Thieving Fear Part 4
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His own dislocated voice surrounded him. Although the speakers were up in the corners of the room, he could have thought he was hearing a stifled echo somewhere in the maze of merchandise. It distracted him enough that he forgot to end the call before replacing the receiver, and the amplified clatter filled the bas.e.m.e.nt from four directions at once. The idea that Justin must have heard his incompetence made his face hotter, and for a moment he didn't know which way to turn.
The wine was stored at the back, extending from the left corner. He dodged through the maze as fast as he could, because the room felt cold as stone that had never been touched by the sun. The concrete floor, which was grubby with shadows, appeared to be s.h.i.+vering on his behalf. It owed its eager instability to the twittering of the light, which also made the cartons that hid his section restless. Their hulking shadows kept up a primitive dance along the adjacent wall, in the refrigerator cabinets full of Frugo Fusion items for the delicatessen: Fruit Dim Sum, Chicken Tikka Masala Pizza, Thai Style Sus.h.i.+, Tandoori Smoky Bacon, Black Pudding Pizza, Gnocchi Stroganoff, Gumbo Pizza . . . Sweet 'n' Sour Steak 'n' Kidney Pie had been withdrawn for lack of popularity, though it might be relaunched with a shorter t.i.tle. Hugh had to clear his head of the clamour of names before he was able to locate a case of Peruvian Red in the middle of a stack.
He was replacing the cases he'd had to s.h.i.+ft when he seemed to sense movement nearby. He could see nothing new over his shoulder, even if the piles of cartons looked anxious to topple, undermined by the unsteadiness that the light imparted to the floor. Hoisting the case of wine, he tried to take the most direct route to the lift, but more than one aisle was blocked by wheeled floats. He was somewhere in the middle of the labyrinth of merchandise when he heard his name.
It was much closer than any of the corners of the room, yet he couldn't tell where. It felt directionless enough to be inside his head. Was the mutterer hiding to one side of him or behind him or beyond one of any number of stacks of boxes in front of him? Hugh could have imagined it was beneath him, and when he glanced at the floor it seemed to stir like troubled mud. Only shadows did, but he still recoiled, and the weight of the case propelled him several extra steps backwards until he stumbled aside. The stockroom felt colder than ever, as if all the refrigerators had opened wide, and he fought to overcome his s.h.i.+vering so as not to drop the wine. He hitched the case higher on his chest and made to step forwards, and then he realised that he couldn't see the lift. Indeed, he no longer knew where it was.
Had he turned around? As soon as he did, he didn't know how far. He was surrounded by boxed barbecues that helped emphasise the subterranean chill. He hugged the case and glared about at stack after stack upon stack of boxes standing monolithically inert. The longer he stood there the heavier the case would grow, but he felt as if its weight and his disorientation were capable of paralysing him. Surely he ought to be able to work out his position by locating the different lines of stock, except that his growing panic seemed to flatten all meaning out of the descriptions on the cartons, which might have been printed in an unknown language. He had to move, and so he staggered sidelong away from the nervous light, only to realise that he no longer knew which side of the oppressively crowded room he was making for.
He hadn't felt so helplessly trapped inside his brittle skull since discovering that he was useless as a teacher, when less than a fortnight in front of a cla.s.sful of teenagers apparently determined to break him had left him terrified even to get out of bed. That was as near to a breakdown as he ever wanted to venture, and he'd given up his place at training college to seek another job, any job. However dismaying his failure had been, the vindictiveness that had caused him to fail was worse, and now he felt surrounded by a version of it that resembled a memory he very much preferred not to revive. The concepts of left and right had deserted him, and the ideas of ahead and behind were losing significance. He couldn't see the lift when he dodged to one side and then to the other while the jerky light plucked at his vision as though encouraging him to prance back and forth, to lose his way even more thoroughly. Nothing made sense outside his skull, and that was a dark cramped place in which he had no idea where to turn. He was clutching the wine to his chest, both for fear of dropping it and because its solidity was the nearest thing to even a hint of rea.s.surance, when he heard a voice.
He pivoted towards the side of the room where its owner was lurking, whichever side that was. As he regained his hold on the case of wine, which had almost slipped from his aching arms, the m.u.f.fled voice was answered by another. Both were female, unlike the one he'd previously heard. 'Where are you?' he shouted.
They didn't acknowledge him, unless their amus.e.m.e.nt did. Hugh sidled a few paces, which only aggravated the confusion all around him. 'What's funny?' he protested. 'Why won't you show yourselves?'
His panic might have driven even Hugh beyond politeness if the girls from the cosmetics section hadn't strolled into view at the end of an aisle. He could have taken them for contestants in a slimming compet.i.tion, not to mention one for blondeness. Tamara turned sideways to hold a round-bottomed pose for a second. 'Seen enough, Hugh Lucas?'
Without copying the posture Mishel said 'That's all we're showing of ourselves to you.'
'I didn't mean that,' Hugh declared, but his vehemence didn't stop his face from growing hot and, he knew, mottled. 'Who was calling?'
