The French Gardener Part 22

Ava followed Romie into the tiled hall. The ceilings were low and beamed, the walls white, the rooms small and cozy. Ava remembered the times she had stayed there as a teenager for dances and dinner parties. Before she could dwell on the memory of a certain pink satin dress, Daisy was striding out of the kitchen to greet her. "I can't tell you how nice it is to see you, Ava! Most of my friends have disowned me." The two women kissed. Daisy smelled of Yves Saint Laurent's Paris. "Come and have some coffee. I've opened a packet of biscuits."

"You're just in time," added Romie from the butcher's table. "She's off to South Africa on Friday."

"For good?" Ava asked.

"Forever," said Daisy, pouring coffee into the cups.

"Oh, Daisy. You must have gone through h.e.l.l."

"It's been terribly hard. But I've done enough weeping and wailing. One has to look on the bright side or one would go mad."

"How did it happen?"

Daisy smiled resignedly and shook her head. "I'm amazed you came to see me, Ava. I know your mother disapproves very strongly."

"Duty and all that," said Ava, embarra.s.sed that word had got back. "She's a different generation."

"Listen, she's not a lone voice, I a.s.sure you. What I did was unforgivable. I fell in love with another man. But I was so unhappy, Ava. I was a shadow of myself. Wasting my life with a man I no longer loved, loving a man I couldn't have. My love consumed me. I was a terrible mother and a terrible wife, no good to anyone." She swept her curly brown hair off her face and Ava glimpsed a hint of weariness in her eyes. "Michael and I weren't like you and Phillip. If we had enjoyed a contented marriage it would never have happened. Unhappiness is the perfect breeding ground for infidelity." Loneliness is, too, Ava wanted to add, but kept her thoughts to herself.

"How did you meet him?"

"We were in Cape Town for a wedding. It was love at first sight. I thought long and hard, Ava, but in the end I felt it would be better for the children to grow up in a house of joy rather than a house of sorrow." She nibbled a biscuit reflectively. "You see, Ava, we never had the beautiful estate that you have. My children are going from an ordinary little suburban house to a stunning country house in the middle of mountains. It's an idyll. They'll love it. South Africa is beautiful."

"But what about Michael?"

She lowered her eyes. "Don't," she groaned. "He'll see them in the holidays. They'll get the best of both worlds." But she clearly knew that wasn't true. Nothing could replace their father. She suddenly looked old and deflated. It was the first time that Ava had seen the true face she hid behind her smile.

"You're doing your best," said Ava gently. "You can't replace the eggs once the sh.e.l.ls are broken. But you're making the best omelette you can."

Daisy laughed. "Trust you to come up with something like that. I am doing my best. G.o.d, I've had every accusation thrown at me. From callously leaving my children to suing Michael for hundreds of thousands. First, I never left my children. I was always going to come back for them. Michael knew that. Second, poor old Michael doesn't have any money, so I can hardly fleece him of what he doesn't have."

"So, what's this South African like?"

Ava and Daisy took their coffee cups and strolled around the garden. It was a beautiful morning, clear and bright, the freshly emerging leaves still glittering with dew. "How has your mother taken it all?"

"She puts on a good show, but she's ashamed, of course. But what can she do? She's my mother, she has to support me. I'm running off to South Africa, she has to stick around and answer to all her friends. You wouldn't believe the people who have turned their backs on us. The least expected." She shrugged. "At least I now know who my friends are." She turned to Ava. "I can count on you, can't I?"

Ava smiled. "You can," she said firmly. "I understand. Love is never simple. It can turn the sanest mind mad with longing. It distorts everything. Once the dust settles, you'll be happy out there with your Rupert. You've got courage. I don't think I'd ever be as brave as you. I suppose one has to weigh it all up-do I live for me, or for others?"

"And you never know how you're going to act until it happens to you."

Ava drove away envying Daisy. She had got what she wanted, but at what cost to Michael? Ava loved Phillip too much ever to hurt him like that.

Just when Ava was beginning to tolerate life without Jean-Paul, Phillip announced he'd had a telephone call from Jean-Paul's father, Henri. Ava was in the vegetable garden planting seeds with Hector. When she heard the news she stood up, trowel in hand, her face and hands grubby with mud. "You've heard from Henri?" she repeated, anxious to hear more. "What did he say?" Is Jean-Paul coming back?

