Change Of Heart Part 32

He wasn't yelling, he wasn't out of control. But he wasn't in in control, either. He brought his hands up to his neck, started scratching at it as the chains jangled down his chest. "These words," he said, "they're cutting my throat." control, either. He brought his hands up to his neck, started scratching at it as the chains jangled down his chest. "These words," he said, "they're cutting my throat."

"Judge," I said immediately, alert to a rapidly approaching meltdown. "Can we take a recess?"

Shay started rocking back and forth.

"Fifteen minutes," Judge Haig said, and the U.S. marshals approached to remand Shay into custody. Panicking, Shay cowered and raised his arms in defense. And we all watched as the chains he was wearing-the ones that had secured him at the wrists and the ankles and the waist, the ones that had jangled throughout his testimony-fell to the floor with a clatter, as if they'd been no more substantial than smoke.

"Religion often gets in the way of G.o.d."

-BONO, AT THE NATIONAL PRAYER BREAKFAST, FEBRUARY 2, 2006

Maggie

Shay stood, his arms akimbo, looking just as surprised to be unshackled as we were to see him that way. There was a collective moment of disbelief, and then chaos exploded in the courtroom. Screams rang out from the gallery. One marshal dragged the judge off the bench and into his chambers while the other drew his weapon, yelling for Shay to put his hands up. Shay froze, only to have the marshal tackle and handcuff him. "Stop!" Father Michael cried behind me. "He doesn't know what's happening!" As the marshal pushed Shay's head against the wooden floor, he looked up at us, terrified.

I whipped around to face the priest. "What the h.e.l.l's going on? He's gone from being Jesus to being Houdini?"

"This is the kind of thing he does," Father Michael said. Was it me, or did I hear a note of satisfaction in his voice? "I tried to tell you."

"Let me tell you, you," I shot back. "Our friend Shay just earned himself a one-way ticket to the lethal injection gurney, unless one of us can convince him to say something to Judge Haig to explain what just happened."

"You're his lawyer," Michael said.

"You're his advisor." his advisor."

"Remember how I told you Shay won't talk to me?"

I rolled my eyes. "Could we just pretend we're not in seventh grade anymore, and do our jobs?"

He let his gaze slide away, and immediately I knew that whatever else this conversation had to hold, it wasn't going to be pleasant.

By now, the courtroom had emptied. I had to get to Shay and put a solitary, cohesive thought in his head, one that I hoped he could retain long enough to take to the witness stand. I didn't have time for Father Michael's confessions right now.

"I was on the jury that convicted Shay," the priest said.

My mother had a trick she'd employed since I was a teenager-if I said something that made her want to (a) scream, (b) whack me, or (c) both, she would count to ten, her lips moving silently, before she responded. I could feel my mouth rounding out the syllables of the numbers, and with some dismay I realized that finally, I had had become my mother. "Is that all?" I asked. become my mother. "Is that all?" I asked.

"Isn't that enough enough?"

"Just making sure." My mind raced. I could get into a lot of trouble for not telling Greenleaf that fact in advance. Then again, I hadn't known known in advance. "Is there a reason you waited so long to mention this?" in advance. "Is there a reason you waited so long to mention this?"

"Don't ask, don't tell," he said, parroting my own words. "At first I thought I'd just help Shay understand redemption, and then I'd tell you the truth. But Shay wound up teaching me me about redemption, and you said my testimony was critical, and I thought maybe it was better you didn't know. I thought it wouldn't screw up the trial quite as much ..." about redemption, and you said my testimony was critical, and I thought maybe it was better you didn't know. I thought it wouldn't screw up the trial quite as much ..."

I held up my hand, stopping him. "Do you support it?" I asked. "The death penalty?"

The priest hesitated before he spoke. "I used used to." to."

I would have to tell Greenleaf. Even if Father Michael's testimony was stricken from the record, though, you couldn't make the judge forget hearing it; the damage had been done. Right now, however, I had more important things to do. "I have to go."

In the holding cell, I found Shay still distraught, his eyes squinched shut. "Shay?" I said. "It's Maggie. Look at me."

