In A Dark, Dark Wood Part 16

NINA FELL ASLEEP almost instantly, and lay there, sprawled out like a tanned daddy-long-legs, snoring away.

I lay awake, trying to go to sleep, but instead I was thinking about the evening and the strange little group Clare had gathered around her this weekend. I wanted to leave so badly it hurt to be back at home, in my own bed, with my own things, in the blissful peace and quiet. Now I was counting down the hours, and listening to Nina's soft snores and behind that to the silence of the house and the forest.

Not quite silence though. As I was drifting off there came a quiet creak and then a bang, not a loud one, just as if a door was banging in the wind.

I was almost drowsing when it came again, a long slow ekkkkkkk, and then a staccato clack.

The strange thing was, it sounded like it was inside the house.

I sat up, holding my breath, trying to hear the noise above Nina's snores.

Ekkkkkkkk ... clack!

This time there was no doubt. The sound was certainly not coming from outside the window, but floating up the stairwell. I got up, grabbed my dressing gown, and tiptoed to the door.

When I opened it, I almost screamed: a ghost-like figure was standing on the landing, bending over the bannisters.

I didn't scream. But I must have made some kind of choked gasp because the figure turned and put her finger to her lips. It was Flo, dressed in a white nightgown with pink flowers, bleached pale in the moonlight.

'You heard it too?' I whispered.

She nodded. 'Yes, I thought it might be a gate in the garden, but it's not, it's inside the house.'

There was a creak behind us and we both turned to see Clare coming out of the bedroom, rubbing her eyes.

'What is it?'

'Shh,' Flo whispered. 'There's something downstairs. Listen.'

We all paused.

Eeeeekkkkk ... clack!

'It's just a door in the wind,' Clare said, yawning. Flo shook her head, vehemently.

'It's inside the house. What wind could there be inside the house? Someone must have left a door open.'

'Impossible,' Clare said. 'I checked them all.'

Flo put her hands over her throat looking suddenly frightened. 'We've got to go down, haven't we?'

'Let's wake Tom,' Clare said. 'He looks tall and menacing.'

She tiptoed into his room and I heard her whispering, 'Tom! Tom! There's a noise in the house.'

He came out, bleary-eyed and pale, and we all crept slowly down the stairs.

There was a door open, you could tell it as soon as we reached the ground floor. It was cold as ice and a breeze was blowing through the hallway, coming from the kitchen. Flo turned completely pale.

'I'm getting the gun,' she whispered, her voice so slight you could hardly hear.

'I thought you said,' Clare mouthed, 'that it was loaded with blanks?'

'It is,' Flo whispered crossly, 'but he won't know that, will he?' She jerked her head at the living-room door. 'You first, Tom.'

'Me?' Tom said, in a horrified whisper, but he rolled his eyes and edged his head very quietly around the living-room door. Then he beckoned silently, and we all followed him, in a sort of relieved rush. The room was empty, moonlight flooding the pale carpet. Flo reached up above the mantelpiece and took down the gun. Her face was pale but determined.

'You're sure about the blanks?' Clare asked again.

'Completely sure. But if someone's there it'll give them a pretty good scare.'

'If you're holding the gun I'm going behind you,' Tom hissed, 'blanks or no blanks.'

'All right.'

Whatever I'd thought of Flo, I couldn't fault her courage. She stood for a moment in the hallway, and I could see her hands shaking. Then she took a deep, shuddering breath, and flung open the kitchen door so hard it crashed back against the tiled wall.

There was no one there. But the gla.s.s kitchen door was standing open in the moonlight, and a light dusting of snow blew across the tiled floor.

Clare was across the room in a moment, her bare feet soft on the cold tiles. 'There's footsteps, look.' She pointed out across the lawn: big shapeless prints, like those made by wellies or s...o...b..ots.

'f.u.c.k.' Tom's face was pale. 'What happened?' He turned to me. 'You were out of that door last. Didn't you lock it?'

