Me Before You: After You Part 6
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'c.r.a.p. I felt like a fraud.'
Nathan waited.
I s.h.i.+fted the pillow under my head. 'Did I imagine it all, Nathan? Sometimes I think I've made what happened between Will and me so much bigger in my head. Like how can I have loved someone that much in such a short time? And all these things I think about the two of us did we actually feel what I remember? The further we get from it, the more those six months just seems like this weird ... dream.'
There was a tiny pause before Nathan responded. 'You didn't imagine it, mate.'
I rubbed my eyes. 'Am I the only one? Still missing him?'
Another short silence.
'Nah. He was a good bloke. The best.'
That was one of the things I liked about Nathan. He didn't mind a lengthy phone silence. I finally sat up and blew my nose. 'Anyway. I don't think I'll go back. I'm not sure it's my thing.'
'Give it a go, Lou. You can't judge anything from one session.'
'You sound like my dad.'
'Well, he always was a sensible fella.'
I started at the sound of the doorbell. n.o.body ever rang my doorbell, aside from Mrs Nellis in flat twelve, when the postman had accidentally swapped our mail. I doubted she was up at this hour. And I certainly was not in receipt of her Elizabethan Doll partwork magazine.
It rang again. A third time, shrill and insistent.
'I've got to go. Someone's at the door.'
'Keep your p.e.c.k.e.r up, mate. You'll be okay.'
I put the phone down and stood up warily. I had no friends nearby. I hadn't worked out how you actually made them when you moved to a new area and spent most of your upright hours working. And if my parents had decided to stage an intervention and bring me back to Stortfold, they would have organized it between rush-hours as neither of them liked driving in the dark.
I waited, wondering if whoever it was would simply realize their mistake and go away. But it rang again, jarring and endless, as if they were now leaning against the bell.
I got up and walked to the door. 'Who is it?'
'I need to talk to you.'
A girl's voice. I peered through the spy-hole. She was looking down at her feet, so I could only make out long chestnut hair, an oversized bomber jacket. She swayed slightly, rubbed at her nose. Drunk?'I think you have the wrong flat.'
'Are you Louisa Clark?'
I paused. 'How do you know my name?'
'I need to talk to you. Can you just open the door?'
'It's almost half past ten at night.'
'Yeah. That's why I'd rather not be standing here in your corridor.'
I had lived there long enough to know not to open my door to strangers. In that area of town it was not unusual to get the odd junkie ringing bells speculatively in the hope of cash. But this was a well-spoken girl. And young. Too young to be one of the journalists who had briefly fixated on the story of the handsome former whizz-kid who had decided to end his life. Too young to be out this late? I angled my head, trying to see if there was anyone else in the corridor. It appeared to be empty. 'Can you tell me what it's about?'
'Not out here, no.'
I opened the door to the length of the safety chain, so that we were eye to eye. 'You're going to have to give me more than that.'
She couldn't have been more than sixteen, the dewy plumpness of youth still visible in her cheeks. Her hair long and l.u.s.trous. Long skinny legs in tight black jeans. Flicky eyeliner, in a pretty face. 'So ... who did you say you were?' I asked.
'Lily. Lily Houghton-Miller. Look,' she said, and lifted her chin an inch, 'I need to talk to you about my father.'
'I think you have the wrong person. I don't know anyone called Houghton-Miller. There must be another Louisa Clark you've confused me with.'
I made to shut the door, but she had wedged the toe of her shoe in it. I looked down at it, and slowly back up at her.
'Not his name,' she said, as though I was stupid. And when she spoke, her eyes were both fierce and searching. 'His name is Will Traynor.'
Lily Houghton-Miller stood in the middle of my living room and surveyed me with the detached interest of a scientist gazing at a new variety of manure-based invertebrate. 'Wow. What are you wearing?'
'I I work in an Irish pub.'
'Pole dancing?' Having apparently lost interest in me, she pivoted slowly, gazing at the room. 'This is where you actually live? Where's your furniture?'
'I just moved in.'
'One sofa, one television, two boxes of books?' She nodded towards the chair on which I sat, my breathing still unbalanced, trying to make any kind of sense out of what she had just told me.
