Crying for the Light Volume I Part 5

After that the conversation dropped; the actress had much else to think of, and the boy fell asleep.

It was late when the train reached London, and the actress and her charge were deposited at the King's Cross railway-station. The little fellow had slept all the way up, and sorely were his eyes dazzled with the glitter of the gas lamps, and his ears stunned as cab after cab drove away.

m.u.f.fling herself as much as possible, and dragging the little fellow after her, the actress rushed along the platform to where a neat brougham was drawn on one side, waiting for its owner.

'Oh, you're here, Jarvis, are you?'

'Yes, ma'am,' was the reply, as the coachman touched his hat. 'Drive home, ma'am?' said he interrogatively.

'Oh no; drive me to Clifford's Inn. Jump in, my little man,' she said to the poor boy, and, following herself, the brougham was soon spinning along Gray's Inn Road.

'I hope Wentworth will be at home,' said the lady to herself.

'I wonder what lark missus is up to,' thought Jarvis, as the brougham made its way amongst the cabs and omnibuses, chiefly burdened with a pleasure-loving and theatre-going community returning from their night's amus.e.m.e.nts.

Jarvis had one special virtue-unbounded confidence in his mistress. He had been a valued coachman in a gentleman's family, but in an ill hour for himself he had unwittingly got mixed up with bad companions, through meeting them in a public-house; and when they had been detected and tried at the Old Bailey, he was sentenced to five years' imprisonment as one of the gang, though he had no more to do with their crime than the man in the moon. The policemen, however, had others of the gang who had sworn that he was one of themselves, and he was taken off to Holloway, where, as he a.s.serted his innocence, and refused to be comforted, the chaplain, who wanted him to see that Providence had some good end in view in his unjust incarceration, had come to regard Jarvis as a very wicked fellow indeed. In time, however, he managed to make his innocence clear to the Home Office, having devoted to that purpose all the savings of his life, and he was suffered to go free. As he was leaving, there was a little crowd at the prison gate of pals waiting to welcome the emanc.i.p.ated and to rejoice with those that rejoice, at the nearest public-house.

Benevolent people also were there, inviting the released to a little breakfast and a religious service close by.

Jarvis accepted the invitation; but as the address took rather a personal turn and a.s.sumed him guilty when not, he walked out of the room in no pleasant state of mind, and in the raw, cold, foggy morning stumbled against one of the men who had borne false witness against him. An altercation ensued, which ended in his knocking down his quondam acquaintance, and in his being collared by the police. For that offence he was straightway taken before the magistrate and let off with a fine, which quite exhausted the little sum given him that morning on leaving gaol. In his desire to earn an honest penny he went to his old master, only to find him dead, and the place shut up. In vain he sought out all whom he knew in the days of his respectability; they received him coldly, were sorry to hear of his misfortunes, and hoped he might meet with some employment, but could do nothing for him themselves.

Day by day he wandered thus in quest of employment, day by day he grew shabbier, day by day he felt himself less able to rise superior to his difficulties. At length, overcome by despair, he walked down to one of the Metropolitan bridges, and jumped over. The Fates seemed propitious, and in another minute he would have been as completely drowned as he wished, had not a boat belonging to the Thames police been on the very spot to which, unconsciously, he floated. He was heaved on board, dried, and refreshed, and the next morning taken before the magistrate, to whom he explained how unfortunate he had been, how he had no one in the world to care for him, and how thoroughly tired he was of life. The magistrate remanded him for a week, in order that he might once more enjoy the inestimable blessing of being talked to by the prison chaplain. In the meanwhile the case got into the newspapers, and it was then that it caught the eye of our heroine. Calling for a cab, she made her way to the police-court, and when, in the course of a few days, the man was released, made him her coachman and gave him a home. Clean and smart, with contentment stamped on his honest face, no longer with the wan cheek of starvation, no longer his eye heavy with disappointment and despair, active and hearty and happy, there was not a better or cleverer Jehu in all London town.

