Night and Day Part 3
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'I suppose you're one of the people who think we should all have professions,' she said, rather distantly, as if feeling her way among the phantoms of an unknown world.
'Oh dear no,' said Mary at once.
'Well, I think I do,' Katharine continued, with half a sigh. 'You will always be able to say that you've done something, whereas, in a crowd like this, I feel rather melancholy.'
'In a crowd? Why in a crowd?' Mary asked, deepening the two lines between her eyes, and hoisting herself nearer to Katharine upon the window-sill.
'Don't you see how many different things these people care about? And I want to beat them down-I only mean,' she corrected herself, 'that I want to a.s.sert myself, and it's difficult, if one hasn't a profession.'
Mary smiled, thinking that to beat people down was a process that should present no difficulty to Miss Katharine Hilbery. They knew each other so slightly that the beginning of intimacy, which Katharine seemed to initiate by talking about herself, had something solemn in it, and they were silent, as if to decide whether to proceed or not. They tested the ground.
Ah, but I want to trample upon their prostrate bodies!' Katharine announced, a moment later, with a laugh, as if at the train of thought which had led her to this conclusion.
'One doesn't necessarily trample upon people's bodies because one runs an office,' Mary remarked.
'No. Perhaps not,' Katharine replied. The conversation lapsed, and Mary saw Katharine looking out into the room rather moodily with closed lips, the desire to talk about herself or to initiate a friends.h.i.+p having, apparently, left her. Mary was struck by her capacity for being thus easily silent, and occupied with her own thoughts. It was a habit that spoke of loneliness and a mind thinking for itself. When Katharine remained silent Mary was slightly embarra.s.sed.
'Yes, they're very like sheep,' she repeated, foolishly.
And yet they are very clever-at least,' Katharine added, 'I suppose they have all read Webster.'
'Surely you don't think that a proof of cleverness? I've read Webster, I've read Ben Jonson,q but I don't think myself clever-not exactly, at least.' but I don't think myself clever-not exactly, at least.'
'I think you must be very clever,' Katharine observed.
'Why? Because I run an office?'
'I wasn't thinking of that. I was thinking how you live alone in this room, and have parties.'
Mary reflected for a second.
'It means, chiefly, a power of being disagreeable to one's own family, I think. I have that, perhaps. I didn't want to live at home, and I told my father. He didn't like it ... But then I have a sister, and you haven't, have you?'
'No, I haven't any sisters.'
'You are writing a life of your grandfather?' Mary pursued.
Katharine seemed instantly to be confronted by some familiar thought from which she wished to escape. She replied, 'Yes, I am helping my mother,' in such a way that Mary felt herself baffled, and put back again into the position in which she had been at the beginning of their talk. It seemed to her that Katharine possessed a curious power of drawing near and receding, which sent alternate emotions through her far more quickly than was usual, and kept her in a condition of curious alertness. Desiring to cla.s.sify her, Mary bethought her of the convenient term 'egoist'.
'She's an egoist,' she said to herself, and stored that word up to give to Ralph one day when, as it would certainly fall out, they were discussing Miss Hilbery.
'Heavens, what a mess there'll be to-morrow morning!' Katharine exclaimed. 'I hope you don't sleep in this room, Miss Datchet?'
Mary laughed.
'What are you laughing at?' Katharine demanded.
'I won't tell you.'
'Let me guess. You were laughing because you thought I'd changed the conversation?'
'No.'
'Because you think-' She paused.
'If you want to know, I was laughing at the way you said Miss Datchet.'
'Mary, then. Mary, Mary, Mary.'
So saying, Katharine drew back the curtain in order, perhaps, to conceal the momentary flush of pleasure which is caused by coming perceptibly nearer to another person.
'Mary Datchet,' said Mary. 'It's not such an imposing name as Katharine Hilbery, I'm afraid.'
