The Collected Stories of Katherine Anne Porter Part 24
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"Tomorrow morning, my G.o.d, they'd better come now!"
"They can't get an ambulance," said Adam, "and there aren't any beds. And we can't find a doctor or a nurse. They're all busy.
That's all there is to it. You stay out of the room, and I'll look after her."
"Yes, you'll look after her, I can see that," said Miss Hobbe, in a particularly unpleasant tone.
"Yes, that's what I said," answered Adam, drily, "and you keep out."
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{He closed the door carefully. He was carrying an a.s.sortment of misshapen packages, and his face was astonis.h.i.+ngly impa.s.sive.
"Did you hear that?" he asked, leaning over and speaking very quietly.
"Most of it," said Miranda, "it's a nice prospect, isn't it?"
"I've got your medicine," said Adam, "and you're to begin with it this minute. She can't put you out."
"So it's really as bad as that," said Miranda.
"It's as bad as anything can be," said Adam, "all the theaters and nearly all the shops and restaurants are closed, and the streets have been full of funerals all day and ambulances all night-"
"But not one for me," said Miranda, feeling hilarious and light-headed. She sat up and beat her pillow into shape and reached for her robe. "I'm glad you're here, I've been having a nightmare.
Give me a cigarette, will you, and light one for yourself and open all the windows and sit near one of them. You're running a risk,"
she told him, "don't you know that? Why do you do it?"
"Never mind," said Adam, "take your medicine," and offered her two large cherry-colored pills. She swallowed them promptly and instantly vomited them up. " Do Do excuse me," she said, beginning to laugh. "I'm so sorry." Adam without a word and with a very concerned expression washed her face with a wet towel, gave her some cracked ice from one of the packages, and firmly offered her two more pills. "That's what they always did at home," she explained to him, "and it worked." Crushed with humiliation, she put her hands over her face and laughed again, painfully. excuse me," she said, beginning to laugh. "I'm so sorry." Adam without a word and with a very concerned expression washed her face with a wet towel, gave her some cracked ice from one of the packages, and firmly offered her two more pills. "That's what they always did at home," she explained to him, "and it worked." Crushed with humiliation, she put her hands over her face and laughed again, painfully.
"There are two more kinds yet," said Adam, pulling her hands from her face and lifting her chin. "You've hardly begun. And I've got other things, like orange juice and ice cream-they told me to feed you ice cream-and coffee in a thermos bottle, and a ther-mometer. You have to work through the whole lot so you'd better take it easy."
"This time last night we were dancing," said Miranda, and drank something from a spoon. Her eyes followed him about the room, as he did things for her with an absent-minded face, like a man alone; now and again he would come back, and slipping his hand under her head, would hold a cup or a tumbler to her mouth, and she drank, and followed him with her eyes again, without a clear notion of what was happening.
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"Adam," she said, "I've just thought of something. Maybe they forgot St. Luke's Hospital. Call the sisters there and ask them not to be so selfish with their silly old rooms. Tell them I only want a very small dark ugly one for three days, or less. Do try them, Adam."
He believed, apparently, that she was still more or less in her right mind, for she heard him at the telephone explaining in his deliberate voice. He was back again almost at once, saying, "This seems to be my day for getting mixed up with peevish old maids.
The sister said that even if they had a room you couldn't have it without doctor's orders. But they didn't have one, anyway. She was pretty sour about it."
"Well," said Miranda in a thick voice, "I think that's abominably rude and mean, don't you?" She sat up with a wild gesture of both arms, and began to retch again, violently.
"Hold it, as you were," called Adam, fetching the basin. He held her head, washed her face and hands with ice water, put her head straight on the pillow, and went over and looked out of the window. "Well," he said at last, sitting beside her again, "they haven't got a room. They haven't got a bed. They haven't even got a baby crib, the way she talked. So I think that's straight enough, and we may as well dig in."
"Isn't the ambulance coming?"
"Tomorrow, maybe."
He took off his tunic and hung it on the back of a chair. Kneeling before the fireplace, he began carefully to set kindling sticks in the shape of an Indian tepee, with a little paper in the center for them to lean upon. He lighted this and placed other sticks upon them, and larger bits of wood. When they were going nicely he added still heavier wood, and coal a few lumps at a time, until there was a good blaze, and a fire that would not need rekindling.
He rose and dusted his hands together, the fire illuminated him from the back and his hair shone.
"Adam," said Miranda, "I think you're very beautiful." He laughed out at this, and shook his head at her. "What a h.e.l.l of a word," he said, "for me." "It was the first that occurred to me,"
she said, drawing up on her elbow to catch the warmth of the blaze. "That's a good job, that fire."
He sat on the bed again, dragging up a chair and putting his feet 301.
{on the rungs. They smiled at each other for the first time since he had come in that night. "How do you feel now?" he asked.
