Dorothy Must Die: The Witch Must Burn Part 5

"Oh, I'm sorry. Was I staring? I was just wondering if you were the Teen Mom I saw on the cover of Star this week."

It wasn't like I tried to go after Madison, but sometimes my sarcasm took on a life of its own. The words just came out.

Madison gave me a blank look. She snorted.

"I didn't know you could afford a copy of Star." She turned to Amber Boudreaux and stopped rubbing her stomach just long enough to give it a tender pat. "Salvation Amy's jealous. She's had a crush on Dustin forever. She wishes this were her baby."

I didn't have a crush on Dustin, I definitely didn't want a baby, and I absolutely did not want Dustin's baby. But that didn't stop my cheeks from going red.

Amber popped her gum and smirked an evil smirk. "You know, I saw her talking to Dustin in third period," she said. "She was being all flirty." Amber puckered her lips and pushed her chest forward. "Oh, Dustin, I'll help you with your algebra."

I knew I was blus.h.i.+ng, but I wasn't sure if it was from embarra.s.sment or anger. It was true that I'd let Dustin copy my math homework earlier that day. But as cute as Dustin was, I wasn't stupid enough to think I'd ever have a shot with him. I was Salvation Amy, the flat-chested trailer-trash girl whose clothes were always a little too big and a lot too thrift store. Who hadn't had a real friend since third grade.

I wasn't the type of girl Dustin would go for, with or without the existence of Madison Pendleton. He had been "borrowing" my algebra almost every day for the entire year. But Dustin would never look at me like that. Even at forty-pounds pregnant, Madison sparkled like the words on her oversize chest. There was glitter embedded in her eye shadow, in her lip gloss, in her nail polish, hanging from her ears in shoulder-grazing hoops, dangling from her wrists in blingy bracelets. If the lights went out in the hallway, she could light it up like a human dis...o...b..ll. Like human bling. Meanwhile, the only color I had to offer was in my hair, which I'd dyed pink just a few days ago.

I was all sharp edges and angles-words that came out too fast and at the wrong times. And I slouched. If Dustin was into s.h.i.+ny things like Madison, he would never be interested in me.

I don't know if I was exactly interested in Dustin, either, but we did have one thing in common: we both wanted out of Flat Hill, Kansas.

For a while, it had almost looked like Dustin was going to make it, too. All you need is a little push sometimes. Sometimes it's a tornado; sometimes it's the kind of right arm that gets you a football scholars.h.i.+p. He had been set to go. Until eight and a half months ago, that is.

I didn't know what was worse: to have your shot and screw it up, or to never have had a shot in the first place.

"I wasn't . . . ," I protested. Before I could finish, Madison was all up in my face.

"Listen, Dumb Gumm," she said. I felt a drop of her spit hit my cheek and resisted the urge to wipe it away. I didn't want to give her the satisfaction. "Dustin's mine. We're getting married as soon as the baby comes and I can fit into my aunt Robin's wedding dress. So you'd better stay away from him-not that he'd ever be interested in someone like you anyway."

By this point, everyone in the hallway had stopped looking into their lockers, and they were looking at us instead. Madison was used to eyes on her-but this was new to me.

"Listen," I mumbled back at her, wanting this to be over. "It was just homework." I felt my temper rising. I'd just been trying to help him. Not because I had a crush on him. Just because he deserved a break.

"She thinks Dustin needs her help," Amber chimed in. "Taffy told me she heard Amy offered to tutor him after school. Just a little one-on-one academic counseling." She cackled loudly. She said "tutor" like I'd done a lap dance for Dustin in front of the whole fourth period.

I hadn't offered anyway. He had asked. Not that it mattered. Madison was already steaming.

"Oh, she did, did she? Well why don't I give this b.i.t.c.h a little tutoring of my own?"

I turned to walk away, but Madison grabbed me by the wrist and jerked me back around to face her. She was so close to me that her nose was almost touching mine. Her breath smelled like Sour Patch Kids and kiwi-strawberry lip gloss.

