Love Mercy Part 5
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Mel smiled. "Hippies? I think you're about thirty years behind. No, make that forty years."
He peered at her through sharp, sky blue eyes. "You said it, girlie. And times were better back then too."
"I wouldn't know. I was still five years away from being born."
"Trust me, times were better." He looked past her, his cheeks drawing inward.
She didn't argue with him, but wanted to say, not better, August. You were just younger and so was Polly. Your son was still alive, and the world was full of hope.
"I'll get to that fence," she said, glancing at her watch. One thirty. "Probably take me until suppertime."
"Fence?" His face looked genuinely confused.
Her chest felt like it held a brick. "Over by Tripod Hill. It needs fixing."
"Does? Then you'd best take a flashlight with you. And Ring. I'd go with you myself if I wasn't so stoved up."
"That's okay. I think Polly might need your help inside. She said something about getting the Christmas decorations down from the attic."
"Guess we should go looking for a tree." He poked the dry ground with his walking stick. "Darn Christmas. Seems like we just had one."
"We did," Mel said, smiling. "About a year ago."
His grin was as mischievous as a young boy's. "So, why do we need to do it again?"
"Who knows? But I'll cut down a pine tree on my way back from fixing that fence. I think I saw one a good one a few weeks ago."
"Fence?" he asked. "What fence?"
SIX.
Love Mercy Love and Rett's ten-minute walk from the b.u.t.tercream to Love's house was mostly silent and definitely awkward.
"Are you sure I can't carry something?" Love asked Rett again. She'd offered when they stepped out of the cafe, but her granddaughter refused any help, even though the banjo case and backpack looked heavy.
"I'm sure." Rett s.h.i.+fted the awkward case to her other hand, switching places with her backpack.
Love was curious about her granddaughter's trip, about who'd given her rides, but when she gently quizzed her, Rett was evasive in that frustrating way that adolescents perfected from the minute their hormones starting churning. That shouldn't have surprised her. Though Tommy had been an uncomplicated child to raise, even he had his moments when a veil dropped over his eyes and he refused to relate to anyone except his friends.
After they'd used up the spa.r.s.e conversation about her trip, Love fell back on that always dependable subject, weather. She told Rett that it might be a damper cold than she was used to in Tennessee, but that Love had many sweats.h.i.+rts and jackets she could use.
"Thanks," Rett replied, stopping again to reposition her grip.
When Love opened the door to her house, Ace, after sniffing Rett's outstretched hand, instantly attached himself to her, shadowing her like a pesky younger brother.
"Would you look at that?" Love said. "You know, he's usually a bit standoffish with strangers. I think he knows you're family."
A small smile softened Rett's serious face. Love immediately wished she had her camera so she could photograph the moment. She stared down at the fawning dog. It was odd how Ace warmed up to her right away. Could he smell Love and Cy's DNA on Rett?
Love gave her a quick tour of her three-bedroom house, telling her that it was one of Morro Bay's oldest beach cottages, built at the turn of the twentieth century. "Back in 1968 when your granddad replaced some boards in the built-in bookcase next to the fireplace, he found some old letters. One was addressed to someone named Liberty from a man named Jim and was obviously a love letter. When I showed it to one of our older members of the county historical society-she was ninety-six back then-she said, 'I didn't know she was dating Jim!' Apparently, Liberty had been one of her best friends back in the thirties, and Jim was married to someone else at the time." The words tumbled out of Love's mouth like rocks down a hillside.
Rett's expression was polite but slightly bored.
"Well, never mind that," Love said, embarra.s.sed that she'd sounded like a historical home tour guide. "Here's the guest room. Make yourself at home. I use the bathroom off the master bedroom, so the hall bathroom is all yours."
Rett glanced up at her, and then back down at the glossy oak floor. "Thanks." Ace sat down on the trout-shaped rug next to the maple bed.
"Ace, give her some s.p.a.ce," Love scolded the dog in a good-natured tone.
"He can stay," Rett said, bending down to run her hand down his long back. "I like him."
