Salem Falls Part 11

The policeman's wrist cut into Jack's windpipe. "Want to say that on the record, St. Bride?" Then, abruptly, Wes released him. "Do us all a favor. Lock the door behind you; keep walking until you cross the town line."

When Wes left, Jack sank down onto a banquette and buried his face in his hands. As a kid, his favorite toy had been a snow globe, that held a small town of gingerbread buildings and peppermint streets. He'd wanted so badly to live there that one day he'd smashed the gla.s.s ball-only to find that the houses were made of plaster, the candy stripes painted on. He had known that this existence he'd carved in Salem Falls was an illusion, that one day it would crack open just like that snow globe. But he'd hoped-G.o.d, he'd hoped-that it wouldn't just yet.

"They can't do that to you, you know."

Jack had completely forgotten that Jordan McAfee was still here. "Do what?"

"Run you out of town. Threaten you. You paid your debt to society for eight months; you're now free to join it again."

"I didn't belong in jail."

Jordan shrugged, as if he'd heard this a hundred times before. "You just spent three-quarters of a year in a place because you had had to. Don't you think you deserve to stay somewhere because you to. Don't you think you deserve to stay somewhere because you want want to?" to?"

"Maybe I don't don't want to." want to."

A pair of headlights swept the interior of the diner, the arriving cab. "Well, I'm a pretty good judge of character. And that sure wasn't the story I got from the look you gave me when I interrupted your evening with a certain waitress." Jordan set his empty coffee mug in the clean-up basin behind the counter. "Thank Addie for me."

"Mr. McAfee," Jack asked. "Would you mind if I shared your taxi?"

The light from the porch fell over him, brightening an unlikely halo around Jack's head. "I didn't do it," he said immediately. There was still a screen door between them, and Addie pressed one hand up against it.

Jack placed his own hand on the other side of the screen. Addie thought of jail and wondered if he had received visitors, with a wall between him and them, just like this.

"Wes told me everything," she said. "The records are computerized down at the station. He said you even came in to register as a s.e.xual offender."

"I had to. It was part of the plea bargain."

There were tears in Addie's eyes. "Innocent people don't get sent to jail."

"And children don't die. Addie, you know better than anyone that the world doesn't always work the way it ought to." Jack hesitated. "Did you ever wonder why I'm never the one to reach for you? Why you're the one who kisses me me, who takes my my hand?" hand?"

"Why?"

"Because I don't ever want to be the man they all said I was. I don't want to be some animal, out of control. And I am afraid that once I touch you, really touch you, I won't be able to stop." Jack turned his cheek, so that his lips brushed her palm through the wire screen. "You have to believe me, Addie. I would never rape a woman."

"I never thought they would, either."

"Who?"

She lifted her face. "The boys who did it to me."

She had been sixteen, a straight-A student at Salem Falls High School. The editor of the school newspaper, with dreams of becoming a journalist. Deadlines often kept her working late, but because her parents were busy with the diner, she wasn't missed at home.

It was cold for April, so cold that when she closed the door behind her and struck off across the playing fields she wished she'd worn jeans instead of a thin skirt. Pulling her coat tight, she skirted the football field, heading toward town.

She heard their voices first-three letter athletes, seniors, who'd led the team to a state champions.h.i.+p this year. Shy-brains didn't mix with jocks-she gave them a wide berth, pretending that she hadn't seen their bottle of Jack Daniels.

"Addie," one of them said, and she was so surprised they knew her name that she turned.

"Come here for a second."

She went over the way a bird hops toward food-cautious, a little hopeful, but ready to fly at the first movement of a human nearby. "You remember that article you wrote on the last game of the season? You did a real nice job. Didn't she, you guys?"

The other boys nodded. There was something almost beautiful about them, with their flushed faces and the bright caps of their hair, like some strange breed she had read about but never really studied firsthand. "Problem was, you spelled my name wrong."

"I didn't." Addie always checked everything; she was a stickler for detail.

The boy laughed. "I may not be as smart as you, but I know how to spell my own name!" The others elbowed each other and snuffled laughter. "Hey, you want a sip?" Addie shook her head. "It'll warm you up ... "

Gingerly, she took a drink. A comet, streaking down her throat-she coughed up most of it into the gra.s.s, her eyes tearing. "Whoa there, Addie," he said, bracing his arm around her. "Take it easy, now." His hand began to slide up and down. "You know, you aren't nearly as skinny as you look walking around the halls."

Addie tried to draw away. "I've got to go."

"First I want you to learn how to spell my name."

As a compromise, it seemed fair. Addie nodded, and the boy beckoned her closer. "It's a secret," he whispered.

Playing along, she bent down, her ear near his lips. And felt his tongue slide inside.

She backed away, but his arms held her tight. "Now you repeat it," he said, and ground his mouth into hers.

Addie did not remember much after that. Except that there were three of them. That the bleachers, underneath, were painted blaze orange. That fear, in large doses, smells of sulfur. And that there is a place in you that you don't even know exists, where you can simply stand back and watch without feeling any pain.

"Did you never wonder about Chloe's father?" Addie asked.

Standing in her living room now, Jack swallowed around the block that had settled in his throat. "Which one was it?"

