Beach House No. 9 Part 31

His free hand slid into her pants, the movement hitching a little when he realized she was naked beneath them. But then his palm slid lower, cupping her so his long fingers could play in the wet, pleated layers. The heel of his hand ground against her c.l.i.toris as he took her nipple deeper, rhythmic pulls that mimicked the throbbing ache growing inside her.

"Griffin," Jane said and drew one hand around the curve of his ribs to his lightly furred chest. She rolled the edge of her thumb over his nipple, teasing it to a small point that she could pinch between her thumb and forefinger.

He grunted, his big body twitching against her, and she did it again. Griffin released her breast, rearing up to hover over her on his hands and knees. His eyes were wild, his breathing rough. Jane's heart was thumping so hard she was sure he could hear it. She thought the whole cove might hear it, the sound taking over for the ceaseless shush shush shush of the surf.

Then he was standing, and he yanked her to her feet, already pulling her in the direction of the bedroom. They tumbled onto the mattress and he was tugging and shoving at her flannel pants; she tried to help, scissoring her legs to kick out of them, and when they flew off he grabbed her half-lifted leg and used it to flip her to her belly.

She lay there, just a little worried about the vulnerability of this position. Though she was naked, he was still wearing his jeans, and the soft denim pressed against the insides of her thighs as he nudged them open with his knees. But then he brushed his fingers along her shoulders and down her spine. "The carpet," he mumbled, his voice slurry again, almost drugged, "it scratched what's mine."

It was l.u.s.t she heard in his words. l.u.s.t and possession fueled by all the emotions dredged up that day. As his mouth traced over her, she moved, sinuous and slow against the cool sheets, her own arousal fueled by the tickle of his tongue tracing the ladder of her spine.

His hands bracketed her hips, holding her still as his lips reached the small of her back. He pulled her to her knees, her bottom canting high, and he went greedy again, his teeth sc.r.a.ping against the soft curves, his mouth taking sucking kisses. The whiskered stubble along his chin and jaw only added another layer of throbbing sensation to her flesh, and she pressed her hot face into the sleek pillowcase.

"Griffin," she moaned. She was wet and needy and if he'd just give her the slightest touch... Her hand moved, but he caught her fingers and pressed them to the mattress, his palm flattened over her wrist.

She struggled a little, and he brought his mouth to her ear. "No." His other hand fumbled at the fastening of his jeans, his knuckles b.u.mping against her where she was swollen and full blossom-ready for him. The drawer to the bedside table squeaked as he jerked it open. Panting, she watched him reach for a condom, and the antic.i.p.ation made her pulse flutter in her throat. Then he was over her and the thick k.n.o.b of him was at her entrance, his hand guiding him to her.

He pushed, grunting at the first breach. Jane gasped, her belly hollowing out as he drove slowly forward, the angle, the position, making him feel impossibly large. "No," she moaned, even as she lifted her hips toward the intrusion, impaling herself on his thickness.

Denim abraded her whisker-burned bottom, and she realized he was still half-dressed. She reached back, wanting to touch him somewhere, but he caught that hand too. He placed it like the other; palm to the sheet, his hand flattened over her wrist.

"Griffin..."

"Shh shh shh." His mouth was against her ear, his breath hot, his chest bowed over her back. "Relax now. Stay open for me. Let me in. Let me have it. Give it to me. Give me everything I need."

Every l.u.s.t-laden word in his dark, s.e.xy voice added more kindling to her own fire. She wiggled back, trying to take more, trying to incite a riot in him, because she was going to become violent if he didn't move.

And then he did. His movements were aggressive, a powerful rhythm of retreat-and-thrust that instantly made her wetter. "Yeah," he whispered, clearly aware she was slicker than before. "Like that. Yeah."

Griffin didn't sound like himself. This wasn't the charming lover, the playmate-in-the-sheets. At this moment, she thought, he might not even know her name. This was the male animal using s.e.x, taking her to take himself away, an elemental act to avoid an entanglement of feelings.

And, G.o.d help her, she loved it.

If it brought him some relief from the pain of his memories, she'd be on her knees every night.

He started grunting with each new thrust, and she pushed back to take him to the root. His breath was soughing in her ear, fast and hard, and sweat dripped from his face onto her shoulder. She wiggled her going-numb fingers, and he noticed, adjusting her arms for a little more blood flow, yet still keeping her pinned with his hands.

His movements became rougher, his breath more jerky, and she braced herself, thinking, Go ahead, my love. Let go.

On the next retreat, though, he pulled free.

"Wha-" Jane spit out, but then she was flipped to her back. Griffin was on her in an instant, his tongue penetrating her mouth, his shaft once more pumping inside her. Her hands came up, flailing around his shoulders. He grabbed them once again and entwined their fingers. Lifting his mouth, he stared down at her, his gaze going as deep inside her as his body.

