The Tudor Secret Part 1

The Tudor Secret.

by C. W. Gortner.

1602.

Everyone has a secret.

Like the oyster with its grain of sand, we bury it deep within, coating it with opalescent layers, as if that could heal our mortal wound. Some of us devote our entire lives to keeping our secret hidden, safe from those who might pry it from us, h.o.a.rding it like the pearl, only to discover that it escapes us when we least expect it, revealed by a flash of fear in our eyes when caught unawares, by a sudden pain, a rage or hatred, or an all-consuming shame.

I know all about secrets. Secrets upon secrets, wielded like weapons, like tethers, like bedside endearments. The truth alone can never suffice. Secrets are the coin of our world, the currency upon which we construct our edifice of grandeur and lies. We need our secrets to serve as iron for our s.h.i.+elds, brocade for our bodies, and veils for our fears: They delude and comfort, s.h.i.+elding us always from the fact that in the end we, too, must die.

"Write it all down," she tells me, "every last word."

We often sit like this in the winter of our lives, chronic insomniacs in outdated finery, the chessboard or the game of cards neglected on the table, as her eyes-alert and ever-wary after all these years, still leonine in a face grown gaunt with age-turn inward to that place where none has ever trespa.s.sed, to her own secret, which I now know, have perhaps always known, she must take with her to her grave.

"Write it down," she says, "so that when I am gone, you will remember."

As if I could ever forget...

WHITEHALL, 1553.

Chapter One.

Like everything important in life, it began with a journey-the road to London, to be exact, my first excursion to that most fascinating and sordid of cities.

We started out before daybreak, two men on horseback. I had never been farther than Worcesters.h.i.+re, which made Master Shelton's arrival with my summons all the more unexpected. I scarcely had time to pack my few belongings and bid farewell to the servants (including sweet Annabel, who'd wept as if her heart might break) before I was riding from Dudley Castle, where I'd spent my entire life, unsure of when, or if, I would return again.

My excitement and apprehension should have been enough to keep me awake. Yet I soon found myself nodding off to sleep, lulled by the monotony of the pa.s.sing countryside and my roan Cinnabar's comfortable amble.

Master Shelton startled me awake. "Brendan, lad, wake up. We're almost there."

I sat up in my saddle. Blinking away my catnap, I reached up to straighten my cap and found only my unruly thatch of light auburn hair. When he first arrived to fetch me, Master Shelton had frowned at its length, grumbling that Englishmen shouldn't go about unshorn like the French. He wouldn't be pleased by the loss of my cap, either.

"Oh, no." I looked at him.

He regarded me impa.s.sively. A puckered scar ran across his left cheek, marring his rugged features. Not that it mattered. Archie Shelton had never been a handsome man. Still, he had impressive stature and sat his steed with authority; his cloak, emblazoned with the ragged bear and staff, denoted his rank as the Dudley family steward. To anyone else, his granite stare would have inspired trepidation. But I had grown accustomed to his taciturn manner, as he had been overseeing my upkeep since his arrival in the Dudley household eight years ago.

"It fell off about a league back." He extended my cap to me. "Since my days in the Scottish wars, I've never seen anyone sleep so soundly on horseback. You'd think you'd been to London a hundred times before."

I heard rough mirth in his rebuke. It confirmed my suspicion that he was secretly pleased by this precipitous change in my fortune, though it wasn't in his nature to discuss his personal sentiments regarding anything the duke or Lady Dudley commanded.

"You can't go losing your cap about court," he said as I clapped the red cloth hat back on my head and peered toward where the sun-dappled road climbed over a hill. "A squire must be attentive at all times to his appearance." He eyed me. "My lord and lady expect much of their servants. I trust you can remember how to behave with your betters."

"Of course." I squared my shoulders, reciting in my most obsequious tone: "It's best to remain silent whenever possible and to always keep your eyes lowered when spoken to. If uncertain as to how to address someone, a simple 'my lord' or 'my lady' will suffice." I paused. "See? I haven't forgotten."

