Sally Bishop Part 33
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Sally's fingers gripped tight about her little parcel. "Oh no, not so very long."
"He's a quaint, int'resting sort of person. Don't you find him so?"
To Sally, this description sounded ludicrous. The fas.h.i.+onable way of putting things was utterly unknown to her. To think of Traill as quaint, in the sense of the word as she understood it, seemed preposterous. She could not realize that the Society idea of quaintness is anything which does not pa.s.sably imitate or become one of itself.
"Interesting--yes, I certainly think he is. This room alone would show that, wouldn't it?"
"Oh, well, I don't know so much about that. He'd have this sort of room anywhere, wherever he lived. It's the fact that he chooses to live here and slave and work that I think's uncommon--so quaint. But he'll give it up--he's bound to give it up after a time. You can't wash out what's in the blood. Do you think you can? He'll drop the Bohemian one day--it's merely a phase. I'm only just waiting, you know, to give the dinner on his coming out." She drew on her long gloves and smiled in her antic.i.p.ation of the event.
None of the value of this did Sally lose--none of the intent that lay behind it. She perfectly realized that it was meant to convey a candid warning to her; that if she had pretensions, she might as well light their funeral pyre immediately, burn all her hopes and ambitions, a sacrifice before the altar of renunciation. But ambitions, she had none. With her nature, she would willingly have consented to their burning at such a command as this. What hopes she possessed, certainly, were shattered; but the flame of her pa.s.sion, that was only kindled the more. Now that she realized how utterly he was beyond her reach, how immeasurably he was above her, she made silent concessions to the crying demands of her heart which she would not have dreamed of admitting to herself before.
Irretrievably he was gone now. All Janet had said, strong in truth as it may have seemed at the time, had only been based upon her extraordinary view of life in general. Some cases, perhaps, it might have applied to; it did not apply to this. Janet was utterly wrong; she was not winning him. In this chance meeting with his sister, brief though it may have been, she knew that she had lost him; arriving at which conclusion, she probably reached the most dangerous phase in the whole existence of a woman's temptations.
When Traill returned, he found them both in preparation for departure.
Sally had replaced the little feather boa about her neck and one of her gloves, which she had taken off when he gave her the coffee, she was b.u.t.toning at the wrist.
"You're not going, are you?" he exclaimed.
"Yes; I must."
"But you haven't told me what you wanted to see me about yet."
"No, I know I haven't; but that must wait. I can easily write to you."
Mrs. Durlacher picked up her skirts, the silk rustling like leaves in an autumn wind. As she lowered her head in the movement, the dilation of her nostrils repressed a smile of satisfaction. "You mustn't let my going force you away," she said graciously.
"Oh, but I must go," said Sally.
Traill shrugged his shoulders. Let her have her way. When women are doing things for apparently no reason, they are the most obstinate.
But at the door of the room as his sister pa.s.sed out first, he caught Sally's elbow in a tense grip and for the instant held her back.
"I shall wait here for you for half an hour," he whispered.
CHAPTER XXII
"Is there anywhere that I can take you, Miss Bishop?" Mrs. Durlacher offered, as they stood by the side of the s.h.i.+vering taxi. "I'm going out to Sloane Street."
"Oh no, thank you; it's very good of you. I'm going to catch a train at Waterloo." She shook hands, then held out her hand quietly to Traill.
"Good-bye, Mr. Traill."
He took her hand and held it with meaning. "Good-bye."
She turned away and walked down Waterloo Place, her head erect, her steps firm, but the tears rolling from her eyes, and her breast lifting with every sob that she stifled in her throat.
Mrs. Durlacher looked after her; then her eyes swept up to her brother's face.
"Is she going to walk all the way to Waterloo Station?" she asked incredulously.
"Expect so."
Mrs. Durlacher looked above her in a perfect simulation of amazement.
Then she stepped into the cab.
"Jack," she said, when she was seated.
"What?"
She prefaced her words with a little laugh. "I wouldn't be a little milliner at your mercy for all I could see."
Traill snorted contemptuously. "She's not a little milliner," he said, cutting each word clean with irony. "Neither in your sense, nor in reality. Fortune has cursed her with being a lady and withheld the necessary increment that would make such things obvious to you.
Good night."
He stood away, and told the chauffeur the address in Sloane Street.
They did not look at each other again, and the little vehicle pulled away from the kerbstone without the final nod of the head or shaking of the hand which usually terminated their meetings.
