Embassytown Part 23

"Play another," Bren said. EzCal spoke thinly to us about some other nonsense. The Ariekei looked at each other. I am not . . . I am not . . . another said. another said.

I picked up another and made EzCal mutter the importance of maintaining medical supplies, and still only those two reacted. The others listened with nothing more than curiosity. I tried more, and while Dub and Rooftop stiffened the altered Ariekei made querying noises at EzCal's ridiculous expositions.

"What happened?" YlSib stuttered. "Something's happened to them."

Yes. Something in the new language. New thinking. They were signifying now-there, elision, slippage between word and referent, with which they could play. They had room to think new conceptions.

I threw the chips to them, laughing, and they began to go through them. Our clearing was filled with overlapping voices of Ez and Cal.

"We changed Language," I said. A sudden change-it couldn't undo. "There's nothing to . . . intoxicate them." There only ever had been because it was impossible, a single split thinkingness of the world: embedded contradiction. If language, thought and world were separated, as they just had been, there was no succulence, no t.i.tillating impossible. No mystery. Where Language had been there was only language: signifying sound, to do things with and to.

The Ariekei sifted the datchips, listening with disbelief at how they heard what they heard. That's what I think. Spanish Dancer remained bent, but its eyes looked up at me. Perhaps it knew now, in ways it could not have done before, that what it heard from me were words. It listened.

"Yes," I said, "yes," and Spanish Dancer cooed and, harmonising with itself, said: "[image]"

27.

ONE BY ONE as the night went on the Ariekei withdrew, and one by one they began to make terrible sounds. I fretted about the noise, but what could we do? Spanish Dancer, Baptist, Duck, Toweller, all but Dub and Rooftop, which looked on without a sc.r.a.p of comprehension, went through what sounded like agonies. They didn't all call out or scream, but all of them in different ways seemed as if they were dying. as the night went on the Ariekei withdrew, and one by one they began to make terrible sounds. I fretted about the noise, but what could we do? Spanish Dancer, Baptist, Duck, Toweller, all but Dub and Rooftop, which looked on without a sc.r.a.p of comprehension, went through what sounded like agonies. They didn't all call out or scream, but all of them in different ways seemed as if they were dying.

YlSib was alarmed, but seemed neither Bren nor I were surprised by what we heard: the noise of old ways coming off in scabs. Pangs of something finis.h.i.+ng, and of birth. Everything changes now: I thought that very explicitly, each word. I thought: Now they're seeing things.

In the beginning was each word of Language, sound isomor-phic with some Real: not a thought, not really, only self-expressed worldness, speaking itself through the Ariekei. Language had always been redundant: it had only ever been the world. Now the Ariekei were learning to speak, and to think, and it hurt.

"Shouldn't we . . . ?" Yl said, and had nothing with which to finish it.

The said was now not-as-it-is. What they spoke now weren't things or moments anymore but the thoughts of them, pointings-at; meaning no longer a flat facet of essence; signs ripped from what they signed. It took the lie to do that. With that spiral of a.s.sertion-abnegation came quiddities, and the Ariekei became themselves. They were worldsick, as meanings yawed. Anything was anything, now. Their minds were sudden merchants: metaphor, like money, equalised the incommensurable. They could be mythologers now: they'd never had monsters, but now the world was all chimeras, each metaphor a splicing. The city's a heart, I said, and in that a heart and a city were sutured into a third thing, a heartish city, and cities are heart-stained, and hearts are city-stained too.

No wonder it made them sick. They were like new vampires, retaining memories while they sloughed off lives. They'd never be cured. They went quiet one by one, and not because their crisis ended. They were in a new world. It was the world we live in.