"I don't know. I never wanted to find out. I figured after that, I deserved for her to be mine and only mine."

"Why didn't you tell anyone?"

"Because I would have been branded as a s.l.u.t. And because I'm not sure ... I've never been sure ... that they even remembered it happened." Her voice hitched. "Wish I had been so lucky. For years I've wondered what I did that made them do that to me."

"You were in the wrong place at the wrong time," Jack murmured. We both were. We both were.

For eight months, he'd hated the system, which gave women the benefit of the doubt. But seeing Addie-well, a million men could be locked up wrongfully, and it still couldn't make up for what had happened to her.

"Do they ... live in town?"

"Going to slay my dragons, Jack?" Addie smiled faintly. "One died in a motorcycle crash. One moved to Florida. One stayed here."

"Who."

"Don't go there." She shook her head. "No one ever knew what happened except my father, and now you. People figured I was sleeping around and got in trouble. And that's okay with me, Jack." Her features softened. "Out of that horrible thing, something wonderful happened. I got Chloe. That's all I want to remember. That, and nothing else."

Jack was quiet for a moment. "Do you believe I'm innocent?"

"I don't know," Addie admitted. Her voice dropped to a whisper. She had known Jack for such a short time that the depth of her feelings for him seemed disproportionate, as if she'd turned on a faucet and unleashed a geyser. She did not understand this, but then there was much in the world she did not understand. Raw love, like raw heartache, could blind-side you. It could make you forget what you did not know to focus exclusively on those few pieces you could commit to heart. "I want want to believe you," she said. to believe you," she said.

"Then that's where we'll start." Jack closed his eyes and leaned forward. "Kiss me."

"I don't think this is the time or-"

His eyes opened a crack. "I want to prove to you I'm who I say I am. I want to show you there is nothing you can do, nothing you can say, that's going to make me attack you."

"But you said-"

"Addie," Jack murmured, "let's do this for both of us."

He spread his arms wide, and after a second, Addie leaned forward to kiss him on the cheek. "Oh, come on. That's not your best shot." She trailed her mouth from his neck to his jaw. A filament of sensation sizzled between them, like a thin string of kerosene that, for the love of a match, could turn into a wall of fire.

This wickedness, this wanting ... it was like seeing color for the first time and stuffing her pockets full of bright violets, rich oranges, sizzling yellows, afraid she was going to be caught for stealing something that wasn't hers, but certain that if she took no souvenir, she would never remember it as clearly.

She was ready. She wanted. Addie lifted his hands to the top b.u.t.ton of her uniform-only to have Jack move his arms back to his sides.

He won't do it. He wants me to He wants me to.

In her life, she had never undressed for a man. Her own father had not seen her naked since she was ten. Shy and fumbling, she fudged the b.u.t.ton through its hole, then moved down to the next one. Sh.e.l.led in the thin pink silk of her bra, her b.r.e.a.s.t.s blushed under Jack's gaze. She unclasped the catch and drew Jack's head down to map her skin.

"Are you all right?" he whispered.

In response, she kissed a trail down his chest and belly, stopping at the spot where Jack's jeans tented. Her hands unb.u.t.toned the fly so that the plum-purple weight of him rose into her outstretched hands.

In that moment, she had never felt so safe in her life.

"Let's do this for both of us," Addie repeated. In tandem, they reached between his legs, pulled aside her underwear, and gently fit themselves together. He fills me, He fills me, Addie realized with wonder; at the same moment that Jack thought: Addie realized with wonder; at the same moment that Jack thought: So this is what has been missing. So this is what has been missing.

July 1999 Loyal, New Hamps.h.i.+re "Jack," the police officer said, "you need to come down to the station."

Jack tucked the portable phone against his shoulder to finish stuffing papers into his briefcase. "Can't. I've got a meeting this afternoon. But let's meet at the gym for a game at seven." Since moving to Loyal and taking a job as the town's sole detective, Jay Kavanaugh had been Jack's frequent buddy and a h.e.l.l of a racquetball partner-they'd whip each other's a.s.ses on alternating days and then go lament the lack of single women in the town over a beer.

"Jack, I need you here now."

He snorted. "Well, sweetheart, I didn't know you felt that way."

"Shut up," Jay said, and for the first time Jack noticed the edge in his voice. "Look. I don't really want to go into this over the phone, all right? I'll explain when you get here."

"But-"

A dial tone. "s.h.i.+t," Jack muttered. "This'd better be worth it."

He had met Jay when the detective came to the school to talk about safety on Halloween. Immediately, Jay became the big brother that Jack had never had. On the steaming, laziest days of the summer, they went out in the Wes...o...b..ook crew launch to catch largemouth ba.s.s. Rods balanced in their hands, they'd drink beer and come up with outrageous scenarios to lure Heather Locklear to the small burg of Loyal.

"Think you'll ever settle down?" Jack had asked once.

Jay had laughed. "I am so settled already, I'm growing roots. Nothing ever happens in Loyal."

Jay stood up the moment Jack entered his office. He looked at the bookshelf, the carpet, Jack's coat ... anywhere but at Jack himself. "You want to tell me what was so d.a.m.n important that it couldn't wait?"

