I, Richard Part 10

When the crime scene people were done with their work, they left Charlie with the name and phone number of someone who specialized in "fixing up after this kind of thing," they said. "You can get her to help you clean up. She's reasonable."

Charlie didn't know if they meant her personality or her expense.

In either case, it didn't matter. She wanted no other professionals traipsing through the wreckage of her world.

So she forced herself to deal with the wreckage alone, and she began where she knew, without wanting to admit it to herself, that the intruder had begun: in Eric's study.

This was owing to Sharon Pasternak, Charlie thought as she stood in the doorway, slumped against its jamb. She would have to be every which way a complete fool not to put together this break-in with Sharon Pasternak's visit "to find some papers." Failing to find whatever she'd been looking for, she'd called in someone with a little more imagination in the searching arena. And here before Charlie was the result.

She stepped over a pile of file folders and went to Eric's desk. She began with the easiest task: putting the drawers back in and rea.s.sembling their contents. And it was in the midst of doing this that she found an indication of where-if not what-the "papers" were that Sharon Pasternak and the intruder who followed her had wanted. For dumped alongside Eric's desk, as if they'd been contained in one of its lower drawers, was a set of doc.u.ments that were out of place: the deed to the house, the pink slips to the cars, insurance papers, birth certificates, and pa.s.sports. All of this belonged in their safe-deposit box at the bank, not here at home. Which made Charlie wonder what, if anything, had replaced these doc.u.ments in that protected vault.

She didn't go until the following day. In the afternoon, following a morning in which she lay in bed fighting against an inertia that threatened to keep her there permanently, she fumbled her way to the bathroom, shuffled through the debris, and ran the water in the tub. She soaked until the water was cool, when she refilled the tub and languidly washed. She tried to remember another time when everything-even the slightest movement-had been such an effort. She couldn't.

It was two o'clock when she finally walked into the bank with her key to the safe-deposit box in her hand. She tapped the bell for a.s.sistance and a clerk came to help her, a girl who couldn't have been much older than college age, with jet-black hair, jet-black eyeliner, and a name tag identifying her as Linda.

Charlie filled out the appropriate card. Linda read her name and the number of her deposit box and then looked back up from the card to Charlie's face. She said, "Oh! You're... I mean, you've never-" She stopped herself as if remembering her place. "It's this way, Mrs. Lawton," she settled on saying.

The deposit box was one of the large ones on the bottom row. Charlie inserted her key in its right lock as Linda inserted her key in its left. A twist and the box slid out of its compartment. Linda heaved it up and onto the counter. She said, "Is there anything else I can do for you, Mrs. Lawton?" And she watched Charlie so intently when she asked the question that Charlie wondered if the girl was part of Eric's secret life.

"Why do you ask?" Charlie said.

"What?"

"Why do you ask if there's anything else you can do for me?"

Linda backed away, as if suddenly aware that she was in the presence of a crazy woman. "We always ask that. We're supposed to ask. Would you like some coffee? Or tea?"

Charlie felt her anxiety dissipate. She said, "No. Sorry. I haven't been well. I didn't mean..."

"I'll leave you then," Linda said and seemed glad to be doing so.

Alone in the vault, Charlie took a deep breath. It was an airless s.p.a.ce, overheated and silent. She felt watched inside, and she looked around for cameras, but there was nothing. She had all the privacy she needed.

It was time to know what Sharon Pasternak had wanted in Eric's study. It was time to know why an intruder had broken into her house and torn it apart.

She eased the top of the deposit box open, and she drew in a sharp breath when she saw its contents: Neatly stacked in rows and bound in their centers by rubber bands, thick packets of one-hundred-dollar bills shot the odor of age, use, and malefaction into the air.

Charlie whispered, "Oh my G.o.d," and slammed the lid of the deposit box home. She leaned over the counter, breathing like a runner and trying to account for what she'd just seen. The packets looked to be fifty bills thick. There were... what?... fifty, seventy, one hundred packets in the deposit box? Which meant... ? What? It was more money than she'd ever seen outside of a motion picture. G.o.d in heaven, who who was her husband? What had he done? was her husband? What had he done?

A movement at the edge of her vision prompted Charlie to turn her head. In the crack that existed between the side of the vault and its door, the girl Linda was watching. She moved away quickly-back-to-business personified-when she saw Charlie's gaze fall upon her.