Master Shelton snorted. "See that you don't. You're to be a squire to his lords.h.i.+p's son, Lord Robert, and I'll not see you squander the opportunity. If you excel in this post, who knows? You could rise to chamberlain or even steward. The Dudleys are known to reward those who serve them well."

As soon he uttered these words, I thought I should have known.

When Lady Dudley joined her family year-round at court, she had sent Master Shelton twice a year to the castle where I remained with a small staff. He came ostensibly to oversee our upkeep, but whereas before my duties had been confined to the stables, he a.s.signed me other household ch.o.r.es and paid me, for the first time, a modest sum. He even took in a local monk to tutor me-one of thousands who begged and bartered their way through England since old King Henry had abolished the monasteries. The staff at Dudley Castle had deemed her ladys.h.i.+p's steward unnatural, a cold and solitary man, unmarried and with no children of his own; but he had shown me unexpected kindness.

Now I knew why.

He wanted me to be his successor, once old age or infirmity demanded his retirement. It was hardly the role I aspired to, filled as it was with the tiresome domestic obligations that Lady Dudley had neither time nor inclination for. Though it was a far better future than someone in my shoes ought to expect, I thought that I'd rather remain a stable hand than become a privileged lackey dependent on Dudley sufferance. Horses, at least, I understood, whilst the duke and his wife were strangers to me, in every sense of the word.

Still, I mustn't appear ungrateful. I bowed my head and murmured, "I would be honored if I were one day deemed worthy of such a post."

A cragged smile, all the more startling because of its rarity, lightened Master Shelton's face. "Would you now? I thought as much. Well, then, we shall have to see, shan't we?"

I smiled in return. Serving as squire to Lord Robert would prove challenge enough without my worrying over a potential stewards.h.i.+p in the future. Though I'd not seen the duke's third-eldest son in years, he and I were close in age and had lived together during our childhood.

In truth, Robert Dudley had been my bane. Even as a boy, he'd been the most handsome and talented of the Dudley brood, favored in everything he undertook, be it archery, music, or dance. He also nursed an inflated sense of pride in his own superiority-a bully who delighted in leading his brothers in rousing games of "thrash-the-foundling."

No matter how hard I tried to hide or how fiercely I struggled when caught, Robert always managed to hunt me down. He directed his walloping gang of brothers to duck me into the sc.u.m-coated moat or dangle me over the courtyard well, until my shouts turned to sobs and my beloved Mistress Alice rushed out to rescue me. I spent the majority of my time scrambling up trees or hiding, terrified, in attics. Then Robert was sent to court to serve as a page to the young Prince Edward. Once his brothers were likewise dispatched to similar posts, I discovered a newfound and immensely welcome freedom from their tyranny.

I could hardly believe I was now on my way to serve Robert, at his mother's command, no less. But of course, n.o.ble families did not foster unfortunates like me for charity's sake. I had always known a day would come when I'd be called upon to pay my debt.

My thoughts must have shown on my face, for Master Shelton cleared his throat and said awkwardly, "No need to worry. You and Lord Robert are grown men now; you just mind your manner and do as he bids, and all will go well for you, you'll see." In another rare display of sensibility, he reached over to pat my shoulder. "Mistress Alice would be proud of you. She always thought you would amount to something."

I felt my chest tighten. I saw her in my mind's eye, wagging a finger at me as her pot of herbs bubbled on the hearth and I sat entranced, my mouth and hands sticky with fresh-made jam. "You must always be ready for great things, Brendan Prescott," she would say. "We never know when we'll be called upon to rise above our lot."

I averted my eyes, pretending to adjust my reins. The silence lengthened, broken only by the steady clip-clop clip-clop of hooves on the cobblestone-and-baked-mud road. of hooves on the cobblestone-and-baked-mud road.

Then Master Shelton said, "I hope your livery fits. You could stand to put some meat on your bones, but you've good posture. Been practicing with the quarterstaff like I taught you?"

"Every day," I replied. I forced myself to look up. Master Shelton had no idea of what else I'd been practicing these past few years.

