Outside The Ropes: OtherSide Of Fear Part 11

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He raised his head, fist curling in his hair as he took a few breaths.

I could see his words building and braced myself for the truth.

"Ive been trying to stop since last week, when we said wed do this together." His eyes dropped from mine as he stepped closer.

"Forget about before." I remained still, not ready or willing to give comfort yet. "But look at me and tell me, since our talk, how many times?"

"Only once. Thursday when I called you at school, I had just used. I regretted it, thats why I called." His voice was speeding up as he stepped closer to me and reached for my hand, trying to convince me. "Im sorry."



12: Time.

I WATCHED HIM FOR ANY SIGN OF hesitation, for any sign that he would say more. His head was down, his hand gripping mine. It took him a moment to raise his eyes to me.

"Only once. Thats the truth?" My voice was soft, my chest too tight to speak louder.

His nod eased some of the tension, and I could take a full breath, but only for a moment before the next thought hit.

"Why didnt you tell me?" I pulled my hand from his.

He stiffened, shoulders rising, lips pressed together, and lines etched deep between his brows.

For every second that pa.s.sed without him talking, I stepped away, the ocean of uncertainty in my gut swelling.

His hand lifted, telling me he didnt know what to say.

"Thats it." I mocked his simple gesture, raising and dropping my hand. "You wont open up to me about this but expect me to believe what you say? Expect me to listen to what you say?" My voice gained power as I spoke, the storm in me building, churning up.

I darted to his desk, digging through the drawers that would open, but found nothing suspect. Frustration mounted as I stirred around things I already knew were there. "Unlock this." Stepping back, I pointed to the bottom drawer that wouldnt budge.

"What are you going to do?" He was hesitant, but already pulling out his keys and stepping to where I was. Sliding the key into the lock, he twisted and a soft pop filled the silence. He stood between the drawer and me with his arms crossed. "This is stupid. You going to do the same thing to our house? Search everything? How often? What will that prove?"

His words were like sticks, poking me, only provoking more anger.

"Maybe if youd actually talk to me, tell me things, I wouldnt have to."

"Thats what I was doing right now. I told you what I did. But see, this," he swept his hand through the air gesturing to the length of me, "is the reason I didnt tell you that day. I already have enough on my f.u.c.king plate without adding this to it."

I stepped back like he hit me. "f.u.c.k you. Dont you dare put this on me. Ive been nothing but supportive, Im freaking out cause you hide so much s.h.i.+t Gage. If you would tell me these things-"

"I didnt mean it like that." He swiped his had over his face as he spoke, "Im sorry."

"You always are." I was shaking as I looked him over. He was sitting on the edge of his desk, still blocking that drawer. I turned to steel. "Move. Now."

He lifted his brow, head shaking with disappointment. Still facing me, he stepped to the side and opened the drawer. "Fine."

It rolled open on smooth tracks, its own momentum keeping it sliding even after Gages hand was gone. The manila folders in the front were in neat order, all lined up and labeled.

"Dont mess it up. But look at whatever the h.e.l.l you need to believe what I say."

The heaviness in his voice weighed on me, but I crouched down on the b.a.l.l.s of my feet as I looked through the drawer. My finger trailed over the tops of the folders. Then I reached the last one and pulled them all forward to check behind it. There was a leather binder and small metal box.

I grabbed the box, lifting it out as if it might explode. Gage made some sound, but I didnt dare look up at him. It wasnt locked, and I undid the latch, opening it. Disappointment or relief knocked me down, so I sat on the ground. The box held business cards and sc.r.a.p pieces of papers with different names and numbers. Nothing more.

I took a few breaths, set the box back, and closed the drawer. Drained of fight, I looked up to him.

He sunk down and sat on the floor beside me. After a moment he b.u.mped me with his body. "Feel better?"

I shook my head, silent. I felt sick.

"Im stopping. I promise." He put his hand on my knee. "I should have told you."

"But you didnt."

"I told you now, doesnt that count for something," he was quick to respond.

I raised my knees up to rest my head on as I looked over at him with a shrug. "I want it to. I hope it does. But..." I wrapped my arms around my legs, trying to bring warmth back to my limbs. "Ive felt on the outside for so long now. This weekend has been better. I dont want to go back to before."

