25 Short Stories and Novellas Part 44
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I yell, I shout, I bellow. I dance and shake my fists. From the wings of the copter the jointed arms of the pellet-distributors unfold. The gleaming spigots extend and whirl. The neural pellets rain down into the meadow, each tracing a blazing track that lingers in the sky. The sound of the copter becomes a furry carpet stretching to the horizon, and my shrill voice is lost in it.
The Eaters drift away from me, seeking the pellets, scratching at the roots of the gra.s.s to find them. Still dancing, I leap into their midst, striking the pellets from their hands, hurling them into the stream, crus.h.i.+ng them to powder. The Eaters growl black needles at me. They turn away and search for more pellets. The copter turns and flies off, leaving a trail of dense oily sound. My brothers are gobbling the pellets eagerly.
There is no way to prevent it.
Joy consumes them and they topple and lie still. Occasionally a limb twitches; then even this stops. They begin to dissolve. Thousands of them melt on the prairie, sinking into shapelessness, losing spherical forms, flattening, ebbing into the ground. The bonds of the molecules will no longer hold. It is the twilight of protoplasm. They perish. They vanish. For hours I walk the prairie. Now I inhale oxygen; now I eat a lemon-colored globe. Sunset begins with the ringing of leaden chimes. Black clouds make brazen trumpet calls in the east and the deepening wind is a swirl of coaly bristles. Silence comes. Night falls. I dance. I am alone.
The copter comes again, and they find you, and you do not resist as they gather you in. You are beyond bitterness. Quietly you explain what you have done and what you have learned, and why it is wrong to exterminate these people. You describe the plant you have eaten and the way it affects your senses, and as you talk of the blessed synesthesia, the texture of the wind and the sound of the clouds and the timbre of the sunlight, they nod and smile and tell you not to worry, that everything will be all right soon, and they touch something cold to your forearm, so cold that it is a whir and a buzz and the deintoxicant sinks into your vein and soon the ecstasy drains away, leaving only the exhaustion and the grief.
He says, "We never learn a thing, do we? We export all our horrors to the stars. Wipe out the Armenians, wipe out the Jews, wipe out the Tasmanians, wipe out the Indians, wipe out everyone who's in the way, and then come here and do the same d.a.m.ned murderous thing. You weren't with me out there. You didn't dance with them. You didn't see what a rich, complex culture the Eaters have. Let me tell you about their tribal structure. It's dense: seven levels of matrimonial relations.h.i.+ps, to begin with, and an exogamy factor that requires-"
Softly Ellen says, "Tom, darling, n.o.body's going to harm the Eaters."
"And the religion," he goes on. "Nine G.o.ds, each one an aspect of the G.o.d. Holiness and wrongness both wors.h.i.+ped. They have hymns, prayers, a theology. And we, the emissaries of the G.o.d of wrongness-"
"We're not exterminating them," Michaelson says. "Won't you understand that, Tom? This is all a fantasy of yours. You've been under the influence of drugs, but now we're clearing you out. You'll be clean in a little while. You'll have perspective again."
"A fantasy?" he says bitterly. "A drug dream? I stood out in the prairie and saw you drop pellets. And I watched them die and melt away. I didn't dream that."
"How can we convince you?" Chang asks earnestly. "What will make you believe? Shall we fly over the Eater country with you and show you how many millions there are?"
"But how many millions have been destroyed?" he demands.
They insist that he is wrong. Ellen tells him again that no one has ever desired to harm the Eaters. "This is a scientific expedition, Tom. We're here to study them. It's a violation of all we stand for to injure intelligent lifeforms."
"You admit that they're intelligent?"
"Of course. That's never been in doubt."
"Then why drop the pellets?" he asks. "Why slaughter them?"
"None of that has happened, Tom," Ellen says. She takes his hand between her cool palms. "Believe us. Believe us."
He says bitterly, "If you want me to believe you, why don't you do the job properly? Get out the editing machine and go to work on me. You can't simply talk me into rejecting the evidence of my own eyes."
"You were under drugs all the time," Michaelson says.
"I've never taken drugs! Except for what I ate in the meadow, when I danced-and that came after I had watched the ma.s.sacre going on for weeks and weeks. Are you saying that it's a retroactive delusion?"
"No, Tom," Schwartz says. "You've had this delusion all along. It's part of your therapy, your reconstruct. You came here programmed with it."
"Impossible," he says.
