Kristin Lavransdatter Part 70

"Jesus!" Kristin wept in utter despair. "Jesus, have mercy on me."

"I see that you at least remember his name," said the priest. "The name of the one your father strove to follow like a disciple and serve like a loyal knight." He touched the small crucifix that hung above them. "Free of sin, G.o.d's son died on the cross to atone for the sins we had committed against him.

"Go home now, Kristin, and think about what I have told you," said Sira Eirik after she had regained some measure of calm.

But during those very days a southerly gale set in with sleet and torrential rains; at times it was so fierce that people could barely cross their own courtyards without the risk of being swept away above all the rooftops; at least that was how it seemed. The roads through the countryside were completely impa.s.sable. The spring floods arrived so abruptly and turbulently that people had to move out of the estates that were most vulnerable. Kristin moved most of their belongings up into the loft of the new storehouse, and she was granted permission to put her livestock in Sira Eirik's springtime shed. The shed used at Jrundgaard in the spring was on the other side of the river. It was a dreadful toil in the storm; up in the meadows the snow was as soft as melted b.u.t.ter, and the animals were so wretched. Two of the best calves broke their legs as if they were tender stalks as they walked along.

On the day they moved the livestock Simon Darre suddenly appeared in the middle of the road with four of his servants. They set about lending a hand. In the wind and rain and all the tumult with the cattle that had to be prodded and the sheep and lambs that had to be carried, there was neither peace nor quiet for the kinsmen to talk. But after they returned to Jrundgaard in the evening and Kristin had seated Simon and his men in the main house-everyone who had helped out that day needed some warm ale-he spoke a few words with her. He asked her to go to Formo with the women and children, while he and two of his men would stay behind with Ulf and the boys. Kristin thanked him but said that she wanted to stay on her manor. Lavrans and Munan were already at Ulvsvold, and Jardtrud had gone to stay with Sira Solmund; she had become such good friends with the priest's sister.

Simon said, "People think it's strange, Kristin, that you two sisters never see each other. Ramborg won't be happy if I return home without you."

"I know it looks strange," she told him, "but I think it would look even stranger if we should visit my sister now, when the master of this estate is not home and people know that there's animosity between him and you."

Then Simon said no more, and soon after he and his men took their leave.

The week preceding Ascension Day arrived with a terrible storm, and on Tuesday word spread from farm to farm in the north of the region that the floods had now carried off the bridge up in Rost Gorge, which people crossed when they went up to the Hvring pastures. They began to fear for the big bridge south of the church. It was solidly built of the roughest timbers, with a high arch in the middle, and was supported underneath with thick posts that were sunk into the riverbed. But now the waters were flooding over the bridgeheads where they joined the banks, and beneath the vault of the bridge all kinds of debris that had been brought by the currents from the north were piling up. The Laag had now overflowed the low embankments on both sh.o.r.es, and in one place the water had acc.u.mulated across Jrundgaard's fields like in a cove, almost reaching the buildings. There was a hollow in the pastures and in the middle was the roof of the smithy, and the tops of the trees looked like little islands. The barn on the islet had already been swept away.

Very few people attended church from the farms on the east side of the river. They were afraid the bridge would be washed away and they wouldn't be able to get back home. But up on the other sh.o.r.e, on the slope beneath Laugarbru's barn, where there was some shelter from the storm, a dark cl.u.s.ter of people could be glimpsed through the gusts of snow. It was rumored that Sira Eirik had said he would carry the cross over the bridge and set it on the east bank of the river, even if no one dared follow him.

A squall of snow rushed toward the procession of people coming out of the church. The flakes formed slanting streaks in the air. Only a glimmer of the valley was visible: here and there a sc.r.a.p of the darkening lake where the fields usually lay, the rush of clouds sweeping over the scree-covered slopes and the lobes of forest, and glimpses of the mountain peaks against the billowing clouds high overhead. The air was sated with the clamor of the river, rising and falling, with the roar from the forests, and with the howl of the wind. Occasionally a m.u.f.fled crash could be heard, echoing the storm's fury from the mountains and the thunder of an avalanche of new snow.

