Barefoot Season Part 12

She'd known in her head that Mich.e.l.le had traveled to a place of war, had seen terrible things. But killing someone was far beyond what she had ever imagined, let alone experienced. She'd never held a gun in her life, had only seen them in movies and on TV. In her life, guns weren't real and people died of things like car accidents or cancer or old age.

Mich.e.l.le had been raised in the same sheltered place. How had she been able to adjust to the rigors of an overseas deployment? Carly didn't even truly understand what deployment meant. Sure, soldiers went to Afghanistan, and before that they went to Iraq. But how did they get there? Was there a collection point somewhere in the U.S., followed by a flight to Germany or something? What did the planes look like? Were they served meals?

Too many questions, Carly thought. And no answers.

She'd spent the past ten years resenting Mich.e.l.le, hating her for sleeping with Allen and, ironically, missing her. They had been best friends until their senior year of high school. Then the actions of the adults in their lives had split them apart. Nearly a year later, they'd just barely started to come together again as friends when Allen had stepped between them.

For the first time since Mich.e.l.le came back, Carly truly understood that everything about her former friend was different.

This morning Mich.e.l.le had freaked out over a four-year-old little girl. A couple of days ago the same person had helped Gabby overcome her irrational fear of cranes. Gabby had told Carly all about it, had even proved her acceptance by walking onto the lawn and letting the cranes step as close as they wanted.

"As soon as they know I don't have any food with me, they'll go away," her daughter had said with a confidence that was both heartening and startling.

So which Mich.e.l.le was real? Or did they both exist inside of her? Didn't everyone have sides?

Work, she told herself. Better to think about work.

She'd barely clicked on the reservation program when she saw Ellen Snow walk into the lobby.

Ellen, Carly and Mich.e.l.le had been in school together from kindergarten through graduating high school. They'd never been more than casual friends, until Carly's senior year when everything had gone to h.e.l.l. Carly knew she was to blame, accepted that, but honestly, she was tired of feeling guilty every time she saw the other woman. It had been over a decade. At what point did she get a pa.s.s?

"Good morning, Carly," Ellen said as she approached the reception desk.

"Ellen."

The other woman was dressed in cream-colored trousers and a pale blue silk blouse. Carly recognized the sheen on the fabric, knew the tailoring was expensive. Ellen had always had money.

She wore her blond hair back in a headband-an evil Alice in Wonderland, Carly thought. If only she would fall down some rabbit hole and never be seen again. Unfortunately, Carly's luck had never been that good.

"Did she tell you?" Ellen asked, looking smug.

Carly raised her eyebrows and pretended ignorance. Ellen had come to gloat, but Carly was going to make her work for it.

"Did who tell me what?"

"Did Mich.e.l.le explain how close the inn is to foreclosure? How near you are to losing your job and being out on the street? Because when the bank takes over, that's what's going to happen. In case you were wondering."

Carly forced herself to keep on smiling, even as her body went numb. A consequence of a foreclosure she hadn't thought about, she admitted to herself. Because the pa.s.sage of time didn't matter in Ellen's world. She still wanted revenge.

"I wasn't," Carly told her. "I'm not worried. Mich.e.l.le and I have a lot of plans for the inn."

"Because the two of you work so well together."

Carly's smile faded. She was sure her eyes showed her shock, but she did her best to keep her mouth from falling open.

So that was it. Ellen's plan. That's why she'd insisted Carly be kept on. It had nothing to do with Carly's experience at running the inn. The other woman knew their past-everyone on the island did. She'd put them together deliberately and was waiting for them to implode.

"I want to see the reservations for the next two weeks." Ellen's tone was sharp.

"This is in an official capacity?" Carly asked.

"Yes. It is. I'm an officer of the bank, in case you've forgotten."

Carly hadn't.

She tapped the keys, then turned the screen toward Ellen.

"We're fully booked on weekends and nearly so midweek. Don't worry. We'll keep our numbers up."

"Or so you hope," Ellen said, her gaze drifting from the screen. "I wonder what your happy guests would say if they knew the truth about you."

Despite the fact that it wasn't even noon, Carly felt weary. "At some point, most people move on. Maybe the reason you're still single is that you can't let go of the past."

Ellen's pleasant expression slipped, revealing a venomous stare. "You b.i.t.c.h. We all know. You can pretend all you want, play the good mother, but you're still the same s.l.u.t you were back in high school. You'll sleep with the first guy who asks. You've always been that way. We know that's why your husband left. He found out what you are."

Carly took a step back, her face stinging as if she'd been slapped.

In the past few years she'd barely had any contact with Ellen and they hadn't spoken. She had no idea this much rage and resentment still burned inside of her. How many of Ellen's rules for the inn were about business and how many were about revenge?

"Does your board know that for you this is personal?" Carly asked.

The smooth, polite facade slipped back in place. "Don't threaten me. You don't have the skill set. I'm doing everything by the book. But make no mistake-I'll be thrilled when you're done with this town. In fact, I'll even give you a ride."

Mich.e.l.le stood in the kitchen, listening to the rain. She was still damp with sweat from her physical-therapy appointment. Mango's name might be charming but he had a determination that left her gasping and weak-and not in a happy way.

According to Mango, she was getting better. The pain in her hips and trembling in her legs spoke otherwise, but she was willing to reserve judgment. If only she could sleep. But the nights remained long and the dreams ugly.

