Secret Thunder Part 7

As she reached toward the night table for the vial's cork, Luke caught a glimpse of dark marks on her inner wrist. She s.n.a.t.c.hed up the cork, but before she could shove it back in the little bottle, he closed a hand over hers.

She gasped, her whole body tensing as he turned her fist so that he could inspect the marks. Clearly, his touch unnerved her, a fact that shamed him. Here he was on his wedding night, and his bride couldn't bear the feel of his hands on her.

Leaning over, his hair falling in his eyes, he ran a fingertip along the silken skin on the underside of her wrist-skin marred by shadowy bruises. She s.h.i.+vered.

He pried her fingers open to retrieve the cork, set it and the vial on the night table, then examined her other wrist, also bruised. She sat perfectly still as he held both her hands in his, stroking his thumbs over the marks. He recalled his brutal handling of her, his absurd accusation that she was trying to kill Alex, and felt only shame for having let the dark beast awaken, if only briefly.

"I..." He looked up and met her apprehensive gaze through errant strands of his hair. What could he tell her? That he'd never hurt her again? Who knew when the beast would next arise from its slumber? For the life of him, he couldn't think what to say to her. How could he rea.s.sure her of his harmlessness when he couldn't rea.s.sure himself?

"It's all right," she said.

"I wish it were."

He felt the frantic pumping of her pulse through his thumbs as they caressed her wrists. Was it the same drumbeat of awareness that pounded through him-or fear? Letting her go, he dampened his fingers with the spirit of rosemary and lifted her right hand, cradling it in his palm.

"This isn't necessary," she protested as he gently ma.s.saged the liniment into her wrist.

"Does it cause you pain?"

"Nay."

"Then allow me this small indulgence."

She lapsed into silence as he ministered to her, his fingertips rough against her smooth skin, even through the film of warm oil. Her pulse still raced, and that pink satin ribbon fluttered continually.

Arousal thrummed within him as he released her right hand and went to work on her left. The urge to lower her onto her back and press his body into hers was almost irresistible. Lady Faithe was a beautiful woman, extraordinarily beautiful, and he'd been without the comfort of a woman's arms during his two months at St. Albans. He also thought he might like to have children, now that his life had taken on some semblance of normality. But he'd never bedded a woman who wasn't entirely and enthusiastically willing. Even wh.o.r.es were eager, if only for the coins in his purse. Not once had he even considered taking a woman who hadn't come to him of her own free will.

Until now.

With a mental shake, he reminded himself that she was his wife. He had every right to bed her. She would expect it. She'd think it strange if he didn't. And he wanted to. G.o.d knew he wanted to.

"My lord?"

He'd been sitting with her hand in his, lost in thought. Abruptly, he released her and dragged his fingers through his hair.

"I'll put this away." Recorking the vial, she got up and tucked it in her medicine box, then replaced the box in the big carved chest. Her keys clattered against the lid as she bent over to latch it. For a fleeting moment her gown dipped open, and he saw her b.r.e.a.s.t.s almost in their entirety-flawless ivory globes, too large to cup with a single hand.

When she returned to bed, Luke said, "Take that off."

She froze, her expression of alarm transforming to something else. Resignation? Antic.i.p.ation? Raising a tremulous hand to the bodice of her nightgown, she began tugging on the pink ribbon.

"Not that." He stilled her hand with a touch, then hooked a finger under the chain hanging around her neck. "This. I don't care to listen to these keys jangling all night."

Her eyes flickered with something that might have been relief, or possibly just puzzlement. "As you wish, my lord." Ducking her head, she pulled the chain off and laid it on the night table, then shook out her l.u.s.trous hair.

As you wish, my lord. Luke had no doubt that, if he climbed on top of Lady Faithe, she would lie still for it. She would consider it her obligation to give in to her husband's needs, and she would grit her teeth and do so. Never mind that her husband was the dreaded Black Dragon, slayer of Saxons, and that she cringed at his very touch. She'd do her duty; if he wanted her, he could have her.