"Okay, then." Love waited, not sure what to do.
Rett nodded, closing the door softly.
Love stood in the hallway, trying to sort out the questions running through her mind. How long did Rett plan to stay? Did Karla Rae know she was here? Was her granddaughter in some kind of trouble? She walked over to the living room window that looked out at the backyard and, farther out, the bay and the Pacific Ocean. Her house was old and small, so not much that happened inside the rooms was private. She could hear Rett's settling-in noises, the toilet flus.h.i.+ng, the opening and closing of closet doors. After the last thirteen months alone, hearing human sounds other than her own in this house was odd, both comforting and unsettling.
"Oh, Cy," she whispered, watching the whitecaps dance on the gray blue water. "I wish you were here to see your granddaughter. She's beautiful."
For a moment, a lit match of anger flared behind her eyes. "You could have been here." In the next instance, remorse extinguished the flame. She hadn't had these feelings in months. Something about seeing Loretta-Rett, she corrected herself-brought back all the pain of losing Cy, of the one argument she'd had with him about the cancer. That's how she'd referred to it: The Cancer. Not his cancer. She never wanted him to take it as his own, like if they didn't give it a p.r.o.noun, it couldn't become real. It couldn't overcome him. Couldn't steal him from her.
Except it did. And the disease caused her to do things, feel things that she'd regret the rest of her life. She couldn't forget the day he confessed to her that he was tired of fighting, that he wanted to stop treatment, he wanted to just go home. At first, she thought he meant their house in Morro Bay. But his next sentence made it all too clear.
They were in the hallway of the medical center in San Celina. The doctor had said they could try again, another round of chemo and radiation, but the chances of remission were slim and, in his weakened state, the side effects would be even rougher this time.
"Love," he said. "It's time. I want to see Tommy."
"No," she'd lashed out, exhausted by months of inadequate sleep, worry over his pain and struggles with hospitals, doctors, pharmacies and insurance companies. All the nights on the Internet, reading through websites, Listservs, chat room archives, looking for some hope in this vast inner s.p.a.ce of souls.
"Please," he'd said. That was all. Just please.
Like a spoiled five-year-old she'd pressed her hands over her ears. She knew what he was asking. "No, no, no," she said and walked away from him. She couldn't . . . wouldn't give him what he wanted. Permission to leave her. How could she bring herself to give him that? How could he ask that of her? If he left, she would have no one. She ran out of the building, leaving him there.
He found her three blocks away sitting on a curb in front of a taco stand popular with Cal Poly students. He sat down beside her and, without a word, took her hand and kissed her palm, his lips chapped and dry. It was his customary way of asking for her forgiveness.
"Okay," she whispered, staring into the gutter, unable to meet his eyes.
She called hospice the next day, and the focus of their life moved from helping him live to helping him die. To this day, she regretted that she never apologized to him for making that moment harder than it had to be. She never said she was sorry for behaving so selfishly. But, the truth was, she never stopped being angry. G.o.d forgive her, but she couldn't help wondering if he'd just hung in there, something would have happened, he would have conquered the cancer. He would be here to see his granddaughter.
She shook her head, trying to dislodge her troubling thoughts and concentrate on the joy of seeing Rett again.
It was disconcerting to see this almost grown woman in the place of the four-year-old burned into her memories. So many years lost. Love closed her eyes and tried to recall the particular things she remembered about Rett. The last time she saw her, she was playing with stuffed animals; Love vaguely remembered a pink and black skunk named Lily. Rett carried it with her everywhere, even throwing a little tantrum when Karla Rae wouldn't let her take it to Tommy's funeral. Or was that Patsy? The two girls, so close in age, blended in Love's memories, despite the fact that physically they'd been very different. Patsy was tall and redheaded, like Love. Rett was shorter, thin, but solid-boned, like Polly.
Polly and August. Heavenly stars, it just occurred to her that she needed to call them. They'd want to know right away that their great-granddaughter was in town. Polly had mourned the lack of relations.h.i.+p almost as much as Love had, though August had been more pragmatic.
