Roadside Bodhisattva Part 11

"You mean go back inside?"

"No. Out in the garage."

I let Lita lead me around the side of the house and into the garage by a small side door. The building smelled of oils and dried lawn clippings.

I expected her to take out a joint and fire it up. I wondered why we had to come out here, though. But instead, she moved to a shelf and found a certain can by the yellow beams from the streetlights that made their way in through the line of sooty windows in the main door. She unscrewed the top of the can, and I could smell gasoline.

"You ever huffed before?"

"Huff? No, I-"

"Its the best. All the noises of the world come together into this beautiful music. You can hear people singing all the way down in Australia."

"Is there, like, a downside?"

Litas face was half in light, half in blackness. "You taste gasoline for a couple of days after. Sometimes you get this wicked headache. But its worth it! You can see everything about your whole past, and it all looks perfect. And its easy to do. You just put your mouth over the opening here and suck up the fumes. Watch me."

Lita opened her mouth, and she looked so s.e.xy. But then instead of kissing me or doing something else to give pleasure with that mouth, she put it to the metal and sucked up a double lungful of gasoline.

"Your turn."

I took the can. The smell of the gas on top of the pizza and the one hit of dope made my stomach churn. I felt sick, and wanted to puke. But Lita was looking at me so eagerly. In the stray light her eyes glinted. I raised up the can to my face.

I couldnt do it. I wasnt going to burn out my brain even if it meant Lita would f.u.c.k me. I handed the can back to Lita.

"Knock yourself out, Lita. But I gotta go."

I left the garage, but I didnt head back inside the house. Instead, I went and climbed into Anns car. Stretched out across the back seat, I had more room than in my bunk back in the trailer.

I mustve fallen asleep. The next thing I knew, Sue was sliding behind the wheel and slamming the car door. She reeked of dope smoke, and I supposed I did too, if not so bad. She started the motor, and only then did I sit up.

"Were you just gonna take off without me?"

"That hurts, Kid. I came out looking for you three hours ago. Found you sleeping like a baby, and locked you up tight."

"Sorry."

"No problem. Now get up front. Im not a chauffeur."

We didnt say anything else all the way back to Deer Park. Ann drove fine, despite any dope or beer she had done.

Everything was dark at the Park except for a light over the office bell. Ann would get up to rent to anyone, no matter what the time, if they rang that bell.

Sue and I stood by the front of the car for a minute. I could feel the heat of its big engine radiating off the hood.

"Its three am," Sue said in a low voice. "Time for good little boys to go to bed."

Before I could say anything she leaned over, grabbed my b.u.t.t with both hands, the car keys digging in, and kissed me with a lot of tongue.

And then she was gone.

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Five.

Getting out of bed just three hours after Sues kiss was the hardest thing I ever did. But it wasnt the tiredness in my bones that made getting up so hard, so much as it was the confusion in my head.

What was going on between me and Sue? Something? Nothing? She had spent all night making out with Jayzee, then practically choked me with her tongue down my throat. Did she feel anything special just for me, or was she really just a s.l.u.t? Could I still be interested in her if she was going to jerk me around with other guys? And how did I feel about the crowd she was hanging with? What did they say about Sues taste in friends? Not that the Lumberton Losers seemed very dangerous or even creepy, just dumb and wasted. Could I get her away from these f.u.c.kups somehow? Maybe I should tell Ann about what her niece was up to. No, Sid. Id tell Sid. Hed have some good advice for me.

But Sid was already gone from our small trailer. His bunk was neatly made up, his big old-fas.h.i.+oned canvas knapsack resting at the foot, its contents still unpacked, as if he wanted to be ready to step back on the road at any minute. Wouldnt that be sweet? Maybe that was the answer to all my problems. But a.s.suming we were staying, I couldnt bring up the subject of what I had learned about Sue in front of the others. Id have to try to catch Sid alone some time later today.

I got dressed in my s.k.a.n.ky clothes from last night. I didnt have the energy for a shower. And I didnt want to meet Sue in the apartment. I went to the diner.

Sid sitting at the counter, chowing down. Ann waiting a table. Sonny cooking. Yasmine standing as far away from Sid as possible, scowling. Oh, right, I had forgotten the way Sid had demolished her about the hose. Was that only yesterday? I was surprised she had even shown up for work. She must really need this job.

I didnt say h.e.l.lo to anyone, I was still that groggy. I just took a stool next to Sid. Sonny turned around from his grill and smiled at me with his moony face. His wispy hair looked like cornsilk.

