Always a Thief Part 17

By the time Morgan returned to the living room a little more than half an hour later, she felt much better physically. She'd washed away the dirt of the fire escape and the memory of chloroform, carefully rubbed liniment on her sore ankle (the skin wasn't broken, but there was a nasty bruise), and thought about all he'd told her tonight.

The only certainty she had reached when she returned to him was the rueful knowledge that she had fallen for an extremely complex man she might never fully understand even after a lifetime of knowing him. On the other hand, he was also the most intriguing, baffling, maddening, exciting man she'd ever known, and impossibly s.e.xy to boot.

None of that was a revelation, of course, except for her acceptance of her own feelings. And, being Morgan, once she accepted them, that particular struggle was over. After all, what was the use of kicking and screaming about something beyond one's power to change? She might be the last woman in the world who should have fallen for a famous cat burglar, but the fact remained that she had had.

Dealing with it was the issue now.

After careful thought, Morgan very deliberately dressed in a loose and comfortable outfit consisting of baggy sweatpants and sweats.h.i.+rt, with her only pair of bedroom slippers (ridiculously fuzzy things) on her feet. Hardly s.e.xy attire. She had no intention of throwing herself at him yet again and trusted that he would get the point.

Being Quinn, of course, he did.

"Where did you get the blanket?" she asked calmly as she limped back into the living room. The blanket had been folded up and placed over the back of a chair, catching her attention when she came in.

He had been on the couch, looking rather broodingly at an old black-and-white movie on television, and got to his feet as soon as she spoke. His gaze scanned her from head to toe, and a faint gleam was born in the green eyes.

"Jared brought it when I called him to come relieve me on watch," he answered.

"Ah. I wondered."

"Feeling better?"

"Heaps. Don't I look it?"

"Fis.h.i.+ng, Morgana?"

"Curious."

He smiled. "I get the point, if that's what you're wondering. But I think I should tell you that you'd look s.e.xy draped in sackcloth."

She eased down on the other end of the couch and looked up at him expressionlessly. "I always wondered what that was. Sackcloth, I mean."

"A very rough, coa.r.s.e cloth."

"That was what I thought. But I wasn't sure. Did you happen to earn a college degree in the history of fas.h.i.+on?"

"No."

Morgan waited, one eyebrow rising, and Quinn suddenly uttered a low laugh.

"Actually, I have a law degree."

For an instant she wanted to laugh but managed to control the impulse. "I see. Well, at least you completely understood the laws you were breaking."

"I'll get the coffee," Quinn said, retreating.

Morgan smiled to herself, then searched among the pillows on the couch for the remote and turned the television off. When he returned, she accepted her cup and sipped the hot liquid cautiously. "I won't be worth shooting tomorrow," she commented as he sat down a foot or so away from her.

"You mean today." He glanced at her, then said, "I talked to Jared while you were in the shower and asked him to fill in the others in the morning. So they probably won't expect you to show up on time. If at all."

"I guess they had to know, huh?"

"I think so." Quinn gazed into his coffee cup as if it held the secrets of the universe. "If that was was Nightshade who put you to sleep, he's getting either nervous or suspicious-and either way could mean it's likely that he'll make his move soon." Nightshade who put you to sleep, he's getting either nervous or suspicious-and either way could mean it's likely that he'll make his move soon."

There were still several questions Morgan wanted to ask about all this-things that bothered her in a sort of vague, indeterminate way-but she chose not to ask them right now for two reasons: first, because she was more than ready to focus on their relations.h.i.+p and, second, because she had a hunch he would tell her more if allowed to do so in his own way.

While all that was floating through her mind, he leaned forward to set his cup on the coffee table and then half turned toward her as he sat back.

"Morgana?"

She looked at him, finding his expression very serious.

"I wasn't trying to use your feelings to distract you. At least . . . not consciously. I didn't particularly want you to ask questions about what I was doing at night, but we both know I'm capable of lying if I have to."

"So you would have lied to me."

"Yes," he replied without hesitation. "If I believed it was something you didn't need to know about or, worse, would put you in danger if you knew." He drew a breath. "It seemed safest to keep you occupied during the day, and since it was definitely not a hards.h.i.+p-"

"You must have lost sleep doing it. Being Quinn every night and Alex during the day."

"Some, but nothing I can't handle. Morgan, I hope you understand. There are things I didn't want to have to explain-not yet anyway-and I knew d.a.m.ned well that if you concentrated that sharp mind of yours on what I was doing at night, you'd figure out more than I wanted you to know."

"Thanks for the compliment," she said. "But I've a feeling your little plan is so twisty I wouldn't be able to find my way through it with a road map."

He smiled slightly. "Maybe not. I think I've taken a few turns blindly myself. That happens when you have to improvise without warning."

"Is that what you've been doing? Improvising?"