It was past twelve when the brougham stopped opposite the little pa.s.sage in Fleet Street, by the side of St. Dunstan's Church, leading to Clifford's Inn. Of course the gate was locked-it always is after a certain hour-and the porter had to be roused from slumbers which, judging by the noise he made snoring, were deep indeed. At length he slowly emerged from his den, looked through the latch and opened the door.

'Is Mr. Wentworth in?' asked the actress.

'I believe so, ma'am.'

'Well, I will run up and see; but don't go to sleep, there's a good fellow. I shall be back directly.'

It was a lovely night, and the moon, at the full, lent an air of romance to the place. There was evidently a good deal of life and gaiety going on-perhaps far more than the authorities had any idea of-young men are fond of chambers, and young men at the time of which I write were fond of sowing wild oats in them, a remarkably unprofitable agricultural operation. By daylight no one could imagine anything of the kind went on, as one looks at the dull windows of the old building, or sees here and there a few lawyers' clerks rus.h.i.+ng along either on business or in pursuit of lunch. It is a handy residence for law students and pressmen, and in the daytime it looks as dull and respectable as anyone could desire.

In the reign of Queen Elizabeth the n.o.ble family of De Clifford granted to students of law a little plot of ground at the back of St. Dunstan's Church, Fleet Street, between Fetter Lane and Chancery Lane. 'There are three things for notice in Clifford's Inn,' writes Leigh Hunt: 'its little bit of turf and trees, its quiet, and its having been the residence of Robert Puttock, author of the curious narrative of "Peter Wilkins," with its Flying Women. Who he was is not known'-probably a barrister without practice-'but he wrote an amiable and interesting book.' As to the sudden and pleasant quiet in the little inn, it is curious to consider what a small remove from the street produces it. But even in the back room of a shop in the main street the sound of the carts and carriages becomes wonderfully deadened to the ear, and a remove like Clifford's Inn makes it remote or nothing. Charles Lamb's friend, the absent-minded Dyer, lived in Clifford's Inn. The garden, now also in danger of being built over, forms part of the area of the Rolls, so called from the records kept there in rolls of parchment. It is said to have been the house of an eminent Jew, forfeited to the Crown-that is to say, that it was most probably taken from him, with all it contained, by Henry III., who made it a house for converts from the owner's religion.

As it may be supposed that most of these converted Jews were of doubtful character, for high-minded men are not to be won from the faith of their fathers by offers of board and lodging, we may imagine there were at one time a good many queer characters knocking about Clifford's Inn, and life was not a little unconventional. It was so when Wentworth lived there, especially after business hours, when the respectable solicitors having offices on the ground-floor had gone home to Clapham or Highgate to dinner, leaving a few young ne'er-do-wells who lodged about there to run wild on the streets of London, then more full of snares than now, and to return to bed at unhallowed hours. The Serjeants' Dining Hall has been dismantled; a new street has been cut through the Liberty of the Rolls.

There are now few booksellers' shops in front of St. Dunstan's Church, and the two wild men of the wood who struck the hour with their clubs on the old church have moved elsewhere. What are we to expect of Clifford's Inn but that it will soon be a thing of the past?

Curious characters lived in Clifford's Inn. Opposite Wentworth resided a City curate, of whom he knew nothing save that he had a very red nose, was dressed in shabby black, and came in at all hours. Overhead resided an old bachelor, originally intended for the medical profession, but he did not take to it kindly, and as he had a little property of his own he preferred to vegetate in a cheap and yet scholarly way. It is a sad thing for a young man to have a little money, just enough to live on, nothing more. Unless he be very ambitious, it at once stops his career and prevents his making any attempt at rising in the world. 'Why should I fret and fume?' said Buxton, for that was his name; 'if I get on, I only take the place that might be filled by a better man, and so leave him all the poorer. There are plenty of pus.h.i.+ng fellows in the world; why should I add to their number? Why should I not take life easily, and content myself with my books and my pipe and with the study of mankind?

Is success in life worth having? Is the game worth the candle?' To the questions he gave a negative reply, and in the freedom of his unconventional life he rejoiced, and greatly did rejoice.