The candles were blown out as soon as they were carried beyond the church gallery. That day fully grown young men had donned the white s.h.i.+rts of choirboys. The wind whipped at their garments. They walked along in a large group, carrying the banner with their hands, gripping the fabric so the wind wouldn't shred it to pieces as the procession leaned forward, struggling across the slope in the wind. But now and then, above the raging of the storm, the sound of Sira Eirik's resonant voice could be heard as he fought his way forward and sang: Venite: revertamur ad Dominum; quia ipse cepit & sanabit nos: percutiet, & curabit nos, & vivemus in conspectu ejus. Sciemus sequemurque, ut cognoscamus Dominum. Alleluia.1 Kristin stopped, along with all the other women, when the procession reached the place where the water had overflowed the road, but the white-clad young boys, the deacons, and the priests were already up on the bridge, and almost all the men followed; the water came up to their knees.

The bridge shuddered and shook, and then the women noticed that an entire house was rus.h.i.+ng from the north toward the bridge. It churned around and around in the current as it was carried along, partially shattered, with its timbers jutting out, but still managing to stay in one piece. The woman from Ulvsvold clung to Kristin Lavransdatter and moaned loudly; her husband's two nearly grown-up brothers were among the choirboys. Kristin screamed without words to the Virgin Mary, fixing her gaze on the group in the middle of the bridge where she could discern the white-clad figure of Naakkve among the men holding the banner. The women thought they could still hear Sira Eirik's voice, almost drowned out by the din.

He paused at the crest of the bridge and lifted the cross high up as the house struck. The bridge shuddered and swayed; to the people on both sh.o.r.es, it looked as if it had dipped slightly to the south. Then the procession moved on, disappearing behind the curved arch of the bridge and then reappearing on the opposite sh.o.r.e. The wreckage of the house had become tangled up in the heaps of other flotsam caught in the underpinnings of the bridge.

All of a sudden, like a miracle, silvery light began seeping from the windblown ma.s.ses of clouds; a dull gleam like molten lead spread over the whole expanse of the swollen river. The haze lifted, the clouds scattered, the sun broke through, and as the procession came back over the bridge, the rays glittered on the cross. On the wet white alb of the priest, the crossed stripes of his stole s.h.i.+mmered a wondrous purple. The valley lay gilded and sparkling with moisture, as if at the bottom of a dark blue grotto, for the storm clouds had gathered around the mountain ridges and, brought low by the rays of the sun, had turned the heights black. The haze fled between the peaks, and the great crest above Formo reached up from the darkness, dazzling white with new snow.

She had seen Naakkve walk past. The drenched garments clung to the boys as they sang at the top of their lungs to the suns.h.i.+ne: Salvator mundi, salva nos omnes. Kyrie, eleison, Christe, eleison, Christe, audi nos-.2 The priests with the cross had gone past; the group of farmers followed in their heavy, soaked clothing, but looking around them at the weather with amazed and s.h.i.+ning faces as they took up the prayer's refrain: Kyrie eleison! Kyrie eleison!

Suddenly she saw . . . She couldn't believe her own eyes, and now it was her turn to grab hold of the woman next to her for support. There was Erlend walking along in the procession; he was wearing a dripping wet coat made of reindeer hide with the hood pulled over his head. But it was him. His lips were slightly parted, and he was crying, Kyrie eleison, Kyrie eleison, along with the others. He looked right at her as he walked past. She couldn't properly decipher the expression on his face, but it looked as if he wore a shadow of a smile. along with the others. He looked right at her as he walked past. She couldn't properly decipher the expression on his face, but it looked as if he wore a shadow of a smile.

Together with the other women, she joined the procession as it moved up the church hill, calling out with the others as the young boys sang the litany. She was unaware of anything except the wild pounding of her own heart.

During the ma.s.s she caught a glimpse of him only once. She didn't dare stand in her customary place but hid in the darkness of the north nave.

As soon as the service was over, she rushed outdoors. She fled from her maids who had been in church. Outside, the countryside was steaming in the suns.h.i.+ne. Kristin raced home without noticing the sodden state of the road.