"Who the h.e.l.l do you think you are, trying to steal my boyfriend? Not to mention my baby's dad?"

"He asked me," I said quietly so that only Madison could hear.

"What?"

I knew I should shut up. But it wasn't fair. All I'd tried to do was something good.

"I didn't talk to him. He asked me for help," I said, louder this time.

"And what could he find so interesting about you?" she snapped back, as if Dustin and I belonged to entirely different species.

It was a good question. The kind that gets you where it hurts. But an answer popped into my head, right on time, not two seconds after Madison wobbled away down the hall. I knew it was mean, but it flew out of my mouth before I had a chance to even think about it.

"Maybe he just wanted to talk to someone his own size."

Madison's mouth opened and closed without anything coming out. I took a step back, ready to walk away with my tiny victory. And then she rolled into her heels, wound up, and-before I could duck-punched me square in the jaw. I felt my head throbbing as I stumbled back and landed on my b.u.t.t.

It was my turn to be surprised, looking up at her in dazed, fuzzy-headed confusion. Had that just happened? Madison had always been a complete b.i.t.c.h, but-aside from the occasional shoulder check in the girls' locker room-she wasn't usually the violent type. Until now.

Maybe it was the pregnancy hormones.

"Take it back," she demanded as I began to get to my feet.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Amber a second too late. Always one to take a cue from her best friend, she yanked me by the hair and pushed me back down to the ground.

The chant of "Fight! Fight! Fight!" boomed in my ears. I checked for blood, relieved to find my skull intact. Madison stepped forward and towered over me, ready for the next round. Behind her, I could see that a huge crowd had gathered around us.

"Take it back. I'm not fat," Madison insisted. But her lip quivered a tiny bit at the f-word. "I may be pregnant, but I'm still a size two."

"Kick her!" Amber hissed.

I scooted away from her rhinestone-studded sandal and stood up just as the a.s.sistant princ.i.p.al, Mr. Strachan, appeared, flanked by a pair of security guards. The crowd began to disperse, grumbling that the show was over.

Madison quickly dropped her punching arm and went back to rubbing her belly and cooing. She scrunched her face up into a pained grimace, like she was fighting back tears. I rolled my eyes. I wondered if she would actually manage to produce tears.

Mr. Strachan looked from me to Madison and back again through his wire rims.

"Mr. Strachan," Madison said shakily. "She just came at me! At us!" She patted her belly protectively, making it clear that she was speaking for two these days.

He folded his arms across his chest and lowered his glare to where I still crouched. Madison had him at "us." "Really, Amy? Fighting with a pregnant girl? You've always had a hard time keeping your mouth shut when it's good for you, but this is low, even for you."

"She threw the first punch!" I yelled. It didn't matter. Mr. Strachan was already pulling me to my feet to haul me off to the princ.i.p.al's office.

"I thought you could be the bigger person at a time like this. I guess I overestimated you. As usual."

As I walked away, I looked over my shoulder. Madison lifted her hand from her belly to give me a smug little wave. Like she knew I wouldn't be coming back.

When I'd left for school that morning, Mom had been sitting on the couch for three days straight. In those three days, my mother had taken zero showers, had said almost nothing, and-as far as I knew-had consumed only half a carton of cigarettes and a few handfuls of Bugles. Oh, and whatever pills she was on. I'm not even sure when she got up to pee. She'd just been sitting there watching TV.

It used to be that I always tried to figure out what was wrong with her when she got like this. Was it the weather? Was she thinking about my father? Was it just the pills? Or was there something else that had turned her into a human slug?

By now, though, I was used to it enough to know that it wasn't any of that. She just got like this sometimes. It was her version of waking up on the wrong side of the bed, and when it happened, you just had to let her ride it out. Whenever it happened, I wondered if this time she'd be stuck like this.