"I can't," he cried. "Turn the volume down."

The room was quiet; there was no radio playing, no sound at all. I glanced at the marshal, who shrugged. "Shay," I commanded, coming up to the bars of the cell. "Open your G.o.dd.a.m.n eyes."

One eye squinted open a crack, then the other.

"Tell me how you did it."

"Did what?"

"Your little magic act in there."

He shook his head. "I didn't do anything."

"You managed to get out of handcuffs," I said. "What did you do, make a key and hide it in a seam?"

"I don't have a key. I didn't unlock them."

Well, technically, this was true. What I'd seen were the still-fastened cuffs, clattering to the floor, while Shay's hands were somehow free of them. He certainly could have unfastened the locks and snapped them shut again-but it would have been noisy, something we all would have heard.

And we hadn't.

"I didn't do anything," Shay repeated.

I'd read somewhere of magicians who learned to dislocate their shoulders to get out of straitjackets; maybe this had been Shay's secret. Maybe he could double-joint his thumbs or resettle the bones of his fingers and slide out of the metal fittings without anyone being the wiser. "Okay. Whatever." I exhaled heavily. "Here's the thing, Shay. I don't know if you're a magician, or a messiah. I don't know very much about salvation, or miracles, or any of those things that Father Michael and Ian Fletcher talked about. I don't even know if I believe in G.o.d. But what I do do know is the law. And right now, everyone in that courtroom thinks you're a raving lunatic. You have to pull it together." I glanced at Shay and saw him looking at me with utter focus, his eyes clear and shrewd. "You have one chance," I said slowly. "One chance to speak to the man who will decide how you die, and whether Claire Nealon gets to live. So what are you going to tell him?" know is the law. And right now, everyone in that courtroom thinks you're a raving lunatic. You have to pull it together." I glanced at Shay and saw him looking at me with utter focus, his eyes clear and shrewd. "You have one chance," I said slowly. "One chance to speak to the man who will decide how you die, and whether Claire Nealon gets to live. So what are you going to tell him?"

Once, when I was in sixth grade, I let the most popular girl in the school cheat off my paper during a math test. "You know what," she said afterward, "you're not totally uncool." She let me sit with her at the lunch table and for one glorious Sat.u.r.day, I was invited to the mall with her Gordian knot of friends, who spritzed perfume onto their wrists at department stores and tried on expensive skinny jeans that didn't even come in my size. (I told them I had my period, and I didn't ever shop for jeans when I was bloated-a total lie, and yet one of the girls offered to show me how to make myself throw up in the bathroom to take off that extra five.) It was when I was getting a makeover at the Clinique counter, with no intent of buying any of the makeup, that I looked in a mirror and realized I did not like the girl staring back. To be the person they wanted me to be, I'd lost myself.

Watching Shay take the witness stand again, I thought about that sixth-grade thrill I'd gotten when, for a moment, I'd been part of the in-crowd; I'd been popular. The gallery, hushed, waited for another outburst-but Shay was mild-mannered and calm, quiet to a fault. He was triple-chained, and had to hobble to the stand, where he didn't look at anyone and simply waited for me to address him with the question we had practiced. I wondered whether remaking him in the image of a viable plaintiff said more about who he he was willing to be, or whom was willing to be, or whom I I had become. had become.

"Shay," I said. "What do you want to tell this court?"

He looked up at the ceiling, as if he were waiting for the words to drift down like snow. "The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news," he murmured.

"Amen," said a woman in the gallery.

I'll be honest, this was not quite what I had had in mind when I had told Shay he could make one final attempt to sway this court. To me, religious scripture sounded just as wacky and zealous as the diatribe Shay had given on the nature of organized religion. But maybe Shay was smarter than I was, because his quote made the judge purse his lips. "Is that from the Bible, Mr. Bourne?"

"I don't know," Shay replied. "I don't remember where it comes from."

A tiny paper airplane torpedoed over my shoulder to land in my lap. I opened it up, read Father Michael's hastily scrawled note. "Yes, Judge," I said quickly. "It is."

