Marry! My Black Horse Chapter 44

Chen Wan's heart immediately felt cold, her whole body was cool. She was sitting on the sofa, she didn't move. She closed her eyes, and just felt broken-hearted and unwell. Although her relations.h.i.+p with Fei Jun was not like most mother-son relations.h.i.+p, but from early age, he never did anything that let her worry about, also would not especially disobedient and rebelling to her. This time is the first time, she heard a threatening tone from him, she never expected the son that she personally raised would actually be this cold and detached toward her.

Furthermore she was surprised that she had underestimated his feeling toward Guan Xin Mu.

She used her hand to ma.s.sage her temple, and felt dizziness to attack her head, she was panic. Indeed, she didn't like Guan Xin Mu. Since Guan Xin Mu married to Fei Jun, she never really opened her heart to learn to accept this ordinary daughter-in-law. She possessed a lot of hopes for him. His act and decision of marrying Guan Xin Mu is the biggest attack for her. Why other family's daughter-in-law could be extraordinary, but hers is an ordinary one? How could she match his son? In her eyes, except bring big burden and tiredness to Fei Jun, Guan Xin Mu was unable to give anything for him. To the extend she is unable to bear his child.

How could he let she to accept her?

Jiang Bo Yuan came over and looked for her. He signaled to her silently that as a father, he just had a daughter, even though she had the wealth and power. His only wish is that her daughter will be able to be happy. As father, he would give extremely generous dowry for her daughter's husband. Chen Wan was moved, this condition was too attractive. With Jiang Bo Yuan's support, Fei Jun would be able to be the authentic and sole person in charge of Fei Company which was her biggest hope for him. Since her husband, Fei Mao Lin, pa.s.sed away, she pretended to be strong, but inside her heart she was very lack of sense of security. She was worry about personal gains and losses, even she had sleep difficulty at night. She knew Fei Jun's foundation was unstable. He just thirty two years old, his strategies and schemes wouldn't be able to compete with that foxy man, Fei Mao Xuan. In a family benefit's struggle, the one who could win was the one that ruthless. Yet Fei Jun, she knew it, he is a ideal businessman and basically he is a tolerant and kind like his father.

If Fei Jun lose, then her whole life would be lose too. Her half of lifetime was throughly lose meaning, how could she able to admit defeat?

Moreover what she worries about was in men's heart the main part of their life is business, especially Fei Jun. She always didn't wish that because of he has feeling, it will interfere with business matter. Yet this Guan Xin Mu, an innocent dumb little girl, will let Fei Jun change. It was her worries in her subconscious mind.

Guan Xin Mu was typing some words, then her phone suddenly rang. She was busy so she didn't look at the phone screen, and just answered it.

"h.e.l.lo?"

"What did you say to Jun Jun?" Chen Wan's mood was uncontrollable, her tone was really strict, " You are really great, you let him to give me a warning! I really underestimated you!"

Hearing Chen Wan's voice, her heart was beating faster.

"I really didn't expect that you are this scheming woman. I finally know it. Okay, you don't want to let him go. But I stated now, this lifetime, I will definitely not accept you." Chen Jing's tone was so cold, "Just live the world with two of you. You will be a burden to him, I will not see you anymore."

She said it then hung up the phone.

Guan Xin Mu was feeling empty, when she just regain her awareness, Chen Wan already hung up the phone. Her resentment was still wandering in her mind. Her whole body was stiff, and placed the phone back to her bag. Then continued to type some words, she told herself to ignore Chen Wan's word. It is enough that she and Fei Jun could live their life happily, forever they don't need to mind about Chen Wan.

But inside her heart was still unable to accept it, she was in sad mood. After a long time, she still unable to calm her mood down.

In the afternoon, Pei Jin was coming to the office with her huge pregnant stomach, she called Guan Xin Mu to her office. She told her about the training on B city, and Guan Xin Mu just recalled she had registered to join the training three months ago, she didn't expect to be chosen.

"You go prepare for a while." Pei Jin said, "Next Thursday, you need to join it."

"Okay." Guan Xin Mu smiled, she looked at the Pei Jin's huge stomach, then asked: "Now could you feel the kick of the baby?"

"Can." Pei Jin's face changed to gentle expression, "He is very naughty, he always give me a little kick for a while."

"It's good." Guan Xin Mu said.

Tonight, Fei Jun went to attend business drinking party, so Guan Xin Mu went to her mother's place to have dinner, just by chance her sister also there.

"You don't look too good, what happened?" Guan Si Ling asked, she also knew about Fei Company's matter, she was worried about her little sister and little sister-in-law.

"Last night, I didn't get enough sleep." Guan Xin Mu yawned, rubbed her eyes. She continued to chop the onion, and asked, "Sis, do you think a sentence love is freedom, and marriage is not freedom?"