And oh, how he wanted her. But not if she acquiesced simply because she felt she had no choice-or, worse yet, out of fear.

Leaning over the side of the bed, he blew out the candle, immersing the chamber in moonlight. He lay down and adjusted the covers over himself, and Lady Faithe did the same.

For some time they lay side by side in the dark, the only sound their breathing. He absorbed her heat, her scent. He wondered what she was thinking, and how she would react if he took her in his arms.

"Are you afraid of me?" he asked quietly.

Long moments pa.s.sed, and he began to wonder if she'd fallen asleep. Finally, she said, "A little."

A little was enough.

"Good night." He rolled away from her, punching his pillow.

"Good night, my lord," she said presently, and rolled in the other direction.

Chapter 5.

Faithe awoke before dawn, which was not unusual for her, since she required little sleep and generally got up before her staff began rising. She'd thought perhaps she would sleep later this morning, given her wakefulness during the night, but like most farm creatures, she was ruled more by habit and instinct than rationality.

She dressed in the dark so as not to disturb her husband, fast asleep with his back to her. He'd spent a restless night as well; she'd heard him stirring next to her. The bed had felt too small for the two of them. It had never felt so with Caedmon, but then Caedmon, although a good-sized man, hadn't been as large as Sir Luke. Also, she and Caedmon had been used to sleeping together. She didn't know if she'd ever get used to sleeping with the Black Dragon. Once during the night, her foot accidentally brushed his leg, and they both quickly moved away from each other. She'd spent most of the night huddled at the edge of the bed to avoid touching him.

Lifting her keys off the night table slowly, so as to keep them from rattling, she looped the chain around her neck and pulled her hair out from beneath it. Faithe wished he hadn't ordered her to take them off last night. She hated being without them. They made her feel secure and capable. She might look like an unkempt girl, but when people saw the keys, they knew she was a person of consequence, and they treated her as such. Not wearing the keys made her feel incomplete.

She grabbed her medicine box and eased the door open, wondering if Alex had slept well, and whether his poultices had stayed on. He'd insisted that she not check up on him during the night. It was her wedding night, he'd said; she had better things to do than bother with him. And anyway, he was much improved, and would prefer to be left alone than awakened and fussed with. He'd been quite vehement on the subject. When Faithe stepped out onto the landing and looked down into the moonlit main hall, she saw why.

Alex was not alone. Sharing his pallet, as naked as he, was Leola; Faithe knew it was she by her single disheveled braid. They were both asleep, she curled in his embrace with her back to him. The woolen blanket was drawn up only to their waists, revealing Alex's hand cradling one of her b.r.e.a.s.t.s. Her clothes lay strewn in the rushes, where they'd no doubt gotten tossed during the evening's frolics.

Faithe couldn't wrest her gaze from the sleeping couple as she descended the stairs and approached them. Leola, although sound asleep, looked flushed and peaceful. Alex had his face against her hair, his mouth half open. The bandage had come off his head, but at least he was sleeping on his good side. Faithe was both impressed and appalled that he'd taken on Leola in his condition. She hoped he hadn't done himself any permanent damage.

They looked like two of the barn kittens in their box, she thought, standing over them. Faithe missed that physical closeness, the animal comfort of curling up with another warm body. She envied those two that intimacy, regardless of its basis in simple l.u.s.t.

Despite her misgivings at being wed to Sir Luke, part of her had been excited at the prospect of his bedding her. G.o.d help her, there was something strangely seductive about his predatory nature. He provoked the same thrill in her that she'd felt, as a child, when Orrik had tethered a boar to a tree and she'd challenged herself to see how close she could get to the enraged creature without flinching. She'd gotten near enough to stare into its monstrous black eyes, to tremble at its fearsome tusks and choke on its stink. And then, without warning, it had lunged for her, sending her squealing into Orrik's arms.