"Marshal," Judge Haig said, "bring me the Bible." He began to thumb through the onionskin pages. "Do you happen to know where, Ms. Bloom?"

I didn't know when or if Shay Bourne had been reading scripture. This quote could have come from the priest; it could have come from G.o.d; it could have been the only line he knew in the whole Old Testament. But somehow, he'd piqued the interest of Judge Haig, who was no longer dismissing my client outright, but instead tracing the pages of the Bible as if it were written in Braille.

I stood, armed with Father Michael's citation. "It's in Isaiah, Your Honor," I said.

During the lunch recess, I drove to my office. Not because I had such an inviolable work ethic (although technically I had sixteen other cases going at the same time as Shay's, my boss had given me his blessing to put them on the back burner of the largest metaphorical stove ever ever), but because I just needed to get away from the trial completely. The secretary at the ACLU office blinked when I walked through the door. "Aren't you supposed to be-"

"Yes," I snapped, and I walked through the maze of filing cabinets to my desk.

I didn't know how Shay's outburst would affect the judge. I didn't know if I'd already lost this case, before the defense had even presented its witnesses. I did know that I hadn't slept well in three weeks and was flat out of rabbit food for Oliver, and I was having a really bad hair day. I rubbed my hands down my face, and then realized I'd probably smeared my mascara.

With a sigh, I glanced at the mountain of paperwork on my desk that had been steadily growing without me there to act as clearinghouse. There was an appeal that had been filed in the Supreme Court by the attorneys of a skinhead who'd written the word towelhead towelhead in white paint on the driveway of his employer, a Pakistani convenience store owner who'd fired him for being drunk on the job; some research about why the words in white paint on the driveway of his employer, a Pakistani convenience store owner who'd fired him for being drunk on the job; some research about why the words under G.o.d under G.o.d had been added to the Pledge of Allegiance in 1954 during the McCarthy era; and a stack of mail equally balanced between desperate souls who wanted me to fight on their behalf and right-wing conservatives who berated the ACLU for making it criminal to be a white churchgoing Christian. had been added to the Pledge of Allegiance in 1954 during the McCarthy era; and a stack of mail equally balanced between desperate souls who wanted me to fight on their behalf and right-wing conservatives who berated the ACLU for making it criminal to be a white churchgoing Christian.

One letter sifted through my hands and dropped onto my lap-a plain envelope printed with the address of the New Hamps.h.i.+re State Prison, the Office of the Warden. I opened it and found inside a pressed white sheet of paper, still bearing its watermark.

It was an invitation to attend the execution of Isaiah Bourne. The guest list included the attorney general, the governor, the lawyer who originally prosecuted Shay's case, me, Father Michael, and several other names I didn't recognize. By law, there had to be a certain number of people present for an execution from both the inmate's and the victim's sides. In this, it was a bit like organizing a wedding. And just like a wedding, there was a number to call to RSVP.

It was fifteen days before Shay was scheduled to die.

Clearly, I was the only one who found it remotely hilarious that the first and only witness the defense called-the commissioner of corrections-was a man named Joe Lynch. He was a tall, thin man whose sense of humor had apparently dissipated along with the hair on his scalp. I was quite sure that when he took the job, he'd never dreamed that he would be faced with New Hamps.h.i.+re's first execution in more than half a century.

"Commissioner Lynch," the a.s.sistant attorney general said, "what preparations have been made for the execution of Shay Bourne?"

"As you're aware," Lynch said, "the State of New Hamps.h.i.+re was not equipped to deal with the death sentence handed down to Inmate Bourne. We'd hoped that the job could be done at Terre Haute, but found out that wasn't going to happen. To that end, we've had to construct a lethal injection chamber-which now occupies a good corner of what used to be our exercise yard at the state penitentiary."

"Can you give us a breakdown of the costs involved?"

The commissioner began to read from a ledger. "The architectural and construction fees for the project were $39,100. A lethal injection gurney cost $830. The equipment a.s.sociated with lethal injection cost $684. In addition, the human cost included meeting with staff, training the staff, and attending hearings-totaling $48,846. Initial supplies were $1,361, and the chemicals cost $426. In addition to this, several physical improvements were made to the s.p.a.ce where the execution would occur: vertical blinds in the witness area, a dimmer switch in the chamber, a tinted one-way mirror, air-conditioning and an emergency generator, a wireless microphone and amplifier into the viewing area, a mono plug phone jack. These ran up to $14,669."

