Homeward Bound Part 34

Sam had been reluctant to point that out, not wanting to derail things altogether. But he had concluded that things were already about as derailed as they could be. He wondered whether Atvar felt the same way, or whether the Lizard was satisfied to stall. Sam hoped not. One way or the other, it was time to find out.

Cars and trucks and buses halted when Yeager appeared at the crosswalk. Drivers and pa.s.sengers all turned their eye turrets his way. "I enjoy being with you in public," Atvar remarked as they crossed. "It is not easy for me to be anonymous, not with the body paint I put on. Next to you, though, I am invisible. Most refres.h.i.+ng."

"Glad to be of service," Sam said dryly. Atvar laughed.

When they got to the park, Sam led them to some tables and benches screened from the morning sun by the treelike shrubs behind them. "Are you sure you are comfortable, Amba.s.sador?" Atvar asked.

"I thank you for your concern, but I am fine," Sam said. He nodded politely to a Rabotev walking along the path. The dark-skinned alien hopped in the air in surprise. Sam Yeager turned back to Atvar. "I am fine as far as comfort goes, anyhow. I am less happy with the direction of our talks, to use your term."

"I am sorry to hear that. It makes my liver heavy," Atvar said.

"If it does, Fleetlord, a little more real cooperation might work wonders," Sam said bluntly. "From my point of view, the Race seems to be doing its best to make these discussions go nowhere while appearing to make progress."

"What an extraordinary notion," Atvar exclaimed. "How can you possibly say that when you have conferred with the Emperor himself?" He cast his eye turrets down toward the pale, sandy soil beneath his feet.

"I can say it because it appears to me to be a truth. I am honored the Emperor said he wanted to help settle the differences between the Race and the United States. I am honored, yes, but I am not very impressed. He offered no proposals, only his good will. Good will is valuable; I do not reject it. But good will by itself does not solve problems."

"You must not expect haste from us," Atvar said. "Remember, we are not used to dealing with independent not-empires." He laughed again. "We are not used to dealing with not-empires at all."

"I understand that. I have tried to take it into account," Sam said. "I am sorry, but it does not seem to be a good enough explanation. If you do not deal with us through diplomacy, we will end up fighting. Am I wrong?"

"Probably not," Atvar answered. "If we do fight, the Race will win. Am I wrong?"

"You would have been right when I went into cold sleep, Fleetlord. I know that," Sam said. "Now? Now I am not so sure any of your planets would get away untouched. You have been able to wreck Tosev 3 for a long time. Now we can also reach you. You would do well to remember that."

"Is this diplomacy, or only a threat?" Atvar asked.

"It is diplomacy. It is also a threat," Yeager answered. "I do not try to deny it. You did not worry about threatening us when you came to Tosev 3. You went ahead and did it, and not just with words. You invaded my not-empire. You occupied parts of it for years. You dropped nuclear weapons on Was.h.i.+ngton and Seattle and Pearl Harbor. These are truths, even if perhaps you would rather not remember them now. If we fight again, your worlds will learn what sort of truths they are."

He waited. There was a chance that Atvar would stand up and spit in his eye. If that happened, he didn't know what he'd do. Resign the amba.s.sadors.h.i.+p, maybe, and go back up to the Admiral Peary Admiral Peary and back into cold sleep. Someone else would have a better chance of getting a worthwhile agreement out of the Lizards. and back into cold sleep. Someone else would have a better chance of getting a worthwhile agreement out of the Lizards.

Atvar's tailstump lashed in agitation. Whatever he'd expected to hear, what Sam had just told him wasn't it. At last, he answered, "Amba.s.sador, you fought in that war. How can you speak of visiting its like on Home and the other worlds of the Empire?"

"You still do not see my point, Fleetlord, or not all of it," Sam said. "The prospect bothers you more because now it might happen to you, too. because now it might happen to you, too." He added an emphatic cough. "It did not bother you at all when it could only happen to Big Uglies. And that is what I am trying to tell you: you were wrong not to be bothered under those circ.u.mstances. We have a saying: 'what goes around comes around.' Do you understand that? I had to translate it literally."

"I think I do," Atvar said. "It is another way of saying that what we did to you, you can now do to us."

"That is part of it, but only part of it," Yeager said. "You did it to us, and you thought you were right to do it to us. Why should we not think we are also right to do it to you?"