"YOU HAVE TO show the others," I said to Spanish Dancer. Rudely interrupted its birth. It deserved a different pa.s.sage but we had no time. It listened in its queasy awe and newness. "The deaf ones. You can talk to them. They think they're beyond language at all, but you, you can show them what they've done." show the others," I said to Spanish Dancer. Rudely interrupted its birth. It deserved a different pa.s.sage but we had no time. It listened in its queasy awe and newness. "The deaf ones. You can talk to them. They think they're beyond language at all, but you, you can show them what they've done." Language was never possible. We never spoke in one voice. Language was never possible. We never spoke in one voice.

In the sun, we saw figures kilometres off. Humans rattling slowly towards us. Small s.h.i.+ps went overhead, heading back toward the city. "Look," Bren said. "That one's wounded."

As we got closer we could see that there weren't many Terre, maybe thirty or forty, hauling equipment or urging on slapdash-looking biorigging, rocking in cars. We saw them see us, and for a moment they seemed to be preparing weapons. Then they calmed.

"They must have seen this lot first," Bren said of the Ariekei with us. "Thought it was an attack. But with us here they think we're an Emba.s.sytown squad. They're plantation staff." Wilderness dwellers who had only now cleared their homesteads and outland farmfactories. They'd been in the path of the Language-less army and lost their nerve as the Absurd came at their lands killing all the humans they met and tearing their houses to the ground, murdering or recruiting the country Ariekei alongside which the Terre had lived.

More boats went overhead. They would probably not look long enough to see the Ariekei in our party, or that we were heading in the wrong direction. In fact they wouldn't notice us at all: they were busy returning to the city. Several of the vessels, I could see, were bleeding.

Spanish Dancer whispered, called the humans things it couldn't have called them before. It was paying close attention, as it had for hours, to our captive.

We avoided the refugees. "Depending how fast the Absurd are going," Bren said, "we'll reach them tomorrow or the next day. Probably the next day-what is that, Muhamday, Ioday?" None of us had any idea.

"What about the Emba.s.sytowners?"

"We've avoided them. I think we went past them. They'll still be stationed. Especially-" He pointed at the sky. "You saw the boats. The scouts've been wounded. EzCal knows they can't win. They'll have Ariekei and Terre at the front trying to negotiate."

"Yeah, they're not going to succeed, though," Yl said.

"They won't," Bren said. "How can they? They don't think the same at all."

"Spanish understands what we have to do," I said. "Have you seen how it's being with the captive? It knows they are are thinking the same, now. That they're both thinking the same, now. That they're both thinking thinking."

IT WAS A VERY new ecosystem to us, there with the spa.r.s.e trees, where we watched Spanish and the other Ariekei work. Here the key predator was not the new ecosystem to us, there with the spa.r.s.e trees, where we watched Spanish and the other Ariekei work. Here the key predator was not the[image] , with its big, nearly immobile body and limbs that could reach fast and far through trees, but fast , with its big, nearly immobile body and limbs that could reach fast and far through trees, but fast[image] that hunted by night. Vaguely related to the Ariekei themselves, the rear two limbs of the bipedal that hunted by night. Vaguely related to the Ariekei themselves, the rear two limbs of the bipedal[image] were ferocious weapons, as, of a more manipulable kind, was the arm that corresponded to the giftwing. were ferocious weapons, as, of a more manipulable kind, was the arm that corresponded to the giftwing.[image] fanwings were immobile. They peered through the dark with eyes attuned to motion. They were social hunters. They worked in concert to corral the dog-sized prey-animals of the plain. fanwings were immobile. They peered through the dark with eyes attuned to motion. They were social hunters. They worked in concert to corral the dog-sized prey-animals of the plain.

We were too large for them to come for us, but they still watched. Flying things skittered at our torches: burrowing eaters of phosph.o.r.escent rot, used to honing in on glowing ground, emerged and gnawed confused at the pooled light.