"As you said-I hadn't counted on you. I hadn't counted on being . . . distracted. Still, I thought I could handle it. Then when I came to you after I was shot, not out of reason or logic but just because . . . because I had an overwhelming need to be with you, I knew I was in trouble. And I knew I didn't have a hope in h.e.l.l of keeping you in a nice, safe little compartment of my life-even to protect you."

Morgan resisted the urge to ask him to define his feelings for her a bit more clearly; she was determined not to prod him to say anything he wasn't ready to divulge on his own. "Protect me from what?"

"From all the risks involved in what I'm doing." He sounded frustrated. "G.o.ddammit, Nightshade kills kills people, don't you understand that? Without a second thought or even an instant's hesitation, he kills anyone who gets in his way. I don't want you in his way, Morgana. I don't want him to even imagine you could be a problem. It's bad enough that you're publicly linked with me at all; the closer you are to me, the closer you are to people, don't you understand that? Without a second thought or even an instant's hesitation, he kills anyone who gets in his way. I don't want you in his way, Morgana. I don't want him to even imagine you could be a problem. It's bad enough that you're publicly linked with me at all; the closer you are to me, the closer you are to him him-visible to him and drawing his attention. Besides that, considering how many times you've already charged into dangerous situations-"

"Just that one time, when I followed those men who had you," she objected. "You can't count the first time, because I was there by accident; my date took me to that museum in all innocence." Then she frowned. "Well, maybe not innocence-but you know what I mean."

"What about tonight?"

"That hadn't happened yet, so don't use it as an excuse."

He almost-but not quite-laughed. It was actually more a sound of despair.

"All right, but even then it's been obvious all along that you're too impulsive for your own good. And I could hardly count on my my good sense where you're concerned; I knew that I wouldn't be able to stay away from you. Seeing you openly as Alex Brandon seemed the best way. But it meant Nightshade would have to know I was interested in you, and his awareness of that was enough of a risk. I didn't want you getting involved with my-my nighttime activities. So I thought that being Alex during the day and being openly interested in you would both make you seem unthreatening to Nightshade and distract your attention from what I was doing at night." good sense where you're concerned; I knew that I wouldn't be able to stay away from you. Seeing you openly as Alex Brandon seemed the best way. But it meant Nightshade would have to know I was interested in you, and his awareness of that was enough of a risk. I didn't want you getting involved with my-my nighttime activities. So I thought that being Alex during the day and being openly interested in you would both make you seem unthreatening to Nightshade and distract your attention from what I was doing at night."

Morgan blinked. There were several things bothering her about all that, but one realization was uppermost in her mind. "Wait a minute. Are you saying that you went public just because of me? It wasn't part of your plan to find Nightshade?"

"I'd already found Nightshade," he admitted reluctantly. "And for G.o.d's sake, don't tell Jared-he'd shoot me."

She felt a bit dazed. "You had already found Nightshade. And being Alex won't help lure him into the trap?"

"As a matter of fact, being Alex was one of those improvised turns I mentioned-and it's complicated the situation in more ways than I want to discuss."

Morgan stared at him. Almost idly, she said, "You know, if I find out your name isn't really Alex, I'll-"

He didn't wait to hear what she'd do. "I give you my word of honor that my mother named me Alexander. Satisfied?"

"On that point. But I'm very puzzled about the rest of this," she admitted. "And I've got this weird feeling that you've distracted me again."

Gravely, he said, "We always seem to cover a remarkable amount of ground when we talk, don't we?"

"Seems like. But it always comes back to this. What's between us."

"Morgana, if you want to continue to be aloof in public-"

"No, I don't mean public. I mean private. I mean this, between us. The reason you're distracted, the reason I'm distracted. What we both keep dancing around. What are we going to do about this, Alex?"

After a moment, he said slowly, "It would be a bad idea, you know that. Without trust between lovers-"

She was mildly incredulous. "Trust? Alex, stop and think a minute. I am a sensible, rational, law-abiding woman who never so much as cheated on a parking meter before I met you. So what happened the night we met? I lied to the police when I didn't tell them you stole that dagger. And what happened the night those thugs grabbed you? Not only did I risk life and limb to try to help you, but then I more or less betrayed my good friend and employer, Max-I thought-by warning you that Mysteries Past Mysteries Past was a trap. And I didn't call the cops when you lay bleeding on my floor. Does any of this suggest something to you? Like maybe that I seem to have a certain lack of good judgment where you're concerned?" was a trap. And I didn't call the cops when you lay bleeding on my floor. Does any of this suggest something to you? Like maybe that I seem to have a certain lack of good judgment where you're concerned?"

His eyes were even more vivid than usual, and his mouth curved in a slight smile. "But do you trust me?"

Morgan sighed and abandoned her last shred of dignity. "I love you, and that'll have to be good enough."