He slipped his arm around my back, folding his body around me. "This weekend has been good. Scary as f.u.c.k, but good." He brought his fingers to my chin, raising my head to look at him. "Having you around is always better. Im trying here. I really am."

His eyes shown with the truth I should have seen before. He really was trying, but I still needed more.

"Youve done good here, and I liked having you close by." He pressed his lips to forehead, speaking into my hair as he gripped me. "We should keep this schedule on the weekends."

It felt like I won by default. He lied, so I got my way. But either way, I was taking it. I let myself relax on him, too exhausted to pull away.

"Lets go home." He tugged on my shoulders, lifting me up.

I grabbed his hand as I rose to my feet. "Promise me something," at his nod, I continued, "Promise me, youll talk to me, tell me when youre struggling, let me help you. If you are close to using, let me know. If you use, let me know."

He nodded, with a weight I couldnt ignore on his shoulders. "I wont use. I promise Ill turn to you if I need to though. But right now, I need to go to bed and so do you. Its been a long night."

I stood at the edge of the bed, watching him sleep. The lines in his jaw and brow were still there. It was those lines, proof that he couldnt find peace even in sleep, that had me skipping cla.s.ses and coming home early after dropping off my paper.

If I was honest, I was also exhausted from the late nights, and a part of me wanted to soothe my still present wounds from this past month. I wanted to make sure I was there for him to reach for, before he turned to anything else. But mostly, I just wanted those lines off his face. I wanted him to rest, relax, and find some peace.

Peeling off my sweater and pants, I slid into bed as silent as possible. The warmth in the blankets seeped into my muscles, my body sinking into the mattress. I lay as close as I could without touching him, not wanting to wake him. But his arms slipped around me, pulling my back against his chest, and his legs tangled in mine, completely locking me to him.

"Why arent you in cla.s.s?" he murmured, voice raspy with sleep.

"Turned in my paper. Wanted to be here instead." I wrapped my arms over his, holding him to me. The heat of his skin melted me, melding my body with his, and I closed my eyes, disconnecting from consciousness.

I opened my eyes, and was greeted with light blue ones. We had s.h.i.+fted in our sleep, facing each other, nose to nose. His lips slid to a smile as I blinked the sleep away.

"G.o.d d.a.m.n, youre beautiful." His fingers brushed my cheek, pus.h.i.+ng my hair off my face.

I half laughed, but he silenced me with his lips, tasting, inhaling, but only for a moment. His nose brushed against mine as he shook his head, both hands gripping my hair.

"I mean it. I could watch you sleep forever, but watching you wake up is even better. I got to do it more often." He pecked the corner of my mouth and pulled back with a groan. "You even smell good." His hands moved down my back, the firm caress waking up my body.

I pressed my forehead to his chest and slid my hands up his bare back, over smooth skin. "We should wake up like this every morning." I didnt want to dwell on why that hadnt been happening.

"Hmm," he hummed, pulling me tighter. "What are your plans today? Are you going to cla.s.s later?"

I shook my head. "I was hoping we could spend time together, just us, before you have to work."

"Ive got several hours before I have to be anywhere, you have anything in mind?" He pulled back to look down on me with a raised brow.

Shrugging one shoulder up, I traced lines down his back, to his chest. "Maybe the gym? Maybe the shooting range, havent done that in a while." My hands had a mind of their own, circling over his stomach, enjoying the way his muscles flexed and twitched under the light touch of my fingers.

His muscles quivered as he laughed, and his hands covered mine, stilling them. "You know," he rolled on top of me, trapping me under him, his blue eyes bright, "Most girls would say something like, the movies or go out to eat." He took my hands with his and brought them on either side of me so he could raise himself up.

"Nothing about us is like most people." I met his teasing gaze and arched my body to rub against him. "But we could do that too. Wed have to get up now though."

He shook his head as he slid my arms up over my head. "No. I want to stay in bed for a while." His voice was hypnotic, but his lips grazing my collarbone lit a flame that spread like wildfire. He released one of my hands to slide my tank top strap out of his way. My free arm moved to touch him, but he captured it before I could reach his shorts.

