Ruthless In A Suit: Book Three Part 11

After all, I paid that money to them-the least I should do is make sure I get something out of it for myself.

And then I think of Emily and I know deep inside that I got a h.e.l.l of a lot more than I bargained for already...

I have Sandra RSVP yes for me, and then get back to work. I have that meeting with our head of hotel security in fifteen minutes.

As I walk through the lobby of the hotel I keep my eyes focused straight ahead. I don't look into the faces of the people milling around the lobby or walking toward the ballroom with me. I don't care who else is at the luncheon-I'm only here as the face of Croft International. This is purely work, and has nothing to do with a certain grad student and part-time employee of the fund. She's probably in cla.s.s...or out tutoring some kid in juvie.

I shake my head and remind myself of my dinner with Genevieve this evening. We've kept in touch, and the coolness of her personality works for me. I don't spend chunks of my day thinking about her, that's for sure.

"Mr. Croft?" a young man says as I walk into the ballroom.

"Yes?"

"Hi, I'm Derek with the fund." He offers his right hand, which I shake. He's holding a binder that's opened to a page I can clearly see.

Donors is written at the top and the page is filled with color headshots and short descriptions. I catch sight of my photo from the company website. "I'm helping out with the development team today. We're so happy you could join us. Would you like a drink? Gla.s.s of wine, water?"

"No, I'm fine."

He leads me into a smaller room that's set up with banners of kids' faces and the organization's name and logo. There's a bar on either side of the room and two waiters with trays of hors d'oeuvres circling the small group of people chatting in cl.u.s.ters. Must be the high-rollers room.

"I'd like you to meet Jules, our head of development," Derek says, presenting me to a woman who had been busy with two elderly women with no wrinkles or gray hairs.

"Mr. Croft," Jules says with a bright smile, offering her hand to shake. "We're so glad you could join us this afternoon. I know how busy your schedule must be."

"It's no problem," I say, my eyes darting about the room. "Happy to be here."

"Can we get you something to drink?"

"No thank you," I say, annoyed to be asked twice. Annoyed to be here. Why did I agree to this? There is so much work to do back at the office. This is a complete waste of my time.

"We so appreciate your donation," Jules says. "And the fact that you donated it to unrestricted funds really gives us the opportunity to put the money where it's most needed."

I try to force a pleasant smile on my face and concentrate on Jules's words.

"We'd love to see if you're interested in working directly with some of the kids who will benefit from your donation," she continues. "We're doing some wonderful mentoring programs with Boston University's graduate program. We've been talking about taking that a step further and starting mentors.h.i.+ps with people like yourself in the corporate world, really show the kids how the tools they're learning from our standard programs actually fit out in the broader context. It's good to show them that what they're learning is practical and not just a bunch of fluff. Don't you think?"

"Yes, of course," I say, even as I think to myself that it is all just a bunch of fluff. But I'm here and I'm being pleasant.

"So it'd be okay if we reached out to you about the mentors.h.i.+p?"

s.h.i.+t, what did I just agree to? I have to squash this immediately. "Jules, I love the programs you're working on. Very innovative, really preparing the future entrepreneurs of America. My schedule is very tight-I had to move several meetings around in order to attend today's luncheon, which I'm happy to do."

Jules smiles and holds up her hand. "Say no more. I'm sorry, I just get rolling when I talk about the fund. Still, if there's someone at Croft International-a little lower down the food chain-who would like to be a mentor to some of our kids, we'd be happy to set that up."

"Of course," I say amicably.

Jules looks around the room-maybe for more conversation since I'm not helping her out. I can be good at this sort of c.o.c.ktail-party talk, but once again I'm off my game.

"Oh, look," Jules says, spotting someone in the crowd. "It's Emily. You know Emily-obviously you know Emily." She grins. "She's the reason you're here, after all."

"Excuse me?" I say, taken aback by her blatant a.s.sumption.

"Emily is the one who talked you into donating in the first place," Jules reminds me, her brow creasing. "You wouldn't be here if it weren't for her."

My eyes dart around the room, searching her out. I spot her across the room, talking pleasantly to two ladies.

"How could I forget Emily Brown?" I say, watching her. It's almost as if she can feel my eyes on her. She turns slightly and our eyes meet. We both freeze for a moment. I can feel my heart picking up speed. It's the first time I've seen her in so long, and the urge to plow my way through the room to reach her is real.