She reached for the bottle of vodka she'd bought on the way home. Her hands were slick and salty, her grip weak. The bottle slipped and she barely caught it. Heaven was just a sip away, she thought, b.a.s.t.a.r.dizing lyrics from an old country song she barely remembered her mother listening to years and years ago. If only she could get the d.a.m.n bottle open.

"Need some help?" Jared walked into the kitchen and moved toward her.

She hadn't seen much of him since she'd moved in the previous week. She considered that a positive aspect of their nonexistent relations.h.i.+p. Now she watched him warily as he took the bottle from her and easily opened the screw-top.

"Ice?" he asked.

"Sure."

"Mind if I join you?"

She raised her eyebrows. "You drink? I would have figured you to be one of those AA types. Abstaining from alcohol."

He collected two gla.s.ses, then got ice from the freezer door and poured them each about an inch of the clear liquid. He handed her a gla.s.s, then touched his to the side and took a swallow.

"Drinking was never one of my problems."

She took a sip, then another. The familiar icy burn slipped down her throat nice and easy.

"You have other problems?" she asked.

"Doesn't everyone?"

"G.o.d knows I do."

He eyed her over his gla.s.s, then took another drink. "You're not eating much."

"Are you my mother?"

She'd thought the question would p.i.s.s him off, but Jared only smiled-a slow, easy grin that made her wonder why he lived alone in this big house. Why wasn't there some busty brunette in the kitchen and a couple of kids?

"Let me rephrase my statement. You need to eat."

She sighed. "I know."

"Look at that. Concession. And here I thought you were going to tell me you weren't hungry."

"I'm not."

"You are. You look like a skinny, abandoned dog, all bones and sad eyes."

His comment stung, but she kept her expression bland. "You sure know how to turn a girl's head."

"You said you didn't want your head turned. Your exact words were you weren't going to sleep with me."

"You only compliment a woman when you want s.e.x?"

He shrugged. "I'm a guy."

At least he was honest. "Sometimes it's easier to drink."

"It's always easier to drink. That doesn't mean it's the right thing to do. If I get you something, will you eat?"

She wanted to say no but instead she nodded.

"Good. While I'm gone, you can take a shower."

"Are you implying I smell?"

"I'm more than implying."

He set down his drink and headed out the back door. She heard the crunch of his feet on gravel and peeked out the window over the kitchen sink. Jared was walking. At least she didn't have to feel responsible for him driving.

She finished her drink, then made her way back into her room. After closing the bedroom door, she collected fresh clothes, then locked herself in the bathroom and turned on the shower.

Twenty minutes later she was clean and feeling a little better about the state of her life. Her hip still screamed at her and when she moved it felt like the ends of broken bones rubbing together, but the rest of her wasn't too bad. She'd even used a little conditioner on her freshly trimmed hair and had used moisturizer after she'd dried off. At the rate she was going, in a matter of a year or two, she would practically be normal.

She avoided the work clothes she'd bought and tugged on a pair of sweats and a T-s.h.i.+rt. Drying her hair was beyond her so she quickly combed it off her face, then twisted it into a thick braid that hung down her back. Not exactly glamorous, but clean. That should be enough.

She returned to the kitchen to find Jared emptying the contents of a couple of greasy paper bags onto plates.

The smell wafted to her, generating memories-good ones, this time.

"You went to Arnie's?" she asked, her stomach growling for the first time in weeks, maybe months. Hunger replaced tension. "I haven't been there in years. We used to go there all the time in high school."

It was one of the few places she'd visited with her friends. Most of the time she'd been busy working at the inn, but every now and then she made an Arnie's run.

He dumped barbecue-pork sandwiches onto plates. The sauce had already stained the buns. He'd bought baked beans and coleslaw and thick steak-fries.

The table was built into an alcove. Bench seats lined both sides. She slid in, going slowly, trying not to pull her hip. Jared filled tall gla.s.ses with ice and water. She glanced toward the vodka bottle.

"Later," he told her, sitting opposite and handing her the water. "Eat."

She started to complain about his att.i.tude, then figured it wasn't worth the trouble and reached for the sandwich.

The bread was warm and barbecue sauce oozed over her fingers. She took a bite, her teeth sinking into the thick slices of pork. The taste was better than she remembered-tangy and spicy. She chewed and swallowed, then took another bite. Hunger grew until she wanted to inhale every sc.r.a.p of food in front of her.

Jared watched more than he ate, but she didn't care. Let him enjoy the show. While she devoured the sandwich, he scooped beans and coleslaw onto her plate and dumped out most of the fries in front of her.

She ate everything. Every sc.r.a.p of cabbage, each bean, all the fries. She licked her fingers before wiping them on a napkin, then drank the gla.s.s of water in a single gulp.

It was more food than she'd eaten in the past week and at about two in the morning she would probably regret it, but right now she didn't care. She leaned back against the bench and sighed.

"That was good. Thank you."

"You're welcome."

He'd finished his sandwich and had a few fries, but left the rest for her.

"Did you get enough?" she asked. "Did I eat too much of it?"

"I don't want it back now."

She laughed. "Fair enough. What do I owe you?"

"It was a sandwich, Mich.e.l.le. Not a new car. This one's on me."

"Okay. I appreciate it."

The rain started up again. She glanced toward the window and watched the water run down the gla.s.s. In mid-May the days were still cool, even if the sun was setting close to eight at night.

"How's life at the inn?" he asked.

"We're getting busy, which is good. I like being back." She glanced at him. "Mostly."

"What don't you like?"

"Working with Carly. She's someone I knew before."