The girls stared at him and even more incredulously at each other. 'You were,' Tamara said.
'I don't mean just now. Who was saying my name?'
'On the intercom?' Mishel said with every appearance of concern.
'I suppose.'
The girls burst out laughing. When she could Tamara said 'That was you.'
'I didn't mean then,' Hugh pleaded, sidling to keep the girls in sight as they lost interest in him and returned to the aisle they'd emerged from. In a moment he saw why their voices had started out m.u.f.fled. The girls hadn't been hiding from him. They'd been in the lift, which was beyond them.
He dashed along the aisle as if the case of wine were dragging him. He kept his gaze on the metal doors while he jabbed the b.u.t.ton and struggled to hold onto the case and poked the b.u.t.ton again. When the doors parted at last he staggered in and leaned on the case against the wall as he groped to send the lift upwards. He was labouring to face them when they opened once more, revealing the lobby and Justin. 'Where did you get to?' Justin demanded. 'I've been having to hold your customer.'
'I couldn't find a'
'Just give me that.'
Justin seized the case and drummed his fingers on it while Hugh typed the exit code on the keypad by the door. As he marched out, Hugh was at his heels. 'There you are,' the customer said in case Hugh needed to be told. 'We thought you'd got lost.'
'Sorry,' Hugh blurted.
'No need to go red in the face about it. He's the one doing the carrying.'
'Plenty of shelving whenever you're ready,' Justin said.
At least Hugh's resentment overcame his panic as he returned to his shelves. If he found out who'd been trying to distract him he would bring their behaviour to the attention of the management, although shouldn't it have been noticed? The incident was so much like a dream that he ought to be able to put it out of his mind. Once Justin ushered the customer to the Loads o' Loaves aisle Hugh managed to give up his grudge too. He was close to emptying the float onto the shelves, and feeling as if he'd regained the control he had inexplicably lost, when Justin reappeared. 'Fancy being helpful?' he said.
'I think I am.'
'Well, here's your chance to prove it.' Justin looked satisfied with his quip. 'We're losing Selma from edibles. Ate a left-over roll she should have binned at the end of trading, and you know that's the instant sack.' He stared at Hugh as if to emphasise a warning. 'You'll be taking over tinned foods,' he said. 'Just don't start taking after your brother.'
FIVE.
'Yo Yorks.h.i.+re! That was Bradford band Benign Lumps with their new single "Crutches", and this is Sabyasachi Chatterjee with the Sabya Show on Moorland Radio. In the studio with me I have Rory Lucas, Yorks.h.i.+re's most controversial artist. Rory's sculpture Can Do has been on the airwaves lately, and that's why we have him here today to discuss his work and any other arty topics you want to phone about. Was that a face, Rory? Don't you like me calling it a sculpture?'
Rory hadn't been aware of betraying a reaction. 'I don't care what anybody calls it so long as they look for themselves.'
The presenter ducked to a clipboard, giving Rory more of a view of his slick black precisely parted hair. 'You haven't always gone in for this style of work, have you?'
'I've not just piled up litter on the moor, you mean, Sabyasachi.'
'Call me Sabya.' At the hint of conflict his eyes gleamed with antic.i.p.ation, though his voice stayed suave. 'You were top of your art cla.s.s at school, weren't you?'
Rory might have borne this kind of regressively nostalgic comment from Betty or Albert, but not from a radio host. 'I did what they wanted,' he said.
'We all have to start by toeing the line if we want to get anywhere, don't we? That's what I tell my daughters. So then you went to art school.'
'Down to London where they think the world is.'
'Quite a lot of art is, isn't it?'
'It's everywhere. It's even here.'
A smile that might have been wryly appreciative flickered across Sabyasachi's full lips. 'I go down to see the exhibitions. I've got family in Brick Lane,' he said. 'Now here are the Refres.h.i.+ng Tissues from Leeds with their latest single.'
As he set the disc off he raised a mobile phone. For all Rory knew the impa.s.sioned conversation might have been about him, since he couldn't recognise a word. His incomprehension made him feel enclosed, not just within the fat white walls but inside his head. 'Yo Yorks.h.i.+re,' Sabyasachi said as the song ended with a flourish of guitars. 'Refres.h.i.+ng Tissues with their single "Left Behind". My guest this afternoon a'
'We are the shadows on the land,' Rory couldn't wait to say, quoting the refrain of the song. 'That goes for art too.'
'Don't they say art's longer than life?'
'You mean it's older. Old paintings, you can't see how they really were. Even if they're restored, that's not how they were to begin with. Everything changes, you as well. We don't need art, we just need to look and listen and feel and get a sense of how we really are.'
'Careful or you'll be talking yourself out of a job.'
'It's not a job, it's what I am. It doesn't have to be a job as well.'
'You mean you don't need to earn a living while Yorks.h.i.+re Arts is giving you a grant.'
'As long as they're offering I'd be a fool not to take it.'
'Plenty for our listeners to talk to you about. So the year after you left art school your first exhibition got good reviews, but here's a caller. Rory, you need to put your headphones on.'