He watched the fleetlord's tailstump quiver again. He could make a pretty good guess about what Atvar was thinking: because we are the Race, and you are nothing but a pack of wild Big Uglies. because we are the Race, and you are nothing but a pack of wild Big Uglies. But that was the sort of thinking that had sent the conquest fleet out. It might have made some sense against an opponent who couldn't hit back. The Lizards didn't face that kind of opponent any more. If they didn't keep it in mind, everybody would be sorry. But that was the sort of thinking that had sent the conquest fleet out. It might have made some sense against an opponent who couldn't hit back. The Lizards didn't face that kind of opponent any more. If they didn't keep it in mind, everybody would be sorry.

When Atvar still didn't say anything, Sam spoke again, quietly: "This too is what equality means."

To his surprise, Atvar's mouth fell open in a laugh, though the Lizard was anything but amused. "You know, of course, that s.h.i.+plord Straha almost cast me down from my position. His reason for doing so was that I had not prosecuted the war against the Tosevites hard enough to suit him. He felt that, if we did not do everything we could, regardless of consequences, to overcome Tosevite resistance, we would regret it one day. Enough of the a.s.sembled s.h.i.+plords thought him wrong to let me keep the job. I reckoned him a maniac. Again, you know of this."

"Oh, yes. I know of this." Sam made the affirmative gesture. After Straha defected to the USA one jump ahead of Atvar's vengeance, the exile and Yeager had become good friends. Sam didn't remind Atvar of that; it would have been rude. Instead, he said, "But now I have to say I am not sure I see your point."

"It is very simple-not complicated in the least," Atvar answered. "My point is, Straha was right. Here we are, all these years later, and Straha was right. Irony has a bitter taste."

This time, Sam had to think hard before deciding what to say next. He had heard Straha say the same thing. For all he knew, the s.h.i.+plord was saying it right now back on Earth. "Does Straha still live?" he asked. "I was in cold sleep a long time, and have not heard."

"I do not know if he still still lives, but the signal that he has died has yet to reach Home," Atvar replied. Sam used the affirmative gesture again. When news took years to travel from one sun to the next, lives, but the signal that he has died has yet to reach Home," Atvar replied. Sam used the affirmative gesture again. When news took years to travel from one sun to the next, still still could be a nebulous notion. The fleetlord went on, "Are you not grateful for my mistaken moderation?" could be a nebulous notion. The fleetlord went on, "Are you not grateful for my mistaken moderation?"

"Are you sure it was mistaken?" Yeager said. "There is no guarantee you would have won a great and final victory with Straha in command. By what I recall, you were fighting pretty hard as things were."

"We will never know, will we?" Atvar said. "Could the result have been much worse for my species than what in fact occurred?"

"I think it could have," Sam Yeager said. "If you had not won, you would have had all the surviving Tosevite not-empires and empires mad for revenge against you. The fighting on Tosev 3 might never have stopped."

Atvar shrugged. "And so? Even with constant fighting on Tosev 3, we probably would not have had to worry about Tosevites visiting Home."

"Fleetlord, we really have a problem here, and you need to recognize it," Yeager said. "If the Race cannot get used to the idea that we Big Uglies are doing things only you have been doing for thousands of years, then the two sides will will collide. They cannot help but collide. And that will not be to anyone's advantage." collide. They cannot help but collide. And that will not be to anyone's advantage."

"Better to no one's advantage than to yours alone," Atvar said.

"I do not believe an agreement on even terms that everyone adheres to would be to anyone's disadvantage," Sam said. "If I am wrong, no doubt you will correct me. I think the Emperor would also want an equitable agreement. That was my impression from my meetings with him. Again, you will correct me if I am wrong."

"You are not wrong. Where we differ, Amba.s.sador, is in determining what goes into an equitable agreement."

"An equitable agreement is one where both sides have the same duties and the same obligations," Sam said.

"Why should that be so, when one side is stronger than the other?" Atvar came back. "Our superior strength should be reflected in any treaty we make."

Sam used the negative gesture. What he felt like doing was tearing his hair, but he refrained. "First, all independent empires and not-empires have the same rights and duties," he said. "This is true on Tosev 3, and it used to be true on Home as well. Ask the protocol master if you do not believe me. And second, as I have pointed out before, how much stronger you are is no longer obvious, the way it was when I went into cold sleep. Whether you are stronger at all is no longer obvious, in fact."

He waited. He had to wait quite a while. At last, Atvar said, "This may not prompt a treaty, you know. This may prompt an effort to exterminate you while we still can."

"The Race has been talking about that for a long time." Sam did his best not to show how alarmed he was. "I do not believe exterminating us would be easy or cheap. I do believe you might end up exterminating yourselves in the process."

"Possibly. But if we could be rid of you without destroying ourselves altogether, the price might well be worth paying."

"Is this your opinion, the government's opinion, or the Emperor's opinion?" Sam asked. The answer to that might tell him where these talks were going-if they were going anywhere. He waited.

