Saskia Brandt: Deja Vu Part 22

'Tell us only when he doesn't,' said David. 'What, pray, is the Proctor problem?'

'There were reports that the Onogoro computer was back online. Further reports implicated Bruce s.h.i.+moda. I suspected your hand in this, David. Therefore I arranged to have you sent to him under the guise of a summons from Colonel McWhirter. Within the research centre I had good, invasive surveillance. I had hoped that Colonel McWhirter could handle you. He could not. Perhaps I could have a gla.s.s of water?'

Saskia fired the gun. The cubicle door behind Hartfield shattered. David and Jennifer looked at one another. Hartfield straightened his tie. 'I was unprepared, David, for your second terrorist attack.'

'b.l.o.o.d.y h.e.l.l, how many times? There was no first attack. Not by me.'

'You sent me,' said Saskia, 'after David to collect information.'

'No. At that point, I merely wanted you to collect him. Then I began to understand how persuasive a man David could be, and how difficult it had been for Beckmann to fully control your behaviour. I decided to end the matter by sending Klutikov. If he found you here, then my suspicions would be confirmed because only David could lead you to his daughter. If he had not found you, then David would be in your custody and on the way back to England. And once David and I were reunited...well, I had resolved to interrogate him personally. I would do a better job than McWhirter. Any man will talk if you know his weakness.'

He sighed, chin on chest.

Jennifer raised her hand. 'I have a question. Why are you here, now?'

'The most important question, Jennifer,' said Hartfield, smiling. 'You recall that, when I was a young man, I offered my fortune to any person who could cure me of my cancer. The one who came forward was Fernando Orza. His treatment involved nan.o.bots a robots smaller than blood cells a that could seek out and destroy cancer cells. I was cured. That, in sum, is the official version of the story. Unofficially, the nan.o.bots killed not only cancerous cells but healthy ones too, particularly the oliG.o.dendrocytes in my frontal lobes. I was left with a severe mental handicap. I received a number of treatments, but, finally, the doctors informed me that I had a permanent condition. I...no longer see meaning. Conversation is difficult and empathy impossible. I remember kindness and justice but I no longer feel them.

'Orza's nano-treatment became public after 2010. But that day in 2002, when I received the all-clear, I turned my energies towards investment in radical technologies. Onogoro, for example, was intended a although you did not understand until later, David a to unlock the secrets of our genes using the kind of rapid experimental approach only previously possible with fruit flies. Another example is your project, Jennifer.'

Saskia sensed a change in David. His eyes became narrow and severe. In a clipped voice, he said, 'Jennifer, what did you build for him?'

'I -'

'What, Jennifer?' he spat, and Saskia felt the elemental rage of a father at his daughter's mistake. When Jennifer shrugged fiercely, David turned to Saskia, though his words seemed for the benefit of Jennifer too. 'Saskia, do you remember what I said when we first met?'

She frowned. 'Yes, you claimed to have met me before.'

'It took me until now to fully understand. Before, it didn't make sense.'

'What didn't?'

'You, Saskia, helped me escape from the West Lothian Centre.'

Saskia laughed coldly. Only the determination in David's face stilled her retort. He leaned against his cubicle door. 'It didn't make sense because you were twenty years older than you are now. In the time we've spent together, I've thought through the alternatives in an attempt to talk myself out of that preposterous conclusion. Did you have an older sister? Could it be your mother? Was it some other kind of doppelganger, transformed by plastic surgery? Now, here, I realise that my gut feeling was correct. It was an older you. You are going to travel backwards in time.' He continued to look at her with an expression that communicated grim fascination, even disgust. 'Tell her, Jennifer.'

Jennifer shook her head. 'Dad, we're years away from sending a human, and when we do, he or she will be military.'

'Ah,' David said, turning to her, 'but it isn't your project, is it? Hartfield pays the piper and he calls the tune.'

Jennifer was silent. She looked young.

'It would explain something,' said Hartfield, almost to himself. 'For several months, I have felt that a force is working against me. I'm not just referring to David's miraculous escape from custody, or the bullet that missed you, Saskia, though it was fired point blank. It is a sensation of manipulation. Determination.'

