Her Majesty's Minister Part 26

"They are foreign women," I declared, "and I hate them all."

"Ah," she cried in a tremulous voice, "if I could only believe what you tell me is the truth!"

"It is the truth, dearest," I said, kissing her tears away. "We are parted; but the quiet, even life you live here is far happier and more healthful than one pa.s.sed in the stifling atmosphere of politics and perfume in which I am compelled to exist. The ladies' newspapers tell you of the various entertainments in Paris, and describe the gay toilettes and all that kind of thing; but those journals say nothing of the unfortunate diplomatists who are compelled to ruin their digestions and wreck their const.i.tutions by late hours in the service of their country."

She was silent, and I felt her hand trembling in mine. I looked upon her fair face, and lovingly stroked the dark tendrils of hair from her brow. What she had said had aroused within me some qualms of conscience; but, loving her, I strove to rea.s.sure her of my perfect and unwavering fidelity. Women, however, are difficult to deceive. They possess a marvellous instinct where love is concerned, and are able to read their lover's heart at a glance. No diplomatist, however expert in the art of prevarication, can ever hope to mislead a woman who is in love.

"I often doubt, Gerald, whether you really love me as truly as you have declared," she said in a low tone, at last. "Perhaps it is because you are absent, and I think of you so much and wonder so often what you are doing."

"My absence is compulsory," I answered, adding earnestly: "I love you, Edith, however much you may doubt my protestations."

"Ah!" she answered, smiling through her tears. "If I could only believe that what you say is true! But it is said that you people at the emba.s.sies never speak the truth."

"To you, dearest, I speak the truth when I say that I love no other woman save yourself. You are mine--you are all the world to me."

"And yet you have neglected to write to me for ten whole days! The man who really loves is not so forgetful of the object of his affections."

She was piqued at my neglect. Such was the simplicity, the truth, and the loveliness of her character that at first I had not been aware of its complexity, its depth, and its variety. The intensity of pa.s.sion, the singleness of purpose, and the sweetly confiding nature presented a combination which came near to defying a.n.a.lysis. I now saw in her att.i.tude at this moment the struggle of love against evil destinies and a th.o.r.n.y world; the pain, the anguish, the terror, the despair, and the pang unutterable of parted affection. My heart went out to her.

"But I thought you had forgiven," I said seriously. "I have come myself to spend a few hours with you. I have come here to repeat my love;"

and, bending, I kissed the slim, delicate little hand I held.

But she withdrew it quickly; for there was a sudden movement outside in the hall, and Aunt Hetty entered fussily with the news that luncheon was waiting, and that she had ordered an extra cover to be laid for me.

The dining-room was just as antiquated as the musty drawing-room, and just as inartistic, save that the oak beams in the low ceiling were mellowed by age and the dark panelling presented a more cosy appearance than the awful green and red wall-paper of the state apartment. I knew Miss Foskett's cuisine of old, and seated myself at table with some misgiving. True to my expectation, the meal proved a terribly formal one, with Aunt Hetty seated at the head of the table directing Ann by movements of her eyebrows, talking but little except to intersperse some remarks sarcastic or condemnatory; while to us were served several extremely indigestible specimens of English culinary art.

Aunt Henrietta, a strict observer of all the conventionalities, was never tired of referring to the exemplary youth of her day; but above all she had, in the course of her lonely life, developed the keenest and most obtrusive nose for a lie. She was one of those who would, uninvited, join in a casual conversation and ask the luckless conversationalist to verify his statements with chapter and verse. She would stop in the streets and challenge with soul-searching doubts the remark that it was a "Fine day." Aristophanes invented an adjective to describe this ancient and modern product; it is a long word, but it describes her: [a Cla.s.sical Greek phrase], which, being interpreted, is, "early-prowling-base-informing-sad-litigious-plaguey." She was fond of picking one up in a quotation if one changed a mere "yet" for a "but"; and would nag all round until she had silenced the conversation.

Knowing her peculiarities, I hazarded but few remarks at table, and carefully avoided making any distinct statement, lest she should pounce upon it.

At last, with a feeling of oppression relieved, we rose, not, however, before Aunt Hetty had invited me to remain the night, and I had accepted. I should be compelled, I knew, to leave Charing Cross by the night mail on the morrow, much as I desired to remain a few days in that rural retreat beside the woman I loved.

For an hour or so we idled together beneath the trees in the quaint old garden, where Edith had caused the gardener to swing the hammock I had sent her from Paris. When the sun began to lose its power she put on her large flop hat of Leghorn straw trimmed with poppies, and we strolled together through the quiet village, between its rows of homely cottages, many of them covered with creepers and flowering plants, until we came to the winding Wensum river, which we followed by the footpath lined with poplars, past the old mill, and away into the country.

Hand-in-hand we wandered, neither uttering a word for some little time, both of us too full of our own thoughts.

Suddenly, in Guist Wood, where the stream with its cooling music wound among the polished stems of the beeches, with the suns.h.i.+ne glinting down upon them through the veil of leaves, we halted, standing ankle deep in soft moss and nodding wild-flowers. Her beauty and her silence had struck a new, intolerable conviction of guilt into my heart.

She turned her flawless face to mine as though with firm resolve, and then in a hoa.r.s.e, strained voice told me plainly that her love for me was all a mistake.

"A mistake that you love me, Edith!" I repeated, holding both her hands tightly in mine, and looking straight into her clear, dark, fathomless eyes.