So when I pushed the door to our trailer open an hour after my meeting with the princ.i.p.al, carrying all the books from my locker in a black Hefty bag-I'd been suspended for the rest of the week-I was surprised to see that the couch was empty except for one of those blankets with the sleeves that Mom had ordered off TV with money we didn't have.

In the bathroom, I could hear her rustling around: the faucet running, the clatter of drugstore makeup on a tiny counter. I guess she'd ridden it out again after all. Not that that was always a good thing.

"Mom?" I asked.

"s.h.i.+t!" she yelped, followed by the sound of something falling into the sink. She didn't come out of the bathroom, and she didn't ask what I was doing home so early.

I dropped my backpack and my Hefty bag on the floor, slid off my sneakers, and looked over at the screen. Al Roker was pointing to my hometown on one of those big fake maps. He was frowning.

I didn't think I'd ever seen America's Weatherman frown before. Wasn't he supposed to be rea.s.suring? Wasn't it, like, his job to make us feel like everything, including the weather, would be better soon? If not tomorrow then at some point during the extended ten-day forecast?

"Hey," Mom said. "Did you hear? There's a tornado coming!"

I wasn't too worried about it. They were always predicting disaster around here, but although nearby towns had been hit a few times, Dusty Acres had always been spared. It was like we had cliche to s.h.i.+eld us-Tornado Sweeps Through Trailer Park, Leaves Only an Overturned Barbecue. That's something that happens in a movie, not in real life.

My mom emerged from the bathroom, fussing with her hair. I was glad to see her vertical again, freshly scrubbed with her face all done up, but I had to wince at the length of her skirt. It was shorter than anything I owned. It was shorter than anything Madison Pendleton owned. That could only mean one thing.

"Where are you going?" I asked, even though I knew the answer. "For three days, you're one step away from a coma and now you're heading to the bar?"

It was no surprise. In my mother's world, there were only two pieces of scenery: the couch and the bar. If she wasn't on one, she was in the other.

She let out an accusatory sigh. "Don't start. I thought you'd be happy that I'm back on my feet again. Would you rather I just lie on the couch? Well, you might be content to mope around the house all day, but some of us have a life." She fluffed up her already teased hair and began looking for her purse.

There were so many things wrong with everything she'd just said that I couldn't even begin to process all the ways it was infuriating. Instead, I decided to try the sensible argument. "You're the one who just told me there's a tornado on the way. It's dangerous. You could get hit by a tree or something. Won't Tawny understand?"

"It's a tornado party, Miss Smarty-Pants," Mom said, as if that explained things. Her bloodshot eyes lit up as she spotted her purse lying on the floor next to the refrigerator and slung it over her shoulder.

I knew there was no point arguing when she got this way. "You need to sign this," I demanded, holding out the slip of paper Strachan had given me. It was to show that she understood what I'd supposedly done today, and what the consequences were.

"I got suspended," I told her.

It took her a few seconds to react, but when she did, her face registered not surprise or anger, but pure annoyance. "Suspended? What did you do?" Mom pushed past me again to get to her keys. Like I was just a thing that was in the way of something she wanted.

If we lived in a regular house, with one and a half bathrooms, I wondered, would she still hate me this much? Was resentment something that grew better in small s.p.a.ces, like those flowers that Mom used to force to bloom inside in little vases?

"I got in a fight," I said evenly. Mom kept staring. "With a pregnant girl."

At that, Mom let out a long, whistling sigh and looked up at the ceiling.

"That's just great," Mom said, her voice dripping with something other than motherly concern.

I could have explained it to her. I could have told her exactly what happened; that it wasn't my fault. That I hadn't even hit anyone.

But the thing is, at that moment, I kind of liked having her think I'd done something wrong. If I was the kind of girl who got in fights with pregnant girls, it meant it was on her. And her stellar lack of parenting skills.

"Who was it?" Mom demanded, her plastic purse slamming into the counter.

"Madison Pendleton."

