A Son of Hagar Part 98
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Then he looked her steadily in the face, and replied:
"Greta, it is well said that the most miserable man in all the world is he who feels remorse before he does the wrong. I was--I am--that man. I did what I did knowing well that I should repent it--ay, to the last hour of my life. But I was driven to it--I had no power to resist it--it mastered me then--it would master me now."
The finger-tips of Greta's right hand were pressed close against her cheek. Hugh Ritson took a step nearer.
"Greta," he said, and his voice fell to a broken whisper, "there are some men to whom love is a pa.s.sing breath, a gentle gale that beats on the face and sports in the hair, and then is gone. To me it is a wound, a deep, corrosive, inward wound that yearns and burns."
Greta shuddered; it was as if his words stung her. Then with an impatient gesture she turned again toward the door, saying:
"This is the death-hour of your child, and, Heaven pardon you, it seems to be the death-hour of your brother's hopes too!" She faced about. "Do you think of him?" she added, lifting her voice. "When you see this man in his place, wasting his substance and mine, do you ever think of him where he is?"
Her voice trembled and broke. There was a moment's silence. She had turned her head aside, and he heard the low sound of sobs.
"Yes, I think of him," he answered, slowly. "At night, in the sleepless hours, I do think of him where he is; and I think of him as a happy man.
Yes, a happy man! What if he wears a convict's dress?--his soul is yoked to no deadening burden. As for me--well, look at me!"
He smiled grimly.
"I have heard everything," said Greta; "you have sown the wind, and you are reaping the whirlwind."
Something like a laugh broke from him. It came from the waters of bitterness that lay deep in his heart.
"Not that," he said. "All that will pa.s.s away."
She was on the threshold; a force of which she knew nothing held her there.
"Greta, I am not so bad a man as perhaps I seem; I am a riddle that you may not read. The time is near when I shall trouble the world no more, and it will be but a poor wounded name I shall leave behind me, will it not? Greta, would it be a mockery to ask you to forgive me?"
"There are others who have more to forgive," said Greta. "One of them is waiting for you at this moment; and, poor girl! her heart is broken."
Hugh Ritson bent his head slightly, and Greta pulled the door after her.
CHAPTER X.
The evening had closed in; the watery veil that goes between day and night was hanging in the air; the wind had risen, and the trees were troubled. When Hugh Ritson reached the cottage, all was dark about the house save for the red glow from the peat fire which came out into the open porch. The old Laird Fisher was sitting there, a blackthorn stick at his feet, his elbows on his knees, his cheeks rested on his hands.
The drowsy glow fell on his drooping white head. As Hugh Ritson pa.s.sed into the kitchen, the old man lifted to his a countenance on which grief and reproach were stamped together. Hugh Ritson's proud spirit was rebuked by the speechless sorrow of that look. It was such a look as a wounded hound lifts to the eyes of a brutal master.
A sheep-dog was stretched at full length before the slumbering fire. The kitchen was empty, and silent too, except for the tick of the clock and the colly's labored breathing. But at the sound of Hugh's uncertain step on the hard earthen floor, the door of the bedroom opened, and Greta motioned him to enter.
A candle burned near the bed. Before a fire, Mercy Fisher sat with Parson Christian. Her head lay on a table that stood between, her face buried in her encircled arms. One hand lay open beside the long loose tresses of yellow hair, and the parson's hand rested upon it caressingly. Parson Christian rose as Hugh Ritson entered, and bowing coldly, he left the room; Greta had already gone out, and he rejoined her in the kitchen.
Mercy lifted her head and looked up at Hugh. There was not a tear in her weary, red, swollen eyes, and not a sigh came from her heaving breast.
She rose quietly, and taking Hugh's hand in her own, she drew him to the bedside.
"See where he is," she said in a voice of piercing earnestness, and with her other hand she lifted a handkerchief from the little white face.
Hugh Ritson shuddered. He saw his own features as if memory had brought them in an instant from the long past.
Mercy disengaged her hand, and silently hid her face. But she did not weep.
"My little Ralphie," she said, plaintively, "how quiet he is now! Oh, but you should have seen him when he was like a glistening ray of morning light. Why did you not come before?"
Hugh Ritson stood there looking down at the child's dead face, and made no answer.
"It is better as it is," his heart whispered at that moment. The next instant his whole frame quivered. What was the thought that had risen unbidden within him? Better that his child should lie there cold and lifeless than that it should fill this desolate house with joy and love?
Was he, then, so black a villain? G.o.d forbid! Yet it was better so.
"All is over now," said Mercy, and her hands fell from her face. She turned her weary eyes full upon him, and added: "We have been punished already."
"Punished?" said Hugh. "We?" There was silence for a moment; and then, dropping his voice until it was scarcely audible, he said: "Your burden is heavy to bear, my poor girl."
Her slight figure swayed a little.
"I could bear it no longer," she answered.
"Many a one has thought that before you," he said; "but G.o.d alone knows what we can not bear until we are tried."
"Well, all is over now," she repeated listlessly.
She spoke of herself as if her days were already ended and past; as if her orb of life had been rounded by the brief span of the little existence that lay finished upon the bed. Hugh Ritson looked at her, and the muscles of his face twitched. Her weary eyes were still dry; their dim light seemed to come from far away.
"How I prayed that I might see my Ralphie," she said. "I thought surely G.o.d had willed it that I should never see my child. Perhaps that was to be my punishment for--all that had taken place. But I prayed still. Oh, you would not think how much I pray! But it must have been a wicked prayer."
She hid her face once more in her hands, and added, with unexpected animation:
"G.o.d heard my prayer, and answered it--but see!" She pointed to the child. "I saw him--yes, I saw him--die!"
Hugh Ritson was moved, but his heart was bitter. At that moment he cursed the faith that held in bondage the soul of the woman at his side.
Would that he could trample it underfoot, and break forever the chains by which it held the simple.
"Hugh," she said, and her voice softened, "we are about to part forever.
Our little Ralphie--yours and mine--he calls me. I could not live without him. G.o.d would not make me do that. He has punished me already, and He is merciful. Only think, our Ralphie is in heaven!"
She paused and bit her lip, and drew her breath audibly inward. Her face took then a death-like hue, and all at once her voice overflowed with anguish.
"Do you know, something whispered at that instant that G.o.d had not punished us enough, that Ralphie was not in heaven, and that the sins of the fathers--Oh, my darling, my darling!"
With a shrill cry she stopped, turned to the bed, threw her outspread arms about the child, and kissed it fervently.
The tears came at length, and rained down on that little silent face.
Hugh Ritson could support the strain no longer.
"Mercy," he said, and his voice had a deep tremor--"Mercy, if there is any sin, it is mine, and if there is to be any punishment hereafter, that will be mine too. As for your little boy, be sure he is in heaven."
He had stepped to the door, and his thumb was on the wooden latch. "You say rightly, we shall never meet again," he said in a m.u.f.fled voice.
"Good-bye."
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