She spread a cloth over the table and set a full horn of mead before the master's high seat before she took time to exchange her wet clothes for her Sabbath finery: the dark blue, embroidered gown, silver belt, buckled shoes, and the wimple with the blue border. Then she knelt in the alcove. She couldn't think, she couldn't find the words she sought; over and over again she said the Ave Maria Ave Maria: Blessed Lady, dear Lord, son of the Virgin, you know what I want to say.

This went on for a long time. From her maids she heard that the men had gone back to the bridge; with broadaxes and hooks they were trying to remove the tangle of debris that had gotten caught. It was a matter of saving the bridge. The priests had also gone back after they had taken off their vestments.

It was well past midday when the men returned: Kristin's sons, Ulf Haldorssn, and the three servants-an old man and two youths who had been given refuge on the manor.

Naakkve had already sat down at his place, to the right of the high seat. Suddenly he stood up, stepped forward, and rushed for the door.

Kristin softly called out his name.

A moment later he came back and sat down. The color came and went in his young face; he kept his eyes lowered, and now and then he had to bite his lip. His mother saw that he was struggling hard to master his feelings, but he managed to do so.

Finally the meal came to an end. Her sons, who were seated on the inner bench, rose to their feet and came around the end of the table past the vacant high seat, adjusting their belts as they usually did after they had put their knives back in their sheaths. Then they left the room.

When they had all gone, Kristin followed. In the suns.h.i.+ne, water was now streaming off all the eaves. There wasn't a soul in the courtyard except for Ulf; he was standing on the doorstep to his own house.

His face took on an oddly helpless expression when the mistress approached him. He didn't speak, and so she asked quietly, "Did you talk to him?"

"Only a few words. I saw that he and Naakkve talked."

After a moment he went on, "He was a little worried . . . about all of you . . . when the flooding got this bad. So he decided to head home to see how things were. Naakkve told him how you were handling everything.

"I don't know how he happened to hear about it . . . that you gave away the pelts he sent with Gaute in the fall. He was cross about that. Also when he heard that you had rushed home right after the ma.s.s; he thought you would have stayed to talk to him."

Kristin didn't say a word; she turned on her heel and went back inside.

That summer there were constant quarrels and strife between Ulf Haldorssn and his wife. The son of Ulf's half brother, Haldor Jonssn, had come to visit his kinsman in the spring, along with his wife; he had been married the year before. It was understood that Haldor would now lease the estate Ulf owned in Skaun and move there on turnover day.3 But Jardtrud was angry because she thought Ulf had given his nephew conditions that were too good, and she saw that it was the men's intention to ensure for Haldor, perhaps through some kind of agreement, inheritance of the estate after his uncle's death. But Jardtrud was angry because she thought Ulf had given his nephew conditions that were too good, and she saw that it was the men's intention to ensure for Haldor, perhaps through some kind of agreement, inheritance of the estate after his uncle's death.

Haldor had been Kristin's personal servant at Husaby, and she was very fond of the young man. She also liked his wife, who was a quiet and proper young woman. Shortly after Midsummer the couple had a son, and Kristin lent the wife her weaving house, where the mistresses of the estate used to reside whenever they gave birth. But Jardtrud took offense that Kristin herself should attend the woman as the foremost of the midwives, even though Jardtrud was young and quite inexperienced, unable to offer help with a birth or with caring for a newborn infant.

Kristin was the boy's G.o.dmother, and Ulf gave the christening banquet, but Jardtrud thought he lavished too much on it and put too many costly gifts in the cradle and in the mother's bed. To placate his wife somewhat, Ulf gave her several precious items from among his own possessions: a gilded cross on a chain, a fur-lined cape with a large silver clasp, a gold ring, and a silver brooch. But she saw that he refused to present her with a single parcel of land that he owned, aside from what he had given her when they married. Everything else would go to his half siblings if he himself had no offspring. Now Jardtrud lamented that her child had been stillborn, and it seemed unlikely that she would have any more; she was ridiculed throughout the countryside because she talked about this to everyone.

Ulf had to ask Kristin to allow Haldor and Audhild to live in the hearth house after the young wife had gone to church for the first time after giving birth. Kristin gladly consented. She avoided Haldor because she was reminded of so many things that were painful to think about whenever she spoke with her former servant. But she talked a great deal with his wife, for Audhild wanted to help Kristin as much as she could. Toward the end of the summer the child fell gravely ill, and then Kristin stepped in to tend the boy for his young and inexperienced mother.

