Five Nights Part 28
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She was well known at the station, so it seemed improbable she could have been there un.o.bserved.
There was another station up the line six miles distant. She might easily have walked to that to avoid notice.
I took a fly, and drove to the other station, but here Viola was not known personally, and though I described her, and was a.s.sured she had not been seen there, it was indefinite and uncertain information that settled nothing.
She might have gone from there to town by an early train unnoticed, or she might have gone down the line to another country place to elude me. I could tell nothing.
Feeling sick and dispirited, I drove back to the station and then walked on to the house.
When I went upstairs the room was in disorder just as I had left it.
As I entered the bed caught my eye, the pillow her head had so lately crushed, and there beside it the delicate garment she had been wearing a few hours ago.
An immense, a devastating sense of loss came over me. A feeling of suffering so intense and so vast, it seemed to crush me beneath it physically as well as mentally.
I sank down in the armchair, laid my head back and closed my eyes. I ceased to think any more, I was unconscious of anything except that sense of intense suffering.
By that evening I had everything packed, all the bills paid; and I took the seven-o'clock train to town. I felt to stay there the night, to attempt to sleep in that room so full of memories of her was an impossibility. Something that would drive me mad if I attempted it.
The people of the house stared at me when I paid them, and the maids looked frightened when I addressed them, but I hardly saw them, doing what was necessary in a mechanical way, with all my senses turned inward, as it were, and blunted by that one overpowering idea of loss.
The two hours in a fast train did me good. I had a sort of subconscious feeling I was going to her by going to town which buoyed me up instinctively; but the reaction was terrible when I actually arrived and drove to some rooms I knew in Jermyn Street and realised that I was indeed alone.
I sat up all that night, feeling my brain alight and blazing with a fire of agony and pain. Sleep was out of the question. A man does not love a woman as I loved Viola and sleep the night after she has left him.
The next morning I went to her bankers, only to get just the answers I had expected.
Yes, Mrs. Lonsdale had communicated with them. She was abroad, and they had her address but were not at liberty to disclose it. They would forward all letters to her immediately.
I went straight back to my rooms and wrote to her. I poured out my whole heart in the letter, imploring her to come to me; yet every line I wrote I knew was useless, useless.
Still I could not rest nor exist till I had written it, and when it was posted I felt a certain solace.
I walked on to my club afterwards, and amongst other letters found another from Suzee.
I could not imagine how she had obtained my club address at all, unless it was in that night when she came to my cabin. She would be quite capable of searching for anything she wanted and taking away some of my letters to obtain and keep my address.
I did not open it at once. I felt a sort of anger with Suzee as being partly responsible for all I was going through. Whatever Viola might say, Suzee's letter had seemed to bring her mad resolve to a climax.
I took some lunch at the club, and a man I knew came up and spoke to me.
"Up in town again, I see," he began, to which I a.s.sented.
"How's Mrs. Lonsdale?"
"Quite well, thank you," I replied.
"Is she up with you?"
"No."
"Coming up soon, I suppose?"
"I don't know."
My friend looked at me once or twice, and then after a few vacuous remarks went away.
I knew that in a few hours it would be all over the club that I and Viola no longer hit it off together, that in fact we were living apart, and by the evening a decree _nisi_ would have been p.r.o.nounced for us. But I didn't care what they said. Nothing mattered. No one could hurt me more than I was hurt already. The worst had happened.
As I sat there I saw Lawton, who also belonged to the club, cross the end of the dining-room. He, too, would come up and speak to me if he caught sight of me.
I felt I did not wish to speak to the man who had always loved Viola, who had always envied me her possession, and to whom once I had nearly lost her.
I got up and left the club, went back to my rooms, and there got out my letters to read.
After all, I thought, as I took up Suzee's letter, why not go out to 'Frisco? It would make a change, something to do, something to drive away this perpetual desire of another's presence.
A second night like last stared me in the face. What was the use of continuing to feel in this wretched, angry, burning, hungry way?
I broke the seal and read Suzee's second appeal to me, more pa.s.sionate, more urgent than the last. She begged me to go to her without delay, or it would be too late; a fervour of longing breathed in every line.
An ironic smile came over my face as I read. This letter to me seemed like an echo of the one I had sent to Viola that morning. Well, I would wait for her answer, and then, perhaps, if she would not return to me, I would go to 'Frisco.
In any case, I would send a few lines to Suzee with the money for her purchase. It would be best to cable it to her, and I went out again to arrange this.
Five wretched, listless days went by, followed by nearly sleepless nights, and then came Viola's answer, apparently by the postmark from some place in France.
My whole body shook as I opened it, and for many seconds I could see nothing on the paper but a ma.s.s of dancing black lines. Yet the immense comfort of being again in touch with her after these dreadful days of isolation seemed to flow over and through me like some healing balm.
At last I read these lines:
"I am terribly, unutterably grieved, my own dearest one, to hear how much you have suffered, but my return to you now would not undo that, and only give you the pain in addition that I went away to avoid for you.
"Go, dearest, go out to 'Frisco, and let the thought of me lie in your subconsciousness for a year, a little chrysalis of future happiness. Do not think of me, do not let your mind dwell on me.
Fill up your life with joy and work. I have a conviction that we cannot ever really separate in this life. Therefore I do not fear (as you seemed to do) that anything will be strong enough to keep us apart if we both will to be together. Only, for a time, let me sleep in your Soul in a chamber where none other can enter, and the year will soon pa.s.s for you, though slowly, as a winter night, for me. Your
"VIOLA."
A great numbness seized me as I came to the end.
A year without her. It seemed like Eternity itself.
I sat for many hours motionless with her letter in my hand.
Then I went out and to a ticket office in Piccadilly, and got a through ticket to 'Frisco.
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