Circular Motion Part 19

She jiggled her head. She stopped and looked at me funny. But then she kissed me again and it was ok. The fan was keeping time for us. Whoosh, whoosh.

"Oh." I smiled. I rubbed my eyes. They were itching. My contacts were still in. I guess I left them in overnight. "I gotta take my contacts out."

I got out of bed. The air was warm, too. Whoosh, whoosh.

I went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. He looked sad. I mean I looked sad. Pedro would say, 'Pedro looked sad,' if he was talking about himself maybe. I missed Pedro. The faucet was dripping. I tried to turn in off but I couldn't. I wasn't strong enough. It bothered me though because it reminded me of before. This was supposed to be different. There was a spare contact case on the cabinet. I guess maybe she put it there for me. I took my contacts out and put them in the empty case. I rinsed them first though. I always forget to take them out and then my eyes turn red. I remember wis.h.i.+ng I were still in kindergarten. I don't remember why, maybe because I didn't need contacts back in kindergarten. Maybe I just wished I could go back and relive my childhood. I hope later in life I'll grow so I will want to come back and relive this too.

I was gonna put the spare contact case back in the medicine cabinet but I didn't. I'm ashamed about that.

I was gonna go back to bed with her but I didn't. I was gonna stay with her forever but I didn't. Maybe I should have shot her or myself or something. I remembered the gun I bought before. But I didn't even do that.

I put the contact case in my pocket and walked back into the bedroom. I could see her hair fanned out over the pillow with her eyes closed I think daydreaming. (Solomon) I wanted to touch her again but in the end all I did was run away like before.

I left the room and even on the way out I could still hear the faucet.

I left the room and walked out on to the street blind with red contact irritated eyes and afterwards I couldn't smell the cinnamon anymore.

(circular motion).

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