Painted Blind Part 13

"What's his nose like?"

"It's... a ..."

She nodded like she was getting somewhere now. "How did he make the bridge disappear?"

"I don't know." Erik had only made things disappear when he was touching them, but the bridge was invisible all the time. I'd never asked him why.

"How did you really meet him?"

"The MSU carnival. Remember, I told you. I got caught in a crowd and he pulled me out."

"He pulled you out of a mob? How? He would have gotten caught in the crowd, too."

"He... he made me... us... disappear."

"Invisible, like the bridge. He can make himself invisible." The dangerous gears in Savannah's brain were clicking.

"Not in his world, only in ours."

"And when you're here, he isn't with you, is he?"

Sudden fear made my voice hoa.r.s.e. "He comes at night."

"Oh... my... gosh. You have never seen him."

"I've kissed him. He held me in his arms. I stayed right here with him through a storm!" I said in a rush.

"And when you woke in the morning?"

"He was gone." My voice broke. To speak it aloud made it seem so absurd, but I knew him even though I'd never seen him.

Savannah came forward, smoothing her voice into understanding. "Psyche, I know you want him to be everything you've dreamed of, but he's not."

"You don't know that!" I snapped.

Her eyes softened. "He would only hide from you if he was monstrous. Even an average-looking guy with this kind of money would let you see his face. Something is terribly wrong with him."

I shook my head, unwilling to believe her.

"Have you asked to see him?"

"He said I could see him later."

"How much later?" she demanded.

"After..."

She grabbed me in alarm. "After what?"

I didn't answer.

Her eyes widened. "He's trying to trap you! Can't you see what he's doing? He's winning you over with gifts and this palace, but he's hiding who he really is."

"I love him, Savannah." It was the first time I'd actually said the words, but it was true. I loved him.

Pus.h.i.+ng hair out of my face, she dropped her voice into a murmur. "You don't have to stop loving him, but you can't go on blindly. You have to know who he is. That is your right."

"I can't betray him."

"You can't betray yourself!" she snapped. She took a deep breath, calming herself, as she squeezed my hands. "Listen, you're staying here tonight?" I nodded jerkily. "Okay, you go to bed in your room like you usually do. He'll be in here, right? You wait a few hours, and you come down the hall." She pointed to the dresser. "You don't have to turn on a single light. There's a candle right there. That bit of light shouldn't wake him. You light the candle, see his face, and blow it out. If he's a man you can go on loving, fine. If not, you come home that minute. Don't let him trap you here. Don't let him hold you captive."

"He's not a monster," I cried.

"He hasn't been honest with you either." She closed the closets and looked around once more. "If he's what you want, you'll be the luckiest girl in the world." Her tone didn't make that sound like a good thing.

Savannah bid me luck as we parted at the portal. It was dusk when I returned to the palace alone. I changed into a gown and put on Erik's gifts, but Eudora and Aeas didn't come.

I rummaged through the kitchen and found bread, cheese and smoked fish for dinner. My stomach churned, and I tasted nothing. Much as I tried to convince myself that Savannah was wrong, I doubted Erik myself in the beginning. He seemed to offer the kind of love I'd always dreamed about, but it wasn't fair for him to ask me to love him blindly. It might be a trick. I craved more of him every day. If I was going to break free, it had to be soon.

As the light waned, I grew more restless. I longed for his company and hoped he wouldn't come. I didn't want to betray the only guy who had ever loved me, but then again, maybe it was a lie. He had seen my face. He had seen more than that on the billboard. Maybe like every other guy in the world, he just wanted what he saw and all of this was an elaborate ploy to take what didn't belong to him. The fish threatened to come up.

I found mint sprigs and munched on a leaf to settle my stomach. Eudora told me it made the food settle better. I hoped she was right.

The palace grew dark, and my mood followed. I didn't know which was more crazy: to betray him or to believe him. I waited in the stillness with a stormy heart.

"Psyche?" As soon as Erik said my name, I knew something was wrong. His voice was deflated. My dad sounded like that on nights when he ate left-overs and went straight to bed.