"Better, much better," she told him. "Let's talk. Let's tell each other what we meant to do."
"You tell me first," said Adam. "I want to know about you."
"You'd get the notion I had a very sad life," she said, "and perhaps it was, but I'd be glad enough to have it now. If I could have it back, it would be easy to be happy about almost anything at all. That's not true, but that's the way I feel now." After a pause, she said, "There's nothing to tell, after all, if it ends now, for all this time I was getting ready for something that was going to happen later, when the time came. So now it's nothing much."
"But it must have been worth having until now, wasn't it?" he asked seriously as if it were something important to know.
"Not if this is all," she repeated obstinately.
"Weren't you ever-happy?" asked Adam, and he was plainly afraid of the word; he was shy of it as he was of the word love, love, he seemed never to have spoken it before, and was uncertain of its sound or meaning. he seemed never to have spoken it before, and was uncertain of its sound or meaning.
"I don't know," she said, "I just lived and never thought about it. I remember things I liked, though, and things I hoped for."
"I was going to be an electrical engineer," said Adam. He stopped short. "And I shall finish up when I get back," he added, after a moment.
"Don't you love being alive?" asked Miranda. "Don't you love weather and the colors at different times of the day, and all the sounds and noises like children screaming in the next lot, and automobile horns and little bands playing in the street and the smell of food cooking?"
"I love to swim, too," said Adam.
"So do I." said Miranda; "we never did swim together."
"Do you remember any prayers?" she asked him suddenly. "Did you ever learn anything at Sunday School?"
"Not much," confessed Adam without contrition. "Well, the Lord's Prayer."
"Yes, and there's Hail Mary," she said, "and the really useful one beginning, I confess to Almighty G.o.d and to blessed Mary ever virgin and to the holy Apostles Peter and Paul-"
"Catholic," he commented.
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"Prayers just the same, you big Methodist. I'll bet you are are a Methodist." a Methodist."
"No, Presbyterian."
"Well, what others do you remember?"
"Now I lay me down to sleep-" said Adam.
"Yes, that one, and Blessed Jesus meek and mild-you see that my religious education wasn't neglected either. I even know a prayer beginning O Apollo. Want to hear it?"
"No," said Adam, "you're making fun."
"I'm not," said Miranda, "I'm trying to keep from going to sleep. I'm afraid to go to sleep, I may not wake up. Don't let me go to sleep, Adam. Do you know Matthew, Mark, Luke and John?
Bless the bed I lie upon?"
"If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take.
Is that it?" asked Adam. "It doesn't sound right, somehow."
"Light me a cigarette, please, and move over and sit near the window. We keep forgetting about fresh air. You must have it."
He lighted the cigarette and held it to her lips. She took it between her fingers and dropped it under the edge of her pillow. He found it and crushed it out in the saucer under the water tumbler. Her head swam in darkness for an instant, cleared, and she sat up in panic, throwing off the covers and breaking into a sweat. Adam leaped up with an alarmed face, and almost at once was holding a cup of hot coffee to her mouth.
"You must have some too," she told him, quiet again, and they sat huddled together on the edge of the bed, drinking coffee in silence.
Adam said, "You must lie down again. You're awake now."
"Let's sing," said Miranda. "I know an old spiritual, I can remember some of the words." She spoke in a natural voice. "I'm fine now." She began in a hoa.r.s.e whisper, " 'Pale horse, pale rider, done taken my lover away ...'Do you know that song?"
"Yes," said Adam, "I heard Negroes in Texas sing it, in an oil field."
"I heard them sing it in a cotton field," she said; "it's a good song."
They sang that line together. "But I can't remember what comes next," said Adam.
" 'Pale horse, pale rider,'" said Miranda, "(We really need a 303.
{good banjo) 'done taken my lover away-'" Her voice cleared and she said, "But we ought to get on with it. What's the next line?"
"There's a lot more to it than that," said Adam, "about forty verses, the rider done taken away mammy, pappy, brother, sister, the whole family besides the lover-"
"But not the singer, not yet," said Miranda. "Death always leaves one singer to mourn. 'Death,' " she sang, " 'oh, leave one singer to mourn-' "
" 'Pale horse, pale rider,'" chanted Adam, coming in on the beat, " 'done taken my lover away!' (I think we're good, I think we ought to get up an act-)"
"Go in Hut Service," said Miranda, "entertain the poor defenseless heroes Over There."
"We'll play banjos," said Adam; "I always wanted to play the banjo."
Miranda sighed, and lay back on the pillow and thought, I must give up, I can't hold out any longer. There was only that pain, only that room, and only Adam. There were no longer any multiple planes of living, no tough filaments of memory and hope pulling taut backwards and forwards holding her upright between them.
There was only this one moment and it was a dream of time, and Adam's face, very near hers, eyes still and intent, was a shadow, and there was to be nothing more... .