It was Mistress Alice who had first taught me my letters. She had been a rarity, an educated daughter of merchants who'd fallen on hard times; and while she'd taken a post in the Dudley service in order to keep, as she liked to say, "my soul and flesh together," she always told me the only limit on our minds is the one we impose. After her death, I had vowed to pursue my studies in her memory. I lavished the sour-breathed monk that Master Shelton had hired with such fawning enthusiasm that before he knew it, the monk was steering me through the intricacies of Plutarch. I often stayed up all night, reading books purloined from the Dudley library. The family had acquired shelves of tomes, mostly to show off their wealth, as the Dudley boys took more pride in their hunting prowess than any talent with the quill. But for me, learning became a pa.s.sion. In those musty tomes I found a limitless world, where I could be whomever I wanted.

I repressed my smile. Master Shelton was literate, as well; he had to be in order to balance household accounts. But he made a point of saying he never presumed to more than his station in life and would not tolerate such presumption in others. In his opinion, no servant, no matter how a.s.siduous, should aspire to be conversant on the humanist philosophies of Erasmus or essays of Thomas More, much less fluent in French and Latin. If he knew how much his tutor payments had bought for me in these past years, I doubt he'd be pleased.

We rode on in quiet, cresting the hill. As the road threaded through a treeless vale, the emptiness of the landscape caught my attention, used as I was to the unfettered Midlands. We weren't too far away, and yet I felt as if I entered a foreign domain.

Smoke smeared the sky like a thumbprint. I caught sight of twin hills, then the rise of ma.s.sive walls surrounding a sprawl of tenements, spires, riverside manors, and endless latticed streets-all divided by the wide swath of the Thames.

"There she is," said Master Shelton. "The City of London. You'll miss the peace of the countryside soon enough, if the cutthroats or pestilence don't get to you first."

I could only stare. London was as dense and foreboding as I'd imagined it would be, with kites circling overhead as if the air contained carrion. Yet as we drew closer, ab.u.t.ting those serpentine walls I spied pasturelands dotted with livestock, herb patches, orchards, and prosperous hamlets. It seemed London still had a good degree of the rural to commend it.

We reached one of the seven city gates. I took in everything at once, enthralled by a group of overdressed merchants perched on an ox-drawn cart, a singing tinker carrying a clanging yoke of knives and armor, and a mult.i.tude of beggars, apprentices, officious guildsmen, butchers, tanners, and pilgrims. Voices collided in argument with the gatekeepers, who had called a halt to everyone's progress. As Master Shelton and I joined the queue, I lifted my gaze to the gate looming overhead, its ma.s.sive turrets and fanged crenellations blackened by grime.

I froze. Mounted on poles, staring down through sightless sockets, was a collection of tar-boiled heads-a grisly feast for the ravens, which tore at the rancid flesh.

Beside me Master Shelton muttered, "Papists. His lords.h.i.+p ordered their heads displayed as a warning."

Papists were Catholics. They believed the pope in Rome, not our sovereign, was head of the Church. Mistress Alice had been a Catholic. Though she'd raised me in the Reformed Faith, according to the law, I'd watched her pray every night with the rosary.

In that instant, I was struck by how far I had come from the only place I had ever known as home. There, everyone turned a blind eye to the practices of others. No one cared to summon the local justices or the trouble these entailed. Yet here it seemed a man could lose his head for it.

An unkempt guard lumbered to us, wiping greasy hands on his tunic. "No one's allowed in," he barked. "Gates are hereby closed by his lords.h.i.+p's command!" He paused, catching sight of the badge on Master Shelton's cloak. "Northumberland's man, are you?"

"His lady wife's chief steward." Master Shelton withdrew a roll of papers from his saddlebag. "I have here safe conducts for me and the lad. We are due at court."

"Is that so?" The guard leered. "Well, every last miserable soul here says they're due somewhere. Rabble's in a fine fettle, what with these rumors of His Majesty's mortal illness and some nonsense of the Princess Elizabeth riding among us." He hawked a gob of spit into the dirt. "Idiots. They'd believe the moon was made of silk if enough swore to it." He didn't bother to check the papers. "I'd keep away from crowds if I were you," he said, waving us on.

