The Weird Part 108

's.h.i.+t,' said the third man. I didn't know if it was David's story or the shot. A fourth man sat down.

'I risk a light, and the whole tunnel is covered with spiders, covered like wallpaper, only worse, two or three bodies thick,' David said. 'I'm sitting on them, and the spiders are already inside my pants and inside my s.h.i.+rt and covering my arms and it's f.u.c.king Vietnam, you know; I don't even know if they're poisonous or not. Don't care, really, because I'm going to die just from having them on me. I can feel them moving toward my face. So I start to scream, and then this little guy comes and pulls me back out a ways, and then he sits for maybe half an hour, calm as can be, picking spiders off me. When I decide to live after all, I go back out. I tell everybody. "That was Victor," they say. "Had to be Victor." '

'I know a guy says Victor pulled him from a hole,' the fourth soldier said. 'He falls through a false floor down maybe twelve straight feet into this tiny little trap with straight walls all around and no way up, and Victor comes down after him. Jumps back out, holding the guy in his arms. Twelve feet; the guy swears it.'

'Tiny little guy,' said David. 'Even for V.C., this guy'd be tiny.'

'He just looks tiny,' the second soldier said. 'I know a guy saw Victor buried under more than a ton of dirt. Victor just digs his way out again. No broken bones, no nothing.'

Inexcusably slow, and I'd been told twice, but I had just figured out that Victor wasn't short for V.C. 'I'd better inoculate this Victor,' I said. 'You think you could send him in?'

The men stared at me. 'You don't get it, do you?' said David.

'Victor don't report,' the fourth man says.

'No C.O.,' says the third man. 'No unit.'

'He's got the uniform,' the second man tells me. 'So we don't know if he's special forces of some sort or if he's AWOL down in the tunnels.'

'Victor lives in the tunnels,' said David. 'n.o.body up top has ever seen him.'

I tried to talk to one of the doctors about it. 'Tunnel vision,' he told me. 'We get a lot of that. Forget it.'

In May we got a report of more rats some leashed, some in cages in a tunnel near Ah Nhon Tay village in the Ho Bo Woods. But no one wanted to go in and get them, because these rats were alive. And somebody got the idea this was my job, and somebody else agreed. They would clear the tunnel of V.C. first, they promised me. So I volunteered.

Let me tell you about rats. Maybe they're not responsible for the plague, but they're still destructive to every kind of life-form and beneficial to none. They eat anything that lets them. They breed during all seasons. They kill their own kind; they can do it singly, but they can also organize and attack in hordes. The brown rat is currently embroiled in a war of extinction against the black rat. Most animals behave better than that.

I'm not afraid of rats. I read somewhere that about the turn of the century, a man in western Illinois heard a rustling in his fields one night. He got out of bed and went to the back door, and behind his house he saw a great ma.s.s of rats that stretched all the way to the horizon. I suppose this would have frightened me. All those naked tails in the moonlight. But I thought I could handle a few rats in cages, no problem.

It wasn't hard to locate them. I was on my hands and knees, but using a flashlight. I thought there might be some loose rats, too, and that I ought to look at least; and I'd also heard that there was an abandoned V.C. hospital in the tunnel that I was curious about. So I left the cages and poked around in the tunnels a bit; and when I'd had enough, I started back to get the rats, and I hit a water trap. There hadn't been a water trap before, so I knew I must have taken a wrong turn. I went back a bit, took another turn, and then another, and hit the water trap again. By now I was starting to panic. I couldn't find anything I'd ever seen before except the d.a.m.n water. I went back again, farther without turning, took a turn, hit the trap.

I must have tried seven, eight times. I no longer thought the tunnel was cold. I thought the V.C. had closed the door on my original route so that I wouldn't find it again. I thought they were watching every move I made, pretty easy with me waving my flashlight about. I switched it off. I could hear them in the dark, their eyelids closing and opening, their hands tightening on their knives. I was sweating, head to toe, like I was ill, like I had the mysterious English sweating sickness or the Suette des Picards.

And I knew that to get back to the entrance, I had to go into the water. I sat and thought that through, and when I finished, I wasn't the same man I'd been when I began the thought.

It would have been bad to have to crawl back through the tunnels with no light. To go into the water with no light, not knowing how much water there was, not knowing if one lungful of air would be enough or if there were underwater turns so you might get lost before you found air again, was something you'd have to be crazy to do. I had to do it, so I had to be crazy first. It wasn't as hard as you might think. It took me only a minute.