"Uh-uh." He stopped his maddening but pleasingly slow a.s.sault on my neck to hover over me with a stern face, but the glint in his eye held its own warning.

And that look had me squirming beneath him, arms straining against his hold with the need for more.

"Relax," he commanded, hands tightening on my wrists. "Relax that body because I plan on taking my time on you."

If his words hadnt taken my breath away, the kiss that followed surely would have.

I checked my phone as I slid into the car and out of the rain pounding around me. Still nothing. In the dry interior, I took off my jacket, throwing it over my gym bag on the pa.s.senger seat.

Gage had promised to text when he knew information about Viktor and his meeting. It was supposed to be today, but Viktor always met on his time, and always last minute arrangements.

My stomach rolled, the little food Id eaten barely staying down. I went to type out a text and my phone died before it sent. s.h.i.+t. Searching through my gym bag, I looked for my charger but didnt find it. Double s.h.i.+t.

I had been so off ever since this morning when Gage insisted I go about my day. He made it clear I couldnt be there at his meeting with Viktor. I understood, I really did, so I went to school, and now I was supposed to go to the gym, but I couldnt. I felt sick and tired, the stress of the meeting getting to me. And now, my phone was dead, my only way of communicating with Gage.

I tossed my cell onto the pa.s.senger seat and started the car. Id go to the club. Gage should be there if he wasnt called to the meeting yet, and if he was at the meeting, I could charge my phone and wait there. He had said I was welcome there after this weekend, so why were my muscles tensing and goose b.u.mps p.r.i.c.kling my skin like needles?

I pushed the warning in my head down and drove, stopping for Gages favorite lunch first, teriyaki chicken and vegetables. I knew what I was doing, giving myself an excuse for showing up even though I shouldnt have to. But I couldnt shake the feeling that I was trespa.s.sing.

Running to the back door, I let myself in as fast as I could to avoid the downpour. The feel of the key in my hand should have been rea.s.surance. I had a key to the club, a sure sign I could be there.

The back room was filled with boxes; a new s.h.i.+pment had arrived but wasnt unpacked. Voices in the bar floated through the stale air of the stock room, then several girls laughter. When they spoke it was fast, the words foreign and unclear.

I hesitated in my path to the bar when I saw Gage in the center of the girls. There were new girls, three of them, probably the ones Alessandra had mentioned. They were all just talking, nothing really suspicious. But it was Cherry at Gages side that made me pause, made me want to eavesdrop when I shouldnt.

And the way she was looking at him set my heart on fire. She was glued to him, her eyes never leaving his face even when she dismissed the girls. My muscles ached from the strain, stomach clenching as Gage and her walked away from the others, towards his office. She was speaking too low for me to hear, and his head was dipped as he listened. Then when he responded, she hung on every word, like shed jump to do whatever he said.

These thoughts had to be crazy. Theres no way I could be certain of her intentions, but I already didnt trust her, and seeing her twirl her pigtails as she stepped closer to his side made me want to bang her head into the office door he was about to step through.

I moved to the open door of the backroom to get a better look at them across the club. He stood in his doorway, nodding at whatever she said. I couldnt see her face as she stepped even closer, almost in the doorway with him. Her height put her up to his nose, so it was hard to make out his features now too. But her hand moving to touch his chest was clear, and the action snapped something in me.

And I wished to G.o.d Gage hadnt looked up and spotted me right then because his eyes lit on me, just as he pushed her hand away, before it touched him. Now I didnt know if it was me that stopped it or him. But either way, that girl needed to back the h.e.l.l up.

Gage was already walking past her to me and I was walking towards him, dizzy with the emotions coursing through me, churning in my stomach. He grabbed the bag of food from my hand, nervousness clear in his s.h.i.+fty eyes.

"What are you doing here? I thought you were going to the gym right now?"

"I can tell."

He shot me a look. "Im glad youre here, Im starving." He lifted the bag of food. "We can eat in the office. I just finished up with the new girls."

The three new girls were at the bar filling out some sort of paperwork, giggling between them.

"h.e.l.lo Rea, you going to be in all night?" Cherry approached bold as ever, fake smile on her ruby red lips.

"Dont you f.u.c.king worry about my schedule."

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