'I- I'm sure I did.' I tried to remember. Nina offering to help, Flo's angry cras.h.i.+ng. I had a clear memory of my hand on the lock. 'I did. I'm certain I locked it.'

'Well, you can't have done it properly!' Flo rounded on me. In the moonlit dark she looked like a statue, her face as hard and unyielding as marble.

'I did.' I was beginning to feel angry. 'Anyway, I thought you said Clare checked?'

'I just rattled each door,' Clare said. Her eyes were huge, with shadows like bruises in the sockets. 'I didn't check every lock. If it didn't open, I a.s.sumed it was shut.'

'I locked it,' I said stubbornly. Flo made a small furious noise, almost like a growl. Then she tucked the shotgun under her arm and stalked upstairs.

'I locked it,' I repeated, looking from Clare to Tom. 'Don't you believe me?'

'Look,' Clare said, 'it's no one's fault.' She walked across to the door and slammed it hard, twisting the key as she did. 'It's d.a.m.n well locked now, anyway. Let's get up to bed.'

We trooped back up the stairs, feeling the spent adrenaline in our systems fading to sour jitters. Nina was at the top of the stairs as I rounded the landing, scrubbing her eyes confusedly.

'What happened?' she asked as I drew level. 'Why did I just see Flo stamp past holding that f.u.c.king shotgun?'

'We had a scare,' Tom said shortly, coming up from behind me. 'Someone,' he glanced at me, 'left the kitchen door unlocked.'

'It wasn't me,' I said doggedly.

'Well, whatever. It was open. We heard it banging. There were footprints outside.'

'b.l.o.o.d.y h.e.l.l.' Nina was as wide awake as the rest of us now. She pa.s.sed a hand over her face again, rubbing the sleep out of her eyes. 'Had they gone? Was anything missing?'

'Nothing I noticed.' Tom looked at me and Clare. 'Anything you can think of? Telly was there. All the obvious stuff like that. Did anyone leave their wallets lying around? Mine's in my room.'

'Mine too,' Clare said. She turned and glanced out at the drive. 'And all the cars are still there.

'My bag's in my room, I think,' I said. I put my head round the door to check. 'Yup. It's there.'

'Well ... looks like it wasn't robbery they were after,' Tom said uneasily. 'If it wasn't for the footsteps you could almost think it was just a faulty lock.'

But there were the footsteps. There undeniably were.

'Think we should call the police?' he asked.

'We can't, can we?' Nina said acidly. 'No landline and no b.l.o.o.d.y reception.'

'You had a couple of bars yesterday,' I reminded her, but she shook her head.

'Must have been a blip. I've had nothing since. Well, look on the bright side, there's no smell of petrol so with luck, it's not the crazed locals with their jerry cans come back for a second bonfire.'

There was a silence. n.o.body laughed.

'We should go back to bed, try to get some sleep,' Clare said at last. We all nodded.

'Want to pull your mattress in with us?' Nina said unexpectedly to Tom. 'I wouldn't want to be by myself.'

'Thanks,' Tom said. 'That- that's very kind. But I'll be fine. I'll lock my door, just in case anyone's after my virtue. Not that I've got much left.'

'That was nice,' I said to Nina after we had said goodnight to Tom and Clare and were huddled up in our own beds. 'What you said to Tom, I mean.'

'Nice, schmice. I felt sorry for the poor guy. Plus he looks like he'd have a mean right hook if anyone did break in.' She sighed, and then rolled over. 'Want me to leave the light on?'

'No, it's OK. That door's locked now that's the main thing.'

'Fair enough.' She clicked off the light and I saw the glow of her phone. 'Gone two. b.l.o.o.d.y h.e.l.l. And still not a single bar of reception. How about you? Got anything?'

I reached for my phone.

It wasn't there.

'Hang on, I need to put the light on. I can't find it.'