A smile played around Phillip's mouth, for he knew the news would please his wife. "He's asked us to stay at the beginning of May."

"To stay?" she repeated, incredulous.

"Yes. I thought you'd be pleased. We could take our holiday there. You'll love Henri, he's a real character and Antoinette, his wife, is a keen gardener like you."

"What about Jean-Paul?"

"What about him?"

"When is he coming back?"

"I don't know. Didn't he tell you how long he was going to be away?"

"No," she replied quickly, wiping her forehead with the back of her hand. "So he'll be there?"

"I'm sure he will. I told him we're very pleased with Jean-Paul's work. That he's learning a great deal. I told him he's indispensable to us now-thought a little exaggeration wouldn't hurt."

"Didn't he think it odd that he had gone home?"

"Clearly not. Why is it odd?"

"He's been away three weeks."

"You're not missing him, are you, Shrub-the woman who said she wouldn't last more than a week with him?"

She turned away, pretending to be keeping an eye on Hector. "Well, we could do with his help. There's an awful lot to do around here."

"So, what should I tell Henri?"

Ava lost her focus among the greenhouses, aware that she was standing at a crossroads and that her fate and perhaps the fate of her whole family depended on the choice she made now. She thought of Daisy Hopeton. How she had disapproved. But was she any better? Then something pulled at her. An invisible cord attached to her heart, pulling her across an unseen threshold. "Tell him yes," she said slowly, knowing that she should have taken the other path. "Tell him we'd love to."

"Good. I knew you'd be pleased. Don't I always come up with the goods?" He chuckled and wandered through the gate in the wall back to the house. Ava felt the familiar tingle of excitement and the rising of her spirits out of the smog that had been her unhappiness. Suddenly she was able to see the suns.h.i.+ne and feel its warm rays on her face. She looked around at the budding trees and bushes and breathed in the fertile scents of flowering shrubs and new gra.s.s, allowing spring to uplift her as it always did.

She knelt down and continued to plant the marrow seeds for Poppy. Inside, her stomach was filled with bubbles. Then she felt the guilt, p.r.i.c.king each bubble one by one, spoiling her joy. She told herself that her desire to see Jean-Paul again was innocent. That all she wanted to do was to be in his company and convince him to return with them to Hartington. They would be dear friends. That was all.

That night Phillip made love to her. She was so overwhelmed with happiness that she received him enthusiastically, pulling him into her arms, kissing him pa.s.sionately, savoring his attention, telling him how much she loved him. Masking the secret feelings she had for Jean-Paul.

"You're back, Shrub," he said afterward, scrunching her tousled hair in his hand. "You haven't been yourself."

"I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize, darling. I don't like to see you unhappy, that's all."

"You're very sweet to put up with the potato face."

"It wasn't a potato face, Shrub. More like a weeping willow. I want you to be a sunflower all year round."

"So do I."

He paused a moment. She began to plan what she would pack. "You're not unhappy with Jean-Paul, are you?"

"What do you mean?"

"I know you and he haven't exactly gelled. Is it going to ruin your holiday if he's there?"

"No. Not at all."

"He might have returned by then anyway."

"Exactly. But I don't mind. I like him. I really do. He's pleasant to have around and he's changed a lot since he arrived. It would be nice if he were there. He can show us around the chateau gardens himself."

"Good. I want you to have a good rest, Shrub. We don't have to hang around with them all day. We can venture off on our own and explore. I know you want us to spend time together."

"That's okay. I'm sure they're charming."

"Yes, but I promised you we'd have time alone. You know I always keep my promises."

This time she wouldn't mind if he didn't.

XXIV.

Raindrops on bluebells. The eccentric sound of a cuckoo. The uplifting sight of flirtatious mallards in flight.

They were met at Bordeaux airport by Henri's driver. He held up a sign saying phillip lightly, welcome! He spoke no English and Ava was thrilled to speak French to him. Phillip listened with pride as she chatted easily. He had never seen her look more beautiful. Her hair was loose and falling down her back in s.h.i.+ny curls. Her cheeks were pink which accentuated the sparkling green of her eyes, and her face had tanned the color of warm honey. She wore glittery pink velvet slippers on her feet and a rather old-fas.h.i.+oned black dress printed with small pink flowers, and a short olive green cardigan. He noticed that she walked with a bounce in her step and was pleased that he had gone ahead and organized this break away from home. It was just what she needed.