We pa.s.sed under the gatehouse. Behind us, I heard those who had been detained start to yell in protest. Master Shelton tucked the papers back into the saddlebag. The parting of his cloak revealed a broadsword strapped to his back. The glimpse of the weapon riveted me for a moment. I surrept.i.tiously reached a hand to the sheathed knife at my belt, a gift from Master Shelton on my fourteenth year.

I ventured, "His Majesty King Edward... is he dying?"

"Of course not," retorted Master Shelton. "The king has been ill, is all, and the people blame the duke for it, as they blame him for just about everything that's wrong in England. Absolute power, lad, it comes with a price." His jaw clenched. "Now, keep an eye out. You never know when you'll run into some knave who'd just as soon cut your throat for the clothes on your back."

I could believe it. London was not at all what I had envisioned. Instead of the orderly avenues lined with shops, which populated my imagination, we traversed a veritable tangle of crooked lanes piled with refuse, with side alleys snaking off into pockets of sinister darkness. Overhead, rows of dilapidated buildings leaned against each other like fallen trees, their ramshackle galleries colliding together, blocking out the sunlight. It was eerily quiet, as though everyone had disappeared, and the silence was all the more disconcerting after the clamor at the gate we had left behind.

Suddenly, Master Shelton pulled to a halt. "Listen."

My every nerve went on alert. A muted sound reached me, seeming to come from everywhere at once. "Best hold on," warned Master Shelton, and I tightened my grip on Cinnabar, edging him aside moments before an onslaught of people came pouring into the street. Their appearance was so unexpected that despite my grip, Cinnabar started to rear. Fearing he would trample someone, I slid from the saddle to take hold of his bridle.

The crowd pressed around us. Deafening loud, motley, and smelling of sweat and sewer, they made me feel as though I were prey. I started to angle for the dagger at my belt before I noticed that no one was paying me any mind. I looked at Master Shelton, still mounted on his ma.s.sive bay. He barked an indecipherable order. I craned my head, straining to hear him above the noise of the crowd.

"Get back on that horse," he shouted again, and I was almost knocked off my feet as the mult.i.tude surged forward. It was all I could do to scramble onto Cinnabar before we were propelled by the mob, careening among them down a narrow pa.s.sage and spilling out onto a riverbank.

I yanked Cinnabar to a halt. Before me, algaed as liquid jasper, ran the Thames. In the distance downstream, rimmed in haze, a stone pile bullied the landscape.

The Tower.

I went still, unable to take my gaze from the infamous royal fortress. Master Shelton cantered up behind me. "Didn't I tell you to keep an eye open? Come. This is no time for sightseeing. The mob in London can turn cruel as a bear in a pit."

I forced myself to pull away and check my horse. Cinnabar's flanks quivered with a fine lather, his nostrils aflare, but he seemed unharmed. The crowd had rushed ahead toward a wide road, bordered by a line of tenement houses and swinging tavern signs. As we moved forth, I belatedly reached up to my brow. By some miracle, my cap remained in place.

The crowd came to a stop, an impoverished group of common folk. I watched, bemused, as barefoot urchins tiptoed among them, dogs skulking at their heels. Thieves, and not one over nine years old by the looks of them. It was hard to see them and not see myself, the wretch I might have been had the Dudleys not taken me in.

Master Shelton scowled. "They're blocking our pa.s.sage. Go see if you can find out what this lot is gawking at. I'd rather we not force our way through if we can help it."

I handed over my reins, dismounted again, and wedged into the crowd, thankful for once for my slight build. I was cursed at, shoved, and elbowed, but I managed to push to the front. Standing on tiptoes to look past the craning heads, I made out the dirt thoroughfare, upon which rode an unremarkable cavalcade of people on horses. I was about to turn away when a portly woman beside me shoved her way forth, brandis.h.i.+ng a wilted nosegay.

"G.o.d bless you, sweet Bess," she cried. "G.o.d bless Your Grace!"

She threw the flowers into the air. A hush fell. One of the men in the cavalcade heeled close to its center, as if to s.h.i.+eld something-or someone-from view.

It was then I noticed the dappled charger hidden among the larger horses. I had a keen eye for horseflesh, and with its arched neck, lithe musculature, and prancing hooves I recognized it for a Spanish breed rarely seen in England, and more costly than the duke's entire stable.

