Mad Part 39

"Going over?" said the girl, with almost a sob, and at the same moment catching his wrist and holding it with both hands tightly, as he tried to withdraw it, while her nostrils seemed to distend, and her breath came heavily as she held him firmly, fearing lest her words might prompt him to the desperate leap.

"No, no, my la.s.s, no," said Matt wearily, as he sank in a sitting posture upon the stone seat. "I have thought of such a thing--time back; but not lately. I have thought that it would be putting an end to a weary way when one gets very footsore, and that no one would miss a poor, worn-out fellow like me; but I've thought better of it, and I'll wait till I'm called, my la.s.s. I was only thinking a bit."

"You looked as if you meant to," said the girl, loosing his wrist, and kneeling upon the seat in the very att.i.tude the old man had taken a short time before. "But one can't help thinking of it sometimes, and almost feeling as if the river drew you like. It seems as if you'd go to sleep then, and wake no more. Not much to leave here, is there?" she added slowly.

Old Matt shook his head, and, leaning forward unseen by his companion, he took a firm hold of her dress, for the girl went on dreamily as she looked down on the black water.

"I saw one of our girls once; she went off Waterloo, and they got her out, and she looked so quiet and happy like. But there," she added in a reckless, offhand way, "I sha'n't do it, I haven't the heart. There, you needn't hold me, old man;" and she s.n.a.t.c.hed her dress from his grasp.

A deep, hollow cough checked her for a few minutes; and Matt sat in the cold recess gazing on the slight, graceful form, as the well-dressed girl knelt upon the seat--frail, fair, and apparently not twenty.

"Lend me threepence, old man!" she exclaimed suddenly, as she turned to him.

"What for?" said Matt.

"Gla.s.s of brandy," said the girl, holding her hand pressed to her side, and then battling hard once more with her cough.

"I haven't a halfpenny left," said Matt drearily, "or I shouldn't be sitting here, my la.s.s. But you're better without the brandy, and there's no place open now."

"There! I don't want your money, old man," said the girl; "only one gets so used to asking, it comes natural. Are you hard up?"

"Yes," said Matt drearily, "close as I can be."

"Here!" she exclaimed, holding out sixpence. "You may as well have it, as for me to take it back."

The old man stared at his companion for a moment, and then raised his hand to take the money, but he suddenly lowered it again.

"No, my la.s.s, no," he said; "thank you all the same, but I can do without it."

The girl's eyes flashed as she looked angrily at the old man, and then raising her hand, she dashed the money over the parapet, and sank down upon the seat sobbing violently.

"There!" she exclaimed pa.s.sionately, as Matt spoke soothingly to her; "I know, and I deserve it all. I wish I was dead--I wish I was dead!"

"I didn't mean to hurt you," said Matt kindly. "Now go home, my la.s.s, and try and forget it."

"Home!" said the girl, with a forced mocking laugh. "Yes, when it's time. Good-night old man. You didn't meet Marian, did you?"

"Who?" said Matt absently.

"Marian," said the girl; "I'm looking for her. But you don't know her; good-night;" and she went lightly off, humming the s.n.a.t.c.h of a popular air as she went towards the City; while, after waiting until the girlish form had disappeared, old Matt rose himself and began to shuffle back the same way as he had come; looking longingly at a pa.s.sing hay-cart bound for the market, and thinking of the fragrant stack whence the load had been taken, and how pleasant it would have been to have dragged out a heap to nestle in. For the old man was cold, weary, and ill; and as he slowly shuffled along, many a thought of those who rested upon luxurious couches came to his mind. He crossed the great echoing cathedral yard, and pa.s.sed slowly from gaslight to gaslight, too weary now to talk. Now and then he would encounter a policeman, who turned to look after the slow, shambling figure. At intervals, a cab would rattle by him, while once, with its hollow, heavy rumble, a fire-engine dashed by, the light flas.h.i.+ng back from the s.h.i.+ning helmets of the firemen; then there was a short, rus.h.i.+ng vision of something red covered with figures, and drawn by two steaming, plunging horses, a faint dying away of the hurrying wheels, and then all still once more, for it was now the most silent hour of the whole twenty-four in great London. Dull and dreary looked the streets, with hardly a wayfarer in sight, and those, perhaps, women who paced wearily along or talked noisily to a companion.

But no one heeded Matt as he still shuffled onward, more than once as he pa.s.sed through Fleet-street gazing up at the gas-lit windows of the newspaper-offices.

Past Lower Series-place, looking in the dark night like the mouth of a sewer, emptying itself by the bridge--Temple Bar; past Ess.e.x-street, to stand and gaze down it for a few moments thoughtfully; past the last of the four churches, and the street leading to the "Bridge of Sighs."

