The Kellys and the O'Kellys Part 21

Griffiths, luckily, was a woman of much the same tastes as her ladys.h.i.+p, only somewhat of a more active temperament; and they were most stedfast friends. It was such a comfort to Lady Cashel to have some one to whom she could twaddle!

The morning after Lord Kilcullen's departure f.a.n.n.y knocked at her door, and was asked to come in. The countess, as usual, was in her easy chair, with the knitting-apparatus in her lap, and Griffiths was seated at the table, pulling about threads, and keeping her ladys.h.i.+p awake by small talk.

"I'm afraid I'm disturbing you, aunt," said f.a.n.n.y, "but I wanted to speak to you for a minute or two. Good morning, Mrs Griffiths."

"Oh, no! you won't disturb me, f.a.n.n.y. I was a little busy this morning, for I wanted to finish this side of the--You see what a deal I've done,"--and the countess lugged up a whole heap of miscellaneous worsted from a basket just under her arm--"and I must finish it by lady-day [25], or I shan't get the other done, I don't know when. But still, I've plenty of time to attend to you."

[FOOTNOTE 25: lady-day--Annunciation Day, March 25]

"Then I'll go down, my lady, and see about getting the syrup boiled,"

said Griffiths. "Good morning, Miss Wyndham."

"Do; but mind you come up again immediately--I'll ring the bell when Miss Wyndham is going; and pray don't leave me alone, now."

"No, my lady--not a moment," and Griffiths escaped to the syrup.

f.a.n.n.y's heart beat quick and hard, as she sat down on the sofa, opposite to her aunt. It was impossible for any one to be afraid of Lady Cashel, there was so very little about her that could inspire awe; but then, what she had to say was so very disagreeable to say! If she had had to tell her tale out loud, merely to the empty easy chair, it would have been a dreadful undertaking.

"Well, f.a.n.n.y, what can I do for you? I'm sure you look very nice in your bombazine; and it's very nicely made up. Who was it made it for you?"

"I got it down from Dublin, aunt; from Foley's."

"Oh, I remember; so you told me. Griffiths has a niece makes those things up very well; but then she lives at Namptwich, and one couldn't send to England for it. I had such a quant.i.ty of mourning by me, I didn't get any made up new; else, I think I must have sent for her."

"My dear aunt, I am very unhappy about something, and I want you to help me. I'm afraid, though, it will give you a great deal of trouble."

"Good gracious, f.a.n.n.y!--what is it? Is it about poor Harry? I'm sure I grieved about him more than I can tell."

"No, aunt: he's gone now, and time is the only cure for that grief. I know I must bear that without complaining. But, aunt, I feel--I think, that is, that I've used Lord Ballindine very ill."

"Good gracious me, my love! I thought Lord Cashel had managed all that--I thought that was all settled. You know, he would keep those horrid horses, and all that kind of thing; and what more could you do than just let Lord Cashel settle it?"

"Yes, but aunt--you see, I had engaged myself to Lord Ballindine, and I don't think--in fact--oh, aunt! I did not wish to break my word to Lord Ballindine, and I am very very sorry for what has been done," and f.a.n.n.y was again in tears.

"But, my dear f.a.n.n.y," said the countess, so far excited as to commence rising from her seat--the attempt, however, was abandoned, when she felt the ill effects of the labour to which she was exposing herself--"but, my dear f.a.n.n.y--what would you have? It's done, now, you know; and, really, it's for the best."

"Oh, but, dear aunt, I must get somebody to see him. I've been thinking about it ever since he was here with my uncle. I wouldn't let him think that I broke it all off, merely because--because of poor Harry's money," and f.a.n.n.y sobbed away dreadfully.

"But you don't want to marry him!" said the nave countess.

Now, f.a.n.n.y did want to marry him, though she hardly liked saying so, even to Lady Cashel.

"You know, I promised him I would," said she; "and what will he think of me?--what must he think of me, to throw him off so cruelly, so harshly, after all that's past?--Oh, aunt! I must see him again."

"I know something of human nature," replied the aunt, "and if you do, I tell you, it will end in your being engaged to him again. You know it's off now. Come, my dear; don't think so much about it: I'm sure Lord Cashel wouldn't do anything cruel or harsh."

"Oh, I must see him again, whatever comes of it;" and then she paused for a considerable time, during which the bewildered old lady was thinking what she could do to relieve her sensitive niece. "Dear, dear aunt, I don't want to deceive you!" and f.a.n.n.y, springing up, knelt at her aunt's feet, and looked up into her face. "I do love him--I always loved him, and I cannot, cannot quarrel with him." And then she burst out crying vehemently, hiding her face in the countess's lap.

Lady Cashel was quite overwhelmed. f.a.n.n.y was usually so much more collected than herself, that her present prostration, both of feeling and body, was dreadful to see. Suppose she was to go into hysterics--there they would be alone, and Lady Cashel felt that she had not strength to ring the bell.

"But, my dear f.a.n.n.y! oh dear, oh dear, this is very dreadful!--but, f.a.n.n.y--he's gone away now. Lift up your face, f.a.n.n.y, for you frighten me. Well, I'm sure I'll do anything for you. Perhaps he wouldn't mind coming back again,--he always was very good-natured. I'm sure I always liked Lord Ballindine very much,--only he would have all those horses.