Then I looked at its rider.

I knew at once it was a woman, though a hooded cloak concealed her features and leather gauntlets covered her hands. Contrary to custom, she was mounted astride, legs sheathed in riding boots displayed against the embossed sides of her saddle-a sliver of a girl, without apparent distinction, save for her horse, riding as if intent on reaching her destination.

Yet she knew we were watching her and she heard the woman's cry, for she turned her head. And to my astonishment, she pushed her hood back to reveal a long fine-boned face, framed by an aureole of coppery hair.

And she smiled.

Chapter Two.

Everything around me receded. I recalled what the guard at the gate had said-some nonsense of the Princess Elizabeth riding among us-and I felt an actual pang in my heart as the cavalcade quickened down the thoroughfare and disappeared.

The crowd began to disperse, though one of the urchins did creep onto the road to retrieve the fallen nosegay. The woman who'd thrown it stood transfixed, hands at her breast, gazing after the vanished riders with the gleam of tears in her weary eyes. I reached out and lightly touched her arm. She turned to me with a dazed expression.

"Did you see her?" she whispered, and though she looked right at me, I had the impression she did not see me at all. "Did you see our Bess? She's come to us at last, G.o.d be praised. Only she can save us from that devil Northumberland's grip."

I stood immobile, grateful I carried my livery in my saddlebag. Was this how the people of London viewed John Dudley, Duke of Northumberland? I knew the duke now served as the king's chief minister, having a.s.sumed power following the fall of the king's former protector and uncle, Edward Seymour. Many in the land had cursed the Seymours for their avarice and ambition. Had the duke incurred the same hatred?

I turned from the woman. Master Shelton had ridden up behind me; he stared glowering from his bay. "You are a fool, woman," he rumbled, "Careful my lord the duke's men don't ever hear you, for they'll cut out your tongue sure as I'm sitting here."

She gaped at him. When she caught sight of the badge on his cloak, she staggered back. "The duke's man!" she gibbered. She stumbled away. Those who remained took up the cry as they, too, fled for the safety of the tangled alleys or the nearest tavern.

On the other side of the thoroughfare, a group of decidedly coa.r.s.e-looking men paused to stare at us. As I saw the glint of blades being jerked from sleeves, my stomach somersaulted.

"Best mount now," said Master Shelton, without taking his eyes from the men. He did not need to tell me twice. I vaulted onto my saddle as Master Shelton swerved about, scanning the vicinity. The men started to cross the road, partially blocking the route the cavalcade had taken. I waited with my heart in my throat. We had two options. We could go back the way we'd come, which led to the riverbank and maze of streets, or plunge into what looked like an impenetrable row of decrepit timber-framed buildings. Master Shelton seemed to hesitate, whirling his bay back around on its hindquarters to gauge the approaching men.

Then his scarred face broke into a ferocious grin, and he dug his heels into his bay to vault forth-straight at them.

I kicked Cinnabar into swift action and followed at a breakneck pace. The men froze in midstep, eyes popping as they beheld the charge of solid muscle and hooves coming toward them. In unison, they flung themselves to either side like the clods of dirt our horses tore from the road; as we thundered past, I heard a gut-wrenching scream cut short. I glanced back.

One of the men lay facedown on the road, a pool of red seeping from his mangled head.

We plunged between the ramshackle edifices. All light extinguished. The miasmic smells of excrement, urine, and rotting food overpowered me like a mantle thrown over my face. Overhead, balconies formed a claustrophobic vault, festooned with dripping laundry and slabs of curing meat. Night soil splashed as our horses bolted through overflowing conduits that emptied the city's filth into the river. I held my breath and clenched my teeth, tasting bile in my throat as the torturous pa.s.sage seemed to go on forever, until we burst, gasping, into open expanse.

I reined Cinnabar to a halt. Everything reeled about me, and I closed my eyes, breathing in deeply to catch my breath and steady the whirlwind in my head. I sensed sudden silence, smelled ripe gra.s.s and a tang of apple smoke on the air. I opened my eyes.

We had crossed into another world.