False Memory Part 39

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"I understand."

"I am proud of you."

"Thank you."

Her blue eyes seeking. His wisdom gives her vision. Teacher and student.

Not bad technically, but false. He isn't primarily her teacher, and she isn't his student in any meaningful sense. Player and toy. Master and possession.

"Martie, when these images return to you during panic attacks, they will disgust and sicken you, fill you with nausea and even with despair...but they will also also hold a strange fascination. You will find them repulsive but compelling. Although you might despair for the victims in these images, in a deep precinct of your mind, you will admire the killers who savaged them. A part of you will envy those killers their power, and you'll recognize this murderous aspect of yourself. You will fear this violent other Martie...and yet yearn to surrender control to her. You will see these images as hold a strange fascination. You will find them repulsive but compelling. Although you might despair for the victims in these images, in a deep precinct of your mind, you will admire the killers who savaged them. A part of you will envy those killers their power, and you'll recognize this murderous aspect of yourself. You will fear this violent other Martie...and yet yearn to surrender control to her. You will see these images as wishes, wishes, as frenzies of violence that you yourself would indulge in if only you could be true to that other Martie, that cold savage self who is, in fact, your true human nature. That other Martie is the as frenzies of violence that you yourself would indulge in if only you could be true to that other Martie, that cold savage self who is, in fact, your true human nature. That other Martie is the real real you. The gentle woman you appear to be...she is nothing but a deception, a shadow you cast in the light of civilization, so you can pa.s.s for one of the weak and not alarm them. Over the next few sessions, I will show you how to become the Martie you are meant to be, how to shed this shadow existence and become truly you. The gentle woman you appear to be...she is nothing but a deception, a shadow you cast in the light of civilization, so you can pa.s.s for one of the weak and not alarm them. Over the next few sessions, I will show you how to become the Martie you are meant to be, how to shed this shadow existence and become truly alive, alive, how to fulfill your potential, seize the power and the glory that are your destiny." how to fulfill your potential, seize the power and the glory that are your destiny."

The doctor had brought two large and beautifully ill.u.s.trated textbooks with him to the couch. These expensive volumes were used in criminology courses in many universities. Most police detectives and big-city medical examiners were familiar with them, but few in the general public knew of their existence.

The first was a definitive study of forensic pathology, which is the science of recognizing and interpreting diseases, injuries, and wounds in the human body. Forensic pathology was of interest to Dr. Ahriman, because he was a man of medicine and because he was determined never to leave evidence-in the organic ruins resulting from his games-that might result in his transferral from mansion to cell, padded or not.

GO TO JAIL, GO DIRECTLY TO JAIL was a card he intended never to accept. After all, unlike in Monopoly, this game included no was a card he intended never to accept. After all, unlike in Monopoly, this game included no GET OUT OF JAIL FREE GET OUT OF JAIL FREE cards. cards.

The second textbook was a comprehensive study of the tactics, the procedures, and the forensic techniques of practical homicide investigation. The doctor had acquired it on the principle that good gamesmans.h.i.+p requires one to understand fully the strategies of opposing players.

Both volumes held galleries of Death's dark art. The forensic-pathology textbook featured more examples and a greater variety of soul-shriveling grisliness, but the volume on homicide investigation offered more shots of victims in situ, which had a charm not always to be found in photographs taken at the morgue, as any slaughterhouse is visually more arresting than any butcher-shop display. Guggenheims of blood, Louvres of violence, museums of human evil and misery bound with tables of contents and indexes for easy reference.

Docile, she waited. Lips parted. Eyes wide. A vessel ready to be filled.

"You're quite lovely," the doctor told her. "Martie, I must admit, blinded by Susan's light, I had too little appreciation for your beauty. Until now."

Seasoned by more suffering, she would be exquisitely erotic.

He began, then, with the homicide-investigation textbook. He opened to a page marked with a pink Post-it.