She's every inch as beautiful as she was at dinner, and in my fantasies. The hunter green c.o.c.ktail dress she wears makes her eyes glow, and the way her lips are parted as she watches me, makes me swallow hard.

"I should call her over," Jules says, raising her hand to get Emily's attention, but Emily is already looking away from us.

She glances down at the floor as her hair falls in her face. She's so pretty but...then someone appears beside her.

Some guy. When he puts his arm around her waist she jumps slightly but seems to relax when she sees who it is. I feel my chest tightening and my stomach burning like it's filling with acid.

He says something to her that makes her smile. If I'd taken a gla.s.s of wine or water I'd crush it in my hand right now.

Jules is still babbling. "...Emily has really been working hard in bringing in new donors like yourself. She's a real a.s.set to the team..."

Meanwhile, Emily and this guy begin to move through the room, together. The anger is rising up through my throat as Jules goes on and on about Emily. Meanwhile I feel as though I'm about to explode, even if my expression hasn't chanced an iota.

I glance at my watch and tell Jules, "You know, I'll just pop over there quickly and say h.e.l.lo to her," I tell Jules, not wanting to bother waiting for a second longer.

Emily is so close but she's moving away now, perhaps on purpose.

I start toward her, politely nudging my way through the crowd with Jules close at my heels, d.a.m.n her.

Emily sees me, and there's a panicked look in her eyes. The closer I get to her the more quickly she moves toward the exit. I've got Jules following me and Emily has that guy stalking her.

What is his deal? Why won't he leave her alone?

Emily moves out of the room and is absorbed by the crowd moving like cows into the ballroom. I slow down.

"That was strange," Jules says. "I swore she saw us. Let's head into the ballroom and find your table." She waves off Emily. "We'll catch up with her later."

How will I sit through this h.e.l.l of a luncheon knowing Emily is in the same room? Sure, the room is probably the size of a hockey rink but she's here, and I have to speak to her. I don't know yet what I'll say, but one thing is for sure-I haven't been able to get her out of my mind.

And I need to know who the h.e.l.l that guy is that she's with.

Emily

Are you kidding me?

What is he doing here? I knew it was a possibility but I also know enough about Jackson Croft to know that charity luncheons are not his thing.

As soon as I spotted him my heart dropped to the floor, and I immediately tried to move across the room, getting as far away from him as possible.

Is he here to torment me? I'm finally moving on from the humiliation of getting dumped by a guy after one date-and it wasn't even a real date! And he has to show up here, and when I'm with Brent.

Although I'm still not sure I'm here with Brent, but we arrived together and are sitting together so as far as Jackson Croft knows, I'm with Brent.

G.o.d, I went on one maybe-but-not-really date with Jackson and now I'm on the same with Brent. I'm a twenty-three-year-old grad student at one of the country's top universities and I can't figure out when I'm on a date with a guy and when we're just eating food at the same table.

Pathetic.

More pathetic still is the fact that I'd much rather be on a maybe kind of date with Jackson, then a definite date with Brent-and I hate that I feel this way.

Brent and I are seated in the back of the room, which is just fine with me. The further away from Jackson Croft I am, the better. Only the big donors and top people in CEF will be sitting with him, up front near the stage for an afternoon of speeches, photos and back-clapping awards. I take a little solace in knowing Jackson will be absolutely miserable during the entire lunch. Wait until he sees the video of the children. He'll really be miserable.

Brent and I find our table in the back. It's near a pillar that partially obscures the stage and near the swinging kitchen door where wait staff is knocking through in rapid pace. Do I care? Not a bit. I'm getting a free meal and distance from the city's biggest egomaniac.

Brent has pulled my chair out and is waiting for me to sit. I want to see what table Jackson is at so I know what area to avoid, but Brent is just standing there, waiting. It's a little annoying but I smile and sit down, thanking him as I do.

"This is nice," Brent says. "It's almost like having a private table."

It's sweet that he's making what's more like an exile into something positive. I can see Jackson moving around, shaking hands with Jules by his side. He's looking around the room and he better not be looking for me.

Why he would be, I have no idea but I don't want to talk to the guy. Not today, not ever...Even though there seems to be a spot in the center of my chest that throbs every time I so much as look at him out of the corner of my eye.

"Maybe one day after cla.s.s we could go get lunch for real," Brent says. "Off the clock, you know?"

"Uh huh," I say, watching the room. We begin eating our salads, which were already placed at the tables before we came into the room. It's thin and soggy but I keep moving my fork from my plate to my mouth with no thought.