Onward still, and then into one of those hilly lanes, up which in busy day came clattering the heavy teams of wagon--horses with their black load--down one of those river lanes along which came sighing the damp-laden winds, whispering of being lost upon the great stream, and of having wandered from the green trees, where in summer the reeds rustled, and the silver water glided past emerald banks--whispering of cooling groves, and the gladdening, sparkling, dancing wavelets, sheltered woody islets, and the sweet, pure country air; but now lost in wintry weather upon the breast of the great river,--lost, after wandering by muddy pile and slimy, horrid, loathsome drain and sullying sewer; lost, as they had swept past wharf, bridge, pier, and barge; they came in despair, weeping tears from their misty burden, sweeping amongst the gloomy houses, and causing a s.h.i.+ver as they pa.s.sed along.

For a moment some bright recollection of the past seemed to strike the old man, and he paused thoughtfully beneath a gas-lamp; but old Matt's memories of waving reed and rustling tree were few, and he sighed and pa.s.sed on, thinking only of his sought-for resting-place. Onward, and down beneath the great black yawning arch, to where he could hear voices, while above the faint damp fever-reek of the place, came the fumes of tobacco-smoke. On still, with hands outstretched to avoid collision with cart or wagon, but more than once he tripped over a shaft, as some stabled horse rattled halter or chain through the ring of its manger, and Matt sighed with envy as he thought of the warm straw.

To a miserable fire at length, with several miserable objects huddled round, and amidst jest, laughter, and foul language, a voice yelled out a verse or two of a current song, a man and woman dancing hard by, their shadows cast, wildly distorted and grotesque, upon the reeking brickwork, where they almost seemed to cling. Then, too, came that peculiar "glug-glug" sound of liquid pa.s.sing from a bottle, and a voice shouted to the old man:

"Come on, matey; heaps o' room to-night. Give's a pipe o' baccy."

"All right," replied Matt, backing into the darkness, and shaking his head, as he shuffled hurriedly along till he reached the Strand once more.

"Can't stand that now," muttered Matt; "nerves too weak. No idea there was such a pressure of business in the hotel. Foreign gentleman that, dancing--wonder whether his organ's down there."

Heavily, listlessly, and with drooping head, old Matt walked slowly back towards the City, now stopping in a doorway, or resting leaning against a shutter; but soon to shuffle on again, as his heart seemed to whisper, "O, that it were day once more!"

Tramp, tramp through the silent streets of the great wilderness.

Thoughtful after a strange, numbed, weary mode, the old man made his way into Thames-street, looking hopelessly about the while for some dry sheltered spot, where, unnoticed by the police, he might coil up as hundreds do nightly in our streets, trying to forget the present as they wait for the coming of the desolate future.

At last, less particular now, he was nearing the dry arch of London-bridge, and thinking of the steps as a place to rest his aching bones, when, from his half-sleepy state he suddenly roused up, for down from a turning in front came a couple of policemen with a stretcher, while, hurried and excited in her manner, her long hair lank and curl-less with the dank night wind, followed the poor girl he had seen upon the bridge, now talking earnestly to one of the constables.

The new-comers did not notice Matt, and after walking onwards for a short distance, with the old man closely following, they suddenly turned down between two large piles of warehouses, along a narrow pa.s.sage up which came the odour of the river borne on the moaning wind, where the rugged broken pavement was wet and slimy.

There was no feeling of fatigue and misery now to bear down the old man, as, led by some impulse, he followed the police, his heart beating wildly as he glanced at the stretcher and recalled the hospital. There was something weird and strange-looking in the oil-caped figures as, seen in the misty darkness, they pa.s.sed along; and the eager voice of the girl sounded hollow and echoing. Down to the river-side, where the muddy water could be heard rus.h.i.+ng amidst the floating piers and moored barges, with a hurried whispering secret sound,--here where barge and lighter were moored closely together and steamers were buoyed, waiting for the coming day. High warehouses towered above them, with cranes jutting out, gallows-like, at intervals as if just deprived of some malefactor's body that had swung to the chain, and then dropped in the river to be swept away. Piles were driven thickly here; slimy, mysterious-looking stone steps led down into the water, right down into its secret muddy depths; and an old boat or two floated hard by, secured by small chains, which rattled backwards and forwards over their gunwales as the tide lifted, and bore them to and fro in its ebbing and flowing and eddying currents.

But there was light here, spa.r.s.ely shed over the scene by a single flickering lamp, whose panes seemed bedewed with tears. The pale blue flame jumped and danced, burning bluely as it was nearly extinct, and then flashed up again with regular throbs, from water collected in the pipe. And now as Matt drew nearer, he saw the light flash from the s.h.i.+ny wet cape of another policeman, standing talking to a couple of nondescript waterside men in Guernsey s.h.i.+rts and heavy mudlark boots, who stood leaning against the mooring-posts and smoking hard; while all three seemed to be keeping vigil over something lying upon the ground covered with an old sack and some matting, upon whose uncouth form the blinking gaslight looked down; now showing its shudder-engendering proportions, now leaving it all but in darkness. But as the light flashed up, there was a tiny trickling stream sluggishly flowing from beneath the sack in a tortuous way to the edge of the landing-place, where it dripped slowly with a little echoing plash into the running waters, which beat against the stones and leaped and rose, and fell with a monotonous lap-lap as if seeking to rise, and drag back the secret taken from their bosom.

It was strange, but far off in the country, in Somesham town, Doctor Hardon clenched his hands and groaned in his sleep, as the perspiration stood in big beads upon his forehead; but though in his dream he saw the stern faces of his brother and nephew, and went through the church-yard-scene once more, it was, perhaps, merely a fit of indignation, or on account of certain speculations which had threatened to prove failures, even though, after his fas.h.i.+on, he had made vows at his conscience-shrine, and promised to seek out his lost child, and to do something for Septimus Hardon should they succeed.

And 'twas strange, too, that Mrs Doctor Hardon should wake up with a wild cry from an oppressing slumber, and then, trembling from a strange sense of dread, cry hysterically, and he for hours thinking of her child. Strange, perhaps; but such things have been.

The policemen stopped, and set down their stretcher, saying something in an undertone to their fellow; the two men smoking left their posts, and, beneath the lamp, the girl leaned against the wall trembling visibly, as again and again she coughed and pressed her hand against her heaving chest.

Old Matt drew nearer and nearer, his claw-like fingers working convulsively, as if to tear off the wet covering before him; his head was craned forward, his dry lips parted, and then he stopped short as one of the men stooped and lifted the sack, so that the light flashed across a pale face "dreadfully staring through muddy impurity," for with a wild, wailing cry, the girl started forward and threw herself on her knees, sobbing bitterly; and the men, hardened though they were to such scenes, fell back a step or two, with some show of respect for the sorrow before them.

The wind moaned and sighed, and mingled with the poor girl's cries; the chains rattled noisily, and the waters seemed to leap and dash angrily at the steps, rising higher and higher minute by minute, fearful of losing their prey; while Matt stole nearer and nearer, trembling in every limb--nearer and nearer still, with his eyes fixed upon that pale, staring face, till a policeman laid a hand upon his breast to stay him from interrupting the mourner's sorrow; but, putting back the hand, Matt pressed on with a chaos of thoughts hurrying through his brain, bright amongst which seemed to s.h.i.+ne forth the face of Lucy Grey, as, stooping lower, he now looked down upon this countenance which he had, ere now, seen raised wildly and appealingly to his, when he had gruffly talked of time, and then, s.h.i.+vering as if stricken with some paralysing seizure, he gasped almost to himself--"It's that poor girl!"

Volume Three, Chapter X.

BY DAY.

The public might have been present in force, but they were not; for inquests upon bodies found in Thames' stream are common events, such as find their way into corners of the morning papers in the shape of short paragraphs. And in this instance there was a very seedy-looking staff to represent the Press--namely, a man who winked solemnly at old Matt as he pa.s.sed him on his way to a side-table beside the jury. The necessary witnesses were there apparently, and the inquest dragged on its slow length as they told all they knew. But Matthew s.p.a.ce must be quoted as an exception; he did not tell all, only that he knew the poor woman by sight, while he rightly said that he was ignorant of her name and home.

It would be time, he thought, to tell all when there was no more danger of publicity, and so he allowed himself to be huffed by the coroner for taking up his valuable time.

But now came forward a pale, well-dressed, weeping girl, who stated that her name was Eleanor.

"Eleanor what?" said the coroner, frowning very severely, and oozing all over his very high, bald forehead with the quintessence of morality; for the poor girl s.h.i.+vered before him, and looked appealingly from face to face of the jurymen. "Eleanor what?" said the coroner again, with quite a snap.

"Anderson," said the girl sobbing; and then for a few minutes she could not proceed to tell her tale; how that for a year past she had always tried to see those girls who were taken out of the river. She hardly knew why, only that she had known some of them, as she knew poor Marian; and there seemed something which drew her towards the river. She met the policemen, and they let her go with them, for she was looking for Marian, and somehow she was not surprised to find her there.

Had known her a long time--years, she thought--and they lodged together.

She had often said that she was tired of life, but never talked about her friends, or anything of the past: thought she came from the country.

Had not seen her before for days, and had been uneasy, and fancied she had gone over the bridge, as many did--could not tell why, unless because she was tired of her life, and had the feeling of being drawn to do it. Her name was Marian--that was what she was called--but thought it was not her real name; did not know why; but many girls like her gave themselves fresh names. She gave witness a little Bible once, with pa.s.sages marked in it, but there was no name in it. Never spoke of anyone else, or of herself, but was always very kind, and had nursed witness once through a bad fever, not long back, and never left her night or day, when no one else dared come near; and now she was gone.

There was a pause here longer than those made while the coroner had taken down the depositions, during which he had frowned very severely; and now appeared greatly annoyed at the unbusiness-like sobbing of the poor girl, who sat down again upon a form behind old Matt, who tried to whisper a few words of comfort, as the jurymen mostly seemed very intent upon the paper before them.

Then followed the doctor to tell of his horrible task, and express his opinion respecting the marks of blows upon the face of deceased, such, though, as might have been caused by striking against some part of the bridge in falling; he was of opinion that she must have struck twice, as there was a fracture upon the back of the skull; and she had evidently been dead some days.