Fated to Be Free Part 72
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"And what would you have me do with that?" he answered with a certain directness and docility that made John Mortimer pause; he perceived that whatever he proposed would be done.
"I think if you left a thousand pounds to the old aunt who brought your mother up, and has a very scanty pittance, it would be worthy of your kindly nature, and no more than her due."
"Well, John, I'll do it. And the other thousand?"
"Louisa has married a rich man's son, and I have made a handsome settlement on Emily, but your sister Lizzie has nothing."
"I will leave her the other thousand; and--and now, John, there is the estate--there is Melcombe. I thought you had a right to know that there had been a disadvantage as regarded my inheritance of it, but you are perfectly----" He hesitated for a word.
John turned his sentence rather differently for him, and went on with it. "But you feel that I am perfectly ent.i.tled to give you my opinion?"
"Certainly."
"I advise that you leave it for a county hospital."
"John!"
"Unconditionally and for ever, for," John went on calmly and almost gently, "we are here a very long way from the county town, where the only hospital worth anything is situated. This house has, on two stories, a corridor running completely through it, and is otherwise so built that it would require little alteration for such a purpose. The revenue from the land would go a good way towards supporting it.
Therefore, as I said before--" Then pausing, when he observed the effect of his words on Valentine, he hesitated, and instead of going on, said, "I am very sorry, my dear Valentine."
"This is a shock to me," said Valentine. "It shows me so plainly that you would not have acted as I have done, if you had been in my place."
As he seemed to wait for an answer, John said, with more decided gentleness, "I suppose it does;" and went on in a tone half apology, half persuasion, "But you will see your lawyer to-morrow, and, using all discretion, direct him as I propose."
"Yes. Nothing at all is to go to you then?"
"I should like to have this portrait of your father; and, Val, I wish to a.s.sure you most sincerely that I do not judge your conduct. I have no opinion to give upon it."
"I have a good right to tell you now, that I have for some months fully intended to give up the place."
"Well, I am glad of that."
"I hope to recover, and then to work, living abroad, the better to conceal matters. I had quite decided, John; and yet what you have done is a shock to me. I feel that I am judged by it. I told you in the autumn that I meant to go away; I did. But though I took the estate so easily, so almost inevitably, I could not get away from it, though I wished and tried."
"But you can now. If you want money, of course you will look to me to help you. And so you could not manage to go?"
"No. So long as I was well and in high spirits I never meant to go; but one night I got a great shock, and walking home afterwards by the mere, I felt the mist strike to my very marrow. I have never been well since.
I had no heart to recover; but when I might have got away I was detained by that trumpery trial till I was so ill that I could not safely travel; but now, John, I am ready, and you cannot imagine how I long to be off, and, please G.o.d, begin a better life, and serve Him as my old father did. I have three hundred pounds of honest money in hand, besides the two thousand your father gave me. But, John, Emily is my favourite sister."
"There!" said John, "I was afraid this would come."
"If I _should_ die young--if she _should_ find that I have left every s.h.i.+lling and every acre away from you and her, two of the people I love most, and thrown it into the hands of strangers, I could not bear to know that she would think meanly of my good sense and my affection after I am gone."
John was silent.
"For," continued Valentine, "no one feels more keenly than she does that it is not charity, not a good work, in a man to leave from his own family what he does not want and can no longer use, thinking that it is just as acceptable to G.o.d as if he had given it in his lifetime, when he liked it, enjoyed it--when, in short, it was his own."
"You alienate it with no such thoughts."
"Oh, no, G.o.d forbid! But she will think I must have done. There is hardly any one living who cares for me as much as she does. It would be very distressing for me to die, knowing she would think me a fanatic, or a fellow with no affection."
"I was afraid you would think of this."
"You will say something to her, John. All will depend on you. She will be so hurt, so astonished that I should have done such a thing that she will never open her lips about it to you. I know her, and, and----"
John seemed to feel this appeal very keenly: he could not look Valentine in the face. "I acknowledge," he muttered, "that this is hard."
"But you will say _something_ to her?"
"If you can think of anything in the world that would not be better left unsaid--if you can think of any one thing that for the sake of her love and sorrow, and my peace and your own memory, should not be left to the silence you deprecate--then tell me what it is."
Neither spoke for some time after that. At last the poor young fellow said, with something like a sob, "Then you meant _that_ when you mentioned Emily?"
"Yes, I did. I felt how hard it was. I feel it much more now I know you are going to divest yourself of any profit during your life." He had been looking at Valentine anxiously and intently. The large eyes, too bright for health; the sharp, finely-cut features and pallid forehead.
Suddenly turning, he caught sight of himself in the gla.s.s, and stood arrested by a momentary surprise. Very little accustomed to consider his own appearance, for he had but a small share of personal vanity, he was all the more astonished thus to observe the contrast. The fine hues of health, the clear calm of the eyes, the wide shoulders and grand manly frame. This sudden irresistible consciousness of what a world of life and strength there was in him, had just the opposite effect of what seemed the natural one. "Perhaps he may survive us both," he thought.
"Who can tell?"
"But it seems to me," he continued aloud, "that we have talked as if it was more than likely that Emily and I were to have some knowledge and consciousness of this will of yours; and yet the vicissitudes of life and the surprises of death ought to place them almost outside our thoughts of probability, I hope to see you some day as grey-headed as your father was. _I_ hope it indeed! it may well be the case, and I not be here to see."
Valentine, always hopeful, was very much cheered by this speech. He did not know how John's thought had been turned in this direction by a strong sense of that very improbability which he wanted to leave out of the question.
They remained some time in silence together after this--John lost in thought, Valentine much the better for having relieved his mind. Then Emily came to the door ready for her drive, and looking very sweet and serene.
"Come, you have been talking long enough. John, how grave you look! I could not forbear to let you know that some letters have arrived. St.
George and Dorothea are at home again, and the baby can almost walk alone. But, Val, it seems that you have been inviting young Crayshaw here?"
"I have taken that liberty, madam," said Valentine. "Have you anything to say against it?"
Emily smiled, but made no answer.
"That boy and I suit each other uncommonly well," continued Valentine.
"Our correspondence, though I say it, would be worth publis.h.i.+ng--stuck as full of jokes as a pincus.h.i.+on should be of pins. It often amused me when I was ill. But his brother is going to take him home."
"Ah, home to America!" said Emily, betraying to neither John nor Valentine the pleasure this news gave her.
John was silent, still deeply pondering the unwelcome surprise of the afternoon. Valentine was refreshed by her presence, and at finding his avowal over.
"And so," continued Valentine, "he wrote to me and asked if I would have him for two days before he left. He knew that you would all be here, and he wanted to take leave."
"He is a droll young fellow," said Emily. "Johnnie will miss his 'chum.'
One of the letters was from him. He is to be here in an hour, and Johnnie has started off to meet him, with Bertie and one of the girls."
The other of the girls, namely, Gladys, had betrayed just a little shyness, and had left his young allies to go and fetch Crayshaw without her. Emily meeting her in the corridor as she came up-stairs, had stopped and given her a cordial kiss.
"She is so very young," thought the warm-hearted step-mother. "She will soon forget it."
She took Gladys with her, and after their short drive managed that they should be together when young Crayshaw appeared; and she helped her through a certain embarra.s.sment and inclination to contradict herself while answering his reproachful inquiries respecting Blob, his dog.
Fated to Be Free Part 72
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