I wondered if Erik somehow knew my doubts. "Are you all right?" My voice quivered.

"Exhausted."

"Too much mischief today?" I forced lightness into the words.

A half-hearted laugh was all he could manage. He came forward and rested his head on my shoulder.

"I'll have Pixis take me to the portal," I offered. It was better to run away than betray him.

"No, stay with me." He fingers slid down my arm and took my hand.

I thought he would throw himself on the lounge and doze, but he led me through the hall to his bedroom. I balked in the doorway.

"I just want you near me," he said.

A pillar of moonlight slid through the open window, but it cast beams on the far side of the room, away from Erik and his bed. He coaxed me forward, then lay down with a moan. I gave in. I snuggled up next to him and let him wrap his arms around me. Within moments his breath turned heavy in my hair.

The moonlight climbed higher overhead and cast fewer beams into the room. It was very late now. Was it possible the gentle arms curled around me belonged to a hideous face? He was sound asleep. Should I put my fears to rest?

Erik didn't stir as I slid out of his arms. I crept past the foot post of the bed and felt my way to the dresser where the candle stood. Beside it was a box of matches. I opened the box and struck a match. The hiss of the flame seemed to echo through the silence. I froze, listening for him to wake, but his breath remained steady. As I lit the candle and shook out the match, I noticed a heart-shaped silver box on the dresser. It was closed by a looped clasp. I slid aside the clasp and eased the lid open. Inside was fine pink dust.

Erik murmured my name. I turned to face him. He was sound asleep, and he was no monster.

Delicate skin smoothed over his high cheekbones. His full lips were naturally coral, and thick lashes adorned his closed eyes. Even Aeas, who would be gorgeous in my world, didn't compare to Erik's beauty.

He wore the robe of his world wrapped around and tied at the waist. His bare chest was rippled with sculpted muscle. From his broad shoulders to his ridged abdomen, he took perfection to a level beyond imagination. I was mesmerized, unable to pull my eyes from his glorious personage. Most surprising, I had seen him once from a distance on the first day of school. He was staring at the billboard of Venus when he turned around and saw me.

I moved closer, compelled to touch him and rea.s.sure my senses that he was not an illusion. I forgot I was holding the candle and the box of dust. I leaned closer. The hot wax dripped on his flawless shoulder.

He awoke with a start. I jumped and sent a cloud of dust into my face. I coughed and sneezed, and when I looked at him, heat flooded my veins.

"You fool! What have you done?" He jumped up, fury in his eyes. They were violet and the most beautiful that had ever looked on me. "You're covered in dust." He s.n.a.t.c.hed the candle and the box from my hands.

"It doesn't matter. I loved you before I saw you." I reached for him, but he pushed me away shaking his head.

"Love cannot live without trust."

All the little droplets of knowledge I'd gleaned about him-this place, the dust, the winged horses and the robes-finally pooled into understanding. "Eros," I whispered. "You're the G.o.d of love."

"I'm no G.o.d, and it isn't love. It's just dust," he spat. "Now you're under its power."

"So are you! I heard you sneeze the first time you came to my school!" I threw my arms around him.

He peeled me off his body and dragged me toward the balcony where he threw open the doors. A sharp whistle cut from his lips. "Pixis!" The horse landed on the balcony and Erik pushed me toward him. "Throw her back into her own world, and close the portal."

"No!" I clung to him. "Give me another chance."

"Another chance to betray me?" He tried to force me onto the horse's back, but I put my feet out and pushed against him. In frustration, Eros caged me in his arms. "Down," he ordered.

The horse unfurled his wings and leaped off the balcony. Before I understood what was happening, Eros launched me after him. I screamed as I fell through the night, but Pixis came up under me. I seized a handful of his mane and clung to him. He bobbed in flight, which set me onto his back, then he flew full speed toward the edge of the meadow. He didn't land in the clearing where he usually did, but barreled through the trees. He tucked his wings and glided through the dark cave, then gave a mighty flap to cross the ravine. On the rock outcropping, he landed. A full moon outlined the familiar woods and mountains. Cold p.r.i.c.kled up my arms.