The last sight she had of him, was as he stood looking down Waterloo Place, his eyes picking out the people one by one, as the miner sifts the dross from the dust of gold. Then she leant back in the cab and a low, sententious laugh lazily parted her lips.
For a moment, Traill stood there; but Sally was out of sight. It crossed his mind to run down into Pall Mall--coatless, hatless, as he was--in the hope of finding her; but an inner consciousness convinced him that she would return, and he walked back into the house, upstairs to his room to wait for her.
When the mind had been made up to a critical sacrifice, it hates to be thwarted. The more difficult the sacrifice may be, the more the mind is revolted by the hampering of circ.u.mstances. Having brought herself through a thousand temptings to the determination that she must not keep the bangle which Traill had given her, Sally felt incensed with circ.u.mstances, incensed with everything, that she had been hindered in the carrying out of her design. All that Janet had said about her ultimate going back to him, she had wiped out with a rough and unrelenting hand during that hour when she had been in his sister's presence. But the sting of the other remained, while she firmly believed that her desire to see him once more, herself in the frail att.i.tude of hope, had vanished--was dead, buried, almost forgotten.
The working of the mind is so like that of the body, that comparisons can be drawn at every point. When the body needs nourishment, or exercise, or rest, and is denied all of these things, it circ.u.mvents its own master and steals its needs with cunning. So is it precisely with the mind. When the mind craves a certain expression of itself, needs a certain relief, and is denied its craving, then it, too, circ.u.mvents its own master, and, by the crafty displacement of ideas, hoodwinking the very power that governs it, it attains its end.
Sally, yearning in her heart for one more sight of Traill, the putting to the touch of her last hope, and then crus.h.i.+ng out the desire into an apparent oblivion, was trapped, deceived, outwitted by such subtle suggestions as that she had been thwarted in her determination of sacrifice.
At the bottom of Waterloo Place, she hesitated. He had said he would wait half an hour. She would be back almost immediately if she returned at once. Her steps took her onwards down Pall Mall, but they were slower and more measured than before. At the Carlton Restaurant, she stopped again. She wanted to give him back the bangle herself; to tell him herself how utterly she knew it was at an end. She could write, certainly; she could send the little box by post. She had said she would. But a romance, the only romance she had ever had in her life, to end through the tepid medium of the post--the letter dropped in through the black and gaping slit--just the one moment's thrill that now he must get it! Then, nothing; then, emptiness and the end.
She wanted more than that. She would cry, perhaps, break down when she saw him put it aside where she could never touch it again. But what were tears? They were better than nothing; better than the hollowness of such an end as the writing of a letter would bring.
With half-formed decision, she turned up Haymarket instead of crossing towards Trafalgar Square and so, slowly, by indecisive steps, she found herself, some ten minutes later, once more knocking gently upon Traill's door.
The sound from within, as he jumped to his feet, set her heart beating through the blood, and though she steadied herself, her lips were trembling as he opened and made way for her to enter.
She walked straight into the room, did not turn until she heard him close the door; even then, she refused to let her eyes meet his in a direct gaze. This was not easy for, having once shut the door, he stood with his back to it, looking intently at her as if, securing her at last, he would not willingly let her free.
"What made you come?" he asked, slowly--"and, having come--then, why on earth did you go away? In the last few minutes before you arrived, I almost began to think that you weren't coming back again."
She tried to hide her nervousness by taking off her gloves, but her fingers fumbled at the b.u.t.tons, and in her awkwardness the seam of one of the fingers slit from top to bottom. She looked at it ruefully; was about to make use of the incident to lessen the tension of the moment when he came across to her. Standing in front of her, he looked down at the broken glove, and her white skin laid bare by the rent st.i.tching.
"You'll let me get you a new pair," he said under his breath. In that instant he wanted to give her the world. The proffer of the gloves tried to express the sensation.
She looked up into his face with a very small smile--half refusal, half grat.i.tude. When her eyes met his, she realized that her senses were swimming. She was standing on a giddy height, to throw herself from which, became an almost imperative inclination. She felt that she was losing her balance and in another moment would be pitching forward into his arms. She wanted to tell him to kiss her, and words of violent strength, which she had never dreamed of before, shouted suggestions through her--even to her lips. He seemed to be waiting for her to do all this, but made no move to accelerate it; then she swung backwards--turned blindly to the table, laying down her gloves and the little brown-paper parcel.
"You're going to take off your hat now," he said; "this room's too hot for accessories."
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