When the couple journeyed north in the fall, she missed them both, but she missed the child even more. She realized it was foolish, but in recent years she couldn't help feeling some measure of pain because she suddenly seemed to be barren-and yet she wasn't an old woman, not even forty.

It had helped to keep her thoughts off painful matters when she had the childish young wife and her infant to care for and advise. And even though she found it sad to see that Ulf Haldorssn had not found greater happiness in his marriage, the state of affairs in the foreman's house had also served to divert her thoughts from other things.

After the way Erlend had behaved on Ascension Day, she hardly dared to speculate anymore about how the whole situation might end. The fact that he had appeared in the village and the church in full view of everyone and then had raced northward again without speaking a single word of greeting to his wife seemed to her so heartless that she felt as if she had at last grown completely indifferent toward him.

She had not exchanged a word with Simon Andressn since the day of the spring floods when he came to help her. She would greet him and often speak a few words to her sister at church. But she had no idea what they thought about her affairs or the fact that Erlend had gone away to Dovre.

On the Sunday before Saint Bartholomew's Day, Sir Gyrd of Dyfrin came to church with the people from Formo. Simon looked immensely happy as he went inside for ma.s.s at his brother's side. And Ramborg came over to Kristin after the service, eagerly whispering that she was with child again and expected to give birth around the Feast of the Virgin Mary in the spring.

"Kristin, sister, can't you come home and celebrate with us to day?"

Kristin shook her head sadly, patted the young woman's pale cheek, and prayed that G.o.d might bring the parents joy. But she said that she couldn't go to Formo.

After the falling-out with his brother-in-law, Simon tried to make himself believe that it was for the best. His position was such that he didn't need to ask how people might judge his actions in everything; he had helped Erlend and Kristin when it mattered, and the a.s.sistance he could offer them here in the parish was not so important that he should allow it to make his own life more complicated.

But when he heard that Erlend had left Jrundgaard, it was impossible for Simon to sustain the stubborn, melancholy calm he had striven to display. It was useless to tell himself that no one fully understood what lay behind Erlend's absence; people chattered so much but knew so little. Even so, he couldn't get himself mixed up in this matter. But he was still uneasy. At times he wondered whether he ought to seek out Erlend at Haugen and take back the words he had said when they parted; then he could see about finding some way to return order to the affairs of his brother-in-law and his wife's sister. But Simon never got any farther than thinking about this.

He didn't think anyone could tell from looking at him that his heart was uneasy. He lived as he always had, running his farm and managing his properties; he was merry and drank boldly in the company of friends; he went up to the mountains to hunt when he had time and spoiled his children when he was home. And never was an unkind word spoken between him and his wife. For the servants of the manor it must have looked as if the friends.h.i.+p between Ramborg and him was now better than it had ever been, since his wife was more even-tempered and calm, never exhibiting those fits of capriciousness and childish anger over petty matters. But secretly Simon felt awkward and uncertain in his wife's company; he could no longer make himself treat her as if she were still half a child, teasing and pampering her. He didn't know how he should treat her anymore.

Neither did he know how to take it when she told him one evening that she was again with child.

"I suppose you're not particularly happy about it, are you?" he finally said, stroking her hand.

"But surely you you are happy, aren't you?" Ramborg pressed close to him, half crying and half laughing. He laughed, a little embarra.s.sed, as he pulled her into his arms. are happy, aren't you?" Ramborg pressed close to him, half crying and half laughing. He laughed, a little embarra.s.sed, as he pulled her into his arms.

"I'll be sensible this time, Simon; I won't behave the way I did before. But you must stay stay with me, do you hear me? Even if all your brothers-in-law and all your brothers were to be led off to the gallows, one after the other, with their hands bound, you mustn't leave me!" with me, do you hear me? Even if all your brothers-in-law and all your brothers were to be led off to the gallows, one after the other, with their hands bound, you mustn't leave me!"

Simon laughed sadly. "Where would I go, my Ramborg? Geirmund, that poor creature, isn't likely to get mixed up in any weighty matters, and he's the only one left among my friends and kinsmen that I haven't quarreled with yet."

