A Short History of Tractors in Ukrainian Part 23

"Pappa said something happened to you in the camp at Drachensee. Something about cigarettes. Can you remember?"

"Of course I can remember." I wait for her to continue, and after a while she says, "There are some things it's better not to know, Nadia."

"I know. But tell me anyway."

The labour camp at Drachensee was a huge, ugly, chaotic and cruel place. Forced labourers from Poland, Ukraine, Belarus, conscripted to boost the German war effort, communists and trade unionists sent from the Low Countries for re-education, Gypsies, h.o.m.os.e.xuals, criminals, Jews in transit to their deaths, inmates of lunatic asylums and captured resistance fighters, all lived cheek by jowl in low concrete lice-infested barracks. In such a place, the only order was terror. And the rule of terror was reinforced at every level; each community and subcommunity had its own hierarchy of terror.

So it was that among the children of the forced labourers, the head of the hierarchy was a skinny sly-faced youth called Kishka. He must have been some sixteen years old, but he was slight for his age, maybe from a childhood of hunger, and maybe also because he had a habit to support. Kishka was a forty-a-day smoker.

Although he was small, Kishka had around him a coterie of bigger kids who would do his bidding; among these were his sidekick, a brute called Vanenko, two big, not-very-bright Moldavian lads, and a mad-eyed dangerous girl called Lena who always seemed to have plenty of cigarettes-it was said she slept with the guards. To keep Kishka and his gang in cigarettes, the other children were 'taxed'-that is to say, they had to steal cigarettes from their parents and hand them over to Kishka, who would distribute them among his gang. Those who didn't got their punishment.

Of all the children in the camp, only the shy mousy little Vera never paid her cigarette tax. How could this be allowed? Vera protested that her parents didn't smoke, that they traded their cigarettes for food and other things.

"Then you must steal them from someone else," said Kishka.

Vanenko and the Moldavian lads smiled. Lena winked.

Vera was distraught. Where would she find cigarettes? She sneaked into the barracks when no one was there, and rummaged through the pitiful belongings stowed under the beds. But someone caught her and sent her packing with a thick ear. Numb with despair as she waited for her beating, she stood in a comer of the yard, looking for a place where she could hide, though of course she knew that wherever she hid they would find her. Then she noticed a jacket hanging on a nail by the door. It was the jacket of one of the guards-and the guard himself was over by the perimeter fence, looking out the other way, smoking a cigarette. Quick as a cat, she slid her hand in the pocket, and found the nearly full packet of cigarettes. She hid it inside the sleeve of her dress.

Later, when Kishka came looking for her, she handed over the cigarettes. He was delighted. Army cigarettes had a much higher tobacco content than the rubbish doled out to the labourers.

If Vera had taken only one or two cigarettes, perhaps the whole story would have been different. But the guard, of course, noticed that the packet was missing. He stalked through the yard with his cat-whip, picking on the kids one at a time. Lack of a smoke was making him irritable. Who had seen the thief? Someone must know. If they didn't own up, the whole block would be punished. Parents too. No one would be spared. He muttered about the existence of a correction block, from which few emerged alive. The children had heard the rumours too, and they were terrified.

It was Kishka himself who fingered Vera.

"Please sir," he grovelled, cringing as the guard pinched his ear, "it was her-that skinny one over there-she nicked them and gave them out to all the kids."

He pointed out little Vera, who was sitting silently near the door of one of the huts.

"You, was it?"

The guard grabbed little Vera by the collar of her dress. She didn't have the presence of mind to deny it. She started to cry. He hauled her inside to the guardroom, and locked the door.

Mother went in search of Vera as soon as she got back from the factory and found she was missing. Someone told her where to look.

"Your daughter is a thieving little rat," said the guard. "She must be taught a lesson."

"No," Mother implored in her broken German, "she didn't know what she was doing. The big ones put her up to it. What does she want with cigarettes? Can't you see what a stupid little thing she is?"

"Stupid, yes, but I need my cigarettes," said the guard. He was a big man, slow in his speech, younger than Mother. "You'll have to give me yours."

"I'm sorry, I have none. I traded them. You see, I don't smoke. Next week, when we are paid, you can have them all."

"What use is next week? Next week you will have another story." The guard started to flick his whip around their legs. His face and ears had gone bright red. "You Ukrainians are ungrateful swine. We save you from the communists. We bring you to our country, we feed you, we give you work. And all you can think of is to thieve from us. Well, you have to be taught a lesson, don't you? We have a correction block for vermin like you. You have heard about F Block? You have heard how nicely we look after you there? Soon you will know."

