War For The Oaks Part 36

This audience, these fey dancers-they were the other half of the song, as if it were a question and they the answer she'd waited for. They lived for the music for as long as it lasted, and were ruled by it. They danced with wild grace, with all their attention on her. Fairy food, she realized. Once you've tasted it, nothing else will do. Will I waste away for want of this?

They held still in the opening of Peter Gabriel's "And Through the Wire," and the notes fell on them like a shower of rain. Her voice tore across them like lightning. "And through the wire I touch the power-" Every bolt of lightning has thunder in pursuit. She felt hers up through her feet, against her ears, on the palms of her hands. She heard it in the full-throated singing of Dan and Carla and Hedge.

She didn't understand what she felt. She only knew she had to express it, pa.s.s it on. "Overloaded with everything we said / Be careful where you tread-" There was a flash when she almost knew-"Watch the wire!"-but the knowledge dispersed into the song and was gone.

When it was finished she was hot with fever, cold with drying sweat, trembling with weariness. The voice of a wooden whistle rose out of the chasm of silence. Then drums, and shouting fiddles and bagpipes. Her hosts had taken up the music.

Someone took her hands and drew her out of the circle. It was the phouka. His eyes were bright, his lips parted, his whole face molded by some outside force that was only now leaving him. Calmly, she recognized that force: it was in her, too. It had come from her. It was magic.

They went up the slope without speaking, until they reached the honeysuckle grove and the kegs of wine and beer. The phouka poured something into two cups and handed one to her. It looked colorless; if it had any tint, it might be green, but she couldn't tell in the fitful light. Streams of bubbles rose from the bottom of the cup, like champagne. The fragrance was like walking through a field on a hot day, the smell that rose from the crushed gra.s.ses underfoot. There was the fiery scent of alcohol, too.

Eddi looked over the cup at the phouka. He was so serious she had to smile. "Is this part of the initiation, or strictly for members only?"

His lips twitched. "Perhaps a little of both. No, don't drink yet, my sweet. You must wish, in silence, something concerning valor or love. Then you must drain the cup, quickly and to the last drop."

"Why valor or love?"

"Because those are the special province of Midsummer."

"What are you going to wish for?" she asked.

"I shan't tell you," he said, smiling, and his cup chimed against hers.

What was it w.i.l.l.y had said? She should do what was right. She wondered which that had more to do with, valor or love. She swallowed the contents of the cup.

It froze the back of her throat and half her chest on the way down. She hadn't expected it to be burning cold. For an instant all her senses were taken up in it, like a burst of brilliant light. Then her vision returned, and the feeling in her hands and feet and tongue.

"Earth and Air," the phouka said, his voice shaky. "There's a cruel pleasure." His eyes were closed, and his face had nothing in it to match his light words.

She felt... new, just-made. She felt as if everything she had ever done out of weakness or fear had been undone, and all of her past washed clean. Her future lay before her like the sticks of an opened fan. Like branching paths in the woods, she realized. That's Faerie for you. You wish for an answer, and get fifty to choose from.

She stepped forward and touched the cascade of lace over the phouka's chest. He took a deep, quick breath, and his eyes opened, wide and startled.

"Come dance with me," she said. She took his hand and led him toward the bonfire light.

chapter 17 I Burn for You.

The instruments were bagpipes and whistles, guitars, drums, cymbals and bells, mandolins, fiddles, and something that sounded like a b.u.t.ton accordion. The music was anything the night called for. There were jigs and reels-she might have guessed that. But there was hot city blues, too, rock, jazz, funk, and bluegra.s.s full of mountains and whiskey. It should have sounded silly, and didn't. The fusion reminded Eddi of zydeco: wildly disparate musical styles played on inappropriate instruments, all to scorching good effect.

Some of the dances had steps and patterns, and the phouka led her through them. Some of them were as seemingly formless as slam dancing. But mostly, it was just dancing.