His eyes on her, he continued pumping. Another excruciating round of chills broke over Jane's flesh. This wasn't the pirate crouched over her. They weren't honey-pie and chili-dog. In this bed in this moment there was no librarian or governess. No friends or foes.

Again, she suspected he didn't know who he was with, that she was just the female he needed to his male. Tonight's yin for his yang.

His eyes glittered as he released one of her hands. He slid his palm between them, brought his fingers to her c.l.i.toris. "You first," he said.

You first. Tears stung her eyes. She'd been wrong. He knew her. He knew so very much about her that even now, even under this duress, she was on his mind. And it was that, as much as his sure touch, that detonated her explosion. The pleasure twisted tight, then released, whipping outward in circles until her entire body was shaking with the strength of it. She arched back, pus.h.i.+ng up to take more of him, and he went still and deep, his arms shaking, as he came with short, jabbing pulses.

Then he fell to the mattress, half on her, still in her. They were both breathing hard, and she stroked a light hand through his hair.

"I'm sorry," he said finally, his head turned away from hers. "I was rough."

"It's fine. It's all right," she said, feeling her face go red.

He turned to look at her. "Are you sure?"

"Everything we did-I loved it. Griffin, I-" She stopped herself just in time.

He was already going tense, however, and she knew he'd heard her unspoken words. I love you.

d.a.m.n, she thought, as he withdrew and headed for the bathroom. But she was too tired and s.e.xually replete to devise a fallback position. s.h.i.+fting on the bed, she allowed herself a little wince as she twinged where she had never twinged before. Still waiting for him to return, she drifted off.

It couldn't have been a long while later that she awoke. Alone. She could feel he wasn't in the house, and she padded through the quiet rooms to confirm it. Private was gone as well. As she pa.s.sed through the kitchen, she caught a glimpse of the next-door cottage through the window. There were lights on in No. 8, lights she hadn't left burning. A blue flicker told her the TV was on as well.

It was Griffin who had made his escape, not Jane.

CHAPTER TWENTY.

THE NEXT MORNING, Jane left the cove to run a few errands, which included visiting a quickly recovering Rex at the hospital. If she was also using the time to steer clear of Griffin, that was n.o.body's business but hers. Upon her return in the late afternoon, she approached the door to Beach House No. 9, steeling her spine to face the man inside. Everything between them was a tangled mess: the ruined book, his brutal memories of war, last night's unbridled s.e.x, her unspoken words.

She adjusted her denim-blue linen pants and squared her shoulders beneath the tissue-thin white tee. She was wearing the same espadrilles she'd had on the day she'd brought him coffee, and now she wished she had something like that to occupy her hands.

Glancing down, she noted the mat under her feet. Abandon Hope All Ye Who Enter Here. How many times had the words and Griffin himself warned her away? And yet she'd pushed forward, pushed him, and her reward was falling for a p.r.i.c.kly loner who felt things so deeply he had to pretend he felt nothing at all.

Images of him flashed through her mind. In one he raced up the cliff, in another he steadied Rex on the short stroll to his home. She remembered him playing tag with his nephews on the sand and holding Private like a big furry baby on his lap. His voice whispered in her head.

I didn't think you were actually afraid of anything.

Somebody's coming along real soon, and you'll know just how lovable you are.

You first.

Shaking off the memories, she twisted the doork.n.o.b and strode over the threshold. Private gave one loud bark and rushed to her in exuberant greeting. "Hey, boy," she said, rubbing his silky head. "Can always count on you being happy to see me."

Griffin came into view from the direction of the bedroom and glanced at her as he moved toward the deck. In jeans and his favorite Hawaiian s.h.i.+rt, he carried a pair of well-worn hiking boots and had the pinched look of someone suffering from a headache. "Jane."

"Griffin." She followed him outside.

"I guess we can safely say we remember each other's names." He flicked a glance at her again as he held the boots upside down and tapped the toes together. "I don't know if you were as drunk as me-"

"I wasn't."

"Well, that's good. Because I'm a bit hazy on the particulars past, oh, the third beer or so."

Liar. She stared at him as he b.u.mped the shoes together again. He was pretending to not remember, so they wouldn't have to honestly address what had occurred the night before. Could he really keep this up? Crossing her arms over her chest, she watched him set the pair of shoes on the picnic table and inspect them like a doctor might a patient, up to and including looking under their tongues.

"Habit," he said, as if she'd asked him what he was doing. "In Afghanistan, the tarantulas would climb into our boots. I wouldn't want to bring any stowaways with me on the trip."

Her gaze snapped to his face. "Are you saying-"

"I feel sure I have some apologies to make, Jane." He was still focusing on the shoes, making a big show of working on the laces, slipping them free of the grommets then reworking them through the small holes. "I saw the chaos in the office."