They both looked out of the window, first up at the hard silver moon, stationary among a hurry of little grey-blue clouds, and then down upon the roofs of London, with all their upright chimneys, and then below them at the empty moonlit pavement of the street, upon which the joint of each paving-stone was clearly marked out. Mary then saw Katharine raise her eyes again to the moon, with a contemplative look in them, as though she were setting that moon against the moon of other nights, held in memory. Some one in the room behind them made a joke about star-gazing, which destroyed their pleasure in it, and they looked back into the room again.
Ralph had been watching for this moment, and he instantly produced his sentence.
'I wonder, Miss Hilbery, whether you remembered to get that picture glazed?' His voice showed that the question was one that had been prepared.
'Oh, you idiot!' Mary exclaimed, very nearly aloud, with a sense that Ralph had said something very stupid. So, after three lessons in Latin grammar, one might correct a fellow-student, whose knowledge did not embrace the ablative of mensa. mensa.r 'Portrait-what portrait?' Katharine asked. 'Oh, at home, you mean-that Sunday afternoon. Was it the day Mr Fortescue came? Yes, I think I remembered it.'
The three of them stood for a moment awkwardly silent, and then Mary left them in order to see that the great pitcher of coffee was properly handled, for beneath all her education she preserved the anxieties of one who owns china.
Ralph could think of nothing further to say; but could one have stripped off his mask of flesh, one would have seen that his will-power was rigidly set upon a single object-that Miss Hilbery should obey him. He wished her to stay there until, by some measures not yet apparent to him, he had conquered her interest. These states of mind transmit themselves very often without the use of language, and it was evident to Katharine that this young man had fixed his mind upon her. She instantly recalled her first impressions of him, and saw herself again proffering family relics. She reverted to the state of mind in which he had left her that Sunday afternoon. She supposed that he judged her very severely. She argued naturally that, if this were the case, the burden of the conversation should rest with him. But she submitted so far as to stand perfectly still, her eyes upon the opposite wall, and her lips very nearly closed, though the desire to laugh stirred them slightly.
'You know the names of the stars, I suppose?' Denham remarked, and from the tone of his voice one might have thought that he grudged Katharine the knowledge he attributed to her.
She kept her voice steady with some difficulty.
'I know how to find the Pole star if I'm lost.'
'I don't suppose that often happens to you.'
'No. Nothing interesting ever happens to me,' she said.
'I think you make a system of saying disagreeable things, Miss Hilbery,' he broke out, again going further than he meant to. 'I suppose it's one of the characteristics of your cla.s.s. They never talk seriously to their inferiors.'
Whether it was that they were meeting on neutral ground tonight, or whether the carelessness of an old grey coat that Denham wore gave an ease to his bearing that he lacked in conventional dress, Katharine certainly felt no impulse to consider him outside the particular set in which she lived.
'In what sense are you my inferior?' she asked, looking at him gravely, as though honestly searching for his meaning. The look gave him great pleasure. For the first time he felt himself on perfectly equal terms with a woman whom he wished to think well of him, although he could not have explained why her opinion of him mattered one way or another. Perhaps, after all, he only wanted to have something of her to take home to think about. But he was not destined to profit by his advantage.
'I don't think I understand what you mean,' Katharine repeated, and then she was obliged to stop and answer some one who wished to know whether she would buy a ticket for an opera from them, at a reduction. Indeed, the temper of the meeting was now unfavourable to separate conversation; it had become rather debauched and hilarious, and people who scarcely knew each other were making use of Christian names with apparent cordiality, and had reached that kind of gay tolerance and general friendliness which human beings in England only attain after sitting together for three hours or so, and the first cold blast in the air of the streets freezes them into isolation once more. Cloaks were being flung round the shoulders, hats swiftly pinned to the head; and Denham had the mortification of seeing Katharine helped to prepare herself by the ridiculous Rodney. It was not the convention of the meeting to say good-bye, or necessarily even to nod to the person with whom one was talking; but, nevertheless, Denham was disappointed by the completeness with which Katharine parted from him, without any attempt to finish her sentence. She left with Rodney.