"Oh . . ." Ramborg laughed too as her tears fell. "That enmity will last only until they need a helping hand and you think you can offer it. I know you too well by now, my husband."

Two weeks later Gyrd Andressn unexpectedly arrived at the manor. The Dyfrin knight had brought only a single man as an escort.

The meeting between the brothers took place with few words spoken. Sir Gyrd explained that he hadn't seen his sister and brother-in-law at Kruke in all these years, and so he had decided to come north to visit them. Since he was in the valley, Sigrid felt he should also visit Formo. "And I thought, brother, that surely you couldn't be so angry with me that you wouldn't offer me and my servant food and lodging until tomorrow."

"You know I will," said Simon as he stood looking down, his face dark red. "It was . . . n.o.ble of you, Gyrd, to come to see me."

The brothers walked through the fields after they had eaten. The grain was starting to turn pale on the slopes facing the sun, down by the river. The weather was so beautiful. The Laag now glittered gently enough, visible as little white flashes amid the alder trees. Big, glossy clouds drifted across the summer sky; suns.h.i.+ne filled the entire basin of the valley, and the mountain on the other side looked light blue and green in the s.h.i.+mmer of heat and the fleeting shadows of the clouds.

A pounding sound came from the pasture behind them as the horses trampled across the dry hillside; the herd came rus.h.i.+ng through the alder thickets. Simon leaned over the fence. "Foal, foal . . . Bronstein's getting old, isn't he?" he said as Gyrd's horse poked his head over the rail and nudged his shoulder.

"Eighteen winters." Gyrd stroked the horse. "I thought, kinsman, that this matter . . . It wouldn't be right if it should end the friends.h.i.+p between you and me," he said without looking at his brother.

"It has grieved me every single day," replied Simon softly. "Thank you for coming, Gyrd."

They continued walking along the fence-Gyrd first, with Simon plodding behind. Finally they sank down on the edge of a little yellow-scorched stony embankment. A strong, sweet fragrance came from the small mounds of hay that were scattered about, where the scythe had sc.r.a.ped together short stalks of hay mixed with flowers between the piles of stones. Gyrd spoke of the reconciliation between King Magnus and the Haftorssns and their followers.

After a moment Simon asked, "Do you think it's out of the question that any of these kinsmen of Erlend Nikulaussn would be willing to attempt to win full reconciliation for him and clemency from the king?"

"There is not much I I can do," said Gyrd Darre. "And they have few kind words to say of him, Simon, those who might be able to do something. Oh, I have little desire to talk of this matter can do," said Gyrd Darre. "And they have few kind words to say of him, Simon, those who might be able to do something. Oh, I have little desire to talk of this matter now now. I thought he was a bold and splendid fellow, but the others think he brought his plans to such a bad end. But I'd rather not talk of this now; I know you're so fond of that brother-in-law of yours."

Simon sat gazing out across the silvery white brilliance of the crowns of the trees on the hillside and the sparkling gleam of the river. Surprised, he thought that yes, in a way it was true, what Gyrd had said.

"Except that right now we are foes, Erlend and I," he said. "It's been a long time since we last spoke."

"It seems to me that you've grown quite quarrelsome over the years, Simon," said Gyrd with a laugh.

After a moment he continued, "Haven't you ever thought of moving away from these valleys? We kinsmen could support each other more if we lived closer to each other."

"How can you even think of such a thing? Formo is my ancestral estate . . ."

"Aasmund of Eiken owns part of the manor through inherited rights. And I know that he would not be unwilling to exchange one ancestral property for another. He hasn't yet given up the idea that if he could win your Arngjerd for his Grunde on the terms that he mentioned . . ."

Simon shook his head. "The lineage of our father's mother has resided on this estate ever since Norway was a heathen land. And it is here that I intend for Andres to live when I'm gone. I don't think you have your wits about you, brother. How could I give up Formo!"

"No, that's understandable." Gyrd blushed a little. "I merely thought that perhaps . . . Most of your kinsmen are at Raumarike, along with the friends from your youth; perhaps you might find that you'd thrive better there."