Charlie hustled out of the vault and called the girl's name. Linda turned, her expression striving for professional indifference. She failed at this, a deer-caught-in-the-headlights look in her eyes. She said quietly, "Yes, Mrs. Lawton? Is there something else?"

Charlie indicated with a motion of her head that she wanted Linda to accompany her back into the vault. The girl looked around as if for rescue but apparently found none. A couple sat at a far desk opening an account with the accounts manager. The tellers were occupied at their windows. The branch manager's office door was closed. Otherwise, the bank was experiencing the typical midday languor that preceded the final rush of the afternoon.

"I've got to..." Linda twisted a ring on her hand. It was a diamond. Engagement or something else? Charlie wondered.

"I don't imagine you're supposed to spy on customers in the vault," Charlie said. "I'd hate to have to report you to the manager. Do you want to come back here with me, or should I knock on his door?"

Linda swallowed. She shoved a lock of hair behind her ear. She followed Charlie.

The deposit box sat on the counter where Charlie had left it. Linda's glance went to it compulsively. She gripped her hands in front of her and waited for whatever Charlie would say.

"You knew my husband. You recognized his name. You as much as said he was in here often."

"I didn't mean you to think-"

"Tell me what you know about this." Charlie opened the deposit box. "Because you knew it was here. You were watching me. You were waiting to see what my reaction was going to be."

Linda said in a rush, "I shouldn't have watched. I'm sorry. sorry. I don't want to lose my job. It's been hard. I've got a little girl, see." I don't want to lose my job. It's been hard. I've got a little girl, see."

Eric's child? Charlie braced herself. Charlie braced herself.

"She's only eighteen months old," Linda continued. "Her dad won't give us anything and my my dad won't let us move in with him. I've been here a year and I'm doing pretty good and if I get fired..." dad won't let us move in with him. I've been here a year and I'm doing pretty good and if I get fired..."

"How long had you and my husband... How did you know each other?"

"Know... ?" Linda looked appalled as she made the connection. "He's nice, nice, is all. He... Well, he likes to flirt, but that's it. I didn't even know he was married till I saw your name on the card one time. And... really, it was is all. He... Well, he likes to flirt, but that's it. I didn't even know he was married till I saw your name on the card one time. And... really, it was nothing. nothing. He's just sort of cute and he comes and goes and I got curious about him, is all." He's just sort of cute and he comes and goes and I got curious about him, is all."

"So you watched him in the vault."

"Only once. I swear it. Once. The rest of the time...Well, when he first came in to make his deposits-for the checking account, you know?-he'd just wait for me. He'd let other people go past him till I was available. He saw the picture of Brittany once-that's my little girl?-that I keep at my window-right over there?-and he asked me about her and that's how we got to know each other. He said he had a little girl as well only she was older and they hadn't seen each other in years and he missed her and that's what we talked about. He was divorced. I knew that because he said 'my ex-wife' and I thought at first... Well, he made me feel special and I thought wouldn't it be neat if I met someone right here at the bank? So I watched him and I was friendly. And he didn't seem to mind."

"He's dead."

"Dead. Oh my gosh. gosh. I'm sorry. I didn't know." She gestured to the metal box. "I was curious about this, is all. Really. That's it." I'm sorry. I didn't know." She gestured to the metal box. "I was curious about this, is all. Really. That's it."

"How long has this been here?" Charlie asked. "The money, I mean."

"I don't really...Two weeks? Three?" Linda said. "It was in between times when he usually came in with his paycheck."

"What happened? Why did you watch him?"

"Because he was... He was all lit up that day. He was high."

"On drugs?" drugs?"

"Not like that. Just happy high. Flying. He had this briefcase with him and he rang the bell just like you did and I went over and he signed the card. He said, 'I'm glad it's you, Linda. I wouldn't trust this this day to anyone else.' " day to anyone else.' "

" 'This day?'"

"See, I didn't know what he meant, which is why I watched him. And what he did was put the briefcase on the counter. He opened the deposit box and took out a slew of papers and he put them in the briefcase and put what was in the briefcase in the box. And that that was the money. And that's what I saw. I thought he was... Well, it looked like he'd sold drugs or something because why else would he be carrying around so much cash. And I couldn't believe it because he seemed so straight. And that's all I saw. I didn't talk to him when he left, and I didn't ever see him again." was the money. And that's what I saw. I thought he was... Well, it looked like he'd sold drugs or something because why else would he be carrying around so much cash. And I couldn't believe it because he seemed so straight. And that's all I saw. I didn't talk to him when he left, and I didn't ever see him again."

