time as a paralegal for a mid-sized law firm. Although she loves the legal field, writing was always her pa.s.sion.

Her love for books began with the Gooseb.u.mps series as a child. After that, she read anything and everything from poetry to short stories. She was pa.s.sionate about the fictional world and intrigued by the way an author could pull you into a story with just simple words. As a hobby, she started writing her own poetry, daily journal entries, and short stories.

She actually dreamed of being a journalist and even went as far as researching colleges to earn a degree in Journalism. At the time, major newspaper companies and magazines were having budgets cut, and after careful thought, she settled on another major. When she finished her degree, she felt as if something were missing. She continued to write for several years, working on different story ideas, but never finished. Disastrous was her first completed novel.