"I'm thriving here here." Simon had also turned red. "This is the place where I can give the boy a secure seat." He looked at Gyrd, and his brother's fine, furrowed face took on an embarra.s.sed expression. Gyrd's hair was now almost white, but his body was still just as slender and lithe as ever. He s.h.i.+fted rather uneasily; several stones rolled out from the pile of rocks and tumbled down the slope and into the grain.

"Are you going to send the whole scree down into my field?" asked Simon in a stern voice as he laughed. Gyrd leaped to his feet, light and agile, reaching out a hand to his brother, who moved more slowly.

Simon gripped his brother's hand for a moment after he got to his feet. Then he placed his arm around his brother's shoulder. Gyrd did the same, and with their arms loosely resting around each other's shoulders, the brothers slowly walked over the hills toward the manor.

They sat together in the Saemund house that night; Simon would share a bed with his brother. They had said their evening prayers, but they wanted to empty the ale keg before they went to bed.

"Benedictus tu in muliebris . . . mulieribus . . . Do you remember that?" Simon laughed suddenly. . . . Do you remember that?" Simon laughed suddenly.

"Yes. It cost me a few blows across the back before Sira Magnus wrung our grandmother's misteachings out of my head." Gyrd smiled at the memory. "And he had a devilishly hard hand too. Do you remember, brother, that time when he sat and scratched the calves of his legs, and he had lifted up the hem of his robe? You whispered to me that if you had had such misshapen calves as Magnus Ketilssn, you would have become a priest too and always worn full-length surcoats."

Simon smiled. Suddenly he seemed to see see the boyish face of his brother, about to burst with stifled laughter, his eyes pitifully miserable. They weren't very old back then, and Sira Magnus was cruelly hard-handed whenever he had to reprimand them. the boyish face of his brother, about to burst with stifled laughter, his eyes pitifully miserable. They weren't very old back then, and Sira Magnus was cruelly hard-handed whenever he had to reprimand them.

Gyrd had not been terribly clever when they were children. And it wasn't because Gyrd was a particularly wise man that Simon loved him now. But he felt warm with grat.i.tude and tenderness toward his brother as he sat there: for every day of their kins.h.i.+p during almost forty years and for Gyrd, just the way he was-the most loyal and forthright of men.

It seemed to Simon that winning back his brother Gyrd was like gaining a firm foundation for at least one foot. And for such a long time his life had been so unreasonably disjointed and complicated.

He felt a warmth inside every time he thought about Gyrd, who had come to him to make amends for something that Simon himself had provoked when he rode to his brother's estate in anger and with curses. His heart overflowed with grat.i.tude; he had to thank more than Gyrd.

A man such as Lavrans . . . He knew quite well how he would have handled such an event. He could follow his father-in-law as far as he was able, by giving out alms and the like. But he wasn't capable of such things as true contrition or contemplation of the wounds of the Lord, unless he stared zealously at the crucifix-and that was not what Lavrans had intended. Simon couldn't bring forth tears of remorse; he hadn't wept more than two or three times since he was a child, and never when he needed to most, those times when he had committed the worst of sins: with Arngjerd's mother while he was a married man and that killing the previous year. And yet he had felt great regret; he thought that he always sincerely regretted his sins, taking pains to confess and to atone as the priest commanded. He was always diligent in saying his prayers and saw to it that he gave the proper t.i.thes and abundant alms-with particular generosity in honor of the apostle Saint Simon, Saint Olav, Saint Michael, and the Virgin Mary. Otherwise he was content with what Sira Eirik had said: that salvation was to be found in the cross alone and how a man faced or fought with the Fiend was something for G.o.d to decide and not the man himself.

But now he felt an urge to show his grat.i.tude to the holy ones with greater fervor. His mother had told him that he was supposedly born on the birthday of the Virgin Mary. He decided that he wanted to show the Lord's Mother his veneration with a prayer he was not usually accustomed to saying. He had once had a beautiful prayer copied out, back when he was at the royal court, and he took out the small piece of parchment.

Now, much later, he feared that it was probably intended more as an appeal to King Haakon than for the sake of G.o.d or Mary that he had acquired these small epistles with prayers and learned them while he was among the king's retainers. All the young men did so, for the king was in the habit of quizzing the pages about what they knew of such useful knowledge when he lay in bed at night, unable to sleep.