Down River Part 40

"Tell him that I'd like to see him when he gets back." Silence. "Miriam?" I asked.

"I'll tell him."

The day moved around me. I watched the light stretch long and the low places fill. Two hours. Five beers.

Nothing to do.

Mind on overdrive.

I heard the truck before I saw it. Grace was driving. They were both in high color, not smiling exactly, but refreshed, as if they'd managed to dodge the worst parts for a few hours. They climbed onto the porch and the sight of me killed the light in them. Reality check.

"Any luck?" I asked.

"Nope." He sat next to me.

"Do you want dinner?" Grace asked.

"Sure," I said.

"How about you?"

My father shook his head. "Janice is cooking." He raised his palms. I would not be invited.

Grace looked at me. "I need to go to the store. Take your car?"

"You lost your license," my father said.

"I won't get caught."

I looked at my father, who shrugged. I gave her the keys. As soon as the car engine started, my father turned. His question cut. "Did you kill Zebulon Faith?"

"Robin called you."

"She thought I should know. Did you kill him?"

"No," I said. "He did it himself, just like I told the cops."

The old man rocked in the chair. "He's the one that burned my vines?"

"Yes," I said.

"All right."

"Just like that?" I asked.

"I never liked him anyway."

"Grantham thinks Dolf's confession is bulls.h.i.+t."

"It is."

"He thinks that Dolf is protecting someone. Maybe you."

My father faced me. He spoke slowly. "Grantham's a cop. Thinking up paranoid, bulls.h.i.+t theories is what he does."

I rose from the chair and leaned against the rail. I wanted to see his face. "Does he have a reason to?"

"To what?"

"Protect you."

"What the h.e.l.l kind of question is that?"

My father was rough-and-tumble, salt of the earth, but he was also the most honest man I'd ever known. If he lied to me now, I'd know it. "Do you have any reason to want Danny Faith dead?"

The moment drew out. "That's an absurd question, son."

He was angry and offended-I knew how it felt-so I let the question go. I'd said it before. My father was no killer. I had to believe that. If not, then I was no better than him. I sat back down, but the tension grew. The question still hung between us. My father made a disgusted sound and went inside for five long minutes. When he finally came out, he had two more beers. He handed one to me. He spoke as if the question had never happened. "They're going to bury Danny tomorrow," he said.

"Who made the arrangements?" I asked.

"Some aunt from Charlotte. The service is at noon. Graveside."

"Did you know that he was in love with Grace?" I asked.

"I think we should go."

"Did you know?" I repeated, louder.

My father stood and walked to the rail. He showed me his back. "She's too good for him. She was always too good for him." He turned, lifted an eyebrow. "You're not interested in her, are you?"

"Not like that," I said.

He nodded. "She has precious little in this world. Losing Dolf will kill her."

"She's tough."

"She's coming apart."

He was right, but neither one of us knew what to do about it, so we watched the shadows pool and waited for the sun to detonate behind the trees. It occurred to me that he had not answered my second question, either.

When the phone rang, I answered. "He's here," I said, and handed it to my father. "Miriam."

He took the phone and listened. His mouth firmed into an uncompromising line. "Thanks," he said. "No. Nothing you can do for me." More listening. "Jesus, Miriam. Like what? There's nothing you can do for me. Nothing anyone can do. Yes. Okay. Goodbye."

He handed me the phone, drained his beer. "Parks called," he said.

I waited.

"They indicted Dolf today."

CHAPTER 30.

Dinner was painful. I fought for words that meant something while Grace tried to pretend that the indictment didn't cut the world out from under her. We ate in silence because we could not discuss the next step, the rule twenty-four hearing. Arguments would be made and it would be decided. Life or death. Literally. The night pressed down and we could not get drunk enough, forgetful enough. I told her to not give up hope, and she walked outside for most of an hour. When we went to bed, a blackness hung over the house, and hope, I knew, had abandoned us.

I lay in the guest room and put my hand on the wall. Grace was awake. I thought that Dolf probably was, too. My father. Robin. I wondered, just then, if anybody slept. How anyone possibly could. Sleep did eventually come, but it was a restless one. I woke at two o'clock and again at four. I remembered no dreams, but woke each time to churning thoughts and a sense of mounting dread. At five o'clock, I rose, head pounding, no chance of sleep. I dressed and slipped outside. It was dark, but I knew the paths and fields. I walked until the sun came up. I looked for answers, and failing that, I scrounged for hope. If something did not break soon, I would be forced onto another path. I would have to find some way to convince Dolf to recant his confession. I would need to meet with the lawyers. We'd have to start planning some kind of defense.

I did not want to go through something like that again.