Everyone had heard rumours about the Correction Block, a row of forty-eight cramped windowless concrete cells half buried underground, like upright coffins, which stood on its own at one side of the Labour Re-education Camp. In winter, cold and rain added to the torment; in summer, dehydration. Some had seen people dragged out crazed and skeletal after ten or twenty or thirty days. Longer than that, it was said, no one was dragged out alive.

"No," pleaded Mother. "Have pity!"

She seized Vera and pulled her into her skirt. They cowered against the wall. The guard drew closer, closer, pus.h.i.+ng his face up to theirs. His chin gleamed with thin downy blond stubble. He must have been in his early twenties.

"You seem such a nice young man," Mother begged, choking on the unfamiliar German words. Tears were in her eyes. "Please, show us some pity, young man."

"Yes, we will show pity. We will not separate you from your child." They could feel the spray from his crooked-tooth mouth as he gabbled, excited by his power. "You will go with her, vermin mother."

"Why must you do this? Don't you have a sister? Don't you have a mother?"

"Why are you talking about my mother? My mother is a good German woman." He paused for a moment, blinked, but the momentum of his excitement was too strong, or his imagination failed him.

"We will teach you to raise children not to steal. You will be re-educated. And your vermin husband, if you have one. You all all will be corrected." will be corrected."

The darkness breathes all around us. Then I hear a m.u.f.fled mousy sniffy sort of sound from the bunk below. I lie quite still trying to fathom what it is, for it is a sound I have never heard before, a sound I have refused to hear, a sound I never imagined was possible. It is the sound of Big Sis crying.

One day I will ask Vera about the Correction Block, but now is not the time. Or maybe my sister is right: maybe there are some things that are better not known, for the knowledge of them can never be un-known. Mother and Father never told me about the Correction Block, and I grew up with no knowledge of the darkness that lurks at the bottom of the human soul.

How did they live the rest of their lives with that terrible secret locked away in their hearts? How did they grow vegetables, and mend motor-bikes, and send us to school and worry about our exam results?

But they did.

Twenty-Seven.

A source of cheap labour "Pappa, please try to be sensible," says Big Sis, slamming the milk-jug down on the table. "You cannot be the father of the baby. Why do you think she ran off when I suggested a paternity test?"

"Vera, you have always been a nose-poking autocrat," says Father, drenching his Shredded Wheat with the creamy top of the milk and burying it under a heap of sugar. "Leave me alone. Now go back to London. Please go!" His hands are shaking, but he still tries to stuff his mouth, then he starts to cough and projectiles of Shredded Wheat fly across the table.

"Please try to act like an adult for once in your life. What has happened to your brains? You're not the father of the baby, you're a baby yourself. Look at the way you behave-you've become completely infantile!"

"An Infantile Disorder! Ha ha ha!" He bangs his spoon on the table. "Vera, you become more like Lenin every day."

"A paternity test is a good idea," I intervene slyly, "because then you will know not only whether you are the father of the baby, but whether it is a boy or a girl."

"Aha." He stops in mid-cough. "Good idea. Boy or girl. Good idea."

Vera throws me an appreciative glance.

Stanislav and Dubov are in the front garden, engaging in father-son bonding under the open bonnet of the Rolls-Royce. Mike is still asleep in the front room, but he has fallen off the settee on to the floor. Vera, Father and I are having breakfast in the back room, which is now both the dining-room and his bedroom. Slanted sunlight is streaming in through the dusty windows. Father is still wearing his nights.h.i.+rt, a strange self-made garment constructed out of an old check Viyella s.h.i.+rt which he has extended in length with some pieces of a paisley winceyette fabric, st.i.tched on to the flaps in large loops of black b.u.t.ton-thread, and held together in front with brown shoelaces. It is opened at the neck, and his long-since-healed wound, bristling with silver hairs, winks at us as he talks.

"But..." he looks warily from me to Vera to me again, "...paternity test is only possible after birth of baby. Then it is plain whether is boy or girl without any test."

"No, no. It is possible to have a paternity test before the baby is born. In utero utero." Vera catches my eye. "Nadia and I will pay."

"Hmm." He still looks suspicious, as though he thinks we are trying to trick him. (As if we would!) At that moment, the letter-box rattles. The morning post has arrived. Among the pile of invitations to open credit card accounts, amazing offers on health and beauty products, and promises of fabulous prizes to be won or already won and waiting to be claimed (Pappa: "How lucky she is to win such prizes!"), all addressed to Valentina, is a letter to my father from Ms Carter. She reminds him that the divorce hearing is to be in two weeks' time, and puts forward an offer from Valentina's solicitor not to contest the divorce, nor to make any further claim upon my father's property, were a payment of 20,000 to be offered in full and final settlement.

"Twenty thousand pounds!" cries Vera. "It's an outrage!"