Eric selling drugs. Charlie s.n.a.t.c.hed at the thought. Drugs. Yes. That was the answer. But not the type Linda was thinking about.

The girl pictured Eric dealing in those bricklike bags of cocaine one saw on TV or in movies. She fancied him pus.h.i.+ng marijuana to high school kids outside the local liquor store. She thought he was supplying yuppies with heroin, Ecstasy, or some other designer drug. But she didn't imagine him stealing from Biosyn-an efficacious immunosuppressant, a cutting-edge form of chemotherapy with no side effects, an AIDS vaccine ready to be marketed, a v.i.a.g.r.a for women...What was it, Eric?-and selling it on the international black market to the highest bidder, who would make a fortune manufacturing it.

Terry Stewart's words came back to Charlie as she stood looking down at the closed deposit box in the airless confines of the bank's secure vault: Pipe dreams, Charlie. That's all they were. Pipe dreams, Charlie. That's all they were. Except they hadn't been. Not for Eric. He'd been forty-two years old with the majority of his life behind him. He'd seen his chance and he'd taken it. One negotiation, one sale, and a vast acc.u.mulation of cash. So many things were beginning to make sense now. Things he'd said. Things he'd done. Who he had become. Except they hadn't been. Not for Eric. He'd been forty-two years old with the majority of his life behind him. He'd seen his chance and he'd taken it. One negotiation, one sale, and a vast acc.u.mulation of cash. So many things were beginning to make sense now. Things he'd said. Things he'd done. Who he had become.

Charlie locked the deposit box and returned it to its s.p.a.ce in the vault. She felt sick at heart, but at least she was uncovering the truth about her husband. The only question remaining for her was: What had Eric stolen from Biosyn? And the only possible answer seemed to be: nothing at all.

He'd taken money-perhaps a down payment?-for something which he had promised to deliver. He'd failed to procure what he had sold, and as a result, he'd died. With him gone, her house had been searched in an attempt to find the drug, and that search presaged danger for her as long as the promised substance wasn't placed into the palm of whoever had paid for it. Charlie knew that she had to get her hands on that drug and hand it over if she wanted her own security to be inviolate. That being impossible, her only recourse was to track down the person who had paid in the first place and return the money.

Sharon Pasternak seemed the likeliest source of information. She'd been the first person to search Eric's study, after all. Having made the unexpected discovery of money, Charlie knew she'd be a fool to believe that Sharon had come looking for anything anything unrelated to that money in the safe-deposit box. unrelated to that money in the safe-deposit box.

She left the bank and headed for the freeway.

Biosyn was located on a stretch of highway called the Ortega, which snaked over the coastal mountains, linking the dreary town of Lake Elsinore with the more upscale San Juan Capis-trano. It was a dusty road that attracted bikers by the thousands on Sundays. During the week, it was a mostly treeless, boulder-strewn thoroughfare traveled by men and women who worked in service jobs in the restaurants and high-price hotels on the coast.

The company itself was some twelve miles into the hills, an unwelcoming low building the color of dirt that was separated from the rest of the environment by a high chain-link fence with coils of barbed wire springing from its top. Charlie had never been to Biosyn, and she would have missed the turnoff altogether had she not had to brake for a FedEx truck that was making a left turn from Biosyn's concealed entrance into the highway.

It was an odd place altogether to find a pharmaceutical company, Charlie thought as she turned into the narrow drive. It was an odd place to find any company. Most of the industry was miles away, erupting from unsightly industrial parks and strung like bad teeth along the county's mult.i.tude of freeways.

There was a guard shack some fifty yards up the drive and iron gates closing off entry to anyone unexpected. Charlie braked there and gave Sharon Pasternak's name as well as her own. She had an anxious minute while the guard phoned into the sprawling building on the hill ahead of her. For all she knew, Sharon Pasternak was a phony name, which certainly seemed likely if the woman was in on Eric's deal.

But that wasn't the case. The guard returned to Charlie's car with a pa.s.s, saying, "She'll meet you in the lobby. Park in visitors. Go straight in, hear? Don't wander around."