"It is my opinion," Atvar said. "Perhaps I am mistaken. Perhaps peace will prove a benefit to all concerned, and not merely a breathing s.p.a.ce in which you Tosevites gather yourselves for a blow against the Race. Perhaps this is a truth. But the evidence from Tosev 3 makes me doubt it."

"Why am I here, then?" Sam asked. This time, Atvar did not answer him at all.

Atvar had begun to hope he never again saw the park across the way from the hotel in Sitneff. After his talk there with Sam Yeager, he pictured bombs bursting on Tosev 3, and on Home, and on the Empire's other two worlds. How strong were were the Americans? No way to know, not for certain. All he could know was how strong they had been when the latest signals left Tosev 3. the Americans? No way to know, not for certain. All he could know was how strong they had been when the latest signals left Tosev 3.

The Race had comfortably run the Empire at light speed for thousands of years. Delays of signals from one planet to the next had mattered little. But Tosev 3 was farther from Home than either Rabotev 2 or Halless 1, which made delays longer, and the Tosevites changed far faster than any species in the Empire, which made those delays more critical.

Maybe there was a good answer to the problem, but Atvar failed to see it.

He was worried enough to telephone the Emperor again. He didn't get through to Risson. He hadn't expected to, not at once-things simply didn't work that way. He did hope the message he left would persuade Risson to call him back. His Majesty's courtiers knew the Emperor took a keen interest in Tosevite affairs.

Half a day later, Atvar did get a call from Preffilo. That female was on the line again. Atvar a.s.sumed the special posture of respect as the Emperor's image appeared on the monitor. As Risson had before, he said, "Rise, Fleetlord, and tell me what is on your mind."

"It shall be done," Atvar said once more, and summarized what he and Sam Yeager had had to say to each other. He finished, "What are we going to do, your Majesty? It strikes me that our choices are to grant the Big Uglies privileges they have not earned and do not deserve, or else to face a devastating war. Neither seems satisfactory."

"Will the American Tosevites fight if we refuse to make these concessions?" the Emperor asked. "Are they as strong as their amba.s.sador claims?" He didn't sound the least bit self-conscious at using the old, old word to describe Sam Yeager's status.

"As for your first question, your Majesty, they might," Atvar answered. "Pride pushes them more strongly than it does us." That he might find it harder to recognize the Race's pride than the Big Uglies' had never occurred to him. He went on, "As for the second question, how can we be certain where the Tosevites are these days?" He reminded the Emperor of the problem with communicating with Tosev 3.

Risson made the affirmative gesture. "Yes, I know the difficulty. It has always been next to impossible to administer Tosev 3 from Home. As you say, the lag is much more important there than with our other two worlds."

Back when the Race first discovered the Big Uglies were much more advanced than anyone on Home had thought, the conquest fleet had dutifully radioed the news from Tosev 3 to Home. All those years later-more than twenty of Tosev 3's turns around its star-detailed orders had started coming back from Home and the bureaucrats here. The only problem with them was, they were ridiculously unsuited to the situation as it had developed. Atvar had had the sense to ignore them. The males and females here had taken a lot longer to have the sense to stop sending them.

"What do you recommend now?" Risson persisted. "Do you believe making the concessions the American Tosevites demand is necessary to ensure peace? Do you believe it will will ensure peace, or will it only encourage the Big Uglies to demand more from us later?" ensure peace, or will it only encourage the Big Uglies to demand more from us later?"

"With the Big Uglies, that second possibility is never far from the surface," Atvar said. "They have only those dull nails in place of fingerclaws, but they grab fiercely even so."

"That has also been my impression," the Emperor said. "If we reject their demands, would they truly fight on that account?"

"I am not certain. I wish I were. In the short run, I am inclined to doubt it. But they would surely arm themselves more powerfully. They would build more stars.h.i.+ps. We might decide on a preventive war against them. There is no certainty that war would succeed now. The longer we wait, the less our likelihood of victory. That, I would say, is is certain." certain."

Risson hissed unhappily. "You are telling me our best choice would be to order all-out war against them now?"

Our best choice would have been to order all-out war against them as soon as the first round of fighting stopped, Atvar thought grimly. But he couldn't have done that. It might have left Tosev 3 uninhabitable, and the colonization fleet was on the way. After muttering Straha's name under his breath, he said, "When it comes to dealing with the wild Big Uglies, your Majesty, there are no good choices. We have to thread our way through the bad and try to avoid the worst." Atvar thought grimly. But he couldn't have done that. It might have left Tosev 3 uninhabitable, and the colonization fleet was on the way. After muttering Straha's name under his breath, he said, "When it comes to dealing with the wild Big Uglies, your Majesty, there are no good choices. We have to thread our way through the bad and try to avoid the worst."