"No, I won't leave," I protested.

He knelt on his left knee. When I didn't move, he put his ears back and whinnied. I felt his muscles tense. I relented and slid off his back. Pixis brushed his nose against my cheek, then he put his head down and nudged me hard. I tumbled off the rock and fell into the frosty gra.s.s.

He bucked and his hind feet struck the invisible bridge.

"No!" I lunged toward the outcropping, but it was too late. I heard the bridge crash to the rocks on the other side of the ravine. Pixis looked back at me one last time before stretching his wings and crossing the ravine.

"I'll wait here in the cold!" I cried. "I'll never give up."

The words echoed back to me from the opposite cliff, but the horse was gone. I collapsed on the rock s.h.i.+vering and wrenching with bitter regret. Eros hid his beauty from me so I would love him instead of his face, and I turned out to be as shallow as every guy who gawked at the billboard. I'd wanted the sh.e.l.l instead of the pearl inside.

The night grew colder, but I refused to move. Pixis might return. Eros might relent and let me come back. Even as those thoughts came to mind, I knew it was impossible. He wasn't going to forgive me. I waited until the moon fell in the sky. I s.h.i.+vered uncontrollably. Curling into a ball preserved some of my body heat, but I was no match for the mountain. Near dawn it started to snow, but by then I was no longer cold.

Chapter 11.

The crack of a rifle tore through my consciousness. There was light all around me, but I couldn't open my eyes.

"I hit him in the shoulder. There's a ravine ahead. He won't get far." The voice was unfamiliar. Not Dad. Not Erik. The last name was painful, but I couldn't remember why. Didn't matter. Too sleepy.

"... a green Subaru in the brush. Hope he doesn't start tracking my buck." The voice was soft but near. "Check for blood." The next sentence was a string of profanities even my dad wouldn't say.

"Blood trail?" asked another voice farther away.

"No, it's a girl. The car must be hers." His breath smelled like chew. I felt his hand, but I couldn't move. "She's ice cold, but I found a pulse. See if there's ID in the car. I'll get the truck."

I struggled to speak, but he was gone. A pickup rumbled closer. He pulled me into his arms. My limbs wouldn't struggle. "No..." I managed. I didn't want to go.

My protest was lost. I felt warm air and scratchy seat covers. Coats and blankets wrapped around me. The other voice returned. "I found a backpack and high school ID. It says Psyche Middleton. Think she's Ron's girl?"

"Yeah, the girl from the billboard."

The pickup bounced down the road. "What the h.e.l.l was she doing up here? Did you see what she's wearing?"

I didn't hear more. The warmth put me under.

I felt a hand in my hair. "Erik?" I whispered without opening my eyes. It must have been a dream. I fell asleep in his arms and had nightmares.

"Hey, kiddo."

"Dad?" I pulled my eyes open. My throat felt like sandpaper. The room was beige with muted curtains and sterile tile floors. There was a TV mounted on the wall. A hospital room. "What happened?" I croaked.

He turned to the table behind him and came back with a plastic mug. He put the straw to my mouth. "I was hoping you could tell me. A couple of hunters found you this morning. I thought you were at Savannah's house."

"Erik," I murmured. The memories. .h.i.t me like a cras.h.i.+ng wave-how I betrayed him and he threw me out.

"You were with Erik last night? Why did he leave you in the snow, and where are your clothes?" My dad's expression turned hard. "I've got plenty of questions for Erik."

I let my head fall back on the pillow. "Save it. I'll never see him again."

"He'd better hope I never see him, or I'll put him in the ground."

My nose itched, and I reached to scratch it, only to hit my face with a mess of bandages. "My hands."

"Frostbite. You were lucky. You won't lose any fingers."

"My face?"

Dad brushed my cheek with his fingers, and his eyes got a little moist. "Still perfect."

"Has Savannah been here?" I had no idea how long I'd been out.

"She called this afternoon, and I told her you were here. She's worried." He squeezed my arm. "I'll call and tell her you're awake, then you're going to tell me exactly what happened. You understand?"