Just dancing. For the first time, she heard the power of Faerie music, felt what her own audiences felt.

The difference was that she never seemed to get tired. She was full of rhythm and obedient to it. She couldn't put a foot wrong.

And the phouka was always with her. Eddi had the odd notion that they were two complementary forms in s.p.a.ce, like the halves of the yin-yang symbol, like the light and dark faces of the moon. That in itself was distracting. Sometimes the movements of the dance would put her hand in his, or his arm around her waist. She wanted then to stop in midstep, to have time to wonder at the warm, smooth skin of his hands, the cool brocade of his coat sleeve. She knew the shape and size of him, knew always just how far away he was, as if some mental radar bounced her thoughts off him and described him. Yet she was constantly surprised when she looked and found him there.

He was a flashy dancer-but then, so was everyone around her, tonight. Eddi danced at him, egging him on as she might have with her singing from on stage. He knew what she was doing, of course. Did he always know? she asked, somewhere in the corner of her thoughts. Was he always quick to know what I wanted, what I meant, what I was trying for? It seemed like it. He grinned at her and shook a stray black curl off his forehead.

Dan's synthesizer splashed melody against a background of bagpipe drone. It was Dan playing it; Eddi could hear his touch, his voicing and embellis.h.i.+ng of chords. Dancing was suddenly not enough for her.

"Can anybody jam at this party?" she asked the phouka.

"No. But invited guests most certainly can."

"Hair-splitter," she said, shaking her head, and whirled her way through the dancers back to her guitar.

Dan had the Casio on a strap around his neck, and boogied in place as he played. The bagpiper stood beside him: a tall, twiggy old woman with a comic Cyrano nose and a head of hair like a disturbed porcupine. She wore a man's frock coat, bottle green and frayed at the too-short sleeves, and a long full skirt of s.h.i.+fting pastels. She exuded a scent of apple blossoms.

Eddi watched Dan's hands for long enough to pick up the key. Then she started playing rhythm, a country-swing flat picking lick. She thought the piper smiled at her-though how she could and continue to blow like a bellows, Eddi didn't know. They played something jiggish. Then, inspired perhaps by Eddi's flat picking, Dan fingered a verse of Hank Williams'"C'est La Vie." He raised his eyebrows at her, and she took up the words.

When the lead break came around, a fiddler took it up. He reminded her of w.i.l.l.y; he was one of the Sidhe, and played with a similar demonic intensity, but a little short of w.i.l.l.y's imagination or irreverence.

His hair was white-blond. He seemed older than w.i.l.l.y, though the Sidhe were ageless and uniformly young, to look at them.

They were having too much fun to stop, so they did "Jambalaya" and "Hey, Good Lookin'," too. When they were done, Eddi turned to the fiddler as she would have to any mortal session player. She stopped before her hand was actually extended. Then she decided to offer it, anyway. He shook it. His manner was regally friendly.

"Nice job," Eddi said.

"And to yourself, as well." His voice was deep and clear, an actor's voice. "In another time, we might have met together only for this"-he indicated the revelry with a nod-"and not for the making of war."

Eddi studied him. "It takes two to fight a battle."

"Indeed." His eyes were hooded and cool. "Did we not oppose our enemies, then surely there would be no war. Only slaughter, and darkness."

"Is that it? Two options, either make war, or lie down and be walked on?"

His pale skin flushed-with anger, Eddi suspected. But his tone was perfectly polite. "Ah, have I been too long away from the Half-World? Have mortal men found the remedy for war at last? Tell it me, quickly, that I may never again suffer the sight of a comrade dead in battle."

Eddi winced. "I'm sorry. I... I think I spoke as I did... because I don't want them to die, either."

"These are not your people. What care you if they die, or how?"

"Some of them are my friends," she said. Then she had to fall silent. The thought of the phouka, dead on a battlefield, thoroughly stopped her voice.

