Bella Donna Part 73
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"I'm a fool, Nigel--that's the truth. I'm afraid of everything and everybody."
"Afraid! You're surely not afraid of Isaacson?"
"I tell you I'm afraid of everybody."
She stopped by the rail, and looked towards the west.
"To me happiness seems such a brittle thing that any one might break it.
And men--forgive me!--men generally have such clumsy hands."
He leaned on the rail beside her, turning himself towards her.
"You don't mean to say that you think Isaacson could ever break our happiness, even if he wished to?"
"Why not?"
"Don't you understand me at all?"
There was in his voice a tremor of deep feeling.
"Do you think," he went on, "that a man who is worth anything at all would allow even his dearest friend to come between him and the woman whom he loved and who was his? Do you think that I would allow any one, woman or man, to come between me and you?"
"Are you sure you wouldn't?"
"What a tragedy it must be to be so distrustful of love as you are!" he said, almost with violence.
"You haven't lived my life."
She, too, spoke almost with violence, and there was violence in her eyes.
"You haven't lived for years in the midst of condemnation. Your friend, Doctor Isaacson, secretly condemns me. I know it. And so I'm afraid of him. I don't pretend to have any real reason--any reason that would commend itself to a man. Women don't need such reasons for their fears."
"And yet you say that you like Isaacson!"
"So I do, in a way. At least, I thought I did, till you told me you'd written to him to tell him about us and our life on the Nile."
He could not help smiling.
"Oh!" he said, moving nearer to her. "I shall never understand women.
What a reason for dislike of a man hundreds of miles away from us!"
"Hundreds of miles--yes! And if your letter brought him to us! Suppose he took it into his head to run out and see for himself if what you wrote was true?"
"Ruby! How wild you are in your suppositions!"
"They're not so wild as you think. Doctor Isaacson is just the man to do such a thing."
"Well, even if he did--?"
"Do you want him to?" she interrupted.
He hesitated.
"You do want him to."
She said it bitterly.
"And I thought I was enough!" she exclaimed.
"It isn't that, Ruby--it isn't that at all. But I confess that I should like Isaacson to see for himself how happy we are together."
"Did you say that in your letter?"
"No, not a word of it. But I did think it when I was writing. Wasn't it a natural thought? Isaacson was almost my confidant--not quite, for n.o.body was quite--about my feelings and intentions towards you before our marriage."
"And if he could have prevented the marriage, he would have prevented it."
"And because of that, if it's true, you wouldn't like him to see us happy together?"
"I don't want him here. I don't want any one. I feel as if he might try to separate us, even now."
"He might try till the Day of Judgment without succeeding. But you are not quite fair to him."
"And he would never be fair to me. There's the after-glow coming at last."
They watched it in silence giving magic to the western hills and to the cloudless sky in the west. It was suggestive of peace and of remoteness, suggestive of things clarified, purged, made very wonderfully pure, but not coldly pure. When it died away into the breast of the softly advancing night, Nigel felt as if it had purged him of all confusion of thought and feeling, as if it had set him quite straight with himself.
"That makes me feel as if I understood everything just for a moment," he said. "Ruby, don't let us get into any difficulties, make any difficulties for ourselves out here. We are having such a chance for peace, aren't we? We should be worse than mad if we didn't take it, I think. But we will take it. I understand that your life has made you suspicious of people. I believe I understand your fears a little, too.
But they are groundless as far as I am concerned. n.o.body on earth could ever come between you and me. Only one person could ever break our union."
"Who?"
"Yourself. Hark! the sailors are singing. I expect we are going to tie up."
That night, as Mrs. Armine lay awake in the cabin which was Baroudi's, and which, in contrast to all the other bedrooms on the _Loulia_, was sombre in its colouring and distinctively Oriental, she thought of the conversation of the afternoon, and realized that she must keep a tighter hold over her nerves, put a stronger guard upon her temper. Without really intending to, she had let herself run loose, she had lost part of her self-control. Not all, for as usual when she told some truth, she had made it serve her very much as a lie might have served her. But by speaking as she had about Meyer Isaacson she had made herself fully realize something--that she was afraid of him, or that in the future she might become afraid of him. Why had Nigel written just now? Why had he drawn Isaacson's attention to them and their lives just now? It was almost as if--and then she pulled herself up sharply. She was not going to be a superst.i.tious fool. It was, of course, perfectly natural for Nigel to write to his friend. Nevertheless, she wished ardently that Isaacson was not his friend, that those keen doctor's eyes, which seemed to sum up the bodily and mental states of woman or man with one bright and steady glance, had never looked upon her.
And most of all she wished that they might never look upon her again.
XXVII
In the house in Cleveland Square, on a morning in late January, Meyer Isaacson read Nigel's letter.
"Villa Androud,
Bella Donna Part 73
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