I stood up. 'I'm going to get a drink. Would you like something?'
'I'll have a c.o.ke. Unless you've got wine.'
'How old are you?'
'Why do you want to know?'
'I don't understand ...' I went behind the kitchen counter. 'Will didn't have children. I would have known.' I frowned at her, suddenly suspicious. 'Is this some kind of joke?'
'A joke?''Will and I talked ... a lot. He would have told me.'
'Yeah. Well, turns out he didn't. And I need to talk about him to someone who is not going to totally freak out every time I even mention his name, like the rest of my family.'
She picked up the card from my mother and put it down again. 'I'm hardly going to say it as a joke. I mean, yeah. My real dad, some sad bloke in a wheelchair. Like that's funny.'
I handed her a gla.s.s of water. 'But who ... who is your family? I mean, who is your mother?'
'Have you got any cigarettes?' She had started pacing around the room, touching things, picking up the few belongings I had and putting them down. When I shook my head, she said, 'My mother is called Tanya. Tanya Miller. She's married to my stepdad, who is called Francis Stupid f.u.c.kface Houghton.'
'Nice name.'
She put down the water and pulled a packet of cigarettes from her bomber jacket and lit one. I was going to say she couldn't smoke in my home, but I was too taken aback, so I simply walked over to the window and opened it.
I couldn't take my eyes off her. I could maybe see little hints of Will. It was in her blue eyes, that vaguely caramel colouring. It was in the way she tilted her chin slightly before she spoke, her unblinking stare. Or was I seeing what I wanted to see? She gazed out of the window at the street below.
'Lily, before we go on there's something I need to '
'I know he's dead,' she said. She inhaled sharply and blew the smoke into the centre of the room. 'I mean, that was how I found out. There was some doc.u.mentary on television about a.s.sisted suicide and they mentioned his name and Mum totally freaked out for no reason and ran to the bathroom and f.u.c.kface went after her so obviously I listened outside. And she was in total shock because she hadn't even known that he'd ended up in a wheelchair. I heard the whole thing. I mean, it's not like I didn't know f.u.c.kface wasn't my real dad. It's just that my mum only ever said my real dad was an a.s.shole who didn't want to know me.'
'Will wasn't an a.s.shole.'
She shrugged. 'He sounded like one. But, anyway, when I tried to ask her questions she just started totally flipping out and said that I knew everything about him that I needed to know and f.u.c.kface Francis had been a better dad to me than Will Traynor ever would have been and I really should leave it alone.'
I sipped my water. I had never wanted a gla.s.s of wine more. 'So what did you do?'
She took another drag of her cigarette. 'I Googled him, of course. And I found you.'
I needed to be alone to digest what she had told me. It was too overwhelming. I didn't know what to make of the spiky girl, who walked around my living room, making the air around her crackle.
'So did he not say anything about me at all?'
I was staring at her shoes: ballerina pumps, heavily scuffed as if they had spent too much time shuffling around London streets. I felt as if I was being reeled in. 'How old are you, Lily?'
'Sixteen. Do I at least look like him? I saw a picture on Google images, but I was thinking maybe you had a photograph.' She gazed around the living room. 'Are all your photographs in boxes?'
She eyed the cardboard crates in the corner, and I wondered whether she would actually open them and start going through them. I was pretty sure the one she was about to go into contained Will's jumper. And I felt a sudden panic. 'Um. Lily. This is all ... quite a lot to take in. And if you are who you say you are,then we we do have a lot to discuss. But it's nearly eleven o'clock, and I'm not sure this is the time to start. Where do you live?'
'St John's Wood.'
'Well. Uh. Your parents are going to be wondering where you are. Why don't I give you my number and we '
'I can't go home.' She faced the window, flicked the ash out with a practised finger. 'Strictly speaking, I'm not even meant to be here. I'm meant to be at school. Weekly boarding. They'll all be freaking out now because I'm not there.' She pulled out her phone, as an afterthought, and grimaced at whatever she saw on its screen, then shoved it back in her pocket.
'Well, I'm ... not sure what I can do other than '
'I thought maybe I could stay here? Just tonight? And then you could tell me some more stuff about him?'
'Stay here? No. No. I'm sorry, you can't. I don't know you.'