Holding the volume in front of Martie, Ahriman directed her attention to a photograph of a dead man lying supine on a hardwood floor. Naked, he was, and ravaged by thirty-six stab wounds. The doctor made sure that Martie noted, in particular, the imaginative use to which the killer had put the victim's genitals.

"And there, the railroad spike in the forehead," Ahriman said. "Steel, ten inches in length, with a one-inch-diameter nailhead, but you can't see much of the length. It pins him to the oak flooring. A crucifixion reference, no doubt-the nail through the hand and the crown of thorns combined in one efficient symbol. Absorb it, Martie. Every glorious detail."

She stared intensely, as instructed, gaze traveling wound to wound across the photograph.

"The victim was a priest," the doctor informed her. "The killer most likely found the oak flooring regrettable, but no manufacturer of home-improvement products has had the panache to market dogwood tongue and groove."

Blue jiggle. Blue stillness. A blink. The image captured now and stored away.

Ahriman turned the page.

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As worried as he had been about Martie, Dusty had not expected to be able to concentrate on the novel. The peace of mind that had settled upon him when he entered Dr. Ahriman's office did not fade, however, and he found himself more easily captured by the story than he expected to be.

The Manchurian Candidate offered an entertaining plot peopled with colorful characters, just as Martie had promised in her curious wooden tone and phrases. Considering the high quality of the novel, her failure to finish it-or even to read a significant portion of it-during the months she had carried it to Susan's sessions was more inexplicable than ever. offered an entertaining plot peopled with colorful characters, just as Martie had promised in her curious wooden tone and phrases. Considering the high quality of the novel, her failure to finish it-or even to read a significant portion of it-during the months she had carried it to Susan's sessions was more inexplicable than ever.

In Chapter 2, Dusty came to a paragraph that began with the name Dr. Yen Lo. Dr. Yen Lo.

Shock triggered a reflex action that nearly sent the book flying out of his hands. He held on to it, but lost his place.

Flipping through the text in search of his page, he was sure that his eyes had tricked him. Some phrase containing four syllables similar to those in that Asian name must have made the connection for him, causing him to misread.

Dusty located the second chapter, the page, the paragraph, and there indisputably was the name in clear black type, spelled just as Skeet had spelled it over and over again on the pages of the notepad: Dr. Yen Lo. Dr. Yen Lo. The type jittered up and down as his hands shook. The type jittered up and down as his hands shook.

The name had caused the kid to drop instantly into that strange dissociative state, as though he were hypnotized, and now it gave Dusty a case of the whim-whams that left the nape of his neck more corrugated than corduroy. Even the singularly calming influence of the waiting-room decor could not raise any warmth along his spine, which was as cold as a thermometer in a meat locker.

Using one finger as a bookmark, he got to his feet and paced the small room, trying to work off sufficient nervous energy to be able to hold the book still enough to read.

Why was Skeet so tormented and so affected by a name that was nothing more than that of a character in a work of fiction?

Considering the kid's taste in literature, the groaning shelves of fantasy novels in his apartment, he probably hadn't even read this thriller. There was nary a dragon in it, neither elf nor wizard.

After several circuits of the room, beginning to understand the frustration of a zoo-kept panther, Dusty returned to his chair, even though he still felt as if all the fluid in his spine had collected, like chilled mercury, in the small of his back.

He continued reading. Dr. Yen Lo... Dr. Yen Lo...

49.

Sloppy work, this decapitation, obviously performed with the wrong cutting tool.

"The victim's eyes are a point of interest here, Martie. How wide they appear. The upper lids crimped back so far by shock that they almost look as though they were cut off. Such mystery in his gaze, such an otherworldly quality, as though in the moment of death, he had been granted a glimpse of what awaited him beyond."

She looked into the pitiable eyes in the photograph. Blinked. Blinked.

Paging to the next pink Post-it, the doctor said, "This one is of special importance, Martie. Study it well."

She lowered her head slightly toward the page.