CHAPTER V.
DENHAM HAD NO CONSCIOUS intention of following Katharine, but, seeing her depart, he took his hat and ran rather more quickly down the stairs than he would have done if Katharine had not been in front of him. He overtook a friend of his, by name Harry Sandys, who was going the same way, and they walked together a few paces behind Katharine and Rodney.
The night was very still, and on such nights, when the traffic thins away, the walker becomes conscious of the moon in the street, as if the curtains of the sky had been drawn apart, and the heaven lay bare, as it does in the country. The air was softly cool, so that people who had been sitting talking in a crowd found it pleasant to walk a little before deciding to stop an omnibus or encounter light again in an underground railway. Sandys, who was a barrister with a philosophic tendency, took out his pipe, lit it, murmured 'hum' and 'ha', and was silent. The couple in front of them kept their distance accurately, and appeared, so far as Denham could judge by the way they turned towards each other, to be talking very constantly. He observed that when a pedestrian going the opposite way forced them to part they came together again directly afterwards. Without intending to watch them he never quite lost sight of the yellow scarf twisted round Katharine's head, or the light overcoat which made Rodney look fas.h.i.+onable among the crowd. At the Strand he supposed that they would separate, but instead they crossed the road, and took their way down one of the narrow pa.s.sages which lead through ancient courts to the river. Among the crowd of people in the big thoroughfares Rodney seemed merely to be lending Katharine his escort, but now, when pa.s.sengers were rare and the footsteps of the couple were distinctly heard in the silence, Denham could not help picturing to himself some change in their conversation. The effect of the light and shadow, which seemed to increase their height, was to make them mysterious and significant, so that Denham had no feeling of irritation with Katharine, but rather a half-dreamy acquiescence in the course of the world. Yes, she did very well to dream about-but Sandys had suddenly begun to talk. He was a solitary man who had made his friends at college and always addressed them as if they were still undergraduates arguing in his room, though many months or even years had pa.s.sed in some cases between the last sentence and the present one. The method was a little singular, but very restful, for it seemed to ignore completely all accidents of human life, and to span very deep abysses with a few simple words.
On this occasion he began, while they waited for a minute on the edge of the Strand: 'I hear that Bennett has given up his theory of truth.'
Denham returned a suitable answer, and he proceeded to explain how this decision had been arrived at, and what changes it involved in the philosophy which they both accepted. Meanwhile Katharine and Rodney drew further ahead, and Denham kept, if that is the right expression for an involuntary action, one filament of his mind upon them, while with the rest of his intelligence he sought to understand what Sandys was saying.
As they pa.s.sed through the courts thus talking, Sandys laid the tip of his stick upon one of the stones forming a time-worn arch, and struck it meditatively two or three times in order to ill.u.s.trate something very obscure about the complex nature of one's apprehension of facts. During the pause which this necessitated, Katharine and Rodney turned the corner and disappeared. For a moment Denham stopped involuntarily in his sentence, and continued it with a sense of having lost something.
Unconscious that they were observed, Katharine and Rodney had come out on the Embankment.s When they had crossed the road, Rodney slapped his hand upon the stone parapet above the river and exclaimed: When they had crossed the road, Rodney slapped his hand upon the stone parapet above the river and exclaimed: 'I promise I won't say another word about it, Katharine! But do stop a minute and look at the moon upon the water.'
Katharine paused, looked up and down the river, and snuffed the air.
'I'm sure one can smell the sea, with the wind blowing this way,' she said.
They stood silent for a few moments while the river s.h.i.+fted in its bed, and the silver and red lights which were laid upon it were torn by the current and joined together again. Very far off up the river a steamer hooted with its hollow voice of unspeakable melancholy, as if from the heart of lonely mist-shrouded voyagings.