"h.e.l.lo, Emily," a voice says above me. That voice. The only voice I don't want to hear.

The voice I can't forget.

I look up and see him, Jackson, standing behind my chair looking obnoxiously dapper in his suit and tie, his hair perfectly combed back. The better to show off that face of his, gorgeous strong jaw and mesmerizing eyes. d.a.m.n him. He's so annoying.

"h.e.l.lo, Mr. Croft," I say in what I hope to be a sufficiently icy tone of voice. I hardly look at him, no more than the initial glance.

He lets out a chuckle. "Surely by now you can call me Jackson," he says. What does that mean, "by now"? Does he think because he gave me the best o.r.g.a.s.m of my life that means I have to act familiar with him?

"It's been a while. I wanted to talk with you."

"Thank you for coming to the event," I say, because there are a couple other people at the table, and they're beginning to watch us curiously-including Brent. "We're so happy to have your support."

"I'm happy to give it," Jackson says, his voice as cool as ever. It's maddening. How can he be so steely? Is there nothing inside his soul? And again-why is he here? Why is he talking to me? "Looks like a pretty full house. That must make you happy. A big success for the children and all..."

That's it. I can't take it, especially if he's going to start giving lip service to the actual needy children of Boston. What a condescending a.s.shole.

I get up from my chair, and jerk my head toward the nearby pillar and stand on the opposite side of it, away from the prying eyes and ears of my table.

"What is wrong with you?" I say.

"Emily," Jackson says, pulling back at my dramatic opening. "I wanted to say-"

"Nothing," I snap. "You don't get to say anything to me. You had the chance, the day after that dinner. But what did I get? A big fat dose of silence."

"It's not so simple-"

"Don't you dare give me lame excuses either. I don't care. Okay? About you or what happened between us or anything." I start to leave but decide I'm not done, turning back to him. "You know what? You can't treat people like that. You think you're so much better than everyone else and that you have some right to treat people like c.r.a.p. I'm glad you donated the money but I regret going out to dinner with you. You were just scamming me so you could use me up for one night and then discard me. You're disgusting, Jackson Croft."

With that, I push past him, getting the h.e.l.l out of that room. I am not going to cry, but I might need to scream into a pillow or something.

I punch through the ballroom door. I go to the end of the hallway and around the corner, near the elevator for the hotel offices. I hear the doors of the ballroom click shut and I hope it's not Jackson coming to look for me. It'd be just like him to want to get in the last word.

So I'm surprised when it's Brent who rounds the corner, looking for me.

"Hey," he says in a voice that sounds more like he's talking with a child than an adult. "You okay, sweetie?" He puts his hands on my arms and rubs them up and down, as if I'm cold. I'm not, I'm heated up and wish he'd stop. I nudge my arm and he releases me.

"Not particularly," I mumble.

"What was that all about back there?"

I don't want him to know about my brief history with Jackson so I just say, "It was nothing."

"Did he say something to do? Something he shouldn't have?"

"No," I say. Brent is leaning in so close to me, trying to get me to look in his eyes but I don't want to. I just need a moment think. "I just thanked him for his donation and then I started to not feel well so I came out here. It was nothing."

"It didn't look like nothing," he says in a gentle voice, like he's trying to get a frightened cat out from under the bed. "I hope you know that you can tell me if something's wrong."

"Seriously, Brent," I say. "It was nothing." I force a smile, hoping it'll be enough for him to back off. He's wearing cologne, too much, and the smell is making me feel like I'm going to choke. "Let's go back in there. Really. I'm better now."

"Hey, now, slow down," Brent says. He touches my arms again, holding them on either side. "It is nice and quiet back here." He tucks my hair behind my ear.

"Brent..." I begin. This is the last thing I need.

"Shhh," he says, his breath hitting my face. "Hey, it's going to be okay."

I take a deep breath, closing my eyes and truly trying to calm myself. I feel penned in, trapped.

"G.o.d, you're gorgeous." He puts his fingertips under my chin and leans in, his lips aiming for mine.

"Hey, wait," I say, pulling back as much as I can when I'm backed against the wall. "Brent, come on. I mean, I'm sorry. I don't mean...I mean you're a really nice guy and all."

"Don't give me that. I know I'm a nice guy. A really nice guy." He closes the s.p.a.ce between us again and says, "I can be a really nice guy to you in more ways than one."