Why on earth would she want to wander around? Charlie wondered as she took the visitor's pa.s.s. The place was a wasteland of dust, boulders, cactus, and chaparral. Not her idea of a spot for a saunter.

She pulled in front of the main entrance to the building and went inside. It was frigidly cool, and a shudder went through her. She was momentarily lost, blinded by the contrast between the bright light outside and the darkly painted walls.

Someone said, "Yes? May I help you?" from a dim corner.

Before Charlie's eyes could adjust, another voice came from the other side of the room. "She's here to see me, Marion. This is Eric Lawton's wife."

"Dr. Lawton's... ? Oh, I'm awfully sorry. About... How d'you do? I am am sorry. He was... Such a lovely man." sorry. He was... Such a lovely man."

"Thanks, Marion. Mrs. Lawton... ?"

Charlie finally began to make out the shapes of things: the white-haired woman behind a mahogany reception desk and reflected in the mirror behind her, Sharon Pasternak who'd just come through a heavy-looking, metal-plated door. She was wearing a lab coat over black leggings, Nike running shoes, and athletic socks.

Sharon Pasternak came to Charlie's side and put a hand on her arm. "Have you actually found that paperwork we were missing?" she asked determinedly, fixing her eyes on Charlie. "You'll be saving my life if you say yes." She squeezed Charlie's arm, and it felt like a warning. So Charlie nodded and forced a smile.

"Great," Sharon said. "What a relief. Come on back."

"She doesn't have clearance, Dr. Pasternak," Marion protested.

"It's okay, Mar. Don't worry. I'll take her over to the coffee room."

"Dr. Cabot won't-"

"It's cool," Sharon said. "We'll be less than five minutes. Time us."

"I'll be watching the clock," Marion warned.

Sharon guided Charlie across the lobby, not to the heavy door through which she herself had emerged but rather to a less secure door that led to a cafeteria-style room that was, at this time of day, deserted. She made no preamble when they got inside. She said tersely, "You've figured it out. Someone must have phoned your house. Did they leave a name? A number I can call?"

"Someone searched searched my house," Charlie said. "Someone tore it apart. After you were there." my house," Charlie said. "Someone tore it apart. After you were there."

"What?" Sharon glanced around hastily. "This is serious trouble. We can't talk here, then. The walls have ears. If you'll give me the name, I'll contact them myself. It's what Eric would've wanted." Sharon glanced around hastily. "This is serious trouble. We can't talk here, then. The walls have ears. If you'll give me the name, I'll contact them myself. It's what Eric would've wanted."

"I don't have any name." Charlie was feeling hot now, and she was growing confused. "I thought you you had it. I a.s.sumed that because when you came to the house and then left with nothing and then the house was searched again... What were you looking for? Whose name? All I have is the..."She couldn't bring herself to say it, so horrible and low it seemed to her that her husband-a man she had adored and had thought she knew- had actually stolen from his employer. "I want to return the money," she said in a rush before she could think of an excuse not to speak. had it. I a.s.sumed that because when you came to the house and then left with nothing and then the house was searched again... What were you looking for? Whose name? All I have is the..."She couldn't bring herself to say it, so horrible and low it seemed to her that her husband-a man she had adored and had thought she knew- had actually stolen from his employer. "I want to return the money," she said in a rush before she could think of an excuse not to speak.

Sharon said, "What money?"

"I've got to return it because they're not going to let up if I don't. Whoever they are. They've searched the house once, and they'll be back. No one puts out that kind of money without expecting ... what do you want to call it?... the goods?"

"But that's not how it works," Sharon said. "They never pay. So if there's money somewhere-"

"Who are are they?" Charlie heard her voice grow louder as her anxiety increased. "How do I contact them?" they?" Charlie heard her voice grow louder as her anxiety increased. "How do I contact them?"

Sharon said, "Ssshhhh. Please. Look, we can't talk here."

"But you came to my house. You searched. You were looking-"

"For their names. Don't you see? I didn't know who Eric was talking to. He just said that it was CBS. But CBS where? LA? New York? Was it Sixty Minutes Sixty Minutes or just the local news?" or just the local news?"

Charlie stared at her. "Sixty Minutes?" "Sixty Minutes?"