She narrowed her eyes but not at me. She was remembering Madison. "Of course. That little pink b.i.t.c.h who ruined your birthday party."

Mom paused and bit her lip. "You don't see it, do you? She's already getting hers. You don't need to help it along."

"What are you talking about? I'm the one who was suspended."

Mom flung her hand out and gripped the air, mimicking a pregnant belly. "I give her a year. Two tops before she's got a trailer of her own around the corner. That boy she's with won't stay. And she'll be left with a little bundle of karma."

I shook my head. "She's walking around like she's G.o.d's gift. Like she and Dustin are still going to be prom king and queen."

"Ha!" Mom hooted. "Now. But the second that kid comes, her life is over." There was a pause I could drive a truck through.

For a split second, I thought of how things used to be. My before Mom. The one who'd dried my tears and challenged me to a cake-eating contest at that fateful birthday party. "More cake for us," she'd said. That was when I was nine. After Dad left, but before the accident and the pills. It was the last time she'd even bothered remembering my birthday.

I didn't know what to do when she acted like this. When we were almost having a normal conversation. When she almost seemed like she cared. When I almost saw some glimmer of who she used to be. I knew better but I leaned into the kitchenette counter anyway.

"One second, you have everything, your whole life ahead of you," she said, fluffing her hair in the reflection from the stove. "And then, boom. They just suck it all out of you like little vampires till there's nothing left of you."

It was clear she wasn't talking about Madison anymore. She was talking about me. I was her little vampire.

Anger p.r.i.c.ked in my chest. Leave it to my mother to turn any situation into another excuse to feel sorry for herself. To blame me.

"Thanks, Mom," I said. "You're right. I'm the one who ruined your life. Not you. Not Dad. The fact that I've been taking care of you every day since I was thirteen-that was just my evil scheme to ruin everything for you."

"Don't be so sensitive, Amy," she huffed. "It's not all about you."

"All about me? How could it be, when it's always about you?"

Mom glared at me, and then there was a honk from outside. "I don't have to stand here and listen to this. Tawny's waiting." She stormed to the door.

"You're just going to leave me in the middle of a tornado?"

It wasn't that I cared about the weather. I wasn't expecting it to be a big deal. But I wanted her to care; I wanted her to be running around gathering up batteries for flashlights and making sure we had enough water to last through the week. I wanted her to take care of me. Because that's what mothers do.

Just because I'd learned how to take care of myself didn't mean I didn't still feel panic setting in every time she left me like this-all alone, with no clue when she'd be back, or if she'd ever be back at all. Even without a tornado on the way, it was always an open question.

"It's better out there than in here," she snapped.

Before I could think of a good enough retort, she was gone.

I opened the door as she slid into the front seat of Tawny's Camaro; I watched as Mom adjusted the mirror to look at herself and saw her catch a glimpse of me instead, just before the car vroomed away.

Before I could have the satisfaction of slamming the door myself, the wind did it for me. So maybe this tornado was coming after all.

I thought of Dustin and his wasted scholars.h.i.+p, and about my father, who'd left me behind just to get out of here. I thought of what this place did to people. Tornado or no tornado, I wasn't Dorothy, and a stupid little storm wasn't going to change anything for me.

I walked to my dresser, pushed up flush against the kitchen stove, and opened the top drawer, feeling around for the red-and-white gym sock that was fat with cash-the stash of money I'd been saving for an emergency for years: $347. Once the storm cleared, that could get me bus tickets. That could get me a lot farther than Topeka, which was the farthest I had ever gone. I could let my mother fend for herself. She didn't want me. School didn't want me. What was I waiting for?

My hand hit the back of the drawer. All I found were socks.

I pulled the drawer out and rifled through it. Nothing.

The money was gone. Everything I'd spent my life saving up for. Gone.

It was no mystery who'd taken it. It was less of a mystery what she'd spent it on. With no cash, no car, and no one to wave a magic wand, I was stuck where I was.