My New Home Part 16
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The footman left the room again, but I felt sure he was coming back, so I crept behind the shelter of the heavy curtains and curled myself up on the floor, drawing them round me. And then, how soon I can't tell, I fell asleep. It has always been my way to do so when I've been very unhappy, and the unhappier I am the more heavily I sleep, though not in a nice refres.h.i.+ng way.
I awoke with a start, not knowing where I was. I could not have been asleep more than an hour, but to me it seemed like a whole night, and as I was beginning to collect my thoughts I heard voices talking in the room behind me. It must have been these voices which had awakened me.
The first I heard was Mr. Vandeleur's.
'I am very sorry about it,' he was saying, 'but I see no help for it. I would not for worlds distress you if I could avoid doing so, for all my old debts to you, my dear aunt, are doubled now by your devotion to Agnes. She will in great measure owe her life to you, I feel.'
'You exaggerate it,' said grandmamma, 'though I do believe I am a comfort to her. But never mind about that just now--the present question is Helena.'
'Yes,' he replied, 'I can't tell you how strongly I feel that it would be for the child's good too, though I can quite understand it would be difficult for you to see it in that light.'
'No,' said grandmamma, 'I have been thinking about it myself, for of course I have not been feeling satisfied about her. Perhaps in the past I have thought of her too exclusively, and it is very difficult for a child not to be spoilt by this. And now on the other hand----'
'It is too much for you yourself,' interrupted my cousin, 'she should be quite off your mind. I have the greatest confidence in Dr. Pierce's judgment in such matters. He would recommend no school hastily. If you will come into the library I will give you the addresses of the two he mentioned. No doubt you will prefer to write for particulars yourself; though when it is settled I daresay I could manage to take her there.
For even with these fresh hopes they have given us, now this crisis is pa.s.sed, I doubt your being able to leave Agnes for more than an hour or two at a time.'
'I should not think of doing so,' said grandmamma, decidedly. 'Yes--if you will give me the addresses I will write.'
To me her voice sounded cold and hard; _now_ I know of course that it was only the force she was putting upon herself to crush down her own feelings about parting with me.
It was not till they had left the room that I began to understand what a dishonourable thing I had been doing in listening to this conversation, and for a moment there came over me the impulse to rush after them and tell what I had heard. But only for a moment; the dull heavy feeling, which had been hanging over me for so long of not being cared for, of having no place of my own and being in everybody's way, seemed suddenly to have increased to an actual certainty. Hitherto, it now seemed to me, I had only been playing with the idea, and now as a sort of punishment had come upon me the reality of the cruel truth--grandmamma did _not_ care for me any longer. She had got back the nephew who had been like a son to her, and he and his wife had stolen away from me all her love.
Then came the mortification of remembering that I was living in Cousin Cosmo's house--a most unwelcome guest.
'He never has liked me,' I thought to myself; 'even at the very beginning, grandmamma never gave me any kind messages from him. And those poor boys Gerard told me of couldn't care for him--he must be horrid.'
Then a new thought struck me. 'I _have_ a home still,' I thought; 'Windy Gap is ours, I could live there with Kezia and trouble n.o.body and hardly cost anything. I won't stay here to be sent to school; I don't think I am bound to bear it.'
I crept out of my corner.
'Surely my room will be ready by now,' I thought, and walking very slowly still, for falling asleep in the cold had made me even stiffer, I made my way upstairs.
Yes, my room was ready, and there was a good fire. There was a little comfort in that: I sat down on the floor in front of it and began to think out my plans.
CHAPTER XIII
HARRY
In spite of all that was on my mind I slept soundly, waking the next morning a little after my usual hour. Very quickly, so much was it impressed on my brain, I suppose, I recollected the determination with which I had gone to bed the night before.
I hurried to the window and drew up the blind, for I had made one condition with myself--I would not attempt to carry out my plan if the fog was still there! But it had gone. Whether I was glad or sorry I really can't say. I dressed quickly, thinking or planning all the time.
When I got downstairs to the dining-room it was empty, but on the table were the traces of some one having breakfasted there.
Just then the footman came in--
'I was to tell you, miss,' he said, 'that Mrs. Wingfield won't be down to breakfast; it's to be taken upstairs to her.'
'And Mr. Vandeleur has had his, I suppose?' I said.
'Yes, miss,' he replied, clearing the table of some of the plates and dishes.