They felt like earm.u.f.fs, even when they acquired Sabyasachi's voice. Rather than bringing it closer, they surrounded Rory's ears with an aloof version of it. 'h.e.l.lo Mike from Batley. What do you want to say to Rory Lucas?'
The caller sounded even more m.u.f.fled. 'Are you having a joke on us all, Mr Lucas?'
'I a' Rory swallowed hard, but that didn't render his own voice any less remote. Feeling both cut off from it and confined by it was so much of an obstruction that he hardly knew what he said to overcome his inhibited silence. 'Life's a bit of a joke.'
'I'll wager it looks that way to somebody that's being paid to do the kind of thing you're doing.'
Rory struggled to outdistance the hindrance of his dislocated voice. 'You'll have been to look, then.'
'I don't need to see it to know it's rubbish.'
'No, that's what it was.' The retort seemed to lose force by surrounding Rory at a distance. 'That's what it was,' he had to repeat, 'before I recycled it.'
'There's bins for that. You'd be better off if you got a job emptying them, and a lot more important, us taxpayers would say.'
'No you wouldn't. The money would just be spent somewhere else you'd probably moan about by the sound of you.'
'Thank you, Mike. Mike from Batley,' Sabyasachi said and mouthed 'No need to shout.'
Rory had been trying to project some strength into his oppressively detached voice. 'Do I have to wear these?' he complained mutely. 'Can't you put it through the speakers?'
'It doesn't work like that,' Sabyasachi not just mimed but grimaced before saying, 'Here's Eunice from Holmfirth. You're on the air, Eunice.'
'What's his name, this vandal you're giving all the publicity?'
'Rory Lucas is my guest today. Did you have a'
Rory tried to fend off their dulled voices with his own. 'Do you know what vandal means?'
'People like you and the people you're attracting that vandalise our landscape.'
'Isn't that you if you've been to look?'
'Don't you dare say I find it attractive,' the caller said with a kind of stifled shrillness. 'We aren't given any choice when we're on the motorway. We have to see that rubbish heap and what people did to it.'
'What's that?' Rory was jolted into demanding.
'Don't you know? I thought you said you had to look for yourself.'
'Fine, don't tell me. I'll see later.' Rory felt hemmed in by his own m.u.f.fled petulance. 'Whatever's happened, it's change,' he made the effort to declare. 'That's life.'
'You just said it was a joke. Don't you care about anything?' the caller said and transformed the question into a statement with the full stop of an emphatic plastic click.
'Eunice? We seem to have lost Eunice from Holmfirth,' Sabyasachi told anyone who ought to know. 'Here's Brenda from Bingley instead.'
There barely seemed to be: just a mumble buried in the headphones. As Rory reached to adjust them Sabyasachi mouthed 'Don't take those off.'
'I can't hear.'
'Brenda says you didn't answer.'
'That's because I didn't hear.' Rory yanked the headphones lower on his ears and felt more shut in than ever. 'Didn't answer what?' he supposed he had to learn.
'What you were asked,' a flat distant female voice said.
'I told you I couldn't hear you.'
'I didn't ask you anything.' As Rory decided she'd lost any right to politeness she added 'Eunice from Holmfirth did.'
'She rang off.'
'I'm sure we'd all still like to hear what you care about,' Sabyasachi said.
'Plenty.' Rory might have been more specific if he hadn't needed to say 'What?'
'Not books, Brenda said. You don't destroy them if you care about them,' the presenter added, possibly quoting the caller. 'You'll be thinking of his piece called Read, or was it Read?'
'It was both. p.r.o.nounce it how you like, and I didn't destroy anything.'
'Hold on for a minute, Brenda,' Sabyasachi said as a technician wearing a grey wool cap over her ears removed Rory's headphones and donned them. 'Hearing me?' the presenter said.
'Like you're in my head. Nothing up with these.'
As she boxed Rory in with the headphones Sabyasachi said 'Just fixing a glitch, Brenda. He's all yours.'
'Sounds pretty destructive to me, drowning War and Peace in an aquarium.'
If anything her voice seemed to have receded, inflaming Rory's frustration. 'Did you see it for yourself? Some people said it changed how they thought about books.'
'I wouldn't waste my time, but my sister saw your other silly business with the wheelchair.'
'That would be Age,' Sabyasachi supplied.
'Age isn't that senseless, and if it ever is he oughtn't to be making fun. Another fish tank with a wheelchair going rusty in the water.'
'It was the most talked-about piece in the exhibition,' Rory felt defensive for saying.
'I'll bet you couldn't broadcast what they said. You don't like criticism much, do you? Shouldn't it make you look again like you keep telling the rest of us to?'
'I do it all the time.' After a pause clogged with silence Rory said 'Is she still there?'
'I think you scared her off.' Sabyasachi patted the air, though Rory hadn't been conscious of shouting. 'Next up is Hugh from Huddersfield,' the presenter said. 'Have you a question for Rory Lucas, Hugh?'
'Where do you get your ideas?'
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