'Ah!' Rodney cried, striking his hand once more upon the bal.u.s.trade, 'why can't one say how beautiful it all is? Why am I condemned for ever, Katharine, to feel what I can't express? And the things I can give there's no use in my giving. Trust me, Katharine,' he added hastily, 'I won't speak of it again. But in the presence of beauty-look at the iridescence round the moon!-one feels-one feels-Perhaps if you married me-I'm half a poet, you see, and I can't pretend not to feel what I do feel. If I could write-ah, that would be another matter. I shouldn't bother you to marry me then, Katharine.'
He spoke these disconnected sentences rather abruptly, with his eyes alternately upon the moon and upon the stream.
'But for me I suppose you would recommend marriage?' said Katharine, with her eyes fixed on the moon.
'Certainly I should. Not for you only, but for all women. Why, you're nothing at all without it; you're only half alive; using only half your faculties; you must feel that for yourself. That is why-' Here he stopped himself, and they began to walk slowly along the Embankment, the moon fronting them.
'With how sad steps she climbs the sky, How silently and with how wan a face,'1 Rodney quoted.
'I've been told a great many unpleasant things about myself tonight,' Katharine stated, without attending to him. 'Mr Denham seems to think it his mission to lecture me, though I hardly know him. By the way, William, you know him; tell me, what is he like?'
William drew a deep sigh.
'We may lecture you till we're blue in the face-'
'Yes-but what's he like?'
'And we write sonnets to your eyebrows, you cruel practical creature. Denham?' he added, as Katharine remained silent. 'A good fellow, I should think. He cares, naturally, for the right sort of things, I expect. But you mustn't marry him, though. He scolded you, did he-what did he say?'
'What happens with Mr Denham is this: He comes to tea. I do all I can to put him at his ease. He merely sits and scowls at me. Then I show him our ma.n.u.scripts. At this he becomes really angry, and tells me I've no business to call myself a middle-cla.s.s woman. So we part in a huff; and next time we meet, which was tonight, he walks straight up to me, and says, "Go to the Devil!" That's the sort of behaviour my mother complains of. I want to know, what does it mean?'
She paused and, slackening her steps, looked at the lighted train drawing itself smoothly over Hungerford Bridge.
'It means, I should say, that he finds you chilly and unsympathetic.'
Katharine laughed with round, separate notes of genuine amus.e.m.e.nt.
'It's time I jumped into a cab and hid myself in my own house,' she exclaimed.
'Would your mother object to my being seen with you? No one could possibly recognize us, could they?' Rodney inquired, with some solicitude.
Katharine looked at him, and perceiving that his solicitude was genuine, she laughed again, but with an ironical note in her laughter.
'You may laugh, Katharine, but I can tell you that if any of your friends saw us together at this time of night they would talk about it, and I should find that very disagreeable. But why do you laugh?'
'I don't know. Because you're such a queer mixture, I think. You're half poet and half old maid.'
'I know I always seem to you highly ridiculous. But I can't help having inherited certain traditions and trying to put them into practice.'
'Nonsense, William. You may come of the oldest family in Devons.h.i.+re, but that's no reason why you should mind being seen alone with me on the Embankment.'
'I'm ten years older than you are, Katharine, and I know more of the world than you do.'
'Very well. Leave me and go home.'
Rodney looked back over his shoulder and perceived that they were being followed at a short distance by a taxi-cab, which evidently awaited his summons. Katharine saw it too, and exclaimed: 'Don't call that cab for me, William. I shall walk.'
'Nonsense, Katharine; you'll do nothing of the kind. It's nearly twelve o'clock, and we've walked too far as it is.'
Katharine laughed and walked on so quickly that both Rodney and the taxi-cab had to increase their pace to keep up with her.
'Now, William,' she said, 'if people see me racing along the Embankment like this they will will talk. You had far better say good night, if you don't want people to talk.' talk. You had far better say good night, if you don't want people to talk.'
At this William beckoned, with a despotic gesture, to the cab with one hand, and with the other he brought Katharine to a standstill.