"You marry a person, you marry everything that ever happened to them," August had stated bluntly after hearing what happened at Tommy's funeral. They'd wanted to come, but Polly had been recovering from a hysterectomy. "Tommy didn't look close enough at what kind of history he was taking on."
There were a thousand things Love longed to ask Rett about so she could fill in the gaps of the last fourteen years. But how and when should she do that?
First things first. She turned away from the window and picked up the telephone. Polly and August would never forgive her if she didn't tell them about Rett right away. Gossip flew around this town faster than a sea otter. She should have called the minute Magnolia told her about Rett.
She'd dialed the first three numbers, when the guest room door flew open. She set the phone back down.
"All settled in?" she asked, walking toward Rett.
Rett stood in the bedroom's doorway, her cheeks flushed a dark pink; a stricken expression covered her face. Behind her, the contents of her backpack were strewn across the Ocean Waves quilt, a Christmas present from Polly ten years ago.
Love's mother instincts kicked in. "Are you all right?"
Rett's eyes blinked rapidly. "I . . . I . . . it's . . ." The stutter caused her to clamp her lips tightly. She took a deep breath and spoke slowly. "I guess I didn't realize what time of the month . . . Is there a drugstore . . . ?"
"Oh." Love let out a sigh of relief. The girl had started her period. That crisis was one Love could handle. "The drugstore is over by the highway. I can drive there in five minutes. Any certain brand?"
Rett shook her head, her face still red. "Any is fine. Tampons, that is."
"I'm sorry I don't have any here. It's been years since I've had to worry about that."
Rett let out a small huff of air. "Lucky."
Love shrugged. "There's good and bad with both, like most things. Make yourself at home. There's food and drinks in the kitchen. I've got cable, more channels than I'll watch in a lifetime. I don't know how to find most of them, but I'm sure you can figure it out. How about steak for dinner? I have a couple in the freezer." She brought a hand up to her cheek. "If you're vegetarian, I can always make macaroni and cheese. Or if you don't eat dairy . . ." Why was fixing someone dinner so hard anymore?
Rett held up her hand. "I'm not a vegan. Steak is fine."
"Then, I'll be off. Like I said, make yourself at home."
Rett hesitated, then said, "Okay."
At Goody's Drug Supermart, Love wandered up and down the womAen's personal care aisle, not certain what brand to buy. The tinny sound of Christmas Muzak-"Santa Claus Is Coming to Town"-played over the store's PA system. At fifty-eight, it had been years since she'd bought these products. She paused in front of a display of brightly colored boxes, the brand a familiar name. Someone had placed a small, neatly written flag under the flowery boxes. Great Stocking Stuffer!
Who in the world would consider a box of tampons a stocking stuffer? Was that a joke? She chose a box that had a young-looking design, hoping it would be the right one. She already had every kind of pain medication at home if Rett had cramps. What else did one need at that time of month? A hot water bottle? No, that was old-fas.h.i.+oned, something her mother used to do back in Kentucky, before pharmaceuticals rescued them all. Still, when she walked down another aisle, she saw a display of hot water bottles and bought one on a whim. It came with a pink flannel cover decorated with little red hearts. She added a navy blue sweats.h.i.+rt, size small, with a discreet Morro Bay, California, embroidered on the chest in light blue thread. Maybe Rett had a thing about borrowing clothes. Maybe she'd think anything that Love had would be too old ladyish, even though she bought most of her clothes from Columbia and L.L. Bean. Weren't their styles ageless?
Standing in the checkout line, she gazed down at her purchases. They would be the first gifts she'd given to her granddaughter in fourteen years: a box of tampons, a hot water bottle and a sweats.h.i.+rt. What did they signify? She was always looking at how things connected, what they looked like on the surface as compared to what they really meant. A photo and column about gifts and what they symbolized started forming in her head. She loved the idea of using the offbeat sign describing the tampons as a great stocking stuffer. But she could never use these particular details. Imagine the embarra.s.sment of a teenage girl's grandmother writing about tampons. Love would write a column about presents, but it could not include the things that actually inspired the essay.