"Why do you suddenly ask about this?" Guan Si Ling took a ladle and mixed the hot soup, she smiled and said: "Indeed marriage need understanding and tolerance, sacrifice for each other. This is quite true."

"If a woman is unable to be accepted by her mother-in-law forever, would her marriage be happy?"

Guan Si Ling asked: "Does your mother-in-law still hate you?"

"I just give you an a.n.a.logy, in other words, could two people just be together without caring about other people?" Guan Xin Mu said.

"Do you want to hear truth or lie?"

"Lie!"

"Able, just spend the life of two of you, don't care about anything."

"Then the truth?"

"The truth is….." Guan Si Ling paused, "A good marriage needed a support and blessing from elders."

Guan Xin Mu sighed, she knew her sister's mother-in-law always very fond of her, and regarded her as her own daughter. They both have a good relations.h.i.+p, every week they will have a tea and chat, stroll around the shopping malls, and do some beauty treatments together. Guan Xin Mu felt envy of their close relations.h.i.+ps. Sometime she learnt from her sister, her sister said that she need to be sweet-talker, initiator, and avoid elder's hateful actions. Furthermore, she stated that old people tend to have a soft heart, so after a long of time definitely their heart will melt by your action.

Every time Guan Xin Mu recalled Chen Wan's acts and provoking words, she felt very unable to tolerate it. From her little age, it was the first time for her to be looked down by others. In her mind was in confusion, on one side she thought it will be okay for them both to live their own life without Chen Wan, but on the other side, she felt that Chen Wan is Fei Jun's mother, how could she avoid her? She really hate you, how would you be able to be together with Fei Jun happily and for a lifetime? What can you bring for him? You just able to be a burden for him.

She felt her carefree and without worries self finally ran into the hardest problem in the world, there was no chance for her anymore to curry a favor from Chen Wan. Even Chen Wan suggested to her to get a divorce with Fei Jun, what hope would remain for her?

At night, Fei Jun noticed her change in mood clearly, and asked her what happened. She just simply shook her head and stated that she was okay. When he about to say something, his phone was rang. It was Steven's urgent tone. He frowned and asked a few questioned. It was about a fire caught on Fei Company's outskirts factory. He hung up the phone and went hurriedly to the company. Before he went away, he reminded Guan Xin Mu to sleep early and didn't need to wait for him.

Guan Xin Mu lowered her eyes, she pressed the remote control. She can't refrain from thinking, when he encountered a difficultly, she was unable to do anything to help him, she was unable to give him anything. This kind of marriage, he really be the unlucky one. She laughed at herself.

The fire started on the factory immediately became the headline news. Fei Jun accepted the interview in front of the factory's entrance, he said with seriousness: "I will give the injured workers and their family members an explanation and compensation. Every workers in Fei Company, for us was really important. We will be responsible for this accident and our board directors would also undertake the responsibilities. We definitely will not avoid it."

Fei Jun became very busy, his phone started to ring for twenty-four hours. He was home later and later at night. This matter let Guan Xin Mu felt their idle time before was a dream, in reality, he would never stayed at home and be a stayed-at-home husband for her that waited for her to raise him up. He is Fei Jun, a business tyc.o.o.n. On his back, he need to bear the responsibilities of Fei Company. He had a high reputation, yet she was not a match for him.

If she can, she rather Fei Jun be an ordinary working man. She rather wish everyday he could be busy in the kitchen, waited for her return. She would hug him happily from the back, she would be able stand on her tiptoe and kiss her forehead, and said "Husband, you are tired….." Those common and gentle scene was what was happiness in her mind.

Thursday, Guan Xin Mu brought a suitcase to the airport. Originally Fei Jun planned to send him to the airport, but couldn't as he was busy with the fire incident in the factory. He was unable, he was busy until four o'clock in the morning, he even didn't go home. He sent a message to Guan Xin Mu to explain clearly about the situation. When Guan Xin Mu was awake, she read his message, and replied: 'I will go to the airport by myself, don't worry."

Today it was appearing a thick fog, so every airlines and flights domestically at S City was delayed. A lot of pa.s.sengers on the airport and it made the atmosphere in the airport to be more airtight than usual. Guan Xin Mu was holding a cup of coffee and sipped it depressingly. She looked at the foggy sky through the window, and it made her mood to be worst. Her foot started to be cold, and she was dizzy.

She suddenly recalled herself when she was preparing for the high school examination, because she was staying late night, she felt pressured and made her mood worst. Every time she was in a bad mood, she will be like this, she felt restrained and tense.

In her mind, Chen Wan's sound voice was kept on wandering. She felt really depressed, and unable to breath.

Her eyes were teary, she felt didn't know what to do. Chen Wan loathed her, Fei Jun is busy but she couldn't help him with anything, she just could be his burden. Now in the airport, she was delayed, didn't know when it would get better. She wanted to have a good mood to join the training… She is tired and exhausted, didn't want to think too much. Yet her trains of thinking was unable to stop, it was messed up. She couldn't help but to fisted her hand and hit her head.