"I see," the Emperor said. "I always saw, but the coming of this stars.h.i.+p has poked my snout in it more strongly than ever." He paused. "Sam Yeager struck me as being a reasonable individual."

"Oh, he is," Atvar agreed. "But he has his duty, which is to represent his not-empire, and he does that quite well. When you consider that he also views the world from an alien perspective, dealing with him becomes all the more difficult."

"An alien perspective," Risson echoed. "We are not used to that. Sam Yeager speaks our language well. He adapted to the ceremonial of the audience as well as a citizen of the Empire could have done."

"Truth. I was proud to be his sponsor. I do not say he is unintelligent-on the contrary," Atvar said. "But he is different. different. His differences are to some degree disguised when he speaks our language. The a.s.sumptions behind his thoughts are not a.s.sumptions we would make. We believe otherwise at our peril." His differences are to some degree disguised when he speaks our language. The a.s.sumptions behind his thoughts are not a.s.sumptions we would make. We believe otherwise at our peril."

"What are we going to do? Can we annihilate the independent Big Uglies even if we want to?" Risson asked.

"I do not know," Atvar answered. "I simply do not know. Conditions on Tosev 3 are different from the way they were when the latest signals reached us. How they are different, who can guess? But they are are different. Whatever the difference is, I doubt that it redounds to our advantage." different. Whatever the difference is, I doubt that it redounds to our advantage."

"This is a disaster," the Emperor said. "A disaster, nothing less. We would have done better not to land on Tosev 3 at all, to leave the Big Uglies to their own devices. Maybe they would have destroyed themselves by now. They would not have had any external rivals then, so they might have gone on with their local wars."

"It could be, your Majesty," Atvar said. "Unfortunately, this is not a choice we can make now. We have to deal with the situation as it is, not as it was when the conquest fleet arrived."

"I understand that," the 37th Emperor Risson said. "But am I not allowed to wish it were otherwise?"

"Why not, your Majesty? We all have wishes about what might have been when it comes to the Big Uglies. How could it be otherwise? The way things really are is less than satisfactory."

"Truth," the Emperor said. "Now tell me this, if you would be so kind-suppose we grant every concession the American Big Uglies seek from us. If we give them everything they say they want, will that be enough to make them keep whatever agreement they may make with us?"

"They are, in their own way, honorable. They would intend intend to stick to the terms of a treaty, your Majesty," Atvar said. "The trouble with them is that, unlike us, they are to stick to the terms of a treaty, your Majesty," Atvar said. "The trouble with them is that, unlike us, they are changeable. changeable. In twenty years, or fifty years, or at most a hundred years, they will not be what they are now. They will look at the treaty, and they will say, 'This is not relevant, because we are not the same as we were. We are smarter. We are stronger. You need to change this, that, and the other thing to reflect these new conditions.' And you may be sure the new terms they demand will be to their advantage, not ours." In twenty years, or fifty years, or at most a hundred years, they will not be what they are now. They will look at the treaty, and they will say, 'This is not relevant, because we are not the same as we were. We are smarter. We are stronger. You need to change this, that, and the other thing to reflect these new conditions.' And you may be sure the new terms they demand will be to their advantage, not ours."

"We do change. But we change slowly and sensibly," Risson said. "By all the signs, they change for the sport of changing."

"Oh, they do, your Majesty. They admit it," Atvar replied. "Change has become ingrained in their culture in a way it never did with us. Their motorcars look different from year to year-not because the new ones run better, though they often do, but merely so it can be seen that they are are new. They change the style of their cloth wrappings in the same way, and for the same reason. It is as if we changed the style of our body paint every few years." new. They change the style of their cloth wrappings in the same way, and for the same reason. It is as if we changed the style of our body paint every few years."

"We could not do that! It would hatch chaos!" Risson exclaimed.

"I understand that. It is one of the reasons I find our young males and females with their false hair and even their wrappings so disturbing. But the Big Uglies embrace change, where we mostly endure it," Atvar said. "Anyone who does not see that does not see the first thing about them. It drives us mad. That we are so different often drives the Big Uglies mad, I think. But their variability has proved a great source of strength for them."

The Emperor let out another unhappy hiss. "Again, you are telling me war now may be our best hope."

"It . . . may be," Atvar said unwillingly. "But it also may not. If war comes, it will cost us more than we have paid in the whole history of the Empire. I do not believe Sam Yeager was lying or bluffing when he said the American Big Uglies would attack all our worlds in case of war. I do not believe we will be able to block all their attacks, either. They will hurt us. They will hurt us badly. Whether the other independent Tosevites will join them against us, I cannot say. If they do, that would make a bad situation worse. How much worse, I am not prepared to guess."