"Yes," she insisted. Her colour went, and her eyes fell away from mine.

"Then why have you so changed?" I asked quickly. "I have always, since that evening beside the burn, regarded you as my affianced wife."

She closed her lips tightly, and I saw that tears welled in her eyes.

"My happy dream is over," she said bitterly, "and the awakening has come."

"No," I cried, "you cannot say that, Edith. You do not mean it, I'm sure! Remember the early days of our love, and recollect that my affection for you is as strong now as then--indeed, stronger to-day than it has ever been."

She was silent. In that moment my new-found happiness of those days in Scotland all came back to me. I remembered that summer-time of long lingering beneath the shadowy glades of the glen; of moonlight wanderings along the lanes, of love-trysts under the rising sun, by rose-garlanded and dew-spangled hedgerows. Ah! many had been the vows we had plighted in the deep heart of Scottish hills during those golden summer days, and many were the lovers' kisses taken and given under the influences of those long balmy evenings, when merely to idle was to be instinct with the soul of pa.s.sion and of poetry.

"I remember those days," she answered. "They were the dawning days of our love. No afterglow of pa.s.sion can ever give back the subtle charm of those sweet hours of unspoken joy. But it is all past, Gerald, and there is now a breach between us."

"What do you mean?" I asked anxiously. "I do not understand."

"I have already told you," she answered in a hard voice. "You love another woman more than you love me. Ah, Gerald! you cannot know how I have suffered these past months, ever since the truth gradually became apparent. All through these summer days I have wandered about the country alone, revisiting our old haunts where we had lingered and talked when you were here twelve months ago. Years seem to have pa.s.sed over my head since that day in June when you last stood here and held my hand in yours. But now you have slipped slowly from me. I have drunk deeply of the cup of knowledge, and life's cruellest teachings have been branded upon my heart."

"But why?" I cried. "I cannot see that you have any cause whatever for sadness. True, we are compelled to be apart for the present, but it will not be so always. Your life is, I know, a rather monotonous one, but soon all will be changed--when you are my wife."

"Ah," she sighed, "I shall never be that--never!"

"Why not?"

"Because I see--I see now," she faltered, "that I am not fitted to become a diplomatist's wife. I have no tact, no smartness, no experience of the kind that is so absolutely necessary for the wife and helpmate of a man who is rising to distinction. I should only be a burden. You will find some other woman more brilliant, more chic, and thoroughly versed in all the ways of Society. You must marry her;" and with a woman's weakness she burst into tears.

"No, no!" I cried, kissing her upon the brow and drawing her closely to me in an effort to comfort her. "Who has been putting such ideas into your mind, darling? Who has told you that love can be curbed, trained, and controlled? Love does not stop to question right or wrong; it is spontaneous, irresponsible, and born of itself in one's heart. And I love you," I whispered into her ear.

She was silenced, as a true woman must always be by her lover's voice, no matter how specious may be his protestations; for there is no argument that can withstand the magic of the lover's touch or the light in the eyes of the man a woman loves, and the glamour of low, caressing words that steal their way to her innermost heart.

"Are you sure, quite sure, that you really love me sufficiently to sacrifice yourself for my sake?" she faltered through her tears.

"Sacrifice myself!" I echoed. "It is no sacrifice, darling. We love each other, and in future the course of our lives must be along the same path, no matter what may be the obstacles."

"I wish I could think so," she said; while a faint smile, sweet and tender as the suns.h.i.+ne of May, gleamed for a moment about her eyes and lips.

The heart of a woman who loves is the most complex and subtle thing on earth; and often when most she protests, she most longs to be faithless to the spirit of her own protestation.

I looked at her now fully and firmly. There was, I think, terror in my eyes--the terror of losing her, which her last words had suddenly conjured up.

"But cannot I convince you?" I cried. "Will you not accept what I tell you as the truth, darling? Will you not believe that I love you still?"

I stooped, and taking her fair face in my hands, tenderly kissed her brow, just as I had kissed her in the days when our love had dawned.

"I have tried," she answered bitterly, "but cannot. Alas! it is a woman's part to suffer;" and her breast heaved slowly and fell again.

How pathetic were her great dark eyes, how attractive was the delicate face with its refined outline, how tenderly seductive those tremulous lips which no man had kissed save myself! That she suffered an agony of heart because of the suspicion that I no longer loved her truly was more than plain. It became her creed--the creed of the martyr and the enthusiast, which comes to some women by nature with the air they breathe, and is an accentuation of one of the finest instincts of human nature.

"But you shall not suffer thus, my darling!" I cried. "You shall not, for I love you truly, honestly, and well. You shall be my wife. You have already promised, and you shall not draw back, for I love you--I love you!"

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN.

BY DAY AND BY NIGHT.

She put up both her small white hands as though to stay the torrent of pa.s.sionate words which I poured forth; but I grasped her wrists and held her to me until I had told her all the longings of my soul.

What she had said had caused me a stab of unutterable pain, for my conscience was p.r.i.c.ked by the knowledge that I had for a brief moment forsaken her in favour of Yolande. But she could not know the real truth. It was only by her woman's natural intuition that she held me in suspicion, believing that by my neglect to write I had proved myself attracted by some member of that crowd of feminine b.u.t.terflies who flit through the emba.s.sies, showing their bright colours and dazzling effects.

At last she lifted her face, and in a low, faltering voice said: