Breathing Lessons Part 26

"I wish you lived closer," Maggie said.

Serena said, "I don't have anyone to tell about the trivia, what the plumbing's up to and how the red ants have come back in the kitchen."

"You can tell me me," Maggie said.

"Well, but they're not your red ants too, don't you see? I mean you and I are not in this together."

"Oh," Maggie said.

There was a pause.

What was it Ira was whistling? Something from that record Leroy had played this evening; the lyrics were on the tip of Maggie's tongue. He scooped up a run of diamonds and s.h.i.+fted them to a king. the tip of Maggie's tongue. He scooped up a run of diamonds and s.h.i.+fted them to a king.

"You know," Serena said, "whenever Max went on a business trip we'd have so much to tell each other when he came home. He would talk and talk, and I I would talk and talk, and then, you know what we'd do?" would talk and talk, and then, you know what we'd do?"

"What?"

"We'd have a great big horrible fight."

Maggie laughed.

"And then we'd patch it up, and then we'd go to bed together," Serena said. "Crazy, wasn't it? And now I keep thinking: If Max were resurrected this minute, hale and hearty, would we still have our horrible fight just the same?"

"Well, I guess you would," Maggie said.

She wondered how it would feel to know she had seen Ira for the very last time on this earth. She supposed she would have trouble believing it. For several months, maybe, she would half expect him to come sauntering in again just as he had sauntered into choir practice that first spring evening thirty years ago.

"Um, also, Serena," she said, "I want to apologize for what happened after the funeral."

"Oh, forget it."

"No, really, both of us feel just terrible."

She hoped Serena couldn't hear Ira in the background; it made her apology seem insincere. Lately it occurs to me Lately it occurs to me, he was whistling cheerily, what a long, strange trip it's been... what a long, strange trip it's been...

"Forget it; I flew off the handle," Serena told her. "Widow's nerves, or something. Pure silliness. I'm past the stage now where I can discard old friends without a thought; I can't afford it."

"Oh, don't say that!"

"What, you want want me to discard you?" me to discard you?"

"No, no..."

"Just joking," Serena told her. "Maggie, thanks for calling. I mean it. It was good to hear your voice."

"Anytime," Maggie said.

"Bye."

"Bye."

Serena hung up. A moment later, so did Maggie.

This ice cream wasn't even edible anymore. She had let it turn to soup. Also she was feeling overstuffed. She looked down at herself-at the bodice of her slip stretched tight across her b.r.e.a.s.t.s. "I'm an elephant," she told Ira.

He said, "Not again."

"Seriously."

He tapped his upper lip with a forefinger and studied his cards.

Well. She rose and went into the bathroom, stripping as she walked, and took her nightgown from its hook. When she dropped it over her head it shook itself out around her, loose and cool and weightless. "Whew!" she said. She washed her face and brushed her teeth. A trail of underclothes led from bedroom to bathroom; she picked them up and stuffed them into the hamper.

Sometimes, after an especially trying day, she felt an urge to burn everything she had worn.

Then while she was arranging her dress on a hanger, she was struck by a thought. She looked over at Ira. She looked away. She hung the dress in her closet, next to her one silk blouse.

"Goodness," she said, turning toward him again. "Wasn't Cartwheel d.i.n.ky."

"Mm."

"I'd forgotten how d.i.n.ky," she said.

"Mmhmm."

"I bet their school is d.i.n.ky too."

No response.

"Do you suppose the Cartwheel school offers a good education?"

"I really couldn't say," Ira said.

She closed the closet door firmly. "Well, I I can say," she told him. "It must be a full year behind the schools in Baltimore. Maybe two." can say," she told him. "It must be a full year behind the schools in Baltimore. Maybe two."

"And naturally Baltimore's schools are superb," Ira said.

"Well, at least they're better than Cartwheel's."

He raised an eyebrow at her.

"I mean most likely," Maggie said.

He picked up a card, moved it onto another, then changed his mind and moved it back again.

"Here's what we could do," Maggie said. "Write and ask Fiona if she's given any thought to Leroy's education. Offer to enroll her down here in Baltimore and let Leroy live with us nine months of the year."

"No," Ira said.

"Or even twelve months, if it works out that way. You know how attached children get to their cla.s.smates and such. She might not want to leave."

"Maggie, look at me."

She faced him, hands on her hips.

"No," he said.

There were a lot of arguments she could have mentioned. All kinds of arguments!

But she didn't, somehow. She dropped her hands and wandered over to the window.