It was his turn to study Eddi. "You are known to me, of course," he said at last, distantly. "I think I am not known to you. I am Ob-eryc.u.m, Consort to the Lady."

Eddi realized now that she had seen him among the courtiers earlier, under the flowering tree. She had seen him, too, at the Falls, in full armor. The pleated silk of his s.h.i.+rt was patterned with his device, the three-disks-in-a-disk, in gold on green. She sank quickly to one knee, wondering if it was the right thing to do.

"You need not," she heard him say, though he sounded faintly-pleased. "We set formality aside, once the dance has begun."

She rose, and he nodded to her. "I hope we may play together again, you and I," he said, tucking his fiddle under his arm.

"So do I."

He gave her a shallow bow, turned, and disappeared into the crowd.

"Well!" the phouka said over her shoulder a moment later, and she jumped.

"How long have you been here?"

"Long enough to witness your new conquest, sweet."

"Conquest!"

He grinned at her. "Now where's the pleasure in baiting you if you rise to the first cast? You do it on purpose, I think, to spoil my fun."

"I would have if I'd thought of it."

"Blast." The phouka shook his head. "I wonder-is it drink that makes me indiscreet?"

"Wish I had that excuse." Eddi sighed. "That little chat with Ob-eryc.u.m wasn't a landmark in diplomacy."

"You think you did so badly, then?" His look was full of contained smugness. "I'd say otherwise, myself."

"Yeah? Were you here when I came d.a.m.n close to calling him a warmonger?"

The phouka tried not to smile. "You came nowhere near it. Surely a warmonger is one who sells war, as a fishmonger sells fish?"

"Get stuffed. You know what I mean. You heard that, then? And you still don't think he's p.i.s.sed?"

The phouka nodded.

"Then either I'm luckier than I deserve, or you're dumber than you look."

He was delighted with that. "You're good for my self-esteem."

"The way aspirin's good for a headache?" Eddi said, and realized he was making her smile.

"Precisely. Do you want to dance, make music, or sample a new amus.e.m.e.nt?"

She could tell from his tone what he hoped. "What new amus.e.m.e.nt?"

"Oh, there's a compet.i.tion just begun, 'round the other side of the hill, that you might enjoy watching."

"I love it when you use that full-of-yourself voice. Lead on, son."

Eddi expected to follow the route they'd taken to their audience with the Lady, around the base of the hill near the park's edge. Instead the phouka led her halfway up the slope. To do so, he took her hand and held it-lightly, as if he was afraid she'd object. She cast around for something casual to say. Nothing presented itself. She curled her fingers around his, and used what little attention she had left to keep her feet from tripping over each other.

They crossed the flank of the hill on a narrow gravel path. Young trees and brush were thick on both sides, and the night wind stage-whispered in their leaves. Eddi knew they were in the middle of the city, in the middle of the hosts of Faerie. But the music and voices were faint behind them; the trees shut out all lights but fragments of the dark sky.

"Careful here," the phouka said softly, and squeezed her hand. Ahead of him there was a bit of path washed out, part of a gulley that ran off into the brush on both sides. The phouka stepped over it. Then he turned, clasped her waist with both hands, and lifted her across.

His movement, her instant off the ground, had been quick. It took her a moment to notice that her feet were on the gravel again, that his hands were still on her waist, that hers had fastened on his upper arms and hadn't let go. She could feel his palms and fingers outlined in a pleasant dry heat through the cloth of her blouse. Did her hands feel the same to him? Larger than they really were, their touch important out of all proportion?

s.h.i.+fting moonlight drew contour lines on his face. She could see the fine texture of the skin around his eyes and over his cheekbones. One black curl shone like a metal shaving on his forehead. His eyes were wide and dark, full of amazement and something like alarm.

She slid her hands up and over his shoulders, the brocade of his coat silky-rough against her palms.