We didn't take the leash off our prisoner-we didn't trust it or know how to decide if it became trustable. But we'd been treating it with less fear for days, and did so with even less now. The new ex-Host liars regarded it, and whispered to each other in words they'd used countless times, that now did very different things. By early morning something was changing. The Ariekei were circling the captive. It wasn't gasping or lunging at them, or at me, or Bren or YlSib: it was watching us, and watching the other Ariekei.

28.

SPANISH D DANCER and our captive circled. The others ringed them. Every few seconds one of the two would shove out its giftwing like a knife-fighter looking for an opening. It would sketch out some outline in the air: there would be a pause and the other would follow suit. Spanish's fanwing frilled open and shut. The Languageless's stub trembled. and our captive circled. The others ringed them. Every few seconds one of the two would shove out its giftwing like a knife-fighter looking for an opening. It would sketch out some outline in the air: there would be a pause and the other would follow suit. Spanish's fanwing frilled open and shut. The Languageless's stub trembled.

The gesticulations were information, motion telegrams. Talking. They didn't understand each other but they knew there was something to understand. And that was liberation. When they did make communication-something ridiculous, Spanish throwing a pulpy bud then pointing into the muttering wildlife where it lay, and the Absurd picking it up-their euphoria, even alien, was palpable.

Signifying Spanish could speak through gesture now. For our captive that no longer had a name, perhaps the strangeness was greater. It had thought that without words, it had no language. Its comrades communicated with each other, never knowing they did, not across the chasm with untorn Ariekei; and mostly what they expressed to each other was the very hopelessness that made them believe they were incommunicado.

But in the panic of the attack and our escape, it had understood shove-and-point instructions to flee. It had watched Bren, YlSib and me speak and listen to each other with gestures for stress and clarity. The rest of the Absurd army never had to reflect on these behaviours. Spanish had learnt it could speak without speaking: the Absurd had learnt that it could speak, and listen, at all.

"They were yanking it around," Bren said. "It was impossible for it not to know what they meant: they were shoving it and pointing the same way. They made madeit obey them. Maybe you need violence for language to take."

"Bren," I said. "That's c.r.a.p. We were all running the same way. We were all all trying to get out. We had the same intentions. That's how it knew what we were doing." trying to get out. We had the same intentions. That's how it knew what we were doing."

He shook his head. Formally, he said, "Language is the continuation of coercion by other means."

"Bulls.h.i.+t. It's cooperation." Both theories explained what had happened plausibly. I resisted, because it felt trite, saying that they weren't as contradictory as they sounded.

"Look," I said. Pointed above the horizon. There was smoke, stains in the sky.

"IT CAN'T CAN'T BE BE," Bren said, as if to himself, as we moved as fast as we could. "They were going to wait." He said it more than once. When specks appeared far off on the lichened downs, we pretended that there were many things they might be, until we came too close to deny that they were bodies.

We looked down an incline to the aftermath of war. Thousands of metres of remains. I was breathing very hard, through my aeoli, in horror. At this distance the specificities of carnage were hard to gauge. I was trying to estimate Terre versus Absurd, but the death was too tangled. In any case, many of the Ariekene corpses I saw must be EzCal's forces, like the humans with which they lay.

We led our not-quite-captive. It was in its collar but we hadn't shocked it for kilometres. Spanish Dancer drummed its hoofs. It looked at me and opened its mouths. It pointed at the ruination. It opened and closed its mouths and said to me: "[image]"

"Yes."

"[image]."

"Yes. Too late." We had not taught it that.

"[image]."

STRUNG OUT, artificially, druggedly alert, there was an unpleasant drag to my senses, as if things I saw or heard left residue when I turned from them. My aeoli mask in a rare reminder of its biorigged life s.h.i.+fted, uncomfortable at the smell of the dead. Everywhere were men and women burst open. There were Ariekei dead with fanwings and without, strewn together. Innards evolved on opposite ends of s.p.a.ce alloyed in compound decay. There were corpse-fires and rubbish.