I filled my lungs as full as I could. Emptied them once. Filled them again and dove in. Someone grabbed me by the ankle and hauled me back out. It frightened me so much I swallowed water, so I came up coughing and kicking. The hand released me at once, and I lay there for a bit, dripping water and still sweating, too, feeling the part of the tunnel that was directly below my body turn to mud, while I tried to convince myself that no one was touching me.

Then I was crazy enough to turn my light on. Far down the tunnel, just within range of the light, knelt a little kid dressed in the uniform of the rats. I tried to get closer to him. He moved away, just the same amount I had moved, always just in the light. I followed him down one tunnel, around a turn, down another. Outside, the sun rose and set. We crawled for days. My right knee began to bleed.

'Talk to me,' I asked him. He didn't.

Finally he stood up ahead of me. I could see the rat cages, and I knew where the entrance was behind him. And then he was gone. I tried to follow with my flashlight, but he'd jumped or something. He was just gone.

'Victor,' Rat Six told me when I finally came out. 'G.o.dd.a.m.n Victor.'

Maybe so. If Victor was the same little boy I put a net over in the high country in Yosemite.

When I came out, they told me less than three hours had pa.s.sed. I didn't believe them. I told them about Victor. Most of them didn't believe me. n.o.body outside the tunnels believed in Victor. 'We just sent home one of the rats,' a doctor told me. 'He emptied his whole gun into a tunnel. Claimed there were V.C. all around him, but that he got them. He shot every one. Only, when we went down to clean it up, there were no bodies. All his bullets were found in the walls.

'Tunnel vision. Everyone sees things. It's the dark. Your eyes no longer impose any limit on the things you can see.'

I didn't listen. I made demands right up the chain of command for records: recruitment, AWOLs, special projects. I wanted to talk to everyone who'd ever seen Victor. I wrote Clint to see what he remembered of the drive back from Yosemite. I wrote a thousand letters to Mercy Hospital, telling them I'd uncovered their little game. I demanded to speak with the red-haired doctor with gla.s.ses whose name I never knew. I wrote the Curry Company and suggested they conduct a private investigation into the supposed suicide of Sergeant Redburn. I asked the CIA what they had done with Paul's parents. That part was paranoid. I was so unstrung I thought they'd killed his parents and given him to the coyote to raise him up for the tunnel wars. When I calmed down, I knew the CIA would never be so farsighted. I knew they'd just gotten lucky. I didn't know what happened to the parents; still don't.

There were so many crazy people in Vietnam, it could take them a long time to notice a new one, but I made a lot of noise. A team of three doctors talked to me for a total of seven hours. Then they said I was suffering from delayed guilt over the death of my little dog-boy, and that it surfaced, along with every other weak link in my personality, in the stress and the darkness of the tunnels. They sent me home. I missed the moon landing, because I was having a nice little time in a hospital of my own.

When I was finally and truly released, I went looking for Caroline Crosby. The Crosbys still lived in Palo Alto, but Caroline did not. She'd started college at Berkeley, but then she'd dropped out. Her parents hadn't seen her for several months.

Her mother took me through their beautiful house and showed me Caroline's old room. She had a canopy bed and her own bathroom. There was a mirror with old pictures of some boy on it.

A throw rug with roses. There was a lot of pink. 'We drive through the Haight every weekend,' Caroline's mother said. 'Just looking.' She was pale and controlled. 'If you should see her, would you tell her to call?'

I would not. I made one attempt to return one little boy to his family, and look what happened. Either Sergeant Redburn jumped from the Golden Gate Bridge in the middle of his investigation or he didn't. Either Paul Becker died in Mercy Hospital or he was picked up by the military to be their special weapon in a special war.

I've thought about it now for a couple of decades, and I've decided that, at least for Paul, once he'd escaped from the military, things didn't work out so badly. He must have felt more at home in the tunnels under Cu Chi than he had under the bed in Mercy Hospital.

There is a darkness inside us all that is animal. Against some things untreated or untreatable disease, for example, or old age the darkness is all we are. Either we are strong enough animals or we are not. Such things pare everything that is not animal away from us. As animals we have a physical value, but in moral terms we are neither good nor bad. Morality begins on the way back from the darkness.

The first two plagues were largely believed to be a punishment for man's sinfulness. 'So many died,' wrote Agnolo di Tura the Fat, who buried all five of his own children himself, 'that all believed that it was the end of the world.' This being the case, you'd imagine the cessation of the plague must have been accompanied by outbreaks of charity and G.o.dliness. The truth was just the opposite. In 1349, in Erfurt, Germany, of the three thousand Jewish residents there, not one survived. This is a single instance of a barbarism so marked and so pervasive, it can be understood only as a form of ma.s.s insanity.