When she got to his collar, she tucked her fingers like combs into the hair behind his ears, set her thumbs against the clean angle of his jaw. The sensation in her hands was so strong it was almost painful, as if she'd taken some drug that accentuated touch. She drew his face slowly toward hers. He closed his eyes, in submission or trust, in an excess of pleasure or fear, she didn't know. But she kissed him, a light and lingering contact.

She pulled her head back a little and looked at him. His eyes opened, his chest rose and fell once, quickly, and he whispered, "You needn't stop, you know."

Every motion she made was slow, as if she'd never before put her arms around a man, and didn't know for certain where everything fit. When at last they were pressed close, she didn't think she'd know how to let go when the time came. They summarized the course of pa.s.sion with kisses: a chaste, half-frightened brush of the lips metamorphosed into something fierce and fast-burning, which in its turn became a more patient, more intimate touch, full of inquiry and shared pleasure.

He held her against him and hid his face in her hair. She heard him whisper something that might have been her name, and she stroked his back. He was trembling a little-with nerves, she knew. She was doing it, too.

"We could have done this long ago," she said at last, her voice wobbling.

He shook his head and murmured, "Not like this, I think."

"No, you're right. Not like this. For a cute guy, you're pretty smart."

He laughed breathlessly and backed off a bit to look at her, smoothed the hair off her forehead with one hand. "All I know of love, I've learned from you, Eddi McCandry. And you've been at pains to teach me since first I saw you."

"I have? Hm. Didn't know that."

"Well, to be honest, neither did I, at the outset." She felt his chest move with silent laughter. "Proof of my ignorance on the subject, surely."

Reluctantly, she remembered her suspicion, that he was playing at being in love. She didn't believe it anymore, not really. But she heard herself asking the hateful question anyway. "How do you know it's love? Maybe you haven't learned anything after all."

She expected a joke, an impa.s.sioned protest, an airy denial. Instead he looked gravely into her face and replied, "I've no surety that it is. I know only the parts of what I feel; I may be misnaming the whole. You dwell in my mind like a household spirit. All that I think is followed with, 'I shall tell that thought to Eddi.' Whatever I see or hear is colored by what I imagine you will say of it. What is amusing is twice so, if you have laughed at it. There is a way you have of turning your head, quickly and with a little tilt, that seems more wonderful to me than the practiced movements of dancers. All this, taken together, I've come to think of as love, but it may not be.

"It is not a comfortable feeling. But I find that, even so, I would wish the same feeling on you. The possibility that I suffer it alone-that frightens me more than all the host of the Unseelie Court."

She was shaken by his eloquence, and humbled. Whatever she'd expected of the phouka, it wasn't this faithful, fearless cataloging of his emotions. Though, now that she thought of it, it was just like him.

Serious and literal-minded when it seemed least likely, when it proved most appropriate. It was like him, too, to love her and admit to it before he knew if she loved him. Maybe only mortals expected to barter their hearts.

Her silence must have been longer than she thought; the phouka touched a finger lightly to her cheek and looked uncertain. "But it's true that I have faced the Dark Court and lived. I suppose I could survive this peril as well, if need be."

"What? Oh-no. I mean..." Eddi faltered and shook her head. "I'm not good at saying this kind of thing. I always sound stupid or too casual or..."

"My poet, betrayed by words?" He smiled crookedly.

"I never said I was a poet. Besides, it's not the same thing. This is public speaking." She smiled weakly and looked at his ruffles. He set his hands on her shoulders, but they were motionless and weightless.

"You've kept me alive for the last three months," Eddi began, groping furiously for the words. "You've made me coffee. You've carried my amplifier." A nervous chuckle escaped her. "And you've been good company. Even when you were being a jerk, you were pretty good company, now that I look back on it."

"But," he said, without inflection.

Eddi looked up at him, alarmed. "But? Oh, h.e.l.l, I told you I was bad at this! No, no buts. You're a wonderful person. Even if you are a supernatural being. Dammit, Phouka, how am I going to tell my mother that I'm in love with a guy who turns into a dog?" She blushed; she could feel it.