But there was more to the Black Dragon than the beast for whom he'd been named. There was a man as well, a man who could braid hair and ma.s.sage liniment into bruised wrists, his touch roughly gentle and completely bewitching. He was a creature of contradictions-a fusion of man and beast. When Luke de Perigueux finally saw fit to claim his husbandly rights, she wondered which of the two would do the deed, the man or the beast.

Faithe uncovered and rebuilt the fire, lit a lantern, then leaned down and whispered Leola's name until the young woman stirred, blinking. "Milady?" she muttered groggily.

"'Tis best you get up and get dressed before everyone else is awake."

Nodding, Leola stretched like a cat, her lush body quivering. Alex growled contentedly as Leola arched against him, then he stretched, too. Their resemblance to a boxful of kittens was now complete.

Leola sat up and tried to rise, but Alex, who hadn't yet opened his eyes, caught hold of her braid as it brushed across his face and pulled her down. Curling his arm once more around her, he tucked her into the curve of his body and pulled up the blanket. "Stay," he murmured.

"She can't stay," Faithe said. "She's got to help Cook get breakfast ready."

Alex squeezed one eye open. "Faithe?"

A smile quirked her lips.

He glanced at Leola as she lifted his arm off her and clambered to her feet, indifferent to her rather spectacular nudity. "Awfully sorry about this," he said, his gaze fixed wistfully on Leola.

"No, you're not." Faithe plucked Leola's unders.h.i.+ft off the floor as she stood and handed it to the s.h.i.+vering wench.

"No." Alex grinned boyishly. "I'm not."

"I suppose it's too much to ask that your poultices have survived intact."

"Poultices?" Alex lifted the blanket and peeked beneath it. "I can't imagine what might have become of... ah." He fumbled beneath him and handed her the squashed remains of one of the herbal compresses.

"Thank you," she said dryly as she accepted the offering.

Leola lowered her kirtle over her head, wriggling as she smoothed it down. Alex sighed and grabbed at the hem of her skirt, but she laughingly sidestepped him. s.n.a.t.c.hing her slippers out of the rushes, she balanced first on one foot and then the other to tug them on.

Faithe swiftly laced up the back of Leola's kirtle. "Go bring me a bucket of water, and then see if Ardith needs you."

"Yes, milady."

Alex followed the kitchen wench with his eyes as she dashed out of the hall. "She's got a lot of... vitality. She and her sister both."

Faithe unlocked her medicine box. "How did you happen to choose Leola over Lynette?"

"I didn't. They chose for me. Drew straws or some such. From what I could gather of their conversation-it was all in English, of course-they intend to take turns."

"Seems rather sporting of them."

"Oh, they're very keen on sharing. Do you know, they wanted to have a go at me together?"

"No, really?" Faithe said dryly, the memory still fresh in her mind of coming upon the twins and one of the more strapping plowmen disporting themselves in an empty stall of the barn last summer. "Seems a generous offer."

"Too generous. I turned it down." He grimaced as he s.h.i.+fted position on the pallet. "In my present condition, I doubt I would have lived through it."

"A prudent decision."

Leola returned with the water, then departed, blowing Alex a cheery kiss. Faithe put the water on to warm and set about replacing Alex's poultices. They chatted amiably, but Faithe's mind was elsewhere. She kept thinking back to last night. The more she pondered it, the more perplexed she was that Sir Luke had chosen not to consummate the marriage. Several theories occurred to her, the most discomforting being that his affections lay elsewhere-that there was another woman somewhere to whom he was determined to remain faithful despite his marriage of property to Faithe.

Faithe cleared her throat as she smoothed down the poultice on Alex's hip. "I was wondering something about your brother."

"Aye?"

"He's... well, he's clearly a... well, quite a virile man, and not unattractive. I was thinking that if I were a woman... well, of course I'm a woman, but... that women must find him... that he must have had many... and probably still does... have at least one..."

"Are you asking whether he has a mistress?"

Faithe took a deep breathe and let it out. "Yes."

Alex shook his head. "He never has."

"Never?"