"And what will happen to Tosev 3 if war breaks out between us and the independent Big Uglies?" Risson asked.

"Well, your Majesty, I am not there. In his wisdom, the previous Emperor, your ill.u.s.trious predecessor, chose to recall me." Atvar could not keep acid from his voice. He went on, "My opinion, however, for what it may be worth, is that the Big Uglies should never get another chance to start a war if they are addled enough to fight now. And if that means leaving Tosev 3 uninhabitable for us and for them, so be it. Up until this time, they were local menaces, restricted to their own solar system. That, unfortunately, is no longer the case."

"It is too late now to send you back to Tosev 3," the Emperor said. Atvar bent into the special posture of respect. Risson had just done what no one else had done before him: he'd admitted the Race had made a mistake in recalling the fleetlord. He gestured for Atvar to rise, then went on, "Do all you can to promote a peaceful resolution of our difficulties. If that fails . . . If that fails, we will do what becomes necessary, and we will do our best."

"It shall be done, your Majesty," Atvar said.

"I hope it shall," Risson replied. "As I say, we shall attempt it, at any rate."

He is not confident we can beat the Big Uglies if it comes to war, Atvar realized. The fleetlord would have been more shocked had he been more confident himself. What had the Tosevites learned in the years since the latest signals from Tosev 3 reached Home? What would they learn in the years while the order to attack was speeding from Home to Tosev 3? Whatever it was, how would they apply it to weapons? Would the Race be able to keep up, to counter them? Atvar realized. The fleetlord would have been more shocked had he been more confident himself. What had the Tosevites learned in the years since the latest signals from Tosev 3 reached Home? What would they learn in the years while the order to attack was speeding from Home to Tosev 3? Whatever it was, how would they apply it to weapons? Would the Race be able to keep up, to counter them?

"If the spirits of Emperors past are with us, we will not have to do that," Atvar said.

"Let us hope they are. Let us hope we do not have to," Risson said. "But let us also be as ready as we can, so we will see trouble as it hatches and before it grows . . . too much." Atvar wished the Emperor hadn't added the last two words, but made the affirmative gesture anyway.

Ttomalss had stopped stalking around Sitneff looking for befflem to boot. Ka.s.squit would do whatever she did. If it brought her emotional and physical satisfaction, well and good. If it brought her emotional travail . . . she was an adult, and would have to cope with it as best she could.

So the psychologist told himself, anyhow. If a small, mean part of him rather hoped his former ward ran into emotional travail, he had the grace to be ashamed of that part. He did his best not to let it affect his thinking or his actions.

It wasn't as if he had nothing else on his mind. One morning-early one morning-Pesskrag telephoned him and said, "I hope you know you are responsible for commencing the unraveling of work thought to be truth for tens of millennia." one morning-Pesskrag telephoned him and said, "I hope you know you are responsible for commencing the unraveling of work thought to be truth for tens of millennia."

"Am I?" Ttomalss said around a yawn. "And how should I feel about this-besides sleepy, I mean?"

"You are-you and that other psychologist back on Tosev 3, that Felless," Pesskrag said. "If you two had not brought the Big Uglies' research to our attention, we might have remained ignorant of these developments . . . forever."

"Now that you know of them, what can you do with them?" Ttomalss' eye turrets were beginning to decide they would work together after all. Once he got some breakfast, he probably would be capable of rational thought. He wouldn't have bet on that when the telephone first hissed for his attention.

"That is why my colleagues and I have been experimenting so diligently: to begin to find out what we can do," the physicist answered. She went on, "We are not altogether sure we believe what we are finding."

"I have asked you before-just what is so startling about these Tosevite discoveries?" Ttomalss said. "Are you in a better position to tell me than you were the last time we spoke?"

"We may see more change in the next two to five hundred years than we have seen at any time in our history since Home was unified," Pesskrag said.

"What sort sort of change?" Ttomalss demanded. " of change?" Ttomalss demanded. "How will things be different?" He hoped for concrete answers. will things be different?" He hoped for concrete answers.

Pesskrag remained resolutely abstract. "Senior Researcher, at present I have no idea. But, as we evaluate each experiment, it will suggest others, and we will probably have a much better notion of exactly where we are going in a few more years."

"There are times when I believe you are doing your best to addle me with frustration," Ttomalss said. Pesskrag laughed and made the negative gesture. Ttomalss made the affirmative one. "Yes, I do believe that. Will you not give me at least some idea of how much you have learned since we last spoke?"