'But you did know my dad. Did you say you think he didn't actually know about me?'
'You need to go home. Look, let's call your parents. They can come and collect you. Let's do that and I '.
She stared at me. 'I thought you'd help me.'
'I will help you, Lily. But this isn't the way to '
'You don't believe me, do you?'
'I I have no idea what to '
'You don't want to help. You don't want to do anything. What have you actually told me about my dad?
Nothing. How have you actually helped? You haven't. Thanks.'
'Hold on! That's not fair we've only just '
But the girl flicked her cigarette b.u.t.t out of the window and turned to walk past me out of the room.
'What? Where are you going?'
'Oh, what do you care?' she said, and before I could say anything more, the front door had slammed and she was gone.
I sat very still on my sofa, trying to digest what had just happened for the best part of an hour, Lily's voice ringing in my ears. Had I heard her correctly? I went over and over what she had told me, trying to recall it through the buzz in my ears.
My father was Will Traynor.
Lily's mother had apparently told her Will had not wanted anything to do with her. But surely he would have mentioned something to me. We had no secrets from each other. Weren't we the two people who had managed to talk about everything? For a moment I wobbled: had Will not been as honest with me as I'd believed? Had he actually possessed the ability simply to airbrush an entire daughter out of his conscience?
My thoughts were chasing each other in circles. I grabbed my laptop, sat cross-legged on the sofa and typed 'Lily Hawton Miller' into a search engine, and when that came up with no results, I tried again with various spellings, settling on 'Lily Houghton-Miller', which brought up a number of hockey-fixture results posted by a school called Upton Tilton in Shrops.h.i.+re. I called up some of the images, and as I zoomed in, there she was, an unsmiling girl in a row of smiling hockey players. Lily Houghton-Miller played abrave, if unsuccessful defence. It was dated two years ago. Boarding-school. She'd said she was meant to be at boarding-school. But it still didn't mean she was any relation of Will or, indeed, that her mother had been telling the truth about her parentage.
I altered the search to just the words 'Houghton-Miller', which brought up a short diary item about Francis and Tanya Houghton-Miller attending a banking dinner at the Savoy, and a planning application from the previous year for a wine cellar under a house in St John's Wood.
I sat back, thinking, then did a search on 'Tanya Miller' and 'William Traynor'. It turned up nothing. I tried again, using 'Will Traynor', and suddenly I was on a Facebook thread for alumni of Durham University, on which several women, all of whose names seemed to end in '-ella' Estella, Fenella, Arabella were discussing Will's death.
I couldn't bel ieve i t when I heard i t on the news. Him of al l people! RIP Wi l l .
n.o.body gets through l ife unscathed. You know Rory Appleton died in the Turks and Caicos, in a speed-boating accident?
Didn't he do geography? Red hair?
No, PPE.
I'm sure I snogged Rory at the Freshers' Bal l . Enormous tongue.
I'm not being funny, Fenel la, but that's rather bad taste. The poor man is dead.
Wasn't Wi l l Traynor the one who went out wi th Tanya Mi l ler for the whole of the third year?
I don't see how i t's in poor taste to mention that I may have kissed someone just because they then went on to pa.s.s away.
I'm not saying you have to rewri te history. It's just his wife might be reading this and she might not want to know that her beloved stuck his tongue in the face of some girl on Facebook.
I'm sure she knows his tongue was enormous. I mean, she married him.
Rory Appleton got married?
Tanya married some banker. Here's a l ink. I always thought she and Wi l l would get married when we were at uni . They were so gorgeous.
I clicked on the link, which showed a picture of a reed-thin blonde woman with an artfully tousled chignon smiling as she stood on the steps of a register office with an older, dark-haired man. A short distance away, at the edge of the picture, a young girl in a white tulle dress was scowling. She bore a definite resemblance to the Lily Houghton-Miller I had met. But the image was seven years old, and in truth it could have portrayed any grumpy young bridesmaid with long mid-brown hair.
I reread the thread, and closed my laptop. What should I do? If she really was Will's daughter, should I call the school? I was pretty sure there were rules about strangers who tried to contact teenage girls.
Me Before You: After You Part 6
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