Ava was as taut as a tightly strung violin. Outwardly she put on a good show of simply being excited by the holiday, but inside she was quivering with nerves. What would Jean-Paul think of her appearing at his home? What if he had chosen to spend the week in Paris in order to avoid her? Or worse, what if he interpreted this trip as an indication of her readiness to give herself to him body and soul? She stared out of the window and pondered the wisdom of her decision.

France was in the full throes of spring. The trees were all in leaf, tall white candles adorned the horse chestnuts, and undulating fields of vines s.h.i.+mmered with their first leaves. Roses grew in abundance. The driver told Ava that they were planted at the ends of the rows to stop the ploughing oxen from nibbling the vines as they turned around to start the next row. To her delight she spotted a pair of swallows on the wing and a pretty brown thrush.

Finally, the car swept up a long curved drive, beneath an ancient avenue of towering trees that plunged them into shadow. At the end, the house stood bathed in suns.h.i.+ne. It was a majestic, neocla.s.sical building on a grand scale. Built in pale, sand-colored stone, symmetrical, with tall windows framed by blue shutters and ornate black balconies, its beauty distracted Ava from her fears and filled her with wonder. Virginia creeper scaled the walls with honeysuckle and wisteria. As they approached, she could see the steep roof of slate tiles and charming dormer windows, each one capped by a curving pediment like a graceful eyebrow. Narrow stone chimneys reached into the sky with fanciful, cone-topped towers, decorated by a sudden spray of small birds.

The car drew up on the gravel outside the house. A pair of Great Danes charged out of the open door, their deep barks biting into the still air and echoing off the walls of the chateau. Ava climbed out of the car, her heart beating with antic.i.p.ation. She raised her eyes to see an elegant, olive-skinned woman standing at the door. With her black hair pulled into a chignon that showed off her beautiful bone structure and deep-set brown eyes, she was obviously Antoinette, Jean-Paul's mother.

Antoinette smiled serenely. "Welcome," she said, stepping onto the gravel. "I hope you had a pleasant journey."

"Splendid," said Phillip, striding over to her. She gave him her hand and he leaned forward to kiss her. She was tall and willowy in flowing white trousers held at the waist with a brown crocodile belt. She wore a man's striped s.h.i.+rt beneath a cream waistcoat lined with black-striped ticking. Ava thought she was the chicest woman she had ever laid eyes on. "This is my wife, Ava," Phillip added, introducing her.

"I have heard so much about you," she said warmly. "Jean-Paul is so fond of you." Ava shook her hand, thin and surprisingly cold to touch, and wondered how much he had told her.

"Please come inside. I hope you don't mind the dogs, they are rather large but very friendly."

"We adore dogs," said Ava, trying to hide her nervousness behind a veneer of enthusiasm. "We have two of our own."

"Of course you do. Well, you will feel quite at home then."

They walked across the hall dominated by a sweeping stone staircase and a giant fireplace full of neatly cut logs piled one on top of the other. On the mantelpiece were ancient bottles of wine lined up on display. The floor was of big square flag-stones that shone, except along the middle where they were worn away by centuries of treading feet. Antoinette took them through to the drawing room, a grand red salon with high ceilings and long crimson curtains framing French doors that opened onto a wide terrace, surrounded by a stone bal.u.s.trade. Faded tapestries of hunting scenes hung on the walls, flanked by gilded portraits of the family ancestors. Ava ran her eyes over them, seeking out any similarities with Jean-Paul. A maid entered the room and Antoinette asked her to bring a tray of drinks to the terrace. "And where is my son, Francoise?" she added. Ava's stomach flipped and she grew anxious that she wouldn't be able to hide her feelings.

"He is out," she replied.

Antoinette sighed. "And Henri?" Francoise shrugged. "Well, go and find him and tell him our guests have arrived. I said they would be here by noon."

"Yes, madame," said Francoise obediently and left the room.