He and Wentworth were great cronies. They had both original ideas, and loved to discuss them. Moreover, he had saved Wentworth's life. They had met in the old city of Hamburg in one of the most old-fas.h.i.+oned houses, in which they had apartments.

It was winter, and there was a fire in the old-fas.h.i.+oned German stove which nearly filled the apartment. The girl who attended the lodgers had lit the stove and left the flue closed up, and consequently when Wentworth came to his morning coffee and b.u.t.terbrod the air of the tightly-closed apartment-it was an unusually cold season that winter-was too much for him. The fumes of the charcoal fire filled the room.

Wentworth in his ignorance took his usual seat at the table, but in a few minutes was aware that he had a very peculiar sensation in his head. As he rose from the table to look at himself in the gla.s.s he fell p.r.o.ne on the floor.

Buxton heard the fall, and rushed into the room just in time to open the door and window and call for help, and when Wentworth recovered his consciousness he found he had been carried by the combined help of his landlady and Buxton to his bed. Thus a tragedy was averted, and, like the man in the 'Arabian Nights,' he felt that his life had been mercifully preserved on account of the greater misfortunes yet to befall him. After that, he and Buxton remained great friends.

Pa.s.sing into the square, if square the tiny enclosure may be called, at the back of St. Dunstan's Church, the actress looked up to Wentworth's window. It happened at that moment he was lolling out of the window, lazily smoking a cigar before he returned to rest.

'Who goes there?' he exclaimed as he caught sight of the well-known figure. 'To what happy circ.u.mstance am I indebted for the honour of a visit at this unreasonable hour, or has Ariel any commands for the humblest and most devoted of her slaves!'

'Of course she has,' was the reply, 'or she would not be dancing down here at a time when all respectable people are in bed.'

'Your angels.h.i.+p has only to speak, and I am at your feet,' said the smoker with a theatrical flourish, dimly seen, and scarcely appreciated.

'Well, I am in a mess, and I want your help.'

'Of course you do; come up and talk it over.'

'No, I cannot stop a moment.'

'Well, let me put on my hat, and I will be down in the twinkling of any eye,' and Wentworth withdrawing himself for that purpose, in another moment he was by her side.

'I want you to take charge of a boy I've brought from Sloville; he is waiting in the bougham outside. He is a little waif I've picked up, and I want to save him from going to the bad. Here he is,' she exclaimed, as she walked hurriedly to the brougham, and then opened the door. Mr.

Wentworth, or Ted, as his familiar friends termed him, was not a little astonished at what he saw. 'What a jewel! Is he not?'

'Rather a rough one, apparently,' said the gentleman; 'but I suppose I must take him. He can sleep on my coal-box, and, perhaps, when the laundress comes in the morning, she will be able to clean him up a bit, and I'll see what can be done for him.'

'There, I knew you would. It is so like you,' said the lady fondly, as she bade him good-bye, telling the little forlorn lad to be a good boy, and drove to her little bijou residence in Mayfair.

As she went off to sleep that night, there came to her the words of the Master, 'Inasmuch as ye have done it to the least of these My little ones, ye have done it unto Me.' At any rate, her reflections were more pleasant than those of the Bishop's wife next door, whose father was a City banker, and who, as she heard the brougham set its mistress down, said to herself: 'What shocking hours these actresses keep! What shocking lives they must lead, to be sure! What a misfortune it is to have such a person for a neighbour!' It is to be believed the Bishop himself had rather a different train of thought. As a curate he had often frequented the theatre, nor had he given up the habit when he became a country rector. It is true, ever since his elevation to the episcopal bench he had avoided the playhouse, not that he did not love it in his heart of hearts as much as ever, 'But, you see,' as he was wont to observe in his blandest manner, 'the case is altered now. I have to consider my eminent position, and the decorum due to the cloth. I must think of the injurious influence I might exercise on the younger clergy, and on the laity as well.' He coincided with Bishop Lonsdale when he said: 'So long as the world thinks it safer for young ladies than for bishops to take their chance of being corrupted by the theatre, he would by no means offend the world.'