"Adam," she said out of the heavy soft darkness that drew her down, dov/n, "I love you, and I was hoping you would say that to me, too."
He lay down beside her with his arm under her shoulder, and pressed his smooth face against hers, his mouth moved towards her mouth and stopped. "Can you hear what I am saying? ... What do you think I have been trying to tell you all this time?"
She turned towards him, the cloud cleared and she saw his face for an instant. He pulled the covers about her and held her, and said, "Go to sleep, darling, darling, if you will go to sleep now for one hour I will wake you up and bring you hot coffee and tomorrow we will find somebody to help. I love you, go to sleep-"
Almost with no warning at all, she floated into the darkness, holding his hand, in sleep that was not sleep but clear evening light in a small green wood, an angry dangerous wood full of inhuman 304.
concealed voices singing sharply like the whine of arrows and she saw Adam transfixed by a flight of these singing arrows that struck him in the heart and pa.s.sed shrilly cutting their path through the leaves. Adam fell straight back before her eyes, and rose again unwounded and alive; another flight of arrows loosed from the invisible bow struck him again and he fell, and yet he was there before her untouched in a perpetual death and resurrection. She threw herself before him, angrily and selfishly she interposed between him and the track of the arrow, crying, No, no, like a child cheated in a game, It's my turn now, why must you always be the one to die? and the arrows struck her cleanly through the heart and through his body and he lay dead, and she still lived, and the wood whistled and sang and shouted, every branch and leaf and blade of gra.s.s had its own terrible accusing voice. She ran then, and Adam caught her in the middle of the room, running, and said, "Darling, I must have been asleep too. What happened, you screamed terribly?"
After he had helped her to settle again, she sat with her knees drawn up under her chin, resting her head on her folded arms and began carefully searching for her words because it was important to explain clearly. "It was a very odd sort of dream, I don't know why it could have frightened me. There was something about an old-fas.h.i.+oned valentine. There were two hearts carved on a tree, pierced by the same arrow-you know, Adam-"
"Yes, I know, honey," he said in the gentlest sort of way, and sat kissing her on the cheek and forehead with a kind of accustomedness, as if he had been kissing her for years, "one of those lace paper things."
"Yes, and yet they were alive, and were us, you understand- this doesn't seem to be quite the way it was, but it was something like that. It was in a wood-"
"Yes," said Adam. He got up and put on his tunic and gathered up the thermos bottle. "I'm going back to that little stand and get us some ice cream and hot coffee," he told her, "and I'll be back in five minutes, and you keep quiet. Good-by for five minutes," he said, holding her chin in the palm of his hand and trying to catch her eye, "and you be very quiet."
"Good-by," she said. "I'm awake again." But she was not, and the two alert young internes from the County hospital who had 305.
{arrived, after frantic urgings from the noisy city editor of the Blue Mountain News, News, to carry her away in a police ambulance, decided that they had better go down and get the stretcher. Their voices roused her, she sat up, got out of bed at once and stood glancing about brightly. "Why, you're all right," said the darker and stouter of the two young men, both extremely fit and competent-looking in their white clothes, each with a flower in his b.u.t.tonhole. "I'll just carry you." He unfolded a white blanket and wrapped it around her. She gathered up the folds and asked, "But where is Adam?" taking hold of the doctor's arm. He laid a hand on her drenched forehead, shook his head, and gave her a shrewd look. to carry her away in a police ambulance, decided that they had better go down and get the stretcher. Their voices roused her, she sat up, got out of bed at once and stood glancing about brightly. "Why, you're all right," said the darker and stouter of the two young men, both extremely fit and competent-looking in their white clothes, each with a flower in his b.u.t.tonhole. "I'll just carry you." He unfolded a white blanket and wrapped it around her. She gathered up the folds and asked, "But where is Adam?" taking hold of the doctor's arm. He laid a hand on her drenched forehead, shook his head, and gave her a shrewd look.
"Adam?"
"Yes," Miranda told him, lowering her voice confidentially, "he was here and now he is gone."
"Oh, he'll be back," the interne told her easily, "he's just gone round the block to get cigarettes. Don't worry about Adam. He's the least of your troubles."
"Will he know where to find me?" she asked, still holding back.
"We'll leave him a note," said the interne. "Come now, it's time we got out of here."
He lifted and swung her up to his shoulder. "I feel very badly,"
she told him; "I don't know why."
"I'll bet you do," said he, stepping out carefully, the other doctor going before them, and feeling for the first step of the stairs.
"Put your arms around my neck," he instructed her. "It won't do you any harm and it's a great help to me."
"What's your name?" Miranda asked as the other doctor opened the front door and they stepped out into the frosty sweet air.
"Hildesheim," he said, in the tone of one humoring a child.
"Well, Dr. Hildesheim, aren't we in a pretty mess?"
"We certainly are," said Dr. Hildesheim.
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