"Come, let us sit on the terrace. It is warm there in the sun. Francoise will bring us some wine." She opened the French doors wide and stepped outside. The dogs followed her, trotting off to sniff the borders and c.o.c.k their legs against the bal.u.s.trade. Below, the gardens stretched out to an old wall covered in climbing roses and pink bougainvillea, where ancient trees watched over the grounds and, beyond, the domed roof of a dovecote silhouetted against the sky. Ava could see at once why the chateau was so special to Jean-Paul and why he did what his father asked of him in order not to lose it.

"Ah, my friends, you have arrived!" exclaimed Henri, approaching the terrace from around the side of the house. His voice was loud and booming, like a trombone. "You should have sent Francoise to find me," he added to his wife.

"I did," she replied coolly. He embraced Phillip with the warmth of an old friend and kissed Ava's hand as his son had done. He smiled broadly, dark eyes appraising her beneath a thick head of rich brown curls. Ava remembered Jean-Paul telling her that he had a mistress in Paris. It didn't surprise her. He was devilishly handsome, like his son. "Where's the wine? Francoise!" he bellowed. Francoise appeared almost at once, struggling beneath the weight of a large tray heavy with bottles and gla.s.ses as well as a jug of iced water. Henri made no move to help her. "Good! We were in danger of dying of thirst," he said in English so that the maid couldn't understand. He sat down and pulled out a cigar. "So, Phillip, my friend, how is the book?"

Antoinette turned to Ava. "Would you like to see the dovecote? Jean-Paul tells me you have one in your garden."

"I would love to. Is that its dome over there?"

"Yes."

"It's far more magnificent than ours."

"Jean-Paul says you have the most beautiful estate."

"I wish he were there now. Everything is bursting into flower-and the smells, it's never smelled more delicious."

"Come, I need to talk with you."

Ava followed her down the wide steps to the garden, leaving the men talking and drinking on the terrace. Once again she felt the blood rus.h.i.+ng through her veins with panic. Had Jean-Paul told his mother that he was in love with her? Was she going to warn her off? Say he needed to marry a young woman from his own country and have a son to inherit as he would do? She began to feel nauseous and rubbed her forehead in agitation. The sun was very hot, in spite of the cool breeze, and the twittering birds were drowned by her own pulse thumping in her ears.

"May I speak with you plainly?" Antoinette asked as they walked across the lawn towards an iron gate built into the wall.

"Of course," Ava replied.

"It's about Jean-Paul." Antoinette glanced across at her. "He is my only child, you know, and I love him deeply."

"I know, he's told me a lot about you."

"I'm sure. The trouble is that he has a terrible relations.h.i.+p with his father. Henri is insensitive to his needs. Jean-Paul is a talented artist but Henri does not like him to paint. He writes beautiful poetry but Henri thinks nothing of poetry. Henri had an uncle who wasted his life painting unremarkable paintings. He does not want Jean-Paul to waste his life like him. It's not just the painting. Jean-Paul spent months in Paris doing nothing but dating inappropriate girls, which was a good thing on one hand-Henri was afraid he was h.o.m.os.e.xual-but on the other hand it is no life for a young man who will one day inherit an estate such as this. Henri wants him to help run the vineyard here, but he was never interested, until now."

"Now?" Ava wondered where the conversation was leading.

"He wants to stay here and learn about the vineyard, but Ava, he needs to go back with you." Ava was unable to reply, her throat was so tight with emotion. "I think he wants to stay for me. You see, I'm alone here most of the time. Henri lives in Paris. I'm sure he told you. He speaks about you with such affection, Ava. It makes me so happy to know that he is understood. He told me he painted a garden for you."

"It is the most beautiful painting, Antoinette. We have planted it just as he painted it. He has such imagination and flair."

"I know." She smiled again and shrugged. "I understand him, of course." She opened the iron gate, which whined on its hinges like an old dog, and led her into a wild meadow in the midst of which stood the round stone dovecote. "He is not ready to come home, Ava. I can tell he is unhappy. If he comes home now he will not be free of his father. Not for a moment. With you he is able to enjoy freedom to be himself. I couldn't bear it if he sacrificed that for me. This is an opportunity of a lifetime and I want him to enjoy it. I will still be here in the autumn. Tell him, for me, that he has to return. I know you can persuade him. His father thinks he has come home for a break. He will never forgive Jean-Paul if he thinks he has let you down, after all your kindness. You see, he has to return with you. There is no other way. Do it, please, for me."

"I'll try," Ava replied huskily.