Here is what Procopius said: And after the plague had ceased, there was so much depravity and general licentiousness, that it seemed as though the disease had left only the most wicked.

When men are turned into animals, it's hard for them to find their way back to themselves. When children are turned into animals, there's no self to find. There's never been a feral child who found his way out of the dark. Maybe there's never been a feral child who wanted to.

You don't believe I saw Paul in the tunnels at all. You think I'm crazy or, charitably, that I was crazy then, just for a little while. Maybe you think the CIA would never have killed a policeman or tried to use a little child in a black war, even though the CIA has done everything else you've ever been told and refused to believe.

That's okay. I like your version just fine. Because if I made him up, and all the tunnel rats who ever saw him made him up, then he belongs to us, he marks us. Our vision, our Procopian phantom in the tunnels. Victor to take care of us in the dark.

Caroline came home without me. I read her wedding announcement in the paper more than twenty years ago. She married a Stanford chemist. There was a picture of her in her parents' backyard with gardenias in her hair. She was twenty-five years old. She looked happy. I never did go talk to her.

So here's a story for you, Caroline: A small German town was much plagued by rats who ate the crops and the chickens, the ducks, the cloth and the seeds. Finally the citizens called in an exterminator. He was the best; he trapped and poisoned the rats. Within a month he had deprived the fleas of most of their hosts.

The fleas then bit the children of the town instead. Hundreds of children were taken with a strange dancing and raving disease. Their parents tried to control them, tried to keep them safe in their beds, but the moment their mothers' backs were turned, the children ran into the streets and danced. The town was Erfurt. The year was 1237.

Most of the children danced themselves to death. But not all. A few of them recovered and lived to be grown-ups. They married and worked and had their own children. They lived reasonable and productive lives.

The only thing is that they still twitch sometimes. Just now and then. They can't help it.

Stop me, Caroline, if you've heard this story before.

Angels in Love.

Kathe Koja.

Kathe Koja (1960) is an American writer who first emerged as a novelist during the US horror boom of the early 1990s. Kafkaesque, transgressive novels such as The Cipher (1991), Bad Brains (1992), Skin (1993), and Strange Angels (1994) established her as one of weird fiction's most innovative pract.i.tioners. Story collaborations with science fiction writer Barry Malzberg broadened her oeuvre, and as Koja moved into the realm of young adult novels her work continued to evade easy categorization. In 2010 her first historical novel, Under the Poppy, was published, with the sequel to follow in 2012. As 'Angels in Love' (1991) demonstrates, Koja's version of the weird is both claustrophobic and luminous, continually questioning the nature of reality.

LIKE WINGS. Rapturous as the muted screams, lush the beating of air through chipboard walls, luscious like s.e.x and oh, my, far more forbidden: whatever it was, Lurleen knew it was wrong.

Knew it from the shrieks, gagged and that was no pillow, no sir no way, she herself was familiar with the gasp of m.u.f.fled s.e.x and this was definitely not it. And not really kinky, or not in any way she knew of, and with a half-shy swagger Lurleen could admit she had acquaintance of a few. Kiss me here. Let's see some teeth. Harder.

The sounds, arpeggio of groans, that ba.s.so almost-unheard thump, thump, rhythmic as a headboard or a set of baritone springs but that wasn't it either. Subsonic; felt by the bones. Lying there listening her own bones tingled, skin rippled light with gooseb.u.mps, speculation: who made those strange strange sounds? Someone with a taste for the rough stuff, maybe, someone who liked the doughy strop of flesh. Someone strong. An old boyfriend had used to say she f.u.c.ked like an angel, she never understood the phrase till now. Her hands, deliberate stroll southward, s.h.i.+mmy of familiar fingers on as-familiar flesh; her own groans in counterpoint to the ones through the walls.

Waking heavy in the morning, green toothpaste spit and trying to brush her hair at the same time, late again. 'You're late,' Roger would say when she walked in, and she would flip fast through her catalog of excuses, which hadn't he heard lately? and try to give him something to get her by, thinking all the while of last night's tingle, puzzling again its ultimate source. It was kind of a s.e.xy game to Lurleen, that puzzling; it gave her something to do at work.