It was a warm, deep, quiet night, with just enough breeze to set the shade-pull swinging. She raised the shade higher and leaned out, pressing her forehead against the gritty screen. The air smelled of rubber tires and gra.s.s. s.n.a.t.c.hes of adventure music drifted up from the Lockes' TV next door. Across the street, the Simmonses were climbing their front steps, the husband jingling his house keys. the Lockes' TV next door. Across the street, the Simmonses were climbing their front steps, the husband jingling his house keys. They They would not be going to bed yet; no chance of that. They were one of those happily childless young couples with eyes for only each other, and no doubt they were returning from dinner in a restaurant and now would...do what? Put on some romantic music, maybe something with violins, and sit conversing graciously on their spotless white love seat, each raising a winegla.s.s made of that thin, extra-breakable crystal that doesn't even have a lip around the rim. Or maybe they would dance. She had seen them dancing on their front porch once-the wife in spike heels, with her hair swept up in an igloo shape, the husband holding her slightly apart in a formal, admiring way. would not be going to bed yet; no chance of that. They were one of those happily childless young couples with eyes for only each other, and no doubt they were returning from dinner in a restaurant and now would...do what? Put on some romantic music, maybe something with violins, and sit conversing graciously on their spotless white love seat, each raising a winegla.s.s made of that thin, extra-breakable crystal that doesn't even have a lip around the rim. Or maybe they would dance. She had seen them dancing on their front porch once-the wife in spike heels, with her hair swept up in an igloo shape, the husband holding her slightly apart in a formal, admiring way.

Maggie spun around and returned to the bed. "Oh, Ira," she said, dropping down beside him, "what are we two going to live for, all the rest of our lives?"

She had dislodged a stack of his cards, but he kindly refrained from straightening them and instead reached out one arm and drew her in. "There, now, sweetheart," he said, and he settled her next to him. Still holding her close, he transferred a four of spades to a five, and Maggie rested her head against his chest and watched. He had arrived at the interesting part of the game by now, she saw. He had pa.s.sed that early, superficial stage when any number of moves seemed possible, and now his choices were narrower and he had to show real skill and judgment. She felt a little stir of something that came over her like a flush, a sort of inner buoyancy, and she lifted her face to kiss the warm blade of his cheekbone. Then she slipped free and moved to her side of the bed, because tomorrow they had a long car trip to make and she knew she would need a good night's sleep before they started.

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THE ACCIDENTAL TOURIST.

SAINT MAYBE.

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Read on for an excerpt fromThe Beginner's Goodbyethe new novel by Anne Tylercoming from Knopf in April 2012

1.

The strangest thing about my wife's return from the dead was how other people reacted.

We were strolling through Belvedere Square, for instance, on an early-spring afternoon when we met our old next-door neighbor, Jim Rust. "Well, what do you know," he said to me. "Aaron!" Then he noticed Dorothy beside me. She stood peering up at him with one hand s.h.i.+elding her forehead from the sun. His eyes widened and he turned to me again.

I said, "How's it going, Jim?"

Visibly, he pulled himself together. "Oh...great," he said. "I mean...or, rather...but of course we miss you. Neighborhood is not the same without you!"

He was focusing on me alone-specifically, on my mouth, as if I were the one who was talking. He wouldn't look at Dorothy. He had pivoted a few inches so as to exclude her from his line of vision.

I took pity on him. I said, "Well, tell everybody h.e.l.lo," and we walked on. Beside me, Dorothy gave one of her dry chuckles.

Other people pretended not to recognize either one of us. They would catch sight of us from a distance, and this sort of jolt would alter their expressions and they would all at once dart down a side street, busy-busy, much to accomplish, very important concerns on their minds. I didn't hold it against them. I knew this was a lot to adjust to. In their position, I might have behaved the same way. I like to think I wouldn't, but I might have.

The ones who made me laugh aloud were the ones who had forgotten she'd died. Granted, there were only two or three of those-people who barely knew us. In line at the bank once we were spotted by Mr. von Sant, who had handled our mortgage application several years before. He was crossing the lobby and he paused to ask, "You two still enjoying the house?"

"Oh, yes," I told him.

Just to keep things simple.

I pictured how the realization would hit him a few minutes later. Wait! Wait! he would say to himself, as he was sitting back down at his desk. he would say to himself, as he was sitting back down at his desk. Didn't I hear something about ...? Didn't I hear something about ...?

Unless he never gave us another thought. Or hadn't heard the news in the first place. He'd go on forever a.s.suming that the house was still intact, and Dorothy still alive, and the two of us still happily, unremarkably married.