Saskia felt their attention. She had the gun, but she was suddenly vulnerable a the most vulnerable person in the room. 'This is nonsense. If I had aided David in his escape, I would also have aided myself in the past few days. But my future self has been absent.'

'That's not true,' Jennifer said. 'You contacted Bruce, who contacted me.' She raised her hands at the room. 'We're here.'

'It's not possible.'

'Not only is it possible,' said Jennifer, 'it always has been. There's nothing impossible about time travel as a theoretical construct. Since Einstein, the Devil of time travel has only been in the detail.'

'Wait,' said Saskia Her memories were all the clearer for their rarity. 'I worked with a detective called Jago.'

'I remember,' said David. 'Go on.'

'He had a heart attack during the chase, and I called his mobile a few hours ago to find out how he was doing. A woman answered. She claimed to be his daughter.' Saskia let her mind slip its anchor. 'He doesn't have a daughter. I think that woman was...me.'

All's well that ends well.

'Crikey, you spoke to yourself on the phone?' asked David. His eyes were unfocused with wonder.

'I don't understand how this works,' Saskia said. 'I remember the conversation we had, word for word. When I reach the point in my life at which I must supply the other side of the conversation, how will I choose what words to say?'

'You won't have to choose,' said Jennifer.

'That's my point. Who chose them? They are just words I must say. Like a script that's already been written. And every moment you felt in my company, David, as I helped you escape from the West Lothian Centre, all those moments are...planned. They're lost. I have no choice but to repeat them.'

'You have a choice,' said Hartfield.

'No choice,' she said. 'The Fates aren't human, or even human-like. They're physical forces. They're the universe itself. They have nothing to do with my...intention, or will, or hope. They play and I dance.' She thought of Beckmann as he forced her hand to raise the gun to her temple. 'They influence the chemicals that control my muscles. They conduct the information around my brain. They are the information. Inside, I've been chasing my ident.i.ty the past two days, worried that I don't have one.' Saskia looked at David. She smiled and the movement disturbed her tears. 'It's funny. When Beckmann recruited me, he made me investigate my own murder. I've come to America after you, David, only to find I'm investigating myself a second time.'

The hawk that returned.

'Revenge should have no bounds.'

There was a long moment of awkwardness, to which only Hartfield seemed indifferent. Saskia's gun arm began to ache and she let it fall to her side. As she did so, Hartfield looked at his watch. 'What?' she asked.

'Don't you feel, Saskia?'

'Feel what?'

'A sense of your own power. Of your efficacy. Of your human will. I remember that feeling from memories I have of the person I was, many years ago. I will fight for it.'

'No,' said Jennifer. 'Remember the watch. I sent it backwards in time but there never the question of a paradox. I had to wait two hours and send it. No effect without a cause, remember?'

Hartfield shook his head. 'You're wrong, Jennifer. And David and Saskia - you're wrong too. I have with me the specifications of the correct nano-treatment. I have studied the operation of the time machine. I will return to the year 1999 and correct Orza's mistakes. I will be cured and my future will change. The world of 2023 can go to h.e.l.l.'

The lights went out.

Saskia saw an afterimage of the room flick left and right as she scanned the darkness. Something brushed her elbow.

'Jennifer, David: did either of you touch me?'

'No.'

Saskia fired over her shoulder, turning as she did. In the muzzle flash, she saw the black arch of the doorway and, almost out of sight, Hartfield's heel as he escaped into the corridor.

'He's gone,' Saskia shouted above her deadened ears. 'What did he do to the lights?'

'Can't see any emergency diodes,' said David. 'He must have disabled the backup too.'

'Excuse me,' said Ego. 'I have detected a transmission from another Ego-cla.s.s personal computer.'

'Whose?' asked David. 'Hartfield's?'

'The transmission comprised two coded radio bursts. The first instructed the central computer to deactivate both the primary and emergency lighting throughout the centre.'

'And the second?'

'The second instructed the chip in Saskia's brain to deactivate, effective immediately.'

'What?' she said.

'Saskia,' said David. 'We'll think of something. Hold on.'