Music store. No kind of music she liked but sometimes it wasn't too bad, and the store itself had a kind of smell that she enjoyed, like a library smell, like something educational was going on. Sheet music, music stands, Roger fussy with customers, turning the stereo on loud and saying stuff like, 'But have you heard Spivakov's Bach? Really quite good,' like he had probably heard Bach's Bach and could have suggested a few improvements. Right.

Today she felt, was, dopey and sluggish, simple transactions done twice and twice wrong; Roger was p.i.s.sed, glowered as she slumped through the day. At quitting time he made a point of pointedly disappearing, not saying goodnight; sighing, she had to find him, hide and seek through the racks, he was a stickler for what he called the pleasantries: Goodnight, Lurleen. Goodnight, Roger. Every day.

Finally: hunched behind the order counter, flipping through the day's mail like he hadn't read it nine times already. Lurleen leaned tippy-toe over, flathanded on the cracking gray laminate: 'Goodnight, Roger.'

Chilly nod, like he'd just caught her trying to palm something: 'Goodnight, Lurleen.' Waited till she was almost out the door to say, 'Lurleen?'

Stopped, impatient keys in hand. 'What?'

'We open at ten o'clock. Every day.'

a.s.shole. 'See you tomorrow,' not banging the door, giving herself points for it. Outside her skin warmed, like b.u.t.ter, spread velvet all over, he always kept the f.u.c.king store too cold. Like the music'd melt or something if he turned it up past freezing. Rolling all her windows down, singing to the Top 40 station. Stopped at the party store for cigarettes and to flirt with the clerk, old guy just about as ugly as Roger but round where Roger was slack, furry where Roger was not.

'You headin' out tonight?' sliding the cigarettes across the counter, grinning at her t.i.ts. 'Have some fun?'

'Oh, I always manage to have fun,' over the shoulder smile as she headed for the door, Roger liked to stare at her t.i.ts too, she was positive, she just hadn't caught him at it yet. a.s.shole probably went home and jerked off, dreaming about her bouncing around to Bach. And she laughed, a little: who'd been flying solo last night, huh? But that was different.

In the dark, blind witness to the nightly ravishment, Lurleen, closed eyes, busy hands filling in the blanks, timing herself to the thump and stutter of the rapture beyond the walls. Longer tonight, ecstatic harmony of gulping cries, and after the crescendo wail, soundtrack to her own o.r.g.a.s.m, she slept: to dream of flesh like iron, of rising whole, and drenched, and s.h.i.+ny-bright; shock-heavy with a pleasure poisonously rare. Woke just in time to see that she'd slept through the clock. Again.

In the hallway, pausing already late, so what if she was later before the door next door. Identical in nondescription to every other down the grimy hall, there was no way to tell by looking just what kind of fun went on there every night. Lurleen, tapping ignition key to lips, thoughtful sideways stare. Imagining, all the reluctant way to work, what sort of exotica, what moist brutalities were practiced there, what kinds of kinks indulged. Wriggling a little, skirt riding up and the cracked vinyl edges of the too-hot seat pressing voluptuously sharp into the damp flesh of her thighs.

It came to her that she had never really seen that next-door neighbor of hers. Maybe they'd b.u.mped into each other, exchanged laundry-room h.e.l.los, but for the life of her Lurleen could not recall. She wasn't even sure if it was just one person or a couple. They sure were a couple at night, though, weren't they just.

The day spent avoiding Roger's gaze, colder than the store and just as constant, more than one smart remark about time clocks. Stopping for cigarettes, she picked up a six-pack too, clandestine sips at red lights, rehearsing queenly answers she would never give. It was so hot outside it felt good, brought a warm slow trickle of sweat down the plane of her temple, the hotter spot between her b.r.e.a.s.t.s.

She was going out tonight, that was for sure, she owed herself something for the just-past b.i.t.c.h of a day. Walking up the two flights a thought nudged her, firm and brisk to get past the beer. She leaned to sight up the stairwell, heart a trifle nervous, quick and jangly in her chest. Well. No time like the present, was there, to scratch a little itch? I'll just say hi, she thought, walking quicker now. I'll say, Hi, I'm your next-door neighbor, I just stopped by to say h.e.l.lo.

Fourth can in hand, smart tattoo on the door before she could change her mind. Wondering who would open, what they would look like. What they would smell like Lurleen was a great believer in smells. If they would ask her in, and what she might say, knowing she would say yes and a smile past the thick spot in her throat, and she smiled at that, too, it wasn't that big a deal, was it?

Maybe it was.

Nothing. Silence inside so she knocked again, louder, humming to herself and oh boy here we go: winded swing of the door and 'Hi,' before it was all the way open. 'Hi, I'm Lurleen, your neighbor?'