I flicked the switch and looked around, beneath the bed, beneath the bedside table, then inside my bag. No phone. No phone anywhere, in fact just the unhooked charger trailing across the floor. I tried to remember when I'd last had it. In the car maybe? I remembered using it at lunchtime. But after that, I couldn't be sure. I'd got out of the habit of checking it here with no reception it seemed pointless. I thought I remembered taking it up here to charge it before supper, but maybe that was Friday. Most likely it had slipped out of my pocket in the car.

'It's not here,' I said. 'I think I must have left it in the car.'

'Never mind,' Nina said. She yawned. 'Just remember to find it tomorrow before we leave, yeah?'

'All right. Night.'

'Goodnight.'

There was a rustle of duvet, as she huddled down. I closed my eyes. I tried to sleep.

What happened next ...?

Oh G.o.d. What happened next. I'm not sure I can ...

I am still sitting there, trying to put my confused tumble of thoughts in order when the door swings wide and the nurse comes back in pus.h.i.+ng a trolley.

'The doctor wants to have a wee look at your scans but he says very likely you can have a bath after that. And I've got some breakfast for you here.'

'Listen,' I try to sit up against the sliding s.h.i.+fting pillows. 'Listen, the police outside the door are they here for me?'

She looks uncomfortable and her gaze slides off to the small square of gla.s.s as she sets out Rice Crispies in a little carton, a jug of milk and a single clementine. 'They're investigating the accident,' she says at last. 'I'm sure they'll want tae speak to you, but the doctor has to sign you off. I've told them, they're not barging into a hospital ward at this hour. They'll have tae wait.'

'I heard ...' I swallow, hard, my throat hurting as if something is trying to escape a sob or a scream. 'I heard them say something about a d-death ...'

'Och!' She looks annoyed, banging the locker drawer shut with unnecessary force. 'They shouldna be worriting you, with your poor head.'

'But it's true? Someone died?'

'I can't say about that. I cannae discuss other patients.'

'Is it true?'

'I'll have tae ask you tae calm down,' she says, and spreads out her hands in a professionally soothing gesture that makes me want to scream. 'It's not good for your head to be getting upset like this.'

'Upset? One of my friends is probably dead, and you're telling me I shouldn't be upset? Who? For G.o.d's sake, who? And why can't I remember? Why can't I remember what happened before the accident?'

'It's quite common,' she says, her voice still in that strange soothing cadence, as if she's speaking to a small child, or someone hard of understanding. 'Following a head injury. It's tae do with the way the brain transfers short-term to long-term memory. If something interrupts the process you can lose a bit of time.'

Oh G.o.d, I must remember. I must remember what happened because someone is dead, and the police are outside, they are going to come and ask me, and how can I know, how can I know what I'm saying, what I'm revealing, if I don't know what happened?

I see myself, running, running through the forest with the blood on my hands and on my face and on my clothes ...

'Please,' I say, and my voice is close to cracking, close to pleading, and I hate myself for being so weak and needy. 'Please tell me, please help me, what's happened? What's happened to my friends? Why was I covered in such a lot of blood? My head wound wasn't that bad. Where did all the blood come from?'

'I don't know,' she says softly, and there's real compa.s.sion in her voice this time. 'I don't know, pet. Let me get the doctor and perhaps he can tell you more. In the meantime, I want you to eat some breakfast, you've got to keep your strength up and the doctor will want to see an appet.i.te.'

And then she backs out of the door with the trolley in front of her, and the door swings shut, and I am alone with my plastic bowl of Rice Crispies popping and clicking away as they soak into sugary mush.

I should get up. I should force my weak, woolly limbs to do their duty, and I should swing them out of bed and march into the corridor and demand answers from those police officers outside. But I don't. I just sit there, and tears roll down my face, and drip off my chin into the Rice Crispies, and the smell of the clementine is heady and overripe, reminding me of something I cannot remember, and cannot forget.

Please, I think, please. Pull yourself together, you stupid b.i.t.c.h. Get up. Find out what happened. Find out who's dead.

But I don't move. And not just because my head hurts, and my legs hurt, and my muscles feel like wet tissue.

I don't move because I am afraid. Because I don't want to hear the name the police are going to say.