The Faculty Club Part 18

"She ran out. What's up?"

"Nothing," I said. "I just . . . wanted to ask her a question."

"Why don't you ask me?"

There was a long pause.

"Try me," he said.

Ever since my dad's heart attack, I was afraid to tell him that anything was less than perfect, as if whatever I said might trigger the next big one. But I needed someone. I needed help.

"C'mon, give an old man a chance," he said. "Let me be a dad for once."

I sighed. I wasn't even sure what I'd wanted to say.

"I think I did something really bad."

A pause, then: "Did you break the law?"

"No."

I heard him breathe out on the other end.

"Did you cheat in school?"

"No."

"You hurt somebody?"

"Yes."

"Because you didn't like them?"

"No."

"Because it helped you."

"Yes."

"Listen to me." I braced myself for a lecture on big shots and little guys: toughen up, grab what's yours, take no prisoners. Instead, he said: "If you did something bad, you make it right. You hear me?"

"Yes. Yes, sir."

"Then you decide who you want to be, and you be it."

The line was quiet for a second.

"Okay?"

"Okay. I will."

"Make me proud of you," he said.

The call left me dizzy; startled, like I'd been slapped across the face.

For the first time in years, I'd heard the teacher again--the one everyone in town called on when they didn't know what to do.

Chance wore black from head to toe, as planned. He leaned against a tree away from the light; I could make out only the vague shadow of his form, the white eyes and pale strip of skin under the ski mask. As I got closer, his uniform came into view: cargo pants, hiking boots, backpack, hooded pullover; he looked like a real guerrilla journalist, with none of the idiot flair of my black sweats.h.i.+rt and dress pants. But with two hundred dollars in my bank account and no career in sight, I wasn't about to spend my ramen money on a new ghost-hunting wardrobe. He handed me a ski mask.

"Thanks."

He rubbed black grease on his face, then pulled his mask back down. I took the tin and did the same. He looked at my feet.

"Dress shoes?"

I shrugged.

"Whatever," he said. He checked his camera, then slipped it into a black pouch on his waist. "Anything visible?" He turned in a circle.

I said no and did the same.

"So. We've got a map, thanks to you," Chance said. "What we need now is an entry point. Thanks to me."

"An entry point to what?"

Chance had been cagey about how exactly our map translated into action. I think he enjoyed this little bit of power. It wouldn't be as simple as walking into the Steel Man, that much I knew. Chance was convinced the dorm was a placeholder, not our actual destination.

"Every university has a story about steam tunnels that run underground and connect all the buildings," he told me. "It just so happens that this university, being very old, actually has them. Come on."

We walked along the wall in the shadow of a large administrative building. We were in the industrial part of the campus, a world away from student life. It was after midnight and eerily silent.

"The only official mention of them involves a bit of campus lore. When George Wallace came to speak in favor of segregation, the students were ready to murder him. Police had to smuggle him out through the tunnels. It got written up in the paper, fifty years ago."

We came into view of a giant, thrumming building bathed in yellow light, with two vents on the roof, each nearly twenty feet wide. It gave off a clean, electric smell, but the vents released colossal, almost volcanic plumes of white smoke that pulsed and swirled up into the clouded sky. It looked like a factory whose chief product was gloom.

"I had a resident poetry tutor in my house, freshman year, this real old guy. He swore the FBI chased an Austrian spy into the library back in World War Two. They searched for hours. Finally they figured he must've found a way into the steam tunnels. Or so the old guy said. I think he just wanted someone to eat with."

"Is that smoke?" I asked, looking at the white plumes.

"Water vapor. This is the hydroelectric plant. There's the physical plant. And that," he said, pointing to a run-down side building with weathered blinds, "is the plant manager's office." He paused and looked at me. "In about five minutes, you'll be guilty of trespa.s.sing, breaking and entering, and my favorite, 'conduct unbecoming to a student.' All grounds for expulsion. Last chance."

I smiled. " 'Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose.'"

"Preaching to the choir, my friend," Chance said, and we started toward the back of the building. He took a pair of cutters from his pack and went to work on the hanging lock. Then we were past the chain-link fence and into the gravel and gra.s.s of the plant yard. There were numerous metal boxes in the gra.s.s, all padlocked as well.