But I'm sure, if you wish it, I should be very glad to see him marry you; only, you know, you must wait some time, because of poor Harry; and I'm sure I don't know how you'll manage with Lord Cashel."

"Dear aunt--I want you to speak to Lord Cashel. When I was angry because I thought Frank didn't come here as he might have done, I consented that my uncle should break off the match: besides, then, you know, we should have had so little between us. But I didn't know then how well I loved him. Indeed, indeed, aunt, I cannot bring my heart to quarrel with him; and I am quite, _quite_ sure he would never wish to quarrel with me. Will you go to my uncle--tell him that I've changed my mind; tell him that I was a foolish girl, and did not know my mind. But tell him I _must_ be friends with Frank again."

"Well, of course I'll do what you wish me,--indeed, I would do anything for you, f.a.n.n.y, as if you were one of my own; but really, I don't know--Good gracious! What am I to say to him? Wouldn't it be better, f.a.n.n.y, if you were to go to him yourself?"

"Oh, no, aunt; pray do you tell him first. I couldn't go to him; besides, he would do anything for you, you know. I want you to go to him--do, now, dear aunt--and tell him--not from me, but from yourself--how very, very much I--that is, how very very--but you will know what to say; only Frank must, _must_ come back again."

"Well, f.a.n.n.y, dear, I'll go to Lord Cashel; or, perhaps, he wouldn't mind coming here. Ring the bell for me, dear. But I'm sure he'll be very angry. I'd just write a line and ask Lord Ballindine to come and dine here, and let him settle it all himself, only I don't think Lord Cashel would like it."

Griffiths answered the summons, and was despatched to the book-room to tell his lords.h.i.+p that her ladys.h.i.+p would be greatly obliged if he would step upstairs to her for a minute or two; and, as soon as Griffiths was gone on her errand, f.a.n.n.y fled to her own apartment, leaving her aunt in a very bewildered and pitiable state of mind: and there she waited, with palpitating heart and weeping eyes, the effects of the interview.

She was dreadfully nervous, for she felt certain that she would be summoned before her uncle. Hitherto, she alone, in all the house, had held him in no kind of awe; indeed, her respect for her uncle had not been of the most exalted kind; but now she felt she was afraid of him.

She remained in her room much longer than she thought it would have taken her aunt to explain what she had to say. At last, however, she heard footsteps in the corridor, and Griffiths knocked at the door. Her aunt would be obliged by her stepping into her room. She tried not to look disconcerted, and asked if Lord Cashel were still there. She was told that he was; and she felt that she had to muster up all her courage to encounter him.

When she went into the room, Lady Cashel was still in her easy-chair, but the chair seemed to lend none of its easiness to its owner. She was sitting upright, with her hands on her two knees, and she looked perplexed, distressed, and unhappy. Lord Cashel was standing with his back to the fire-place, and f.a.n.n.y had never seen his face look so black. He really seemed, for the time, to have given over acting, to have thrown aside his dignity, and to be natural and in earnest.

Lady Cashel began the conversation.

"Oh, f.a.n.n.y," she said, "you must really overcome all this sensitiveness; you really must. I've spoken to your uncle, and it's quite impossible, and very unwise; and, indeed, it can't be done at all. In fact, Lord Ballindine isn't, by any means, the sort of person I supposed."

f.a.n.n.y knit her brows a little at this, and felt somewhat less humble than she did before. She knew she should get indignant if her uncle abused her lover, and that, if she did, her courage would rise in proportion. Her aunt continued--

"Your uncle's very kind about it, and says he can, of course, forgive your feeling a little out of sorts just at present; and, I'm sure, so can I, and I'm sure I'd do anything to make you happy; but as for making it all up with Lord Ballindine again, indeed it cannot be thought of, f.a.n.n.y; and so your uncle will tell you."

And then Lord Cashel opened his oracular mouth, for the purpose of doing so.

"Really, f.a.n.n.y, this is the most unaccountable thing I ever heard of.

But you'd better sit down, while I speak to you," and f.a.n.n.y sat down on the sofa. "I think I understood you rightly, when you desired me, less than a month ago, to inform Lord Ballindine that circ.u.mstances--that is, his own conduct--obliged you to decline the honour of his alliance.

Did you not do so spontaneously, and of your own accord?"

"Certainly, uncle, I agreed to take your advice; though I did so most unwillingly."

"Had I not your authority for desiring him--I won't say to discontinue his visits, for that he had long done--but to give up his pretensions to your hand? Did you not authorise me to do so?"

"I believe I did. But, uncle--"

"And I have done as you desired me; and now, f.a.n.n.y, that I have done so--now that I have fully explained to him what you taught me to believe were your wishes on the subject, will you tell me--for I really think your aunt must have misunderstood you--what it is that you wish me to do?"

"Why, uncle, you pointed out--and it was very true then, that my fortune was not sufficient to enable Lord Ballindine to keep up his rank. It is different now, and I am very, very sorry that it is so; but it is different now, and I feel that I ought not to reject Lord Ballindine, because I am so much richer than I was when he--when he proposed to me."

"Then it's merely a matter of feeling with you, and not of affection?

If I understand you, you are afraid that you should be thought to have treated Lord Ballindine badly?"

"It's not only that--" And then she paused for a few moments, and added, "I thought I could have parted with him, when you made me believe that I ought to do so, but I find I cannot."

"You mean that you love him?" and the earl looked very black at his niece. He intended to frighten her out of her resolution, but she quietly answered,