It struck her with a pang how meager these gifts were. Would Rett stay long enough to celebrate Christmas? Maybe Love could do better if she stayed through the holidays. Christmas was only a few weeks away, but surely she would discover some hint as to what her granddaughter would like. Something to do with her banjo? The thought of shopping for someone she was related to by blood, her granddaughter, filled her with an inexplicable joy and an equal feeling of panic.
On the drive back, she turned on the radio. The local oldies station was playing "Moon River," one of Cy's favorite songs, one of the songs that Magnolia performed at his funeral. Love hummed the melody, and when the song came to the words "my huckleberry friend," her eyes didn't tear up like they would have yesterday. Instead, she sang them softly out loud, her heart more hopeful than it had been in a long time.
SEVEN.
Rett I have to talk fast," Rett said to Lissa, her best friend and the only person in Knoxville who knew where she was. "I only have seventeen minutes left on my cell phone."
Lissa had given Rett the cell phone as a good-bye gift. It was one of those kind you can buy at Wal-Mart where you can add minutes, if you had the money. Rett had started out with sixty minutes.
"What's the deal with California?" Lissa asked.
"It's foggy. The Pacific Ocean is really cool."
"What about your grandmother?"
Rett paused, choosing her words carefully. "She's okay. Kinda nervous. She totally knows everyone in town. It's like some kind of back-in-the-day TV show. She seems okay, but you never can tell."
"For sure." Her friend's voice was knowing. "Sometimes the ones who act the nicest are the ones you have to watch out for." Lissa's mother and father had been married seven times between them. She was experienced getting to know new people. Right now, she lived with her dad. "So, do you think you'll stay?"
"I don't know, but at least I have a place to stay for tonight. I may go to L.A. in a few days."
"Sweet," Lissa said. "Maybe I'll hit my dad up for some bucks and fly out to see you."
Rett glanced nervously at the clock next to the bed. "My time is running out. Has my mom called again?"
"Like only fifty times. It's so funny. She's even called my dad to tell him to tell me to tell her where you are. Like I'd even listen to what he says."
"Thanks. I just don't want to talk to her right now. Don't give her this phone number. Or Dale either. Promise."
"Okay, okay, I hear you."
Rett sat down on the bed, leaned over and ran her hand down Ace's silky head. "She has an awesome dog. His name is Ace. He's a corgi."
"If you get stuck and need money, just call me. I can squeeze some out of my dad if I have to. He's dating a girl only five years older than me and feels all guilty. Ha, I'm like, who cares? Buy me a Wii and I'll feel better."
"What's her name?"
"Ashley Clarabelle. Can you believe it? I call her Ghastly Clarasmell. She was a runner-up for Miss Apple Fritter or Miss Catfish Queen or something stupid. She weighs, like, thirty pounds. My dad's a freak."
"I'll try and call you tomorrow."
"Okay, kiss a surfer dude for me."
"You wish. I'm out." Rett punched the End b.u.t.ton.
She wandered into the gla.s.sed-in sunroom, taking the time alone in her grandma's house to try to figure her out. It reminded Rett of one of those reality shows she kind of liked, something like Trading Spouses. At the beginning of the show, both mothers go through each other's houses before the new family comes home. The snarky things the women said about each other always cracked Rett up. But more often than not, the first impressions the women had of each other were so right.
The tiny sunroom that faced the bay held a desk with a computer and an office chair on one end, an overstuffed chair in a leafy pattern, a small end table and a lamp on the other. A pile of books was neatly stacked on the end table. She picked up the top book. It showed a bunch of photographs by somebody named Dorothea Lange. They were pretty awesome, even though they were black-and-white and were mostly of tired-looking poor people in overalls and old-timey flowered dresses. Next to the books was a framed photo that someone had taken of Ace and a sailboat. He was in the backyard staring out to sea, and the photographer had framed the sailboat using the corgi's triangular ears. It was a cool effect, like the camera was sitting on the dog's back.
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