"Wha-whatll it be, Kuh-kid?"

"Uh, French toast and sausage."

Sid mopped up some egg yolk with a wedge of toast. I half-expected him to slap me on the back and make some big public deal out of me and Sue being out so late last night. Knowing his geezer ways, hed probably even call it a "date." But he suprised me by not saying anything except, "Morning, Kid," before returning to his breakfast Had he winked at me though? I couldnt be sure. Sometimes Sid squinted, like he was trying to intensify his view of the world, or maybe shut it out.

"Morning." Sonny slid a cup of coffee in front of me, and I loaded it up with cream and sugar before I sucked down a big slug. When my French toast came I found out I was really hungry. I stuck a whole sausage in my mouth and barely chewed it before swallowing it down.

Sid finished his meal and stood up. "Ann darlin, Ill be working on the gutters of your place till I see the delivery men come."

"Fine, Sid. I cant wait."

Sid left, wearing a sly smile.

Ann "darlin"? And what delivery men? Sid could be a mysterious jerk. Id be d.a.m.ned if Id ask about his secret plans though. I had too much on my mind already.

I finished my breakfast, got my ap.r.o.n, and went back to my sinks.

A few hours pa.s.sed, and the peak of the morning rush had come and gone. Our customers ate early and headed off for their jobs. The Deer Park Diner didnt attract a lot of businessmen or slackers with nothing better to do than have a long brunch. I was loading the dishwasher out of a tub of dirty dishes propped atop the machine when Yasmine came in. She had a determined look on her face. Her lipstick and nails today were red as blood.

She came right up to me. "Just tell me why."

I stopped arranging gla.s.ses on the rack. "Why what?"

"Why a fairly decent kid like you hangs out with an a.s.shole like Sid."

"Hes not an a.s.shole. Hes my good buddy."

"You think it was nice, what he did to me yesterday?"

"So you two had an argument, a difference of opinion. So what? Happens all the time, to everyone."

Yasmine was shaking a little. "That was more than a difference of opinion. Your 'good buddy lashed out at me, like he hated everything about me. He wanted to tear me apart down to my toenails. Just because I challenged him when he was doing something stupid."

"Well, you didnt exactly try to win him over with sweetness and light. You called him a moron. You said he was killing the planet. How did you expect him to respond?"

Surprisingly, that brought Yasmine up short. "I-I didnt say any such thing."

"You did too. I was there, I heard you. Just like when you were teasing Sonny, you were a real b.i.t.c.h."

Id never seen anyone truly go to pieces before. I always thought that expression was just hype. But thats what Yasmine more or less did. Her face quivered into a million separate parts. Her legs turned to rubber and she started to collapse. But I surprised myself by managing to catch her under her arms and hustle her to a chair. She didnt weigh much more than me, I wouldve bet, even counting those big b.o.o.bs pressing against my arms.

Slumped in the chair, her long bare legs splayed out like a broken doll, her face buried in her hands, Yasmine began to cry. I didnt know what to say at first, so I just let her weep. This was worse than with Angie, because it was almost in public. I hoped breakdowns like this werent going to become a regular thing at Deer Park. I didnt have Sids touch in such situations.

I kept expecting Ann to stick her head in back to see what was going on, but she never did. Finally I felt I had to say something. But I didnt want to defend Sid anymore, or tell Yasmine that she had only gotten what was coming to her. She was too beaten down. She knew the score now about her b.i.t.c.hiness without me adding my two cents. But I had to say something, I felt so bad for her. Then, without planning my words, I did.

"Yasmine, I-Im sorry about your mother."

Once the words were out of my mouth, I braced myself for even more tears. But Yasmine reacted different than I expected. She lifted her face up to me, her makeup all running, snot slicking her cheeks and chin.

"You-you are?"

"Yes. Very sorry. Because n.o.body deserves to get that rotten disease just because they like to f.u.c.k, even if they do it in front of cameras. And you dont deserve to be all alone with all the responsibility for taking care of your mother. Its just not fair."

Yasmine might not have weighed any more than me, but she was taller. So when she leaped up and hugged me, my face got buried in her b.o.o.bs for a few seconds. Then she bent to kiss me, no tongue, but smearing my face with all the salty gunk on her lips.

The screen door slammed as she left out the back. I guessed she was heading for the apartment to get herself together.

I realized I was smiling like a dumba.s.s dog getting its belly scratched. Ann had hugged me just the other day, and Lita, Sue and Yasmine had all kissed me in the past twenty-four hours.