"Anyway, you haven't got 20,000, Pappa. So that's that."

"Hmm," says Pappa. "Maybe if I sell house and go into old person's home..."

"No!" Vera and I call out in unison.

"Or maybe you two, Nadia, Vera, maybe to help one foolish old man..."

He is dearly troubled by the demand.

"No! No!"

"But if the matter goes to court..." I am thinking aloud, "what would the court award?"

"Well, of course they could award half the property," says Mrs Divorce Expert, "if he is the father of the child. If he is not, then I expect they would award little if anything."

"Don't you see, Pappa? That is why she is asking for the settlement now. Because she knows the child is not yours, and the court would award her nothing."

"Hmm."

"It's a crafty trick," says Mrs Divorce Expert.

"Hmm."

"I've got a good idea, Pappa," I say, emolliently topping up his teacup, "why don't we telephone Laura Carter and say you are happy to offer 20,000 in full and final settlement, provided she is willing to undergo a paternity test, at our expense of course, and provided the child is found to be yours."

"What could be fairer than that?" says Mrs Divorce Expert.

"What could be fairer than that, Nikolai?" says Mike. He has woken up and is standing in the doorway ma.s.saging his temples with both hands. "Is there any tea left in the pot? I feel a bit rough."

Father looks at Mike, who winks at him encouragingly and nods his head.

"Hmm. OK." Father gives a little shrug of surrender.

"What could be fairer than that?" says Ms Carter over the phone. "But...are you sure...?"

I look over at my father, frowning with concentration as he sips his tea, the paisley flaps of his nights.h.i.+rt extension only partly concealing swollen arthritic knees, scrawny thighs, and above...I refuse to imagine.

"Yes, pretty sure."

Stanislav led Dubov to Valentina. They disappeared together in the Rolls-Royce some time in the morning.

It is past midday by the time Dubov comes back, on his own.

He has a sombre look on his face.

"So tell us, where is she living?" I ask in Ukrainian.

He spreads his hands, palms up.

"I'm sorry, I cannot say. I have it in confidence."

"But...we need to know. Pappa needs to know."

"She is very afraid of you, Nadia and Vera."

"Afraid of us?" I laugh. "Are we so frightening?"

Dubov smiles diplomatically. "She is afraid of being sent back to Ukraina."

"But is Ukraina so frightening?"

Dubov considers for a moment. His dark eyebrows draw together in a frown. "At this time, yes she is. At this time, our beloved mother-country is in the grip of criminals and gangsters."

"Yes, yes," chips in Father, who has been quietly sitting in the corner peeling apples, "this is exactly what Valenka says. But tell me, Volodya Simeonovich, with such an intelligent type of people, how has this been allowed to happen?"

"Ah, this is the Wild West nature of the capitalism we are subjected to, Nikolai Alexeevich," says Dubov in his calm, intelligent-type voice. "Those advisers who came from the West to show us how to build a capitalist economy, their model was the rapacious type of early American capitalism."

Mike catches the words 'Americansky capitaleesm' and now he wants to get stuck in.

"You're right, Dubov. It's all that neo-liberal garbage. The crooks grab all the wealth, consolidate it into so-called legitimate businesses. Then, if we're lucky, some of it can trickle down to the rest of us. Rockefeller, Carnegie, Morgan. They all started out as robber barons. Now the sun s.h.i.+nes out of their million-dollar foundations." (There's nothing he enjoys more than a good political barney.) "Can you translate that, Nadia?"

"Not really. I'll do my best." I do my best.

"And there are those who argue that this gangster stage is necessary in the development of capitalism," adds Dubov.

"This is fascinating!" cries Vera. "Do you mean to say the gangsters were brought there deliberately?" (Either her Ukrainian is rusty, or my translation is worse than I thought.) "Not exactly," Dubov explains patiently. "But those gangster types who are already there, whose predatory instincts are held in check by the fabric of civil society, once that fabric is torn asunder, why, they flourish like weeds in a newly ploughed field."

There is something irritatingly pedantic about the way he talks, a bit like Father. Normally it would drive me up the wall, but I find his earnestness is engaging.

"But do you see a way out of this, Dubov?" Mike asks. I interpret.

"In the short term not. In the long term I would say yes. Personally, I would favour the Scandinavian model. Take the best from both capitalism and socialism." Dubov rubs his hands together. "Only the best, Mikhail Gordonovich. Don't you agree?"

(Mike's father was called Gordon. If there is a Russian equivalent, no one knows what it is.) "Yes, of course, you can do that in a developed industrial country with a strong trade union movement, like Sweden." (This is Mike's home turf.) "But could it work in a country like Ukraine?"