As I crossed the last field, I planned my a.s.sault on the day. Candy's brothers were still out there and somebody needed to talk to them. I'd try to see Dolf again. Maybe they'd let me in. Maybe he'd come to his senses. I did not have names for the bookmakers in Charlotte, but I had an address and descriptions. I could identify the two who had attacked Danny four months earlier. Maybe Robin could talk to somebody at Charlotte P.D. I needed to talk to Jamie. Check on Grace.

The funeral was at noon.

The house was empty when I returned. No note. The phone rang as I was about to leave. It was Margaret Yates, Sarah's mother.

"I called your father's house," she explained. "A young woman told me I might find you at this number. I hope you don't mind."

I pictured the old lady in her grand mansion: the withered skin and small hands, the hate-filled words she pushed out with such conviction. "I don't mind," I said. "What can I do for you?"

She spoke smoothly, but I sensed great hesitation. "Did you find my daughter?" she asked.

"I did."

"I wondered if I could prevail upon you to come see me today. I know it's an unusual request...."

"May I ask why?"

Her breath was heavy over the line. Something clattered in the background. "I didn't sleep last night. I haven't slept since you came to my house."

"I don't understand."

"I tried to stop thinking about her, but then I saw your picture in the paper; and I asked myself if you'd seen her. What you'd talked about." She paused. "I asked myself what might be good in the life of my only daughter."

"Ma'am-"

"I believe that you were sent to me, Mr. Chase. I believe that you are a sign from G.o.d." I hesitated. "Please, don't make me beg."

"What time did you have in mind?"

"Now would be ideal."

"I'm very tired, Mrs. Yates, and I have a great many things to do."

"I'll put on coffee."

I looked at my watch. "I can give you five minutes," I said. "Then I'll really have to go."

The house was as I'd last seen it, a great white jewel on a bed of green velvet. I paused on the porch, and the tall doors split as the right side swung open. Mrs. Yates stood in the dim s.p.a.ce, bent at the neck, somber in crisp gray flannel and a lace collar. The smell of dried orange peels wafted out, and I wondered if anything ever changed in this place. She held out a hand that felt dry and hollow-boned. "Thank you so much for coming," she said. "Please." She stepped aside and swept an arm toward the dim interior. I walked past her and the door settled into its frame.

"I can offer you cream and sugar for your coffee, or something harder if you prefer. I'm having sherry."

"Just coffee, please. Black."

I followed her down a wide hall full of somber art and fine-grained furnis.h.i.+ngs. Heavy drapes defended the interior from excessive sunlight, but ornate lamps burned in every room. Through open doors, I saw leather that gleamed and further hints of subdued color. A grandfather clock ticked somewhere in the vastness.

"You have a lovely home," I said.

"Yes," she agreed.

In the kitchen, she lifted a tray and carried it into a small sitting room. "Sit," she said, and poured coffee from a silver service. I sat on a narrow chair with hard arms. The china cup felt as light as spun sugar.

"You think me cold," she said without preamble. "In the matter of my daughter, you think me cold."

I lowered the cup to its saucer. "I know something of family dysfunction."

"I was rather harsh when last we spoke of her. I would hate for you to think me either senile or without heart."

"It can get complicated. I would not presume to judge."

She sipped her sherry, and the crystal stemware made a sound like bells as she set it on the silver tray. "I'm not a zealot, Mr. Chase. I do not condemn my daughter because she wors.h.i.+ps the trees and the dirt and G.o.d knows what else. I would be heartless, indeed, to cast out my only child for reasons as intangible as mere differences of faith."

"Then, may I ask why?"

"You may not!"

I leaned back, laced my fingers. "With all due respect, Mrs. Yates, you broached the subject."

Her smile was tight. "You're right, of course. The mind wanders and the mouth, it seems, is more than willing to follow."

She trailed off, looked suddenly uncertain. I leaned forward so that our faces were close. "Ma'am, what is it that you want to discuss with me?"

"You found her?"

"I did."

She lowered her gaze and I saw powder blue lines in the paper-thin eyelids. Her lips pursed, thin and bloodless under lipstick the color of a December sunset.

"It's been twenty years," she said. "Two decades since last I saw or spoke to my daughter." She lifted the sherry and drank, then lay a light hand on my wrist. Her eyes widened as her voice cracked. "How is she?"

I leaned away from the desperation in her face, the quiet, weak hunger. She was an old woman, alone, and after two decades, the wall of anger had finally crumbled. She missed her daughter. I understood. And so I told her what I could. She sat perfectly still and absorbed everything I said. I sugarcoated nothing. By the end, her eyes were down. A large diamond spun loosely on her finger as she twisted the ring.

"I was in my mid-thirties when I had her. She was... unplanned." She looked up. "She was more child than woman the last time I saw her. Half her life ago."