"He's a soldier, Faithe. Or was. Soldiers don't tend to stay in one place long enough to form alliances of that sort. Not that he's inexperienced with women... exactly. He's been with many women. But women of, well, a certain sort. Women who don't expect him to be there in the morning, if you understand my meaning."

"Ah."

Alex smiled. "Yes."

They spoke of other things as she treated the wound to his side, and then moved on to his head. Faithe waited for the opportunity to investigate her other theory about Sir Luke's reluctance to bed her, and when Alex mentioned their family in Perigueux, she pounced.

"Is your family very close?" she asked, easing into the rather awkward question at the heart of the matter.

"Not really. Except for Luke and me. Our mother died when I was very little, and we had a sister, Alienor, who died about ten years ago. I'm the youngest, then there are two sisters-three if you count Alienor-then Luke, then our eldest brother, Christien. Christien inherited our father's estate when he died at Christmastide." Alex executed a perfunctory sign of the cross. "And then there's the son of my father's second wife."

"Just the one child?"

"Aye. Lady Elise seemed to find the production of children distasteful in the extreme. No sooner did my father's seed quicken in her belly than she moved into separate quarters. He spent quite a long time trying to woo her back. Finally, he sought diversion elsewhere, but he wasn't happy about it. After years of lecturing his sons about fidelity in marriage, here he was with a mistress."

Faithe tied off the bandage, appalled at the idea that a woman would choose not to have babies, when she so longed for them. "Are all of your brothers and sisters... healthy?"

"For the most part. Alienor had been very ill before she died. She suffered terribly. Our fool of a chaplain claimed she was possessed."

Faithe grew more alert. "Her mind was affected?"

"Aye, toward the end she was"-he shook his head grimly-"quite out of her senses, and in agony. 'Twas horrible, what she went through. The surgeon said 'twas a fever of the brain, and he bled her every day until my sire put a stop to it. Finally, he found a Moslem physician who seemed to know what was what. He said she had a lump growing inside her head." A knowing look narrowed his eyes. "Why are you interested in this? What are you digging for?"

"Nothing." She hastily packed up her things.

He guffawed, suddenly his old, carefree self again. "You're trying to find out whether there's madness in the family!"

She snapped down the lid of her medicine box. "That's absurd." It was also true. Father Paul had confided to her once that one reason he'd chosen a life of celibacy was to avoid pa.s.sing on the lunacy that had ravaged his family. It was the only rationale Faithe could think of offhand for a landholding knight to opt for a celibate-and therefore childless-marriage. Most men in Sir Luke's position were eager for heirs.

"Rest a.s.sured," Alex gasped out through his laughter, "that the de Perigueux family is remarkably free of any and all interesting specimens, including madmen. Luke has tried to claim that distinction from time to time, but in fact he's the sanest of the whole dreary lot-which is probably why he's so sullen and miserable."

"That's rea.s.suring," she said flatly.

"Aren't you a bit late with these inquiries? You've already gone and married him. There's no way to back out now-short of annulment."

Faithe stilled in the act of locking the medicine box. Annulment. Nonconsummation was grounds for annulment, wasn't it? Could it be that her husband regretted this hastily arranged marriage, and was even now maneuvering for release from his vows? If he refrained from exercising his marital rights, such release should be a simple formality, and then Faithe would be s.h.i.+pped off to some convent, and Hauekleah...

Hauekleah would be his. He'd simply take it from her, as he'd once threatened to. Then he could remarry if he chose. He could make some other woman mistress of Hauekleah. Some other woman would have everything she'd worked so hard to maintain, everything she'd vowed to keep from the Normans, everything she'd sacrificed herself for. She'd offered herself-her very body-to an infamously brutal Norman, and he didn't even want her because he could have Hauekleah without her. Eight hundred years, gone in a heartbeat.

"Faithe?" Alex was propped up on an elbow, studying her with a worried expression as she twisted the emerald ring around and around on her finger. "You've gone white. Are you ill?"

"Nay," she breathed, although she felt as if her insides had contracted into a single hot coal in her stomach.