Suddenly her phone rang, and it took her a quite of long time to realize it. She touched the phone, it was a call from Fei Jun. She answered it.

"Are you at airport? I heard that it is foggy now, and most airlines are delayed?" Fei Jun's voice sounded tired. He hadn't slept for a night, and this moment he was drinking his coffee in front of window, and looked toward the foggy sky.

"Fei Jun…" Guan Xin Mu's brain immediately crashed for a second, then said: "Should we be together? Are we suitable for each other?"

"Where are you now?" Fei Jun was on guard of her strange mood, immediately asked that question.

"How about, we just break up." Guan Xin Mu said it, and hung up the phone.

Fei Jun kept on calling her phone, but she pretended not to hear it. She didn't answer it, she sat alone on the corner. Her gaze was empty, and her mind was still full of Chen Wan's words that she would never accept her in this lifetime. What can you give to him? You are unable to give him anything, you will just be a burden for him.

After a half an hour, she regained from her thought. She rubbed both of her hands, and just realized what her words to Fei Jun, even though she said it without really mean it, yet it was words that she hide away on her subconscious mind for a long time. After being married to Fei Jun for almost a year, this problem gradually appeared. Except her love, she couldn't do anything. She was unable to not give up, unable not to be frail, unable to not thinking complexly. At last she lost control, throughly.

Her phone was rang once again. She looked at it, it turned out to be a call from Pei Jin, she answered it hurriedly.

"Xin Mu, you still at airport right. I tell you, I really silly. There should be two forms that you sould bring. It turns out that forget the other one." Pei Jun was blaming herself, "It's okay, Lao Ren is driving me to the airport, I will arrive soon. You come out for a while, I will give it to you."

"Okay." Guan Xin Mu stood up, and exited the airport lounge. She went to the airport terminal.

After ten minutes, Pei Jin called again. She said that she had arrived, and wore a red cotton-padded clothes, and white knitted hat. Guan Xin Mu searched for her figure.

Suddenly, she caught a sight of a pair of familiar leather shoes, she suddenly raised her head. It was Fei Jun.

He was wearing a western-style suit, his hair was in a mess, his eyes looked impatient, and his cold face looked strained.

"Why are you here?!" Guan Xin Mu was surprised, yet Pei Jin who was on the phone with her, was puzzled. She said: "Xin Mu, what are you talking? What are why are you here?"

In a flash, Fei Jun s.n.a.t.c.hed her phone from her hold. Then he turned off her call . He pulled her arm toward the front of a hot-drink counter.

"Why are turning off my call! Sis Pei is looking for me!" Guan Xin Mu was anxious, "Why are you here! What are you doing by coming here!"

"You said that we don't suit for each other?" Fei Jun raised his voice, and his dark eyes were fixed on Guan Xin Mu, "You mentioned a break up?"

Guan Xin Mu took a deep breath, and looked at his eyes. She nodded: "Right, we don't suit each other."

"Reason?" Fei Jun asked straightforwardly.

"Wait until I go home then I will explain it to you." Guan Xin Mu extended her hand to take her phone back from his grip, "You give back my phone, Sis Pei is looking for me!"

Next second, Fei Jun threw the phone down. It fell to the ground, because he used great power, the phone was broken into four to five pieces. At the time Guan Xin Mu felt surprised, he had clutched her chin, and forced her to look at him. He said coldly: "Now there is no problem that more important than our problem."

She forced to look at his eyes, his eyes was cold let her to sink into the coldness too. She noticed his complex mood and feeling such as anger, anxious, and…. some of heartache.

He never had that kind of complex and complicated mood.

"Repeat once again what are you saying on the phone." He commanded.

"Fei Jun, perhaps it's better for us to be separate, we don't suit for each other." She supported herself to be strong and repeated that statement once again.

"I come here hurriedly to tell you one thing." Fei Jun looked her in the eyes, and all his mood and conflicted mood, and said: "In this world, the reality that is not existed after we don't suit for each other is that we will be separated."

Guan Xin Mu was throughly startled, she actually she could noticed the tiredness on his eyes. He had a lack night of sleep, yet because of her careless words, he directly came here without caring about anything.

"So, please take back your stupid remarks. I will pretend that I don't hear it." Fei Jun pulled Guan Xin Mu to his embrace, and release his hand from her hands to her waist, "In your heart, you don't allow to have this kind of thought."

In a flash, her mood was getting better, she was a little lost kid found a way home. She smelt his pleasant smell, felt his warm chest. Her eyes started to water, and looked dim-witted at him, didn't s.h.i.+ft his gaze.

He always lowered his head, his soft and cold lips kissed her lips.

The fogginess inside her heart was gone, she was unable to hear anything. It looked like it was just two of them in this world. As if in this airport, she only saw him, he gave her the strongest kiss.