Tall, her first thought. And skinny. Not model-skinny, just chicken bones, short blonde hair, Giants T-s.h.i.+rt over a flat chest. Anne, the girl said her name was, and past her curved shoulders Lurleen could see a flat as cramped and dingy as her own, a little emptier, maybe, a little less ripe, but nothing special. Purely ordinary. Like Anne herself: no exotic bruising, no secret sheen. Just stood there in the doorway playing with the end of her baggy T-s.h.i.+rt, flipping it as she talked and that thin-lipped smile that said Are you ready to leave yet? Just one big disappointment, but Lurleen didn't show it, kept up her own smile through the strain of the stillborn chatter until she was back inside her own place, sucking up the last of her beer.

'Well,' through a closed-mouth ladylike burp. 'Well.'

How could someone so dull have such a wild s.e.x life? Be better off meeting the boyfriend, he had to be the real show. f.u.c.king angel. Lurleen's giggles lasted through the rest of the beer, her long cool shower and half-hour's worth of mousse and primp. When she left for the bar Anne's flat was silent still, not even the requisite TV drone. From the parking lot the lifeless drift of her curtains, beige to Lurleen's red, was all there was to see.

At the bar she met a couple of guys, nice ones, she couldn't quite remember which was Jeff and which was Tony, but they kept her dancing, and drinking, and that was nice, too. After last call she swiveled off her seat, sweet and smiled and said she was sorry but she had an hour to make the airport to pick up her husband, and even as she said it she had to wonder why; it was one of them she'd planned on picking up, and never mind that she couldn't remember who was who, names didn't exactly matter at that time of night, words didn't matter past Who's got the rubber. But still she left alone.

Coming home, off-center slew into her parking s.p.a.ce, radio up way too loud, singing and her voice a bray in the cut-engine quiet; she almost slipped going up the stairs. Shus.h.i.+ng herself as she poured a gla.s.s of milk, her invariable after binge cure-all. Lifting the gla.s.s she caught from the damp skin of her forearm an aftershave scent, mixed with the male smell of Tony. Jeff? It didn't matter, such a pretty boy.

But not as pretty as the boy next door.

And, her thought seeming eerily a signal, she heard the preliminary noises, s.h.i.+fting warm through the wall as if they stroked her: Anne's breathy wordless voice, that rush of sound, half-sinister whirlwind pavane. Pressed against the wall itself, her bare-skinned sweat a warm adhesive, Lurleen stood, mouth open and eyes shut, working her thin imagination as Anne, presumably, worked her thin body, both all three ending in vortex, whirlpool, mouthing that dwindling symphony of screams, Lurleen herself louder than she'd ever been, with any man. Loud enough that they could, maybe, hear her through the walls.

Slumped, damp, she could not quite admit it, say to herself You want them to hear you. You want him to hear you, whoever he is. You want what Anne's getting, better than any bar pickup, better than anything you ever had. Glamorous and dirty. And scary. And hot.

By the next night she was ready, had turned her bed to face the wall lengthwise: willing herself, forcing herself like an unseen deliberate splinter in their shared and coupling flesh she would be part of this. She had never had anything like what went on there, never anything good. She would have this if she had to knock down the wall to get it. Fingers splayed against her flesh, heels digging hard into the sheets and letting go, crying out, hear me. Hear me.

Exhausted at work, but on time, she couldn't take any of Roger's b.i.t.c.hing now, not when she had to think. Make a plan. Anne, she was a sorry-looking b.i.t.c.h, no compet.i.tion once the boyfriend got a good look at Lurleen. The trick was to get him to look. To see. See what he'd been hearing, night after night. Of course it wouldn't be all that easy, if Anne had any brains she would want to keep her boyfriend and Lurleen far far apart. Lurleen decided she would have to take it slow and smart, be smart, not exactly her strong point but she could be slick, she knew what she wanted.

She began to stalk Anne, never thinking of it in so many words but as sure and surely cautious as any predator. Waiting, lingering in the hallway after work, for Anne to come home from whatever unfathomable job she did all day. Never stopping to talk, just a smile, pleasant make-believe. She made it her business to do her laundry when Anne did hers; at the first whoosh and stagger of the old machine Lurleen was there, quarters in hand; her clothes had never been so clean; she had to see. Any jockey shorts, bikini underwear, jockstraps, what? She meant to take one if she could, steal it before, before it was clean. Smell it. You can tell a lot about a man, Lurleen believed, from the smell of his skin, not his aftershave or whatever but the pure smell of his body. Until his body was beneath hers it was the best she could do. She pawed through the laundry basket, poked around in the washer: nothing. Just Anne's Priss-Miss blouses, baggy slacks, cheap bras, and just about everything beige. Balked angry toss of the clothing, stepped on it to push it back into the basket. Maybe he liked Anne because she was so beige, so...nothing? Could a man want a woman to be nothing? Just a s.p.a.ce to fill? Lurleen had known plenty of guys who liked their women dumb, it made them feel better, but anyway Anne didn't seem dumb. Just empty.