Ellen kisses his fevered forehead. "It was done to reconcile you to mankind, you see. You had this terrible resentment of the displacement of your people in the nineteenth century. You were unable to forgive the industrial society for scattering the Sioux, and you were terribly full of hate. Your therapist thought that if you could be made to partic.i.p.ate in an imaginary modern extermination, if you could come to see it as a necessary operation, you'd be purged of your resentment and able to take your place in society as-"
He thrusts her away. "Don't talk idiocy! If you knew the first thing about reconstruct therapy, you'd realize that no reputable therapist could be so shallow. There are no one-to-one correlations in reconstructs. No, don't touch me. Keep away. Keep away."
He will not let them persuade him that this is merely a drug-born dream. It is no fantasy, he tells himself, and it is no therapy. He rises. He goes out. They do not follow him. He takes a copter and seeks his brothers.
Again I dance. The sun is much hotter today. The Eaters are more numerous. Today I wear paint, today I wear feathers. My body s.h.i.+nes with my sweat. They dance with me, and they have a frenzy in them that I have never seen before. We pound the trampled meadow with our feet. We clutch for the sun with our hands. We sing, we shout, we cry. We will dance until we fall.
This is no fantasy. These people are real, and they are intelligent, and they are doomed. This I know.
We dance. Despite the doom, we dance.
My great-grandfather comes and dances with us. He too is real. His nose is like a hawk's, not blunt like mine, and he wears the big headdress, and his muscles are like cords under his brown skin. He sings, he shouts, he cries.
Others of my family join us.
We eat the oxygen-plants together. We embrace the Eaters. We know, all of us, what it is to be hunted.
The clouds make music and the wind takes on texture and the sun's warmth has color.
We dance. We dance. Our limbs know no weariness.
The sun grows and fills the whole sky, and I see no Eaters now, only my own people, my father's fathers across the centuries, thousands of gleaming skins, thousands of hawk's noses, and we eat the plants, and we find sharp sticks and thrust them into our flesh, and the sweet blood flows and dries in the blaze of the sun, and we dance, and we dance, and some of us fall from weariness, and we dance, and the prairie is a sea of bobbing headdresses, an ocean of feathers, and we dance, and my heart makes thunder, and my knees become water, and the sun's fire engulfs me, and I dance, and I fall, and I dance, and I fall, and I fall, and I fall.
Again they find you and bring you back. They give you the cool snout on your arm to take the oxygen-plant drug from your veins, and then they give you something else so you will rest. You rest and you are very calm. Ellen kisses you and you stroke her soft skin, and then the others come in and they talk to you, saying soothing things, but you do not listen, for you are searching for realities. It is not an easy search. It is like falling through many trapdoors, looking for the one room whose floor is not hinged. Everything that has happened on this planet is your therapy, you tell yourself, designed to reconcile an embittered aborigine to the white man's conquest; nothing is really being exterminated here. You reject that and fall through and realize that this must be the therapy of your friends; they carry the weight of acc.u.mulated centuries of guilts and have come here to shed that load, and you are here to ease them of their burden, to draw their sins into yourself and give them forgiveness. Again you fall through, and see that the Eaters are mere animals who threaten the ecology and must be removed; the culture you imagined for them is your hallucination, kindled out of old churnings. You try to withdraw your objections to this necessary extermination, but you fall through again and discover that there is no extermination except in your mind, which is troubled and disordered by your obsession with the crime against your ancestors, and you sit up, for you wish to apologize to these friends of yours, these innocent scientists whom you have called murders. And you fall through.
The End/
ROBERT SILVERBERG.
THE LAST SURVIVING VETERAN OF THE WAR OF SAN FRANCISCO.
All you have to do to become a hero is live long enough
The city on the other side of the bay was putting on its best show that morning:
s.h.i.+mmering and glorious in the clear December sunlight. Lovely old San
Francisco, capital of the Empire, now and always. Carlotta, readying her
great-great-multi-great-uncle for his first trip over there in forty-three
years, looked up to take in the view from the picture window of the Berkeley War
Veterans Center, where he was the only remaining resident: green hills rising
far into the distance, the twentieth-century white towers of the downtown closer
in, the sparkling, lacy roadbed of the New Bay Bridge, running parallel to the
majestic stumps of the old one.
"Isn't it beautiful?" she said, turning him in his swivelseat so he could have a
look at it, too.
"What?"
"The city. San Francisco. You see it there, don't you?" She touched the visuals
node that jutted like a tiny t.i.tanium mushroom from his left temple, giving it a
quarter turn. Maybe the sharpness was off a little. Sometimes the old man
fiddled with his nodes while he slept. "We're going across in a little while."
"All the way to the city, are we?"
"You know. For the ceremony. The anniversary of the end of the war. They're
going to give you a medal. Don't tell me you've forgotten already."
The timeless face, leathery but supple, stretched and twisted like taffy,
rearranging its sallow sagging folds into a smile. "The war's over? I'm a
civilian again?"
"You bet you are, Uncle."
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