Was I turning into a babe magnet, or what?

Around eleven-thirty, I heard a commotion from out front, and went to look Two beefy guys wearing gut-support belts were manhandling something about as big as a was.h.i.+ng machine and wrapped in dirty, ripped moving blankets through the door of the diner. Sid was supervising, with various semi-useful gestures and directions. Ann was dithering around nervously, pointing out fixtures about to be smashed if no one listened to her instructions. Once totally inside, the guys got the object over against one wall of the diner. There had been a table there, Number Thirteen, but now it was gone.

The wraps came off the thing, and I saw it was an old-fas.h.i.+oned jukebox. The movers left while Sid was getting the jukebox plugged in. The machine came alive with neon and burbling tubes of liquid.

The few customers were all watching with antic.i.p.ation. Sonny had left off cooking and come out from behind the counter. Yasmine hung back a little from us fellow employees, but appeared somewhat interested despite herself. She seemed back to normal, but with some small difference I couldnt quite label. Softer? Not so stubbornly certain about everything? Grateful that someone had tried to care about her? Hard to say. But she did send a smile my way.

Sid ran one thick finger down the list of songs on the box. "All right! They managed to find every d.a.m.n one I asked for, plus a s.h.i.+t-load more!"

I had crossed the diner to get a closer look at the box. Sid grabbed me by the elbow and said, "Kid, feast your eyes on these cla.s.sics!"

I read a few names, but didnt recognize a one, not the singers, not the songs. "Who are these jokers? How come n.o.body asked my opinion about choosing some tunes?"

"Were trying to attract customers, Kid, not scare them away with that G.o.dawful c.r.a.p you listen to. These are all cla.s.sics of jazz, everything from Dixieland to Big Band to bop to fusion. Beautiful, gorgeous music. Perfect for the new, improved Deer Park dining experience. Listen to this one."

Sid fed a quarter into the machine and punched his selection. Some kind of rootlely-tootlely garbage filled the diner. I scowled and stuck my fingers in my ears to show what I thought of it. Sid made like he was going to slap me upside the head, so I took my fingers out, but still kept scowling.

"Thats better. Show some respect. Youre listening to Louis Armstrong and his Hot Seven. Hear that trombone? Thats Kid Ory."

"Nuh-no, its nuh-not. Thats Juh-jack Tuh-teagarden."

Sid turned to Sonny. "Hows that?"

Sonny smiled his goofy smile. "I know thi-this song. Tha-thats Tuh-teagarden."

"No way!"

Sonny failed to look crushed at Sids confidence. He just kept grinning. "Wuh-wanna buh-bet?"

"Okay, friend, youre on. Five dollars says thats Kid Ory. Now, how we gonna prove it?"

"Cuh-come to my huh-house tonight. Ill sh-show you the ruh-record."

"Done!"

The song ended, and Sid started another one up. "Okay, whos this?"

"Eric Duh-dolphy. 'Eclipse. Ron Cuh-carter on cello, Ruh-roy Haynes on dru-drums."

Sid grunted. He seemed a little POd because Sonny was stealing some of his glory. "Lucky guess. Well, jazz boy, I could stand here all day playing name that tune, but Ive got work to do, and so do you. Well see tonight whos right."

"Tha-thats for shu-sure!"

We all went back to our jobs. The jukebox continued to play through the lunch hour. Customers seemed to like it. But I was gonna have to start wearing my earbuds in back here.

Finally it was time to close the diner. I took off my ap.r.o.n and went out front.

Sue was sitting down for lunch with Ann and Yasmine. She wore a Winnie the Pooh s.h.i.+rt under her bib overalls. Sid and Angie were over inspecting the jukebox, while Sonny kept busy at the grill. This was the first time Sue and I had seen each other since last night, and I didnt know what to expect.

Sue gave me a regular smile, nothing too big, nothing too fake. "Hey, Kid. Whats up?"

"Nothing much. Just keeping busy."

"Whadda ya doing tonight? I thought maybe we could listen to some music together."

"Arent you going into Lumberton?"

"Naw, dont need to for a while."

I didnt answer Sue right away. I realized that she was making a gesture to get closer to me, maybe even in a way apologize for last night. Maybe if we hung out together tonight it would lead to hooking up for real. But I wasnt sure I wanted that. Or if I did, I wanted it on my terms. So I kinda surprised myself by saying, "Sorry, Sue, I cant."

"How come?"

"Im, ah, Im going with Sid to Sonnys house tonight. He invited us over."