And still, night after night the same, bed against the wall, Lurleen could be determined, Lurleen could work for what she wanted. Drained every morning, the sting of tender skin in the shower, even Roger noticed her red eyes.

'Not moonlighting, are you,' but she saw he knew it was no question, half-gaze through those tired eyes and she even, for a moment, considered telling him, considered saying I want the boy next door, Roger, I want him real bad. I want him so much I even jerk off so he can hear me, so he can know how he turns me on. I want him so much I don't know what to do.

She wasn't getting anywhere. Drumming slow one finger against the order counter, staring right past some guy b.u.mbling on about some opera or something, she wasn't getting anywhere and it was wearing her out. No time for anything else, bars, guys, whatever, there wasn't any other guy she wanted. Anne's smiles growing smaller, tighter, her gaze more pinched, was she catching on? Tired from sitting in the hallway, once or twice another neighbor had caught her at it, loitering tense and unseeing until the tap-tap-tap on her shoulder, Hey are you OK? 'Fine,' harsh involuntary blush, 'just looking for an earring.' Right. Tired from staking out the parking lot, hot breeze through the window; she didn't even know what kind of car he drove. Tired to death and still no glimpse of him, proud author of the sounds, it was killing her to listen but she couldn't stop. She didn't want to stop.

And then that night, mid-jerk, mid-groan, they stopped. The sounds. Ceased completely but not to complete silence, a waiting sound, a whisper. Whispering through the walls, such a willing sound.

She yanked on a T-s.h.i.+rt, ends tickling her bare a.s.s as she ran, hit on the door with small quick fists, 'Anne? Are you OK?' never thinking how stupid she might look if the door opened, never considered what excuse she might give. I didn't hear anything so I thought you might be in trouble. Right. So what. Bang bang on the door.

'Anne?'

The whisper, against the door itself. Hearing it Lurleen s.h.i.+vered, convulsive twitch like a tic of the flesh, all down her body and she pressed against the door, listening with all her might. 'Anne,' but quietly, feeling the heat from her body, the windy rush of her heart. Waiting. 'Anne,' more quietly still, less than a murmuring breath, 'let me in.'

Abruptly, spooking her back a step: the sounds, hot, intensity trebled but wrong somehow, guttural, staggering where they should flow, a smell almost like garbage but she didn't care, once the first scare had pa.s.sed she pressed harder into the door, as if by pure want she could break it down, she would get in, she would. T-s.h.i.+rt stuck, sweating like she'd run a mile. I'm sick of just listening. The hall was so hot. Sweat on her forehead, running into her eyes like leaking tears. The doork.n.o.b in her slick fingers.

It turned. Simple as that.

In the end so quick and easy and it seemed almost that she could not breathe, could not get enough air to move but she moved all right, oh yes, stepped right inside into the semidarkness, a fake hurricane lamp broken beside the bed but there was light enough, enough to see by.

Like angels in love, mating in the cold graceful rapture of thin air. Hovering above the bed, at least a yard or maybe more, no wonder she never heard springs, instead the groaned complaint of the walls itself as his thrusting brushed them, on his back the enormous strange construction that kept them airborne, as careless as if it had grown there amongst the pebbled b.u.mps and tiny iridescent fins. His body beautiful, and huge, not like a man's but so real it seemed to suck up all the s.p.a.ce in the room, big elementary muscles and he was using them all. Anne, bent like a coat hanger, it hurt to see the angle of her back, her eyes wide and empty and some stuff coming out of her mouth like spoiled black jelly but it was too late, Lurleen had sent the door swinging backwards to close with a final catch, and in its sound his gaze swiveling to touch hers: the cold regard of a nova, the summoning glance of a star.

Her mouth as open as Anne's as she approached the vast brutality of his embrace, room enough for two there, oh my yes. Fierce relentless encroachment promising no pleasure but the pleasure of pain. Not an angel, never had been. Or maybe once, long, a long long time ago.

The Ice Man.