So completely had he managed to forget his former propensities, that when it was hinted to him that there was a time when he was often to be seen within a playhouse, he scarcely admitted it, adding, however, that he had occasionally gone there, not for the purpose of gratifying a worldly curiosity, but that he might qualify himself by a study of our great actors to become an effective preacher and orator. He would have recognised the actress, however, if his better-half had allowed him to do so. But, naturally, not a fascinating woman herself, she would save her lord and master from the snare of beauty, which is but skin-deep, after all, and pa.s.sing as the smile of an April sun. Thus she was given to judge harshly of pretty women, especially such as had become connected with the theatrical profession. Yet what an actor she had for her husband! What were his ap.r.o.n and knee-breeches and shovel-hat but theatrical properties to impress and over-awe the vulgar? As an actor, indeed, few surpa.s.sed the Bishop. What a picture of devotion he was in church, as with bowed head and uplifted hands he p.r.o.nounced the benediction! In gilded drawing-rooms, what an air he a.s.sumed of Christian grace! In talk, no one was saintlier in his way, and yet, as politician and Churchman, he had ever been on the side of the world, and the Minister of the day ever trusted him, as it was known that his vote was safe. His art was, Look much, and say little. 'Habits of graceful movement,' says a writer on Mental Philosophy, 'should be early impressed on children, to prevent that _gaucherie_ which the want of an early training leaves almost always behind. The mind and the will may henceforth banish all thought concerning them. Once laid up among the _residua_, ready for action, the motor mechanism will reproduce them whenever the a.s.sociation prompts, and thus good manners, as far as the outward expression be concerned, become a part of our unconscious spontaneity.' In Shaftesbury's 'Characteristics,' I recollect there is a pa.s.sage somewhat similar. Well, all this was exemplified by the Bishop.

How often do we see parsons of all sects, and bishops, thus display this unconscious spontaneity! A man is often a.s.sumed to be a saint simply because he looks like one; alas! not all who bow to the name of Jesus are Christians, nor a who look like saints-saintly.

'Their lofty eyes salute the skies, Their bended knees the ground; But G.o.d abhors the sacrifice Where not the heart is found.'

The heart of our actress, at any rate, was right, and grateful were her slumbers after the fatigue of an exciting day.

CHAPTER IV A YOUNG PREACHER.

In one of the hottest days of the summer of 184-, a young man of lofty bearing and aristocratic descent was riding on horseback carelessly along the highroad that leads from Great Yarmouth to Ipswich, and not many miles from the rising town of Lowestoft. He had a companion with him not very much older than himself, but with a face bronzed with foreign travel.

'How hot it is!' said the younger of the two, as he reined up his steed on the brow of a small hill, at the foot of which was a stretch of marshland draining slowly into the sea a mile off on his left, while on the other side of the marsh, given up to cattle and horses and sheep, the road led to a rising tableland, dotted with old red-brick farmhouses and stately oaks and dark firs. A painter such as Constable or Gainsborough would have soon transferred something of the peaceful rustic beauty all round to his canvas. Far off was the calm blue sea, dark with slow-sailing colliers on their way to or from the distant port of London; nearer the sh.o.r.e were the brown sails of the fis.h.i.+ng boats; while among them were a few pleasure yachts, the proprietors of which were endeavouring to earn an honest penny by carrying holiday makers to the sands which mark the commencement of the Yarmouth Roads. Nowhere was the dark line of smoke which marks the modern steamer visible. England then trusted in her wooden walls and her sailors with their hearts of oak, and dreamt not of the time when all that craft should be replaced by big iron or steel built steamers, ready to sink to the bottom, with all their crew and cargo or pa.s.sengers, in case of a collision, in the twinkling of an eye.

'Hot, is it? You should have been with me in India.'

'And got wounded as you have?'

'Yes, if you like. A good pension heals many a nasty wound.'

'But-' And here the younger man gave a joyful exclamation, 'Why, there is Uncle d.i.c.k!'

'True enough,' said that individual, who was urging on his steed at a furious pace, and had just joined them. He was hawk-eyed, square-built, very red-faced, with an eye anything but expressive of saintly life.

'What the devil are you gay fellows up to? I thought you were far away yachting.'