"About that-"

"I talked to Ted. He said you came onto the beach and collected me last night."

Did he really not recall it? "You told me about Jackal-Jackson."

Griffin winced. "Sorry to put that in your head."

But it was in his head, and letting it fester there was poisonous. "What happened to him after the explosion?"

"He made it. Has a prosthesis, and gets around quite well, considering."

"Have you talked with him, then?"

Griffin was working over the second boot. "A couple of times."

It made Jane think of the soldier who'd traveled from Philly to see him. "What about your friend who visited here-the one who had the car accident?"

"Hernandez. He's okay too, finally getting some counseling at the VA."

They had services like that for soldiers who'd been in war. Places and people who were trained in helping them manage the aftermath of their injuries and of what they'd seen and done. The guilt that they'd survived when their buddies had not.

But who was helping Griffin? Who was there for the observers who were witnesses to fear and horror and heroism?

"You should talk to someone too," she said.

He stiffened.

"You're smart. You've got to realize you're exhibiting some of the cla.s.sic symptoms of-"

"I'm handling everything just fine. Christ, Jane, I was a reporter-lucky me got to come home while the soldiers are still serving their country. Even when I was with them, I carried a pen, not a gun."

"I think if you end up covered in blood and holding someone's blown-off limb, the distinction is pretty moot." She realized she was sounding slightly tense herself when Private whined and came over to lick her hand.

"That's a funny word, isn't it? Moot."

"In this case it means without or with little practical value-" She broke off, realizing she'd fallen into the trap he'd set. Always trying to distract her. "Griffin," she ground out.

"Jane." He flicked her a glance. "Look at that, we're still good with the names."

Frustrated, she looked toward the horizon, seeing the line where the steely-gray of the ocean met the turquoise-blue of the sky. The wind ruffled her hair, sending a swath of it across her face. Before she could brush it away, Griffin was beside her, his touch light as he caught the strands and tucked them behind her ear. It was a tender gesture, and she read something in it. Apology. Regret. Farewell.

"You changed your mind," she said. "You're going to Gage."

He nodded.

"Is this your compet.i.tive streak coming out?" she asked, the words knife-edged. It felt as if he was cracking open her ribs and reaching in to squeeze her heart with his bare hand. He'd survived bullets and bombings before, but would he again? How many times could one man tempt fate? "Is it that you can't stand letting your brother be somewhere dangerous when you're not?"

"I don't know what else to do with myself." He rubbed a thumb over her cheek. "Jane..."

She jerked her face away. "Yeah. I get it. You still know my name."

"About the memoir." Griffin shoved his hands into the pockets of his jeans. "I'll call Frank and make sure he's clear that missing the deadline is all my fault. It does not reflect on you. And, please, feel free to use me as a reference. As a matter of fact, I insist on it."

"Oh, as if you'll be so easy to reach at some remote location in Somewhere-istan." Her hair blew across her eyes again, but she shoved it away before he could touch her a second time. "Why don't you at least finish the half of the book that's due before you go?"

His eyebrows rose. "Last night-"

"As if I would let that be the only copy," she scoffed, shaking her head in disgust. "I typed it into a word processing file shortly after you got it from Frank and have added both our comments to it on a daily basis. There's a copy in the cloud, on my laptop, and on three separate memory sticks." She was a little a.n.a.l about stuff like that.

He looked bemused. "Efficient Jane."

"So you see, you can finish it."

Now he was shaking his head. "I can't. I really can't."

Meaning he really couldn't face coming to terms with the experience. She saw the truth of that on his face, and she had to look away. "All right. But it doesn't mean you need to take off for another war-torn country."

There was a long silence.

"Gage will let me be me. The way I am now," Griffin finally said, so quiet that she could hardly hear him over the surf. "No questions, no expectations, no..." He shrugged.

No Jane and the love she felt for him.

Seagulls were wheeling and diving, their movements a large-scale imitation of what the b.u.t.terflies were doing in her stomach. Maybe he didn't like facing what had happened between them, but she couldn't pretend things away like he could. She took a deep breath, determined to be straight with him. "If this is about what I didn't say last night..."

"Jane, I don't want you-"

A man's voice, coming from the direction of the sand, interrupted. "That works out well, then, because I do."

Her head whipped toward the newcomer, Griffin's following suit. Ian Stone, looking urbane and completely at ease, stood on the sand below the deck, wearing pressed khakis and a short-sleeve b.u.t.ton-down s.h.i.+rt. "h.e.l.lo, Jane," he said, with his made-for-TV-interviews smile.

She gaped at him. "How did you know where I was?"

"Your father told me." He smiled again. "I've come with an offer you shouldn't refuse-which, by the way, was his message to you."