"Keep your voice down! Good grief! I'm on the line here, about six steps away from losing my job or going to jail or who the h.e.l.l knows what else, and then what good will I be to anyone?" She looked to the doorway, as if expecting a camera crew to come barreling through. "Look, you've got to leave."

"Not till you tell me-"

"I'll meet you in an hour. In San Juan. Los Rios district. D'you know it? Behind the Amtrak station. There's a tea place there. I don't know the name, but you'll see it when you cross the tracks. Turn to the right. It's on the left. Okay? An hour. I can't can't talk here." talk here."

She shoved Charlie toward the door of the coffee room and quickly walked her back to reception. In the lobby she said heartily, "You've saved me about ten days of work. I can't thank you enough," and she strong-armed her right out into the sunlight, where she said, "An hour," in a low voice before disappearing back into the building where the door clicked shut behind her.

Charlie stared at the darkened gla.s.s, feeling her body like an unwieldy weight that she was supposed to propel to her car in some way. She tried to a.s.similate what Sharon had said-CBS, 60 Minutes, 60 Minutes, the local news-and she set the information next to what had happened and what she already knew. But none of it made sense. She felt like a pa.s.senger on the wrong airplane without a pa.s.sport to show at her destination. the local news-and she set the information next to what had happened and what she already knew. But none of it made sense. She felt like a pa.s.senger on the wrong airplane without a pa.s.sport to show at her destination.

She stumbled to her car. The s.h.i.+vers came upon her there, so badly that she couldn't for a moment get the key into the ignition. But she finally managed to steady one hand with the other and in this manner, she started the engine.

Back down the drive and onto the highway, she wove her way in the direction of the coast. As she drove, she thought about all the things she'd heard about this stretch of road in the years she'd been in Southern California: how it was the ideal place for dumping bodies, frequented by such notable serial killers as Randy Kraft; how contract killings took place in its pull-outs and abandoned vehicles were set fire to in the gullies that bordered its sides; how drunks ran off the road and died at cliff bottoms, their bodies not to be recovered for months; how big rigs crossed the double yellow line and smashed head-on to obliterate anything in their paths.

What did it mean that Biosyn, Inc. was located here, of all places? And what did it mean that Eric Lawton was talking to someone from CBS?

Charlie had no answers. Only more questions. And the only option available to her was to find the tea house in the Los Rios district of San Juan Capistrano and hope that Sharon Pasternak was as good as her word.

She was. Seventy-one minutes after Charlie left Biosyn, Eric's colleague walked into the tea house, a building from the early 1900s, once the home of a founding family of the town. It was a good place for an a.s.signation, the least likely spot any individual would choose with surrept.i.tious activity on her mind. Coyly decorated with lace, teapots, antiques, hat stands, and chapeaux chapeaux for the sartorial entertainment of its customers, it offered, at exorbitant prices, an American version of English afternoon tea. for the sartorial entertainment of its customers, it offered, at exorbitant prices, an American version of English afternoon tea.

Sharon Pasternak looked over her shoulder as she came into the building, where Charlie was seated at a table for two just inside the door. There was another table occupied in the room, a round one at which five women in hats borrowed from the establishment were having a merry birthday tea, looking in their anachronistic chapeaux chapeaux as if Alice and the March Hare were about to join them. as if Alice and the March Hare were about to join them.

"We need a different table," Sharon told Charlie without preamble. "Come on." She led the way to a second room and from there to a third at the back of the house. This was furnished with five small tables, but they were all empty, and Sharon strode to the one that was farthest from the door. "You can't come to Biosyn again," she told Charlie in a low voice. "Especially if you come asking for me. It's risky and obvious. If you'd come to talk to the Human Resources people-about Eric's retirement package or insurance or something-you might have gotten away with it. You and I running into each other in the hall or something. But this? No way. Marion's going to remember and she's going to tell Cabot. She's worked for him for thirty-five years- since he was just out of grad school, if you can believe it-and she's more loyal to him than she is to her husband. She calls him David, all stars in her eyes. By now, he knows you've put in an appearance and asked for me."

"You said CBS," Charlie began. "You said Sixty Minutes." Sixty Minutes."

"He came to me about Exantrum. His lab was working on something different, but he knew about Exantrum. Everyone in Division II knew. Everyone knows even if they pretend they don't."

"His lab? Whose lab?"