Wrecks. The aftermath was scored by lines of char culminated in craters, where fliers had come down. Bren sifted through junk, hands wrapped in rags. I copied him. It wasn't quite so hard as I'd expected.

This had all happened perhaps two days before. These scenes made me careful and cold. I didn't look too close at the faces of the scores of Emba.s.sytowner dead. I was too certain I'd see one I knew. Picking through remnants between those smoke pillars I tried to learn the history of the fight. There were many more Emba.s.sytown-and-city dead than Absurd. Fighters lay mid-action, in mouldering stasis, hands and giftwings and weapons still on each other. We read these corpse dioramas for the stories of their creation.

"They have corvids," I said. Strategising without speech, the Absurd were driving biorigged weapons. "Jesus," I said. "Jesus it's an army army, I mean it's an army army."

Shockingly few combatants were left alive. A few mortally wounded Ariekei cycled their legs in the air, craning eyes. One cried out in Language, telling us that it was wounded. Spanish Dancer touched its giftwing. The Absurd moribund were dying with too much focus to notice us. On some I saw the bleed from fanwings newly excised-there were new recruits to that force even among the dying.

Pinioned under Ariekene dead was a woman still just alive, her broken aeoli wheezing oxygen into her. She looked at Bren and me as we tried to calm her and ask her, "What happened here?" But she only stared, terrified or air-starved out of speech. At last we laid her back down and gave her water. We couldn't move her; her aeoli was dying. We found two others alive: one man couldn't be woken; the other was conscious only of his impending death. All we got from him was that the Absurd had come.

Bren indicated ripped uniforms. "These are specialists." He pointed at runnels out of the battlefield. "This wasn't . . . These were outriders, this was a guard group, around something, that came in first."

"The negotiators," I said. He nodded slowly at me.

"Of course, yes. The negotiators. This was supposed to be a b.l.o.o.d.y parley. They gave it a try. My G.o.d." He looked at the remnants around us. "The Languageless didn't even slow."

"And now they're heading for the rest." For the main ma.s.s of the Terre-Ariekei army.

WE HAD TO double back. We took an abandoned vehicle, cleaned the mess of war out of it. We sped along the cut through the marks of thousands of hooves. I was pressed against the Ariekei. Spanish and Baptist were crowding around the Absurd. They were sketching marks in the air, and the captive, if I could still describe it so, was doing the same. double back. We took an abandoned vehicle, cleaned the mess of war out of it. We sped along the cut through the marks of thousands of hooves. I was pressed against the Ariekei. Spanish and Baptist were crowding around the Absurd. They were sketching marks in the air, and the captive, if I could still describe it so, was doing the same.

It wasn't long before we saw a line of figures. Bren stiffened. I knew how weak our plan was, but we had no choice. "It's alright," I said. "They're Terre."

A big, dirty derelict band, dressed like penitents, a trudging little town. There were children among them. They looked at us through their masks. They were as intense as monks, too. Some backed away, muttered among themselves. A few temporary leaders came closer, and a few soldiers, refugee from that ruination, in scorched uniforms.

The Ariekei stayed back. They kept the self-deafened close, disguised its injury. The humans told us they'd run from the depredations of the Absurd, from pioneer homesteads and bio-rigging farms. This was everyone running: they'd found each other. Been joined by the AWOL and soldiers from defeated units. They were behind their attackers now, were following them to the city, like those prey-fish that seek safety in their predator's wake. They had no plans, only the vague sense that this might keep them alive a few days longer. Their pa.s.sage in the tracks of the enemy was a despairing homage to their own defeat.

A militia-man told us, "We were with Ariekei. Leaders. The most eloquent, I suppose. There to communicate. We were there to protect them, the negotiators, give them s.p.a.ce, time, when they were trying to get through to . . ." The soldiers had been instructed to do whatever was necessary while the Ariekene speakers struggled to make the Absurd understand them. "They were trying to talk talk to them." to them."

"How?" I said.