'Don't let the man see us struggling, for G.o.d's sake!' he murmured. Katharine stood for a moment quite still.
'There's more of the old maid in you than the poet,' she observed briefly.
William shut the door sharply, gave the address to the driver, and turned away, lifting his hat punctiliously high in farewell to the invisible lady.
He looked back after the cab twice, suspiciously, half expecting that she would stop it and dismount; but it bore her swiftly on, and was soon out of sight. William felt in the mood for a short soliloquy of indignation, for Katharine had contrived to exasperate him in more ways than one.
'Of all the unreasonable, inconsiderate creatures I've ever known, she's the worst!' he exclaimed to himself, striding back along the Embankment. 'Heaven forbid that I should ever make a fool of myself with her again. Why, I'd sooner marry the daughter of my landlady than Katharine Hilbery! She'd leave me not a moment's peace-and she'd never understand me-never, never, never!'
Uttered aloud and with vehemence so that the stars of Heaven might hear, for there was no human being at hand, these sentiments sounded satisfactorily irrefutable. Rodney quieted down, and walked on in silence, until he perceived some one approaching him, who had something, either in his walk or his dress, which proclaimed that he was one of William's acquaintances before it was possible to tell which of them he was. It was Denham who, having parted from Sandys at the bottom of his staircase, was now walking to the Tubet at Charing Cross, deep in the thoughts which his talk with Sandys had suggested. He had forgotten the meeting at Mary Datchet's rooms, he had forgotten Rodney, and metaphors and Elizabethan drama, and could have sworn that he had forgotten Katharine Hilbery too, although that was more disputable. His mind was scaling the highest pinnacles of its alps, where there was only starlight and the untrodden snow. He cast strange eyes upon Rodney, as they encountered each other beneath a lamp-post. at Charing Cross, deep in the thoughts which his talk with Sandys had suggested. He had forgotten the meeting at Mary Datchet's rooms, he had forgotten Rodney, and metaphors and Elizabethan drama, and could have sworn that he had forgotten Katharine Hilbery too, although that was more disputable. His mind was scaling the highest pinnacles of its alps, where there was only starlight and the untrodden snow. He cast strange eyes upon Rodney, as they encountered each other beneath a lamp-post.
'Ha!' Rodney exclaimed.
If he had been in full possession of his mind, Denham would probably have pa.s.sed on with a salutation. But the shock of the interruption made him stand still, and before he knew what he was doing, he had turned and was walking with Rodney in obedience to Rodney's invitation to come to his rooms and have something to drink. Denham had no wish to drink with Rodney, but he followed him pa.s.sively enough. Rodney was gratified by this obedience. He felt inclined to be communicative with this silent man, who possessed so obviously all the good masculine qualities in which Katharine now seemed lamentably deficient.
'You do well, Denham,' he began impulsively, 'to have nothing to do with young women. I offer you my experience-if one trusts them one invariably has cause to repent. Not that I have any reason at this moment,' he added hastily, 'to complain of them. It's a subject that crops up now and again for no particular reason. Miss Datchet, I dare say, is one of the exceptions. Do you like Miss Datchet?'
These remarks indicated clearly enough that Rodney's nerves were in a state of irritation, and Denham speedily woke to the situation of the world as it had been one hour ago. He had last seen Rodney walking with Katharine. He could not help regretting the eagerness with which his mind returned to these interests, and fretted him with the old trivial anxieties. He sank in his own esteem. Reason bade him break from Rodney, who clearly tended to become confidential, before he had utterly lost touch with the problems of high philosophy. He looked along the road, and marked a lamp-post at a distance of some hundred yards, and decided that he would part from Rodney when they reached this point.
'Yes, I like Mary; I don't see how one could help liking her,' he remarked cautiously, with his eye on the lamp-post.
Ah, Denham, you're so different from me. You never give yourself away. I watched you this evening with Katharine Hilbery. My instinct is to trust the person I'm talking to. That's why I'm always being taken in, I suppose.'
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