"You've done the math, Commissioner. By your calculation, what do you estimate you've spent on Shay Bourne's execution so far?"

"$105,916."

"Commissioner," Greenleaf asked, "does the State of New Hamps.h.i.+re have a gallows that could be used if the court ordered Mr. Bourne to be hanged?"

"Not anymore," Lynch replied.

"Would it be correct to a.s.sume, then, that there would be an additional outlay for the taxpayers of New Hamps.h.i.+re if a new gallows had to be constructed?"

"That's correct."

"What specifications are needed to build a gallows?"

The commissioner nodded. "A floor height of at least nine feet, a crossbeam of nine feet, with a clearance of three feet above the inmate being executed. The opening in the trapdoor would have to be at least three feet to ensure proper clearance. There would have to be a means of releasing the trapdoor and stopping it from swinging after it has been opened, and a fastening mechanism for the rope with the noose."

In a few short sentences, Gordon Greenleaf had recentered this trial from the woo-woo touchy-feely freedom-of-religion aspect, to the inevitability of Shay's imminent death. I glanced at Shay. He had gone white as the blank sheet of paper framed between his chained hands.

"You're looking at no less than seventy-five hundred for construction and materials," the commissioner said. "In addition, there would be the investment of a body restraint."

"What's that, exactly?" Greenleaf asked.

"A waist strap with two wrist restraints, made of three-thousand-pound test nylon, and another leg restraint made from the same materials. We'd need a frame-basically, a human dolly that enables the officers to transport the inmate to the gallows in the event of a physical collapse-and a hood, and a mechanical hangman's knot."

"You can't just use rope?"

"Not if you're talking about a humane execution," the commissioner said. "This knot is made from a Delran cylinder and has two longitudinal holes and a steel U-clamp to fasten the rope, as well as a noose sleeve, a rope in thirty-foot lengths, knot lubricant ..."

Even I was impressed at how much time and thought had gone into the death of Shay Bourne. "You've done a great deal of research," Greenleaf said.

Lynch shrugged. "n.o.body wants to execute a man. It's my job to do it with as much dignity as possible."

"What would be the cost of constructing and purchasing all this equipment, Commissioner Lynch?"

"A bit less than ten thousand."

"And you said the State of New Hamps.h.i.+re has already invested over a hundred thousand on the execution of Shay Bourne?"

"That's correct."

"Would it be a burden on the penitentiary system if you were required to construct a gallows at this time, in order to accommodate Mr. Bourne's so-called religious preferences?"

The commissioner puffed out a long breath. "It would be more than a burden. It would be d.a.m.n near impossible, given the date of the execution."

"Why?"

"The law said we were to execute Mr. Bourne by lethal injection, and we are ready and able to do it, after much preparation. I wouldn't feel personally and professionally comfortable cutting corners to create a last-minute gallows."

"Maggie," Shay whispered, "I think I'm going to throw up."

I shook my head. "Swallow it."

He lay his head down on the table. With any luck a few sympathetic people would a.s.sume that he was crying.

"If you were ordered by the court to construct a gallows," Greenleaf asked, "how long would it delay Mr. Bourne's execution?"

"I'd say six months to a year," the commissioner said.

"A whole year that Inmate Bourne would live past his execution warrant date?"

"Yes."

"Why so long?"

"You're talking about construction going on inside a working penitentiary system, Mr. Greenleaf. Background checks have to be done before a crew can come to work inside our gates-they're bringing in tools from the outside, which can be security threats; we have to have officers standing guard to watch them to make sure they don't wander into insecure areas; we have to make sure they're not trying to pa.s.s contraband to the inmates. It would be a substantial burden on the correctional inst.i.tution if we had to, well, start from scratch."

"Thank you, Commissioner," Greenleaf said. "Nothing further."