"No how." I thought he'd said know-how know-how and didn't understand. and didn't understand.

"There was no how," he said. "We wondered. We could see the Absurd coming; they had fliers and weapons and vehicles, and there were thousands of them. We wondered what it was the Ariekei were planning. What they'd cooked up. It was only, Jesus . . . They got ready by listening to EzCal on datchip. A couple of us in the unit understand Language . . ." He paused at that inadvertent present tense. ". . . They told me what EzCal was saying, in the recordings. 'You must make them understand.' Again and again. In all different ways. 'You must speak to them so they understand you.'" The man shook his head. "That's what they got high on. When the Absurd came, they shouted at them through loudspeakers."

"But they're deaf," I said. He shrugged. The wind sent his greasy hair rippling from under his battered helmet.

"We sent some of them out to meet . . . the enemy . . . close. Their plan must have been . . . Well, the Absurd just came through them. To us." There'd been no plan at all. I looked at Bren. There'd been no secret strategy: only the knowledge of what had to happen, with no idea how.

"They tried to do it by fiat," Bren said. The G.o.d-drug had hoped their ineluctable instructions would carry this. What despairing deity.

"Jesus," I said. "Do you think they thought it would work?" There were a lot of dead back there. "Where are the rest of your army?" I said. "EzCal's army?"

The man shook his head. "Most of them . . . us . . . never wanted to fight," he said. "They wanted to beg. But they can't even. Beg. Can't make them hear. They're retreating back to the city. Getting behind the blockades." He shook his head slowly. "Those won't stop them," he said. There was nothing between the Absurd army and the city, and Emba.s.sytown.

The refugees watched us go. Told us it was in the wrong direction and shrugged when we ignored them. They gestured goodbye and good luck with a kind of dead politeness, a strange courtesy. At the edges of the ma.s.s, those most monkish ones watched us with hostility I'm certain most of them couldn't have explained.

We travelled in their hoof-churnings, and stalked the Absurd from just beyond their sight. From thickets, from behind rises. It rained. We sprayed muck. It didn't seem to get very dark that night; it was as if the stars and Wreck were s.h.i.+ning unnaturally, so I could lean against Spanish Dancer and watch it sketch hand signs with the Ariekes that was no longer a prisoner, and I could see the grey landscape.

When dawn came, there were a few cams around us, gadding spastically. Intel-gatherers for the army, still transmitting. Our sound and motion attracted them, and they paced with us in a flitting corona. I looked straight into the lens of one, through the air to someone watching in Emba.s.sytown.

We could hear the Absurd, now. They were just one segment of landscape over. The cams swarmed suddenly away, over flora and geography. A corvid flew close overhead on some frantic wartime job, and we had to hope it had not seen us, that we wouldn't be eradicated, so close.

THERE WERE NO secret ways we could ensure a smaller group of Absurd would find us, no ways we could split one section of their expedition from the others. Each Languageless thought itself alone, though we knew that wasn't true. The closest this huge vengeful ma.s.s would have to generals would be its unspeaking vanguard. We pa.s.sed their flank, hidden by landscape, and made our way to a place they'd find us. secret ways we could ensure a smaller group of Absurd would find us, no ways we could split one section of their expedition from the others. Each Languageless thought itself alone, though we knew that wasn't true. The closest this huge vengeful ma.s.s would have to generals would be its unspeaking vanguard. We pa.s.sed their flank, hidden by landscape, and made our way to a place they'd find us.

Finally, stinking in our suits, we left the vehicle. I was strongly conscious of what a scene we must have been. Four Terre. Me at the front. Behind me Bren, tense and ready. The marks of the journey had made YlSib easy to tell apart. They stood beside each other, each with a weapon poised.

The Ariekei. Ranged in a curve around us, as if they made up our group's fanwing. Spanish Dancer was closest to me, and watched me with several of its eyes.