"You and Dusty will eventually be required to mutilate a woman in a similar manner to this, and you will arrange the various body parts in a tableau as clever as this one. The victim here is a girl, just fourteen years old, but the two of you will be dealing with a somewhat older person."

The doctor's interest was so gripped by the photograph that he didn't see the first two tears until they had tracked most of the way down Martie's face. Looking up, catching sight of those twin pearls, he was astonished.

"Martie, you are supposed to be in that deepest of deep places in your mind, far down in the chapel. Tell me whether or not that is where you are."

"Yes. Here. The chapel."

With her personality this deeply repressed, she should not have been able to respond emotionally either to anything that she witnessed or to anything that was done to her. As with Susan, the doctor should have had to bring her out from the chapel and up a flight or two of stairs, figuratively speaking, to a higher level of consciousness, before she would be capable of any reaction as savory as this.

"Tell me what's wrong, Martie."

Her voice was barely louder than a breath: "Such pain."

"You're in pain?"

"Her."

"Tell me who."

As more tears welled and s.h.i.+mmered in her eyes, she pointed to the rearranged young girl in the photograph.

Puzzled, Ahriman said, "It's just a photograph."

"Of a real person," she murmured.

"She's been dead a long time."

"She was alive once."

Martie's lacrimal glands were evidently fine specimens. Her lacrimal sacs emptied into the lacrimal lakes, which reached flood stage, and two more droplets sluiced a little misery out of her eyes.

Ahriman was reminded of Susan's final tear, squeezed out in the last minute of her life. Dying, of course, must be a stressful experience, even when one perishes quietly in a state of extreme personality submersion. Martie was not dying. Yet, these tears.

"You didn't know this girl," the doctor persisted.

Barely a whisper: "No."

"She might have deserved this."

"No."

"She might have been a teenage prost.i.tute."

Softly, bleakly: "Doesn't matter."

"Perhaps she was a murderer herself."

"She's me."

"What does that mean?" he asked.

"What does that mean?" she parroted.

"You say that she is you. Explain."

"It can't be explained."

"Then it's meaningless."

"It can only be known."

"It can only be known," he repeated scornfully.

"Yes."

"Is this a riddle, maybe a Zen koan or something?"

"Is it?" she asked.

"Girls," he said impatiently.

Martie said nothing.

The doctor closed the book, studied her profile for a moment, and then said, "Look at me."

She turned her head to face him.

"Be still," he said. "I want to taste."

Ahriman pressed his lips to each of her welling eyes. A little tongue work, too.

"Salty," he said, "but something else. A subtle something quite intriguing."

He required another sip. A spasm of REM caused her eye to quiver erotically against his tongue.

Sitting back from her again, Ahriman said, "Astringent but not bitter."

Girl's face s.h.i.+ny damp. All the sorrow of the world. Yet such bright beauty.

Daring to believe that those three lines were the beginning of yet another haiku worth committing to paper, the doctor tucked the verses away in his mind to be polished later.

As if the heat of Ahriman's lips had withered Martie's lacrimal apparatus, her eyes grew dry once more.

"You're going to be a lot more fun than I thought," Ahriman said. "You'll require considerable finesse, but the extra effort ought to be worthwhile. Like all the best toys, the art of your form-your mind and heart-at least equals the thrill of your function. Now I want you to be calm, perfectly calm, detached, observant, obedient."

"I understand."

He opened the textbook again.

With the doctor's patient guidance, dry-eyed this time, Martie studied the crime-scene photograph of the dismembered girl, whose parts had been creatively rearranged. He instructed her to imagine what it would be like to commit this atrocity herself, to glory in the reeking wet reality of what she saw here on the glossy page. To be certain Martie involved all five of her senses in this exercise, Ahriman employed his medical knowledge, his personal experience, and his well-conditioned imagination to a.s.sist her with many details of color, texture, and stench.

Then other pages. Other photographs. Fresh corpses but also bodies in various stages of decomposition.

Blink.

Blink.

Finally he returned the two heavy volumes to the bookshelves.

False Memory Part 39

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