"Why don't we take a walk?"

"What's the matter with right here?"

Jay's face twisted. "Just humor me, will you?" He led Jack into a conference room. There was nothing inside but a table, three chairs, and a tape recorder.

Jack grinned. "Do I get to play cop?" He folded his arms over his chest. "You have the right to remain silent. Everything you say can and will be used against you. You have the right to an attorney ..." His voice trailed off as Jay closed his eyes and turned away. "Hey," Jack said quietly. "What the h.e.l.l?"

When Jay looked at him again, his face was completely impa.s.sive. "Catherine Marsh said the two of you have been having an affair."

"Catherine Marsh said what?" what?" Jack took a second look at the spare room, the tape recorder, and Jay's expression. "Am I ... you're not arresting me, are you?" Jack took a second look at the spare room, the tape recorder, and Jay's expression. "Am I ... you're not arresting me, are you?"

"No. We're just talking now. I want to hear your side of the story."

"You couldn't possibly think ... for G.o.d's sake, Jay ... she's-she's a student student. I swear-I've never touched her. I don't know where she'd get an idea like this." In spite of himself, his heart was racing.

"On the basis of the evidence we have, we'll be bringing charges against you," Jay said stiffly. Then his voice softened. "You may want to get yourself a lawyer, Jack."

A curtain of rage ripped across Jack's vision. "Why did you want me to come in here to talk talk if you're going to arrest me anyway?" The accusation hung between them, and Jack suddenly realized exactly why Jay had asked for his side of the story-it had nothing to do with their friends.h.i.+p and everything to do with catching Jack in a confession that could be used against him in court. if you're going to arrest me anyway?" The accusation hung between them, and Jack suddenly realized exactly why Jay had asked for his side of the story-it had nothing to do with their friends.h.i.+p and everything to do with catching Jack in a confession that could be used against him in court.

Loyal was a picture-perfect town, complete with a general store, a requisite wooden bridge, and a row of white clapboard buildings that flanked the town green, mirroring the architecture of Wes...o...b..ook Academy. Jack's home was a little cape. From his front porch, he could see the house where Catherine Marsh and her father, the Right Reverend Ellidor Marsh, lived.

What Jack had liked best about the town was that he could not walk through it without saying h.e.l.lo to someone he knew. If not a student, then the woman who ran the general store. The postmaster. The elderly twin brothers who had never married but served as bank tellers at side-by-side windows.

Today, though, he walked with his head ducked, afraid of seeing someone familiar. He pa.s.sed kids and felt their heads crane to watch him walk by. He veered around the broom of a shopkeeper, his face lighting with embarra.s.sment as she paused in her sweeping and stared. I am innocent, I am innocent, he wanted to scream, but even that would not make a difference. It wasn't truth that held their interest; it was the fact that rotten luck might be catching. he wanted to scream, but even that would not make a difference. It wasn't truth that held their interest; it was the fact that rotten luck might be catching.

Catherine Marsh's house was gaily laced with pink roses that grew skyward on a trellis. He rapped sharply on the door, falling back a step when Catherine answered.

She was young and pretty, with skin that seemed lit from the inside. In that first moment, Jack saw all the times he'd hugged her after a particularly fine goal on the field, all the times he'd noticed her jersey straining against her sports bra. A wide smile spread across her face. "Coach!"

He opened up his mouth to speak, to accuse her, to ask her why, but all the questions jammed. A face appeared behind hers: Ellidor Marsh, in all his fundamentalist fury.

"Reverend," Jack began.

It was all Ellidor needed. His face revealed an internal war for the briefest moment, and then his fist shot out and clipped Jack in the jaw.

Catherine cried out as Jack tumbled down the steps, landing in a tangle of rosebushes. Thorns cut into the summer-weight wool of his trousers. He spat out blood, then wiped his hand across his mouth.

Catherine was trying to get to him, but her father had pushed her behind his own body. Jack narrowed his eyes at the chaplain. "Did the good Lord tell you to do that?"

"Go," Ellidor said precisely, "to h.e.l.l."

A few weeks before, Jack had been teaching the Peloponnesian War to the summer term fourth-formers. He stood in front of his cla.s.sroom, his s.h.i.+rt sticking to his chest in this July heat. "The Spartans weren't happy with the peace treaty they'd signed, and the Athenians were getting a little power hungry themselves. ..." He'd glanced over the rows of flushed faces of students cooling themselves with hastily folded looseleaf-paper fans. "And not a single one of you is listening right now."

Jack winced as one girl's eyes actually drifted shut. He was not a big fan of Wes...o...b..ook's summer session, offered so students could pump up their academic credits for college applications. The hundred-year-old cla.s.srooms at Wes...o...b..ook, sweatboxes all, were not conducive to learning.

Catherine Marsh sat in the front of the cla.s.s, her starched collar neat against the edge of her uniform cardigan, her legs crossed primly at the ankles. "Dr. St. Bride," she whined, "what's so important about a war that happened twenty-four hundred years ago in a different country? I mean, it's not our our history. So why do we have to learn it?" history. So why do we have to learn it?"