It was so quiet. Every step we took crunched.

I started to question the wisdom of the endeavor. Was it too late? Could I turn around now and run out the gate, throw the ski mask in a ditch, wipe the makeup off, and blend back into the Sat.u.r.day night flow of the main quad?

Chance pulled on my sleeve.

"Keep moving. We're too exposed out here."

We snuck toward the door.

Chance attacked the lock with a set of picks from a leather pouch. If only my mom could see me now. What nice friends you've made!

There was a window a few feet away.

"Screw it. I was never good at this."

Chance pocketed the tools and picked up a rock.

"Chance, no," I whispered, but it was too late. He smashed the window. A jingling crash echoed through the empty yard, breaking the silence. I looked around, didn't see anyone. He used the rock to clear away the sharp edges, then looked back at me, poised to climb inside.

"We have to go fast now," he said. "Once we're in the tunnels, it's vast. We'll be fine."

I followed him into the window. We came into an office, then into a cinder-block hallway painted white. Chance was moving fast in no particular direction, glancing in doorways. He started cursing.

"Help me out, G.o.dd.a.m.n it."

"What are you looking for?"

"Something going down. I don't know. A manhole. A stairway."

I found a room with a concrete floor and bare bulb. There was a hatch on the ground; it looked like a misplaced attic door.

"Here," I called.

I tried to pull it open, but it was too heavy.

Chance knelt beside me. We pulled together on the chain, and the hatch lifted. We pulled it to the point of no return, and it fell backward with a crash.

"Jesus Christ, Jeremy," he hissed.

"Come on," I said. I started climbing down the ladder.

I looked up and saw two figures behind Chance. He was stepping down onto the ladder and they pulled him up and back. His eyes went wide.

"What the f.u.c.k," he cried and fell backward. I looked down. I could just drop. I didn't know how far it was. But Chance had the map. He had the flashlights in his pack. I didn't know where to go.

Just drop!

A hand came down and grabbed my sweats.h.i.+rt. I clawed at the arm. Another hand got around my neck and yanked up hard. I lost my breath.

I went up and fell over on my back.

I hit the floor hard.

A man was standing over me. He prodded me with his foot.

"Get back against the wall."

I took in the uniform and breathed a sigh of relief. Campus police. Miles wrote me about them his freshman year. He had a roommate who was a local kid from a nearby blue-collar town. One night, this roommate went out for old time's sake with a high school friend. They got drunk and decided to steal license plates. The city police caught them. Miles's roommate was handed over to campus police. No police report. No record of the event. No consequences. The roommate's friend spent the night in jail and had to appear in court the next day. I let myself relax a little.

"Take the masks off," the cop near me said.

I hesitated, then pulled off my ski mask.

The other cop was standing over Chance, sizing him up.

"Start talking," he said.

"Please, officer," Chance sputtered. "It's supposed to be a prank. We're pledging a fraternity. They told us to get into the steam tunnels and steal a plate from the professors' dining hall. Tell 'em, Mike." Chance looked at me. His eyes were perfect imitations of the wide-eyed stare of a scared freshman.

The officer turned to me.

I gave Chance my angriest look.

"You weren't supposed to tell. They said not to tell anyone, even if we got caught."

"Please . . ." Chance sounded downright miserable. "I want to go to law school. This could ruin me forever. Oh G.o.d, my parents. I knew I shouldn't have pledged."

The second officer looked at me.

"What fraternity?"

"We're not supposed to say," I mumbled.

He leaned over me and poked his finger at my chest.

"You should worry about yourself right now."

I shook my head. I aimed for deeply conflicted.

Chance blurted out, "Sigma Chi."

"Jesus, Ryan," I said.

The cop standing over me was the angrier of the two.

"They broke a window," he said, fingering his nightstick.

"Were you guys in a fraternity?" I asked.

The cops looked at me like I was insane.

"I don't mean any disrespect," I said. "It's just, if you were in a fraternity, you know how much pressure it is to get in. Maybe you had to do some pretty crazy stuff when you were pledges."