She slid down the frame of the door and stretched her legs as though she could brace herself against the coming loss, the tide of nothingness. Would it feel like a stroke, or falling asleep? She felt no s.h.i.+ft in her mind, but when David next spoke, his words were unintelligible. Her implanted skills were fading.

She put the gun to her temple.

I will not become the Angel of Death.

'Do you know the true purpose of Russian Roulette? It is the power of the question: Is there a bullet or is there not?'

The six-shooter held six rounds, less one fired by Hartfield. She had fired two more. There were three bullets left. But before she could squeeze the trigger, David gripped the barrel. They fought for control. David pushed the gun towards the floor and it glanced across his thigh, spinning the barrel. Saskia thumbed a nerve below his ear. He cried and fell back.

She put the gun against her head and pulled the trigger.

Snick.

The chamber was empty.

She pulled the trigger again.

Snick.

Incredibly, she had hit the second empty chamber.

She squeezed again.

Snick.

The third empty chamber. Anger expanded inside her.

For the last time, she pulled the trigger.

The spring creaked. The hammer yawned and the ratchet revolved. Spin. The chamber turned. Measure. At the same time, David's hands closed on her shoulders and she heard his meaningless words, felt his breath on her face. The world slowed. David's voice deepened and Saskia imagined the gap between the hammer and the round. In that gap, which might have been a thousand miles across, a flame sprang up, guttered, and died.

The darkness became darker still.

She was in a coffin. She wanted to scream but her slack mouth would not move. Her chest itched from the coroner's incision. She smelled formaldehyde, corrupt meat and wood. Smoke too. With that, she felt a draught through the dark curtain that separated the present from the past. The light from another world found her, even as she lay inside her box, and she remembered everything.

Everything was revenge.

Snip.

Chapter Thirty-One.

Cologne: Three Weeks Earlier The tusk-like arches of the main railway station emerged on her left. Opposite was a department store. She stepped between them a wounded figure. Her eyes, hidden under sungla.s.ses, fixed on the sign for Oppenheim Street. She found a bench. It was late summer and the sun was low.

Ute removed a camera from her shoulder bag. She pretended to photograph the pa.s.sers-by, but she was taking pictures of an office block. Its ground floor housed a perfumery. Above that, the windows were soaped. Ute moved away. She found an alley that led around the back of the building. More photographs. There was a fire escape. Beyond was Father Rhine, steady as the sea.

She returned to the main street. On the same bench, she ate ice cream by twilight.

She paused on the way home to buy a padlock and a tube of superglue. The shop a.s.sistant asked her out for dinner. She stared at him until he apologised. She hurried from the shop and vomited into a drain.

The day grew old. She avoided eyes and hugged herself against the chill air while others relaxed in cafes and commented on Germany's Indian summer. Ute heard them and seethed. It was not summer; it was autumn. If not that, then winter.

She was a student. She was writing a thesis on the use of traditional myths in Shakespeare's tragedies.

Six nights ago, she had returned to the Kabana Klub. Her friend, Brigitte, had accompanied her, and together they had scanned the crowd. They had not found him. Brigitte had said, 'Why would he come back? He might expect it.'

'He would not.'

'What are you going to do if you see him?'

'First, I need to see him.'

Brigitte had accompanied her the next night too, and the one after that. Then she had stopped. Ute did not blame her. The music was too loud for conversation and, as Brigitte persisted with her questions, Ute persisted with her silence.

On the third night, alone, Ute saw him: a short, moustached man. He stood in the same corner wearing the same clothes. He chatted to two women just as he had chatted to her. He lit their cigarettes with a Zippo lighter whose flame he conjured with a dash across his thigh. But her fate and theirs took different paths; they smiled indulgently at his broken German and walked away, giggling. Ute watched them leave. She wondered whether she should confront the man. She decided not to.

He left two hours later, on foot. He walked for almost a kilometre. He meandered and doubled back on himself. Ute matched him. She had lived in the city her whole life and he had not. She stopped on corners and into shadows. She reversed her coat. There were few places for him to lose her.

They took the underground at Ottoplatz and emerged at Reichenspergerplatz. They came to the office block. This must be the place. She found a phone booth and dialled Holtz's office at the police station. There was no answer.