I went on with my breakfast, eating as much as I could, for being what is called an 'old-fas.h.i.+oned' child, I thought to myself it might be some time before I got a regular meal again. Then I went upstairs, where, thanks to Belinda's turn-out of the day before, my room was already in order and the fire lighted. I locked the door and set to work.
About an hour later, having listened till everything seemed quiet about the house, I made my way cautiously and carefully downstairs, carrying my own travelling-bag stuffed as full as it would hold and a brown paper parcel. When I got to the first bedroom floor, where grandmamma's room was, a sudden strange feeling came over me. I felt as if I _must_ see her, even if she didn't see me. Her door was ajar.
'Very likely,' I thought, 'she will be writing in there.'
For, lately, I knew she had been there almost entirely, when not actually in Cousin Agnes's room, so as to be near her.
'I will peep in,' I said to myself.
I put down what I was carrying and crept round the door noiselessly. At first I thought there was no one in the room, then to my surprise I saw that the position of the bed had been changed. It now stood with its back to the window, but the light of a brightly burning fire fell clearly upon it. There was some one in bed! Could it be grandmamma? If so, she must be really ill, it was so unlike her ever to stay in bed. I stepped forward a little--no, the pale face with the pretty bright hair showing against the pillows was not grandmamma, it was some one much younger, and with a sort of awe I said to myself it must be Cousin Agnes.
So it was, she had been moved into grandmamma's room a day or two before for a little change.
It could not have been the sound I made, for I really made none, that roused her; it must just have been the _feeling_ that some one had entered the room. For all at once she opened her eyes, such very sweet blue eyes they were, and looked at me, at first in a half-startled way, but then with a little smile.
'I thought I was dreaming,' she whispered. 'I have had such a nice sleep. Is that you, little Helena? I'm so glad to see you; I wanted you to come before, often.'
I stood there trembling.
What would grandmamma or Mr. Vandeleur think if they came in and found me there? But yet Cousin Agnes was so very sweet, her voice so gentle and almost loving, that I felt I could not run out of the room without answering her.
'Thank you,' I said, 'I do hope you are better.'
'I am going to be better very soon, I feel almost sure,' she said, but her voice was already growing weaker. 'Are you going out, dear?' she went on. 'Good-bye, I hope you will have a nice walk. Come again to see me soon.'
'Thank you,' I whispered again, something in her voice almost making the tears come into my eyes, and I crept off as quietly as possible, with a curious feeling that if I delayed I should not go at all.
By this time you will have guessed what my plan was. I think I will not go into all the particulars of how I made my way to Paddington in a hansom, which I picked up just outside the square, and how I managed to take my ticket, a third cla.s.s one this time, for though I had brought all my money--a few s.h.i.+llings of my own and a sovereign which Cousin Cosmo had sent me for a Christmas box--I saw that care would be needed to make it take me to my journey's end. Nor, how at last, late in the afternoon, I found myself on the platform at Middlemoor Station.
I was very tired, now that the first excitement had gone off.
'How glad I shall be to get to Windy Gap,' I thought, 'and to be with Kezia.'
I opened my purse and looked at my money. There were three s.h.i.+llings and some coppers, not enough for a fly, which I knew cost five s.h.i.+llings.
'I can't walk all the way,' I said to myself. 'It's getting so late too,' for I had had to wait more than an hour at Paddington for a train.
Then a bright idea struck me. There was an omnibus that went rather more than half-way, if only I could get it I should be able to manage. I went out of the station and there, to my delight, it stood; by good luck I had come by a train which it always met. There were two other pa.s.sengers in it already, but of course there was plenty of room for me and my bag and my parcel, so I settled myself in a corner, not sorry to see that my companions were perfect strangers to me. It was now about seven in the evening, the sky was fast darkening. Off we jogged, going at a pretty good pace at first, but soon falling back to a very slow one as the road began to mount. I fancy I dozed a little, for the next thing I remember was the stopping of the omnibus at the little roadside inn, which was the end of its journey.
I got out and paid my fare, and then set off on what was really the worst part of the whole, for I was now very tired and my luggage, small as it was, seemed to weigh like lead. I might have looked out for a boy to carry it for me, but that idea didn't enter my head, and I was very anxious not to be noticed by any one who might have known me.
[Ill.u.s.tration: It was all uphill too.--P. 173.]
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