At the centre of the group stood the untethered Languageless. The thing that was no longer our enemy looked from one to another of its Ariekene companions. It made a motion with its giftwing. One by one most of the other Ariekei responded in a similar way. It made me a bit breathless to see.

There were two that didn't. Dub and Rooftop watched the motions of their companions. Nothing they could understand was occurring.

Spanish Dancer said to me: "[image]." I stared a while, and at last nodded. "You will," I said. "We will. They will."

"[image]," it said. Two noises came out of it that meant nothing to me. It said something rapidly in Language, and its companions, and Yl and Sib and Bren looked up sharply.[image] tried again. " tried again. "[image]," it said to me. I was silent. What could I say?

THE FIRST OF the Absurd came. Fliers squalled over the country, must have seen us, but perhaps decided that we were too nothing to be blown away. A loose, fast-moving posse of tireless Absurd became visible, moving toward us. We braced. Someone said something about the Absurd came. Fliers squalled over the country, must have seen us, but perhaps decided that we were too nothing to be blown away. A loose, fast-moving posse of tireless Absurd became visible, moving toward us. We braced. Someone said something about the plan the plan.

Those at the front of the army, the groups a kilometre or so ahead of the main force, saw us. They stampeded up the scree and at us, pointing giftwings, directing segments of their own crowd, which peeled off into wedge-shapes, flanked us, in the unsaid strategy they thought merely rage. I could hear their hoofbeats. Then I could see the shades of their skins, the craned forks of their eyes, the f.l.a.n.g.es of their fanwing stubs, as they raised weapons.

"Now," someone said, and I truly couldn't say if it was me.

Spanish said something too quiet for me to quite hear, that I don't think was in Language. It walked forward with the other leaders of its revolutionary group and the Absurd came with them. It went farther, stepped out and raised its giftwing and the stalk of its fanwing, so its injury was plain. It waved them like standards. It announced its status-I'm one of you-and urged its comrades to stop, gestured to all the incomers, wait, wait, wait, wait wait, wait, wait, wait.

The Absurd army didn't slow at all. I felt sick. "Courage," Bren said, in French. I did not smile. The inchoate motion language the fanwingless spoke was camouflaged by shared purpose. From their untidy ranks came a shot.

"Jesus," I said. Spanish Dancer,[image] , spoke with its voice and hands as its once-fellows approached to murder or brutalise it. I wondered what would happen to it if it were deafened now, now that language was different for it. Spanish's and the Absurd's motions registered to the enemy as little as windblown plants. , spoke with its voice and hands as its once-fellows approached to murder or brutalise it. I wondered what would happen to it if it were deafened now, now that language was different for it. Spanish's and the Absurd's motions registered to the enemy as little as windblown plants.

They're not ignoring, I thought. They don't know. They don't know. They didn't know that these minds weren't like the others they'd finished or changed, how could they? I dug among our packs. They didn't know that these minds weren't like the others they'd finished or changed, how could they? I dug among our packs.

"Show your fanwings!" I shouted to Spanish. "Show them you can hear!" YlSib began to translate, but Spanish was already unfurling, and the others were copying it, except for Dub and Rooftop, who did so only when Spanish told them to in Language. Another missile came close. "Tell Dub and Rooftop to get in front," I said.

I made a datchip play, and the thin voice of EzCal exhorted us to something or other. But every one of the Ariekei had already heard that speech so did not react to it, and I cursed and threw it away.

"Oh," said Bren. He understood. I fumbled again while the Absurd came close enough that I could hear their murder-croons. I spilled a handful of chips and finally got another to sound. EzCal said, We are going to tell you what it is that you must do . . . We are going to tell you what it is that you must do . . .

We Terre heard it as sound. Spanish Dancer and the others heard it too, now, as sound: they just c.o.c.ked their fanwings quizzically. But Dub and Rooftop were still addicts. They snapped upright, shuddered so elementally it was as if gravity took them toward the source of the voice. They glazed.