She had the satisfaction of knowing she had surprised him at least, but she couldn't read anything else in his suddenly still face and brilliant eyes.

"Say that again," he murmured.

"I love you." She said it quietly and without drama, but with utter certainty. "I've known that for weeks."

CHAPTER ELEVEN.

"It isn't safe to love me," he said.

"Do you think that matters?"

"Morgana, I don't want to be something you regret."

"You won't be. I promise you, Alex. You won't be."

Quinn leaned forward slowly, releasing her hands so that his arms could encircle her, pulling her toward him as his head bent and his warm, hard mouth found hers. Morgan made a little sound, much as she had when he'd picked her up, and her arms slid up around his neck eagerly. She could no more temper her instant, fiery response to him than she could voluntarily stop the runaway beating of her heart.

Her body seemed attuned to him, to his touch, in a way she'd never felt before. It was nothing so simple as pa.s.sion; what he ignited in her was a craving so elemental and absolute it was akin to the need of her body for sustenance. She had the dim realization that some part of her would starve to death without him.

He lifted his head at last and looked at her with eyes so dark there was only a hint of green visible. Huskily, he said, "I promised myself I wouldn't let anything . . . irrevocable happen between us until I could be completely honest with you. Until you could know the truth, all the truth. Morgana-"

She slid her fingers into his thick golden hair and pulled him down so that she could kiss him, and against his mouth she murmured, "Alex, I want you-and that's the only truth I care about right now."

Quinn hesitated for another moment, his entire body tense, but then he made a rough sound and kissed her hungrily. His hands moved down her back, probing through the material of her sweats.h.i.+rt, while the tip of his tongue teased the sensitive inner surface of her lips. Morgan heard herself utter another of those primitive little whimpers, wordless but urgent with wanting, and then all her senses went haywire.

Just like before, the relentless need Morgan felt for him was stunning-but this time she was aware that he was every bit as involved in what was happening as she was. He wasn't holding back, wasn't detached, and wasn't trying to distract her. And he didn't have to try to make her want him.

Morgan hadn't intended this to happen tonight, she really hadn't, but the only emotional hesitation she felt about it was a need to be rea.s.sured that he wouldn't walk away from her as he had before. "Stay with me," she invited unsteadily when his lips trailed across her cheek and traced her jawline. "Stay with me tonight."

"Are you sure, sweetheart?" he demanded hoa.r.s.ely, drawing away just far enough to make her look at him. His handsome face was taut, his features drawn with a sharpened look of hunger. "I didn't come here prepared for this."

She understood what he was saying, but since she'd never been able to be practical about him anyway, Morgan didn't see any reason to break with tradition at this late date. "I'm sure. I want you to stay."

Quinn looked at her for a moment longer, then kissed her again, more deeply still, almost as if that alone were an act of possession. It sent her senses spinning once more, stealing her breath and increasing the feverish heat of her desire until Morgan wasn't thinking about anything except how he made her feel. Then he was s.h.i.+fting his hold on her, lifting her, and she realized he was carrying her as easily as he had before.

Since he'd spent several days there, he was familiar with her apartment and was able to find his way to her bedroom almost blindly. She blinked up at him a bit dazedly when he set her on her feet beside the bed.

He framed her face in his hands and looked down at her with an odd intensity, as if memorizing her features, his own still strained. "That first night in the museum," he murmured, "when you looked up at me with your cat's eyes, so indignant to find yourself in the company of a thief, I knew this would happen. Even then, I knew."

She managed a smile. "All I knew was how much you annoyed me. And how empty that room seemed when you left."

His thumb brushed her bottom lip in a rhythmic little caress. "I didn't go far that night. I watched the police come, and when they brought you back here I followed them."

"You did?"

"Mmm. And I was at the museum during the day a couple of times after that. So I could see you."

"Before I knew what you looked like . . . but I had that feeling you were somewhere around."

"Something else I didn't bargain on. This connection between us."

"What happened tonight on the fire escape-you didn't hear anything to alert you, did you? You felt it."

"You were in trouble," he murmured. "Someone was trying to hurt you. That's what I felt."

Morgan tried to steady her breathing. "Do you believe in fate, Alex?"

"I do now," he said, and his mouth was hard on hers, the pent-up need of weeks fire inside him.

Inside her.

She pushed the hem of his sweater up blindly because she had to touch his skin, half opening her eyes when he let go of her long enough to yank the garment off and toss it aside. Her eyes went immediately to his left shoulder, and her fingers gently touched the scar there. He'd been right, she realized; he did heal quickly. It was difficult to believe he'd been shot just a few weeks before.

But the scar was was a reminder, a sign of the danger of what he was doing. Were there more scars, other marks of violence and risk on his body? On his soul? a reminder, a sign of the danger of what he was doing. Were there more scars, other marks of violence and risk on his body? On his soul?

"Morgan?"