The Stranger I Married Part 8

"And if I did?"

"I could not oblige you."

"Even after tonight's amus.e.m.e.nts?"

His fingers stilled, and then he gave a low chuckle. "I should be a good husband, and set your mind at ease, but I have just enough of the rapscallion left in me to want you to suffer a bit, just as I will be suffering."

"Men who look like you never suffer, Gray," she retorted with a snort, turning her head to meet his gaze.

"There are men who look like me? How disheartening."

"See how our relations.h.i.+p alters when you change your role from friend to husband?" she complained. "Lies, evasions, things left unsaid. Why do you want us to live in that manner?"

Gray ran a hand through his hair, and groaned.

"Can you answer me that, Gray? Please help me to understand why you wish to ruin our friends.h.i.+p."

His eyes met hers, filled with the bleakness she had felt around him yesterday. Her heart swelled with emotion at the sight. "G.o.d, Pel." He set his cheek against her thigh, his dark hair dampening the satin. "I don't know how to discuss this, and not sound maudlin."

"Try."

He stared at her for a long time, his long eyelashes s.h.i.+elding his thoughts and casting shadows upon his cheekbones. The fingers that stroked her palm stopped, and entwined with hers. The simple intimacy was like a physical blow. For a moment, she found it difficult to breathe.

"After Emily died, I despised myself, Isabel. You've no notion of how I wronged her-so many ways, so many times. What a waste it was for a woman like her to perish due to a man like me. It took me a long while to accept the self-loathing, and realize that while I could not change the past, I could honor her by changing who I was in the future."

She tightened her grip on his hand, and he squeezed back. It was then she felt the unrelenting curve of a ring on his finger. Grayson had never worn his wedding band before. That he wore it now gave her a jolt that made her s.h.i.+ver violently.

He nuzzled his face against her, making her gasp at the resulting flare of longing. Misunderstanding her distress, he said, "This is dreadful. I apologize."

"No...Continue. Please. I want to know everything."

"It is a miserable task attempting to change one's character," he said finally. "I think whole years pa.s.sed without finding anything worth smiling about. Until you walked into the study yesterday. Then, in that one moment, I saw you and felt a spark." He lifted their joined hands, and kissed her knuckles. "Then later, in this room, I smiled. And it felt good, Pel. That spark turned into something else, something I have not felt in years."

"Hunger," she breathed, her eyes riveted to his impa.s.sioned face. She knew the feeling, because it gnawed at her now.

"And desire, and life, Isabel. And that is from the outside. I can only dream about what it would be like from the inside." Gray's voice deepened, and turned husky with want, his eyes now free of the abject torment she had witnessed in them when he'd first arrived. "Deep inside you, as far as I can go."

"Gray..."

His head turned, his hot, open mouth pressing against her upper thigh, burning through the pink satin of her robe and night rail. She tensed all over, her spine arching gently in a silent plea for more.

Tormented, Isabel pushed his head away. "After you have slaked that hunger, what happens to us then? We could not go back to what we had before."

"What are you talking about?"

"Have you never found that you can no longer eat a food you used to crave? Once hunger is appeased, the dish you gorged on becomes unappetizing." She sat up, and slipped past him. Rising to her feet, she began to pace, as was her wont when agitated. "We would be truly estranged then. I would most likely choose a different property in which to reside. Social events where we meet would become uncomfortable."

He rose to his feet, and followed her with his gaze. A gaze that was tactile in its intensity. "You see your former lovers every day. They are sociable with you, and you with them. What makes me different?"

"I do not look at them over coffee in the morning. I do not rely on them to settle my accounts, and see to my welfare. They do not wear my ring!" She paused, and closed her eyes, shaking her head at the foolishness of her errant mouth.

"Isabel," he began softly.

She held up her hand, and stared at the portrait on the wall. A golden G.o.d stared back at her, forever arrested in his prime. "We will find you a paramour. s.e.x is s.e.x, and another woman would be far less messy."

Her husband moved with such grace, she failed to hear him approach. Gray's encircling arms came as a surprise-one banding her waist, the other crossing her torso so a large hand could cup her breast possessively. She cried out as her feet left the floor, and he buried his face in her neck. The feel of his body was so hot and hard behind her, filled with strength, yet tender in its clasp.

"I do not require your a.s.sistance to find s.e.x. I require you." He licked and nipped at the tender skin of her throat, and then he breathed her in, his arms tightening around her with a low groan. "I want messy. And sweaty and dirty. G.o.d give me strength, for I have been cursed with wanting that from my wife."

Isabel burned at the feel of his erection, and then melted in his embrace when he ground it against her in near desperation. "No."

"But I can be gentle, Pel. I can love you well." His grip lightened, his fingertips softly teasing her nipple. She writhed in his arms, the ache between her legs nearly unbearable.

"No..." she moaned, wanting him with every breath in her body.

"See your ring on my finger," he growled, obviously frustrated. "Know that I am yours. That I am different from the others." Gray licked the sh.e.l.l of her ear, and then bit the lobe. "Want me, d.a.m.n you. The way I want you."

Grayson set her aside with a curse, and left the room, leaving Isabel to the warring halves within her-the part of her that knew an affair with Gray could not last, and the part of her that did not care if it didn't.

Chapter 5.

Gerard stood in his parlor, and silently cursed the crowd that gathered there. The daylight hours were his time to spend with Pel and work on building their rapport. Tonight, he knew she would venture out and dazzle the peerage with her charm and beauty. Isabel was a social creature who enjoyed time spent in the company of others, and until he had acceptable garments he could not escort her. So he had determined to make the most of the time he was afforded, perhaps take her on a picnic. But then the callers had begun to arrive. Now their home swarmed with curious visitors who wanted to see both him, and the state of his scandalous marriage.

Resigned, he watched his wife pour tea for the women around her. Isabel sat in the middle of the settee, surrounded by blondes and brunettes who paled in comparison, her auburn hair striking and distinguis.h.i.+ng. She wore a high-waisted gown of cream-colored silk, a shade uniquely suited to her pale skin and radiant tresses. In his parlor, which was decorated in striped blue damask, she was in her element, and he knew that despite the reasons why they had married, Pel had been an excellent choice as a bride. She was charming and gracious. He could find her easily, simply by following the sounds of laughter. People were happy in her presence.

As if she felt the weight of his regard, Isabel lifted her gaze and caught his eye. A soft pink flush swept up her chest to color her cheeks. He winked at her and smiled, just to watch her blush deepen.

How had it ever escaped his notice how she stood apart from all other women?

He could not help but note it now. Simply being in the same room with her made his blood thrum in his veins, a feeling he had once thought to never feel again. Isabel had attempted to keep her distance by moving from room to room, but he followed her, needing the flare of awareness he felt only in proximity to her.

"She is lovely, is she not?"

Gerard turned to the woman at his side. "Indeed, Your Grace." A smile curved his mouth at the sight of Pel's mother, a woman of renowned beauty. It was obvious his wife would age just as well. "She takes after her mother."

"Charming, and das.h.i.+ng," Lady Sandforth murmured, returning his smile. "How long will you be staying this time?"

"As long as my wife is here."

"Interesting." She arched a brow. "May I be so bold as to ask why you have had a change of heart?"

"The fact that she is my wife is not enough?"

"Men desire their wives in the beginning, my lord. Not four years later."

He laughed. "I am a little slow, but I'm catching up."

A movement caught his eye, and Gerard turned his head to discover Bartley at the door. He took a moment to think, trying to decide how he should proceed. They had once been friends, but only in the most mercenary sense of the word. He made his excuses, and moved to meet the baron, offering a genuine smile of welcome.

"Bartley, you look well." And indeed he did, having lost a good portion of the weight that had thickened his waistline.

"Not as well as you, Gray," Bartley returned. "Although I admit, you appear to have the chest of a laborer. Have you been working your own fields?" He laughed.

"Occasionally." Gerard gestured down the short hallway by the stairs. "Come. Have a cigar with me, and tell me what trouble you've occupied yourself with in my absence."

"First, I have brought you a present."

Gerard's eyebrows rose. "A gift?"

Bartley's florid complexion was mitigated by a broad grin. "Yes. Since you've just returned, and have yet to truly socialize, I knew you would be a tad...shall we say, lonely?" He gestured toward the front door with a jerk of his head.

Curious, Gerard's gaze followed the prodding, and he saw the dark-haired beauty by the front door-Barbara, Lady Stanhope. Her mouth curved in a smile so carnal, it could only be called wicked. He remembered that smile, remembered how it had incited his l.u.s.t and a torrid nine-month affair. Barbara liked her f.u.c.king sweaty and messy, too.

He moved to greet her, lifting her proffered hand to kiss the back. Her long nails raked his palm with sensual deliberation.

"Grayson," she said, in a girlish voice that did not suit her disposition. That had turned him on, too, hearing that innocent angel's voice while he used her lush body. "You look divine, at least from what I can see of you with your clothes on."

"You also look well, Barbara, but then you knew that."

"When I heard you had returned, I came quickly, before another woman s.n.a.t.c.hed you up."

"You should not have come to my home," he admonished.

"I know, darling, and I'm leaving. I just knew I would have a better chance at you if you saw me in person. A note is so impersonal, and not nearly as fun as touching you." Her eyes, clear as jade and just as beautifully colored, sparkled with amus.e.m.e.nt. "I would like us to be friends again, Gray."

Gerard arched a brow, and his mouth curved in an indulgent smile. "A lovely offer, Barbara, but I must decline."

She reached out and brushed a hand down his stomach, giving a soft purr. "I heard the rumors of you and Lady Grayson reconciling."

"We were never estranged," he corrected, taking a small step backward.

Barbara gave a soft pout. "I do so hope you will reconsider. I've procured a room at our favorite hotel. I will be there for the next three days." She blew a kiss to Bartley, then she looked up again. "I hope to see you there, Grayson."

He bowed. "I wouldn't wait up."

As the footman closed the door behind his lascivious guest, Bartley came to his side. "You can thank me with brandy and a cigar."

"I have never required your services in this particular regard," Gerard said dryly.

"Yes, yes, I know. But you've just arrived, and I wanted to save you a spot of trouble. No need to keep her when you're done with her."

Shaking his head, Gerard led Bartley away from the door to his study. "You know, Bartley. I doubt there is a chance in h.e.l.l of reforming you."

"Reforming me?" the baron cried, horrified. "Good G.o.d, I should hope not. How dreadful."

The hour was nearly six before their home was empty of visitors. As Isabel stood in the foyer beside Grayson and watched the last callers depart, she could not contain her sigh of relief. The entire day had been a study in misery and clenched teeth. She could swear that every one of Gray's former paramours had come calling today. At least the peeresses had, the ones who knew she could not turn them away. And Gray had been charming and witty, making every one of those odious women infatuated with him all over again.

"Well, that was trying," she muttered. "Despite what a scoundrel you are, you remain popular." She turned, and took the stairs. "Of course, the majority of visitors were women." Young women.

The soft chuckle beside her was maddeningly smug. "Well, you do wish me to contract a mistress," Gray reminded.

She shot him a sidelong glance, and found that lusciously etched mouth twitching with a withheld smile. She snorted. "Shameless of them to come to my home, and ogle you within my view."

"Perhaps scheduled interviews would please you better?" he suggested.

Coming to an abrupt halt on the next-to-last stair, Isabel set her hands on her hips and glared at him. "Why are you deliberately trying to provoke me?"

"Sweetheart, I loathe being the one to point this out to you, but you were already provoked." He let that smile out, and she gripped the railing to support herself at the sight of it. "I must admit, it warms my heart to see you so jealous."

"I am not jealous." Isabel took the last stair, and turned down the hallway. "I simply require a little respect to be afforded to me in my own home. And, I learned long ago that any man who makes a woman jealous is not worth having."

"I agree."

The softly spoken acknowledgment startled her, and her steps faltered just before she reached her door.

"I hope you keep in mind, Pel," he murmured, "that I did not enjoy those visitors any more than you did."

"Liar. You adore fawning women. All men do."

It is not in a husband's nature to be faithful, especially handsome and charming husbands, her mother had said, and Isabel knew that firsthand. Of course, Gray had not lied to her. He made no promises to be faithful, only to be a good lover, a fact she did not doubt.

"I adore fawning women only when they are temperamental marchionesses with satin-draped boudoirs." He reached around her, turning the bra.s.s k.n.o.b, his arm brus.h.i.+ng against the side of her breast. "What vexes you, Isabel?" he asked, his mouth to her ear. "Where is that smile I long for?"

"I am trying to be pleasant, Gray." She hated being ill-humored. It was not in her nature.

"I had other plans for today."

"You did?" She did not know why it bothered her that he had somewhere to go, a task to accomplish that did not include her.

"Yes." He licked the sh.e.l.l of her ear, his broad shoulders blocking out everything but him. "I had hoped to spend the day wooing you, and showing you my charming side."

Isabel pushed against his chest, tamping down the little quiver his words and nearness gave her. He leaned closer, resting one hand against the jamb, surrounding her with his scent and hard body. A thick lock of his dark hair fell over his brow, making him look relaxed and very much like a six-and-twenty-year-old man.

"I have seen quite enough of your charming side." And his pa.s.sionate side. She s.h.i.+vered at the memory of his arms around her, and his lips at her throat.

"Are you cold, Isabel?" he asked, his voice low and intimate, his gaze half-lidded. "Shall I warm you?"

"Frankly," she whispered, her hands brus.h.i.+ng over the top of his shoulders